last_night Aimee you said something that has my heart in my throat. I still can't believe you love me. *sigh* 010714 ... Aimee I had this dream that I died. When I woke up, I was almost sad it wasn't true... I got to see my grandpa... too bad I had to wake up. 010719 ... forever I cried my self to sleep. 010720 ... monadh northern_lights dancing on the horizon white green and blue quack of duck bark of dog song of creek whisper in the pines soft rippling waves upon the waters soft dreamy night out in the cool with a great big blanket of stars to keep us warm 010914 ... ClairE For the first_time I thought of you. 011205 ... she Last night I dreamt that you showed up. Instead of dreaming your selfish dreams, you fufilled mine. 011210 ... hey now! last night? i dont remember it. 011210 ... nemp i forgot to sleep 011210 ... nemo i forgot to sleep 011210 ... ClairE I never sleep at night. Last night I was talking and pretending to write my paper and was soon to go to bed. Tonight is better than last night. 011210 ... oren ...was the end of the world. 011210 ... girl_jane was my last chance... 020209 ... silent storm ...was torture. I'm aching for more. 020209 ... lady lunchbox i fell asleep on the couch. you carried me to bed, and then you kissed me on the forehead. i'll never find another man who will treat me so well. 020210 ... searching i realized that it was truly over...forever 020210 ... little wonder it's really amazing how much a good hug can fix everything even if it's just for that moment. 020407 ... smiths tape birdmad i dreamt... 020408 ... Syrope we were. 020408 ... sweetheart of the song tra bong she said "oh baby I feel so down" 020408 ... girl_jane My uncle died last night. I found out this morning. He was killed at work. He lost his footing on a ladder and didn't fall very far, but fell hard. I'm not sure if he broke his neck or died from a brain injury. My cousin, his daughter, is getting married in June. Another cousin of mine, his son, graduates this spring. My aunt, his wife, was just starting to gain control of her depression. The timing of his death couldn't have been worse. 020408 ... little wonder things surfaced that were there all along. everything is starting to piece itself together in my head but i still have little bits of debris that can't find their way. it was there all along. it was there and i knew it was there but something always made me deny that. something always made me ignore it. but it was there, and it is here, and i can't ignore it anymore and i'm not any closer to figuring out what i'm going to do. 020510 ... Freak last night....oh last night.....i remember...it was back when things were all fine and dandy. Not like this night. The night that I didn't want to see you, hear you, feel you touch me. How does that make you feel. Was it worth it. Is it all worth dealing with me and my mood now. On this night. I hope you had a great time ( sarcasm ) By the way, I knew it, i knew the answer as soon as he asked and you didn't respond. Im not stupid dumbass. If you didn't think I was you shouldn't have played me like it. 020605 ... the strokes "me, i ain't never gonna understand" 020605 ... emo It rained the clouds rolled in filled the sky and brought a thunderous boom which woke me from my sleep. the night air was thick moist and hot sheets stuck to my legs and twisted clothes made me feel uncomfortable Fan rocking spinning blades the breeze played with the curtains dancing with them up and down rolling over and over faint light outside breaking onto my floor, streaking. stars on my ceiling dreams in my head i couldnt sleep. never sleep. i hold my pillow tight and wait for the boom. the lights the electricity in the air the ions churning elctro charged atmosphere and the most invigorating night in ages. 020606 ... ~gez~ you came to pick me up at my house. i can imagine what you thought when you saw my scary outfit, hell i even scred myself. i am not sure what your mom thought of me, and when we got there nobody knew who i was. it was brilliant. i scared some random people, then came back to the front room, and there you were pigtails cropped blouse thing short skirt ..perfect body dancing away. you looked so good and i realised how brilliant you are. many people said to me that night i was lucky to have you, and you were really pretty, but they do not realise half of it. watching your body sway to the music, i wanted you so much. i still do and the memory will forver remain with me. later that night we sat and hugged. when my arms are around you my world knows true peace and i never want to let go. we kissed and it was great, as usual and people commented on how good we look together. i agree with them all the hardest thing.. to say goodbye 021006 ... devalis on the last_night let the first one live in your eyes give me one more chance to make it on the last_night can we stop before the love dies? whatever you do, don't let this be the last_night (Rockapella) 021006 ... GirlNamedLover I had a dream that we went to disneyland went on all the rides didnt have to wait in line I drove you to your house where we stared up at the stars I listened to your heartbeat as I held you in my arms 021006 ... isabella last night i dreamt a dream.we were walking by the deep blue sea, a cold breeze shivered up my spine, you held me close to keep me warm. the moon was shining so bright, brighter than the mid night stars. the stars were glowing in my eyes. we sat on the silky sand, holding each other, protecting each other from evil. your hands were softly flowing down my body, this feeling gave me butterflies in my stomach. our faces touched one another, you felt so warm, like a summers day. suddenly, our lips touched one another and we kissed.all i could see when i closed my eyes were sparks flying, when i opened them...you were gone 021016 ... silentbob last night was bad my doubts were all i had realizin i was alone tryin to think of someone to phone but no one came to mind bouncing_souls 021016 ... ~gez~ thankyou! i was trying to remember who sung "gone" for ages, so i could change the ID3V1 tag on my comptuer. thanks bobby :) 021017 ... DavesHeroinGirl Last night things were different. Maybe I'm crazy. Driving back from what is slowly becoming my home things would slip into my mind. Things that made me smile. It occurred to me you could may choose to grow distance now for whatever reason people grow distance after stuff like last night. And I hope this doesn't happen. My brain is screaming at me right now. The smile thoughts are turning to fear. Maybe I am crazy. 030125 ... mona loves you I didn’t talk to you last night We used to talk nearly every night, (until now) It was a given that I could just tell you my day and everything I felt without fear of judgment, (until now) Of course you could do the same and on many occasions you did, (until now) I told you a lot, (until now) More than even my best friends know, (until now) You got to know a side of me that I didn’t even know existed, (until now) So, I didn’t talk to you last night. The reason for that isn’t clear, but we both have a good idea why. What happened isn’t something that many will know about or anyone will make news with. It isn’t even that big of a deal… Except to me, (now) So because of the choices you made, the feelings you hurt, and emotions you toyed with, I didn’t talk to you last night. 030225 ... sirflaccid we were kissing like we used ot before things got cluttered and busy. i thought it weird that you ended the night by saying that sucked. 030225 ... Freak As I explained to you already. I wasn't saying that the kissing sucked. It was actually quite refreshing. 030226 ... Staind_And_Souless Something Amazing happened last night I learned how gentle a touch could be Learned how vision could fade into shades of white How one perfect night could set my soul free You smiled and said I really meant something to you Not just a one off, more than a fling And I'm so happy, because this time I know it's true And my heart can't help but sing I can't believe my luck to have found Someone whose eyes tell truth and not lies I'm not afraid to say 'I love you' this time around I'm only afraid of saying our goodbyes This time won't be like all the others I know you aren't just putting me to the test You will be the last of my lovers You are perfect and set apart from the rest Holding you and having to let you go is agony But I can sit here smiling and bide my time Because I know you'll be returning to me Something Amazing has happened, and now you're mine 030420 ... DavesHeroinGIrl I let go of just the right thing and felt completely in the way my soul intended. 030421 ... birdmad spaceships ain't never gonna understand 030421 ... emo last night we had sex... Then you rolled over and went to sleep. I don't want you and your small pe nis self anymore. see ya. 030609 ... silent storm i missed you. just like every night.. 030609 ... god more feldspar for rita! 030609 ... crimson I walked her home, down the driveway and up the steps to her front door, quickly taking my cue to exit; I was late for being anywhere but home, anyway. I wandered the neighborhood streets for hours, waiting. Dark changes things. It turns passing cars into sinister creatures, waiting to blind and judge pedestrians. It makes a person feel all the more empty and all the less self-aware. It makes one paranoid and relaxed. It further complicates the conundrum that is me. It was alright but lonely and extremely wet. No one even noticed I had left the house. 030830 ... my little secret He no longer regrets me. No longer regrets the precious hours when our skin formed against each other and mated with the sweat and blood. No longer regrets the heat and the passion with which we did those things to each other. We were never making love and he no longer regrets that. returns for a moment. 030830 ... Fudge ...i sat crying in front of my mum. i sat in tears. i sat there not able to stop crying. i couldnt stop. she was telling me about how she wanted to kill herself. how she wanted to throw herself off a bridge and let the water drown her. when i asked her if she thought about how it would affect all my brothers and sisters, she said nothing. so last night i sat in tears, literally on my knees asking her why? No one can help me, no one understands. 040727 ... sab busted now kisses for you 040727 ... love & hate last night you were in my dreams, as every other night. We had our own house last night, our own king size bed, ensuite, walk in wardrobe. We even had our own spa bath in the bathroom with two spare rooms. A living room with two double sofas so