last_night Aimee you said something that has my heart in my throat. I still can't believe you love me. *sigh* 010714 ... Aimee I had this dream that I died. When I woke up, I was almost sad it wasn't true... I got to see my grandpa... too bad I had to wake up. 010719 ... forever I cried my self to sleep. 010720 ... monadh northern_lights dancing on the horizon white green and blue quack of duck bark of dog song of creek whisper in the pines soft rippling waves upon the waters soft dreamy night out in the cool with a great big blanket of stars to keep us warm 010914 ... ClairE For the first_time I thought of you. 011205 ... she Last night I dreamt that you showed up. Instead of dreaming your selfish dreams, you fufilled mine. 011210 ... hey now! last night? i dont remember it. 011210 ... nemp i forgot to sleep 011210 ... nemo i forgot to sleep 011210 ... ClairE I never sleep at night. Last night I was talking and pretending to write my paper and was soon to go to bed. Tonight is better than last night. 011210 ... oren ...was the end of the world. 011210 ... girl_jane was my last chance... 020209 ... silent storm ...was torture. I'm aching for more. 020209 ... lady lunchbox i fell asleep on the couch. you carried me to bed, and then you kissed me on the forehead. i'll never find another man who will treat me so well. 020210 ... searching i realized that it was truly over...forever 020210 ... little wonder it's really amazing how much a good hug can fix everything even if it's just for that moment. 020407 ... smiths tape birdmad i dreamt... 020408 ... Syrope we were. 020408 ... sweetheart of the song tra bong she said "oh baby I feel so down" 020408 ... girl_jane My uncle died last night. I found out this morning. He was killed at work. He lost his footing on a ladder and didn't fall very far, but fell hard. I'm not sure if he broke his neck or died from a brain injury. My cousin, his daughter, is getting married in June. Another cousin of mine, his son, graduates this spring. My aunt, his wife, was just starting to gain control of her depression. The timing of his death couldn't have been worse. 020408 ... little wonder things surfaced that were there all along. everything is starting to piece itself together in my head but i still have little bits of debris that can't find their way. it was there all along. it was there and i knew it was there but something always made me deny that. something always made me ignore it. but it was there, and it is here, and i can't ignore it anymore and i'm not any closer to figuring out what i'm going to do. 020510 ... Freak last night....oh last night.....i remember...it was back when things were all fine and dandy. Not like this night. The night that I didn't want to see you, hear you, feel you touch me. How does that make you feel. Was it worth it. Is it all worth dealing with me and my mood now. On this night. I hope you had a great time ( sarcasm ) By the way, I knew it, i knew the answer as soon as he asked and you didn't respond. Im not stupid dumbass. If you didn't think I was you shouldn't have played me like it. 020605 ... the strokes "me, i ain't never gonna understand" 020605 ... emo It rained the clouds rolled in filled the sky and brought a thunderous boom which woke me from my sleep. the night air was thick moist and hot sheets stuck to my legs and twisted clothes made me feel uncomfortable Fan rocking spinning blades the breeze played with the curtains dancing with them up and down rolling over and over faint light outside breaking onto my floor, streaking. stars on my ceiling dreams in my head i couldnt sleep. never sleep. i hold my pillow tight and wait for the boom. the lights the electricity in the air the ions churning elctro charged atmosphere and the most invigorating night in ages. 020606 ... ~gez~ you came to pick me up at my house. i can imagine what you thought when you saw my scary outfit, hell i even scred myself. i am not sure what your mom thought of me, and when we got there nobody knew who i was. it was brilliant. i scared some random people, then came back to the front room, and there you were pigtails cropped blouse thing short skirt ..perfect body dancing away. you looked so good and i realised how brilliant you are. many people said to me that night i was lucky to have you, and you were really pretty, but they do not realise half of it. watching your body sway to the music, i wanted you so much. i still do and the memory will forver remain with me. later that night we sat and hugged. when my arms are around you my world knows true peace and i never want to let go. we kissed and it was great, as usual and people commented on how good we look together. i agree with them all the hardest thing.. to say goodbye 021006 ... devalis on the last_night let the first one live in your eyes give me one more chance to make it on the last_night can we stop before the love dies? whatever you do, don't let this be the last_night (Rockapella) 021006 ... GirlNamedLover I had a dream that we went to disneyland went on all the rides didnt have to wait in line I drove you to your house where we stared up at the stars I listened to your heartbeat as I held you in my arms 021006 ... isabella last night i dreamt a dream.we were walking by the deep blue sea, a cold breeze shivered up my spine, you held me close to keep me warm. the moon was shining so bright, brighter than the mid night stars. the stars were glowing in my eyes. we sat on the silky sand, holding each other, protecting each other from evil. your hands were softly flowing down my body, this feeling gave me butterflies in my stomach. our faces touched one another, you felt so warm, like a summers day. suddenly, our lips touched one another and we kissed.all i could see when i closed my eyes were sparks flying, when i opened them...you were gone 021016 ... silentbob last night was bad my doubts were all i had realizin i was alone tryin to think of someone to phone but no one came to mind bouncing_souls 021016 ... ~gez~ thankyou! i was trying to remember who sung "gone" for ages, so i could change the ID3V1 tag on my comptuer. thanks bobby :) 021017 ... DavesHeroinGirl Last night things were different. Maybe I'm crazy. Driving back from what is slowly becoming my home things would slip into my mind. Things that made me smile. It occurred to me you could may choose to grow distance now for whatever reason people grow distance after stuff like last night. And I hope this doesn't happen. My brain is screaming at me right now. The smile thoughts are turning to fear. Maybe I am crazy. 030125 ... mona loves you I didn’t talk to you last night We used to talk nearly every night, (until now) It was a given that I could just tell you my day and everything I felt without fear of judgment, (until now) Of course you could do the same and on many occasions you did, (until now) I told you a lot, (until now) More than even my best friends know, (until now) You got to know a side of me that I didn’t even know existed, (until now) So, I didn’t talk to you last night. The reason for that isn’t clear, but we both have a good idea why. What happened isn’t something that many will know about or anyone will make news with. It isn’t even that big of a deal… Except to me, (now) So because of the choices you made, the feelings you hurt, and emotions you toyed with, I didn’t talk to you last night. 030225 ... sirflaccid we were kissing like we used ot before things got cluttered and busy. i thought it weird that you ended the night by saying that sucked. 030225 ... Freak As I explained to you already. I wasn't saying that the kissing sucked. It was actually quite refreshing. 030226 ... Staind_And_Souless Something Amazing happened last night I learned how gentle a touch could be Learned how vision could fade into shades of white How one perfect night could set my soul free You smiled and said I really meant something to you Not just a one off, more than a fling And I'm so happy, because this time I know it's true And my heart can't help but sing I can't believe my luck to have found Someone whose eyes tell truth and not lies I'm not afraid to say 'I love you' this time around I'm only afraid of saying our goodbyes This time won't be like all the others I know you aren't just putting me to the test You will be the last of my lovers You are perfect and set apart from the rest Holding you and having to let you go is agony But I can sit here smiling and bide my time Because I know you'll be returning to me Something Amazing has happened, and now you're mine 030420 ... DavesHeroinGIrl I let go of just the right thing and felt completely in the way my soul intended. 030421 ... birdmad spaceships ain't never gonna understand 030421 ... emo last night we had sex... Then you rolled over and went to sleep. I don't want you and your small pe nis self anymore. see ya. 030609 ... silent storm i missed you. just like every night.. 030609 ... god more feldspar for rita! 030609 ... crimson I walked her home, down the driveway and up the steps to her front door, quickly taking my cue to exit; I was late for being anywhere but home, anyway. I wandered the neighborhood streets for hours, waiting. Dark changes things. It turns passing cars into sinister creatures, waiting to blind and judge pedestrians. It makes a person feel all the more empty and all the less self-aware. It makes one paranoid and relaxed. It further complicates the conundrum that is me. It was alright but lonely and extremely wet. No one even noticed I had left the house. 030830 ... my little secret He no longer regrets me. No longer regrets the precious hours when our skin formed against each other and mated with the sweat and blood. No longer regrets the heat and the passion with which we did those things to each other. We were never making love and he no longer regrets that. returns for a moment. 030830 ... Fudge ...i sat crying in front of my mum. i sat in tears. i sat there not able to stop crying. i couldnt stop. she was telling me about how she wanted to kill herself. how she wanted to throw herself off a bridge and let the water drown her. when i asked her if she thought about how it would affect all my brothers and sisters, she said nothing. so last night i sat in tears, literally on my knees asking her why? No one can help me, no one understands. 040727 ... sab busted now kisses for you 040727 ... love & hate last night you were in my dreams, as every other night. We had our own house last night, our own king size bed, ensuite, walk in wardrobe. We even had our own spa bath in the bathroom with two spare rooms. A living room with two double sofas so we never had to sit alone. It was such a lovely dream, a dream filled with hope of what could be. We just lied on the bed and talked in each others arms. The dream was ever so peaceful and made me feel like i was in heaven. Floating above everyone else. Just the two of us forever, in our own house. 040727 ... JustOnMonday last night was fun, I hope it didn't ruin what we don't have. 040805 ... confused0666@hotmail.com i was confused, what do you want from me? you say you love me but you don't want me. how does that make sense? do you even want to be in this relationship? i would give anything to stay with you but if you don't really want me then what's the point. Eventually, we'll go our seperate ways, the pain will be in still seeing you every day. Remembering what once was and what could still be if you can try to make it work.......... Please try, 040920 ... suicidalchinadoll not last night the night you convinced me you could love me check that you could stick around check that you could give a shit 040920 ... god yes, i was there. 040921 ... globalfruitbat ...I spoke to this really great guy I've met on the phone for three and half hours ...I was able to talk about you in the past tense to him. As in, I'm past you. ...I was excited about being with someone new, being with someone near and wonderful and funny Today...I have an e-mail from you and now everything hurts. 040921 ... tyler waters I hurt. Last night. Every night, it seems. I wake up and it's a fresh day. But the memory lingers on. And by the end of the day, it's just like last night 040926 ... Ivory It didn't really end. It just faded from night into morning, and I was still awake. I think it consisted of absinthe and other alcohol. It was a pleasant evening with less than pleasant company, but the movies were great. There are too many of those "last nights" that just fade away into "this mornings". I need to slow down a little, I suppose. It is just so hard when I'm only allowed to be young this one time. 040926 ... god i think i almost left you at the mall again. i think. 040926 ... Staind_And_Souless You weren't there. I thought you would be. I love you. 041028 ... BitterSweetDream Shame Twiney didnt show up last night. Its all you want. 041028 ... Staind_And_Souless I wnated several people there. I only needed one to be. Needless to say, my strawberry_girl didn't show. 041028 ... peyton What's coming through is alive. What's holding up is a mirror. But what's singing songs is a snake Looking to turn this piss to wine. They're both totally void of hate, But killing me just the same. The snake behind me hisses What my damage could have been. My blood before me begs me Open up my heart again. And I feel this coming over like a storm again. Considerately. Venomous voice, tempts me, Drains me, bleeds me, Leaves me cracked and empty. Drags me down like some sweet gravity. The snake behind me hisses What my damage could have been. My blood before me begs me Open up my heart again. And I feel this coming over like a storm again. I am too connected to you to Slip away, to fade away. Days away I still feel you Touching me, changing me, And considerately killing me. Without the skin, Beneath the storm, Under these tears The walls came down. And the snake is drowned and As I look in his eyes, My fear begins to fade Recalling all of those times. I could have cried then. I should have cried then. And as the walls come down and As I look in your eyes My fear begins to fade Recalling all of the times I have died and will die. It's all right. I don't mind. I am too connected to you to Slip away, to fade away. Days away I still feel you Touching me, changing me, And considerately killing me -h. 050902 ... pete definitely a good roommate hangout night... speculating about the new neighbours (across the street really)... adding new and exciting wall hangings to the living room with the goal of simulationg people, but with foam bloaks and ties... finding a new place for dionysus... trying out the poster phone by calling our other roomates, currently half way across the province... sharing a cigar and herbs (as in... real herbs from health food stores.. he made a dream concoction to smoke..).. the night before the last work week of summer... 050902 ... factory reject worked 10 hours with the concessions stand at a football game, and left sometime after midnight. Rather crazy over all, and the whole thing wore me out. Went home. Turned on my music. Fell asleep. Woke up throughout the night feeling drugged. I could hear the music playing, and wanted to get up to turn it down a bit, but I couldn't move. So I just lay there, and thought" hey this is a nice song" and wiggled to the music, before falling asleep again. It was so strange, notbeing able to move like that. 050904 ... Skitz Boogie ... no longer means what it used to. I can look back and smile, remember and buzz. I want to thank you and apologize at the same time. Thanks for the warmth and sorry it died. I was loving last night, not knowing this was my last night, I haven't reminisced so happily since. I can hope for another or cherish the memory. It's kind of like being caught in between another chance and the end of my youth. I'll remember and hope for another. Sincerely yours, Esperansa (hope) 050905 ... Skitz Boogie ... no longer means what it used to. I can look back and smile, remember and buzz. I want to thank you and apologize at the same time. Thanks for the warmth and sorry it died. I was loving last night, not knowing this was my last night, I haven't reminisced so happily since. I can hope for another or cherish the memory. It's kind of like being caught in between another chance and the end of my youth. I'll remember and hope for another. Sincerely yours, Esperansa 050905 ... Skitz Boogie She came to me in a feverish night of 98.7 degrees. If I didn't have a fever I must've been insane. My body tingled and my body was warm, my arms were heavy and I couldn't move. I opened my eyes in a haze of thoughts which I couldn't remember the next morning. My door was half open and she walked in, and she already knew. She sat down next to me and put her hand on my head. I tried to talk to her but I could only mumble. She told me not to speak, "it's okay, relax". She was so serene I could've cried, if only I weren't so numb. It is weird not being able to move like that, it usually scared me when that happened... sometimes apparitions make better friends. 050905 ... Skitz Boogie She came to me in a feverish night of 98.7 degrees. If I didn't have a fever I must've been insane. My body tingled and my body was warm, my arms were heavy and I couldn't move. I opened my eyes in a haze of thoughts which I couldn't remember the next morning. My door was half open and she walked in, and she already knew. She sat down next to me and put her hand on my head. I tried to talk to her but I could only mumble. She told me not to speak, "it's okay, relax". She was so serene I could've cried, if only I weren't so numb. It is weird not being able to move like that, it usually scared me when that happened... sometimes apparitions make better friends. 050905 ... no reason i went over to friction_girl's house and i liked her friends and her boyfriend and her roommate it's unfortunate when you feel guilty or strange for getting along with people 070325 ... oren ...alone, on our way home, you turned and said to_me, "I_love_you so, and I_want to know. What do_you think about me?" 091228 ... f_a was the second night in a row i had a bad dream. i think it was the bed. and we were wizards and there was a duel but mostly someone was just angry and used they're nails and someone's penis came off and then that girl from "clueless" was there trying to reattach it with tape. that was a big fail. and there was a lot of blood. 091229 ... meh their* 091229 ... TK I finely wrote you now I'm afraid to check my e-mail 140407 what's it to you? who go blather from