him Quintessensual With all the blathing of what he does and she does ans he does with or to her and she does with or to him, it was somewhat surprising to see this evening that neither her was blathed nor him. I've already done her. So here's a story to blathe him. It was just a whim for him to pick up a bunch of flowers while doing his daily shopping after work, but he did, even though he'd never done that before, he even didn't have a vase, he did need one for them, he thought, and then he saw out his rearview mirror a smiling face, he thought was pleasant, something he had not really felt before, and when they stopped for a stoplight he got out of his GMC truck, pulled open her door, to her shock, she said immediately she was not amused but stopped as he just thrust the flowers at her, as she thought "Oh, my gosh, I'm glad that was not him he did that with," and then he asked if she would like to have supper and watch world wrestling with him and she said "Oh, I am very tired, it was a long day but why not? Nobody, woman or man, has ever just given me flowers like you, sir. I usually need to grow them myself in my garden. Should we cook a dinner together before we watch wrestling?" and he said "Sure," and so she spent a nice time with him and even helped him pay the fine for blocking traffic at the green light then. 990927 ... Nate Higgins He is in pieces there Over here Everywhere Nickels bouncing clinking chips of teacups His footstep Flickering on the edge of memory Expected immediacy A stroke of fear Exquisite torture turns sour milk with a hint of bile Attachment chains with forgotten smells Transcendence boring forgotten Nirvana can wait After all nobody gets there too late Without conditioning duality Void Why move your head To see what you know He is in your bed Not in your bed And has just fucked you in the head 991030 ... andrea there's something about his face that makes me want to know more. to delve into all that is HIM would prove to be a much greater triumph than the fall of a kingdom. i want to know the jokes to tell to make him laugh and crinkle up his nose-creating dimples that could kill. anxious to learn the secret spots in his mind he shows few and the tender places within his heart he lets a limited number venture into. i want to see him as the freckle-faced boy he must've been. and as the wrinkled, grey old man i know he will one day become. thinking of his future, i wonder who will be the silver, aged woman rocking on the front porch next to him. copyright 1999 991229 ... Mika he walked into the world with a world in his hands never suspecting that he held my world and then he walked away 000306 ... the void tends to leave a ***mark*** 000422 ... daxle I expect him to be there when I wasn't going to be there for him until I was forced to be here, against my will. I think he just went for something to do and to be consentual. I know he will not have had a good time but perhaps will not tell me because I will tell him that I knew he wouldn't. I need someone to tell how I feel but he already knows and there's nothing he can do. 000908 ... butterfly without knowledge of me, my world, my dreams he came, pure and singing singing the sweetest music he came and pulled me away from myself 001004 ... one again He is the heat inside me....He burns my heart.....there is no silence anymore ....I can hear the heat rushing around my soul....sounds of air movement as breath escapes me 001031 ... j_blue he is gone, and i have thrown him out. he hadnt made me happy in such a long time, but now, he makes me sad, by not being around. 001031 ... Meara Dang it. She got strep throat, so now I have to go with HIM. Just looking at his face makes me feel sick. Now I have to spend an hour in a car with him, seeing him, and hearing him clear his throat like he always does, and worst of all, smelling him. A combination of horrible shaving lotion and unbrushed teeth. I really hate him sometimes... 010206 ... Chrity go to: i_have_words 010408 ... stargaze ...could care less haha. he'll miss me. 010422 ... m_e i think he may be perfect. exactly everything, but. . . and that's just it. it isn't it if there's a but. 010506 ... burden If he was perfect, would there be any chance of a but? Would the but ever erupt in your mind? Doubtful. We're all transient, anyway. We peter out, take our 49 days, and then reassemble once more to seek whatever it is we are seeking. People come; people go. Some people use their tools. Some people consciously stimulate the pustule of pity deep inside, only to take that for which they came and leave your body huddled and matted in shouts and fear. There is no him. Forget him. 010510 ... m_e there is a him. i just don't know him yet. i want that which i have found to be right; somehow it's not. that sucks. i don't have any logical reasons for it either. all reason points to him, yet i know otherwise. i guess i'll just have to wait a little longer. 010513 ... m_e i've changed my mind. he may be him. i will check it out and see. 010514 ... yoink What the fuck? fuckity fuck fuck fuckaroo 010514 ... burden No. There is no him. yoink has the right idea. Fucktastically fucky fuckness. 010514 ... m_e how about fuck both of YOU? 010515 ... m_e how about fuck both of YOU? 010515 ... yoink yoink! 010515 ... burden Apparently, someone has a stuttering problem. 010515 ... burden Oppirantly, semaune hes u stottarong prublam. 010515 ... burden .melborp gnirettuts a sah enoemos, yltnerappA 010515 ... burden Uhpairentlee, psummwun haz uh sstuddurring prawblem. Your task: find the silent 'p'. 010515 ... m_e psummwun. and, i know, i accidentally hit enter and clicked ‘blather’. you know what else? it bothers me when i can’t read what you write. what is up with that? 010516 ... ladybird I'd *like* to believe there's a him....but I'm not so sure. I think it's not that simple. There's lots of hims and none of them are exactly right but one of them nearly is. And in fact that's better than being exactly right cuz perfect would be boring after a while. Well, that's what I think anyway. I'll have changed my mind by tomorrow no doubt. It happens a lot. 010517 ... m_e two and a half weeks. this sucks. 010522 ... m_e we're eloping tomorrow. 010522 ... m_e gosh, he's great. he kisses my hand. how romantic is that? he watches me. he listens to me. ah! you know, when he told me he spent the day with her i died. but i can only believe that if we're meant to be, then that means nothing. she is nothing. gosh i can't stand that girl. 010528 ... burden I can't stand her either, even though I don't know who she is. 010528 ... m_e UPDATE: things are a ebbin' and a flowin'. i almost just made this huge mistake, but, oh no, he stopped by and now things are perfect again. gosh, he's such a great guy! i love the way he looks at me. he killed a bug for me too. now that's a man! hehe! 010610 ... florescent light I don't know if I miss his face or his touch or if I just miss him 010616 ... m_e we just said goodbye. he's so sweet. what am i to do? everything's going to change now. the moment i said "bye" things changed for forever. this sucks. i like where things are. i love how we are. i can stop crying if i force myself to see that things happen for a reason, and it will all be just fine. if it's meant to be it will be. i think i've said that enough. i'm completely drained. i just need to sleep. goodnight. goodnight him. 010617 ... Girl He means everything to me but he doesn't seem to care. He used to but not anymore. He's going away so he pushes away and it really sucks a lot... especially since I still love him. 010621 ... absent but still present so you visited him the other day...hhhmmm. and why is it that you have to end almost every e-mail you send me with the fact that you like girls and not guys? ok, so you're a lesbian. i got it the first time you told me. this constant repetition of fact just makes me think that you are trying to convince yourself. and quite honestly, it's getting rather annoying. 010717 ... m_e two months later, it's no good. things fall apart so quickly. i don't know so many things of which i was once so sure. i know that my pride gets in the way of reality. and reality is, he doesn't want to think about me let alone speak to me. what am i to do with that? i guess i should just move on and try to forget. i'll always remember, though. always. i miss him. i miss him and me. i miss him wanting me. the thing is, i never felt that thing, you know, for him. well, i did, but not deep down. he is perfect for me, though, so that out-weighs it. i always told margie that if i had to chose between true love filled with pain and deep love-filled friendship with contentment, that i'd chose the friendship. that was him. at least i was prepared. well, about as prepared as one can be. 010817 ... sage girl he is who i love red 010926 ... distorted tendencies Makes me heart leap, my stomach flutter. 010926 ... wounded do i blame him? wish I could... save your face ...from tainting would it matter if he went i think i could forget ...if you wanted me to let me know? i'll wait for you... 011003 ... Claire Him? A cheap cologne? I want him...irresistably sliding. I want her--different somehow. him is chest and father and eyes--all of a certain type of voice. him is warm. 011126 ... ClairE On blather they look like one person. 011218 ... Miffey I wished she still talked about me like that. 020102 ... little wonder starting to remind me of him don't let me wait that long though -no, not overly optimistic to the point it makes me sick no, not giving shitty advice everytime i open my mouth, not like him- but there is this lack of emotion and this tickle of repetition a ritual a habit? i have to do this so i will? making me feel like i'm not a person anymore? feeling like i'm not a person anymore... just becoming a something in your mind a something that can and will be there if you want but doesn't have to if you don't want becoming him or am i just afraid it will be another him i've known too many of them i'm tired of knowing what it feels like please don't be him please don't let me be her 020310 ... Casey The only thing I have to say is ASSHOLE! 020310 ... blown cherry is what I used to have him listed under in my phone. Fit in right after Hadley. He was a little perturbed(?) when he found it I think, if only because apparantly the bad guy in the powerpuff girls is called 'him'. He had his name before, but then I couldn't bear it anymore. Then I got to the point where I couldn't even bear 'him'. So now he's not there at all. But every time I see the numbers flash up on the screen they burn just as darkly into my skull as any random combination of letters would. 020310 ... jessicafletcher i met him when i was in the 8th grade,