josh rsdio Absolut phenylephrine. 000111 ... Zoe the name of my boyfriend. well, actually my savior who i'm going to break up with in two weeks (if i can). it's not that i don't love him, i do. it is that i have gone out with him for two years and it is getting too familiar. damn him. why does he have to be so nice? he saved my life (i was about to kill myself), he rescued me from a bad relationship (i was getting abused), he even helped me quit drugs and cigarretts. god, he's a saint. i don't love him like i used to. i wish i did. i'm sorrey. 000717 ... stupidpunkgirl you looked good on the surface you are 20, i'm only 16 you're in a band and help with the record label you seemed emotional i got to know you you live with your parents you steal from your job you play so many video games and still not over your last girlfriend you promised things that would never happen you can't remember when you had your nipple pierced because you were so stoned you used to do cocaine you never graduated high school you took a part of me with you when you left. 001218 ... j_blue i am a josh i call myself joshy i am a doormat i think i am engaged to my exboyfriend 001218 ... Moe ...his name is Josh you should run 010324 ... punk i love this kid 010419 ... alegra there is a boy i know named josh. he makes my body shimmer and tremble and burn. and he's never even touched me. i want him to, though. repeatedly. 010419 ... the person behind the smile maybe i love him so what if he's different as long as he's not gay i dont care 010516 ... the person behind the smile yes...it is a couple weeks later and i have realized in this short amount of time that i am in fact in love with him..and he is in love with me. so why cant they just leave us alone and except that? i dont know. especially our parents, whom wont let us see each other. i want to run away, the parents wouldnt care much as long as they didnt have to see us together. my adrenaline is pumping...better stop before i kill someone eh? 010520 ... burden He's a fucknut. Much of my last day on earth would be spent doing bad things to him, often involving urine or Mace. 010520 ... redneckk or shit. 010521 ... burden It will be a long two years. 010526 ... yummychuckle He thinks I'm weird. So? Lots of people think I'm weird. I AM weird. But he says it like its a BAD thing. Sorry I can't be perfect. Or near perfect. I'm crazy, and just the fact that i care so much about what he thinks makes me crazier. I liked him first. but of course I screw these things up... anyway josh is...josh. 010602 ... Sheena my boyfriend. the one who is leaving at the end of summer but he knows i will always love him. ill never forget our memories and what all we've done. ill always remember those good times even the bad. although we didnt really have any bad times. u changed my life josh and i want to thank u for it. uve really helped me even though u didnt know it. i love u josh and dont ever forget it! love always ur gurl (sheena) 010627 ... Veronica The name of the man I love. I hope one day, Josh, you realize how much you really mean to me. I have said before "I love you" in past relationship.... But only to know now, that before you, I never knew love. When you feel true, its something never questioned or doubted. I feel true love with you. I love you. You are the love of my life. I will always love you.... I will Marry you... I will, and we will spend the rest of our lives together.. Just like I always dreamed... You are the not the person I want to marry because I can live with you, but you are that person because I can't LIVE WITHOUT YOU! 010924 ... Veronica Josh, I sit here waiting for you to come home. I miss you so much when you have to be gone. I don't know how much more of this I can take. I mean I am sitting here writing out to the world.. Not knowing if you of all people will ever see it.. I miss you .. I love you.. Please hurry.. 010926 ... bijou strange. that's him, talking on the chicago_payphone 010926 ... me where are you? 010928 ... ejo ...yea 011026 ... Josh Lamb My name is Josh. 011105 ... nocturnal is so smart. but he doesn't show off about it. he's one of the coolest, funniest guys I know. I miss josh. 011105 ... reitoei fat morbid bastard. hacking fingering pinging using windows ha ha al-ker-eeeeee band nerd. lazy. nincompoop. Use Linux. quit playing tribes 011106 ... me where are you ? 011203 ... ClairE Everyone is named Josh. I've known tiny quiet Jewish Joshs, athletic untalkative Josh, quirky Joshs and plain old fun Joshs, and a little curly_haired cherub Josh. Eh, it's a pretty good name. 011203 ... nympho maniac Okay so it isn't posssible that i could be a nympho maniac is it? That word: Maniac. Thats so scary to me. It that i like to have sex, like all the time. That doesn't make me a nympho it just makes me one horny fucking girl thats all! My boyfriend Josh is lucky, in a way i mean i guess i do lots of stuff to him that well........I just dream up out of nowhere, that i have been fantizing about all day long. Its too nice 011203 ... the week-long fling you said some nasty things, but you earned that right. you put up with my shit twice. i fucked you over, and i'm sorry. the second time was just a fling, something to take my mind off how much i missed him. and i didn't really lie to you...i just didn't want to hurt you more when we got home. 020101 ... miss.understood josh... hes going to take my virginity. i trust this boy. hes beautiful to me. inside beauty. wonderful... ill write more about him later... 020107 ... SuicidalAngel The name of this kid that I gave a ride home from work. This is before I knew him of course. He always says "hey hey, you gonna buy me some new shoes..?.. What'd ya get me for Christmas??.. Wanna go out..?" He'd be a nice kid if he wasn't so WEIRD! 020107 ... ellen cherry charles he thinks that i never loved him and that he's not good enough for me neither of which is true and i wish he'd just realize that i needed a change and i wish i didnt worry about his wellbeing so much and that i had conviction that he would be ok i was worried about being too comfortable, too dependent; i was worried about forgetting who i was. and so now im off on an intrepid search to find me, whether that's with another person or by myself...or who knows, ultimately back with him. I wish that he could understand these things but somehow my heart thinks that he never will and I'm sad for it. 020108 ... kdd sigh... 020210 ... misstree a demon prince, definately *not* the quiet, sweet type... not by most standards, anyway... our of respect for him, that is all that i will say... 020210 ... josh im smittn. mesmorized to nuttingness. hoping for everything&more no MORE. im slow. but im me. member im a wip (wrknprgrss). sht gotta go to store. bb4now. 020313 ... tiffany Fuck you, Josh. Josh who taught me everything I know. That sex equals love and respect and attention. That sex is number one, what fuels the relationship. That sex is all that's real, everything else is fake, existing only in those moments between tension and release. Fuck you. What you pried from my body, I now give freely to anyone who will take it. My mind, my heart, my body, for an hour, twenty minutes. Love for twenty minutes. But where is it? I looked and I looked. I thought I saw it, a million times, and then it dissapeared. And I only felt dirty and soiled. Wasted and used. Is that what you felt Josh? When you said, "I love you." Is that what you felt? Used? Was it only because you wanted someone to hold you? To love you? I only want to be loved. I try. I really do. Why don't they love me, Josh? Why don't they love me? I'm pretty, aren't I? Aren't I? And shouldn't that make them love me? It feels like they do. It feels like love. Pulsing and heated. Clinging and desperate. Like they need me. Like they need me to love them. And if they need me, Josh, isn't that love? And if they need me, why do they leave? Why do they always leave? And when they don't leave, Josh, why do I push them away? Why? Must I give it all away? To find the love I want? To find the love I need? Why did you take it away? Fuck you, Josh. Why did you take it away? 020325 ... josh words cant heal a broken heart unless the words themselves can convey true love. my only response to you is to offer an apology for somehow leading you on. if i have taken anything from you i give it back to you if you need it to repair your heart. it seems to me that when you love someone sometimes you must let them go and see if love (or fate) will somehow repair and make everything ok again. i hope it does. (if u will let me offer an excuse as to why i might have said "i love you" is that sometimes i try to kindle/light the fire (that spark) with words and see if the synergy of our interaction will continue the flame (of love) [eventually leading to "in love"]. i guess it didnt work :( also in a bigger sense the i do mean it as in "i love you and have that compassion" in that we are together in sufferings and such and hope we can make everything better even if its only for that night. do what is best for you. [sorry for the late response and also if im not the right josh. perhaps you take it in the best light for the right josh. :) ] i hope this helps. 020521 ... somedaysam are you talking about MY josh? the josh that lives in iowa and is in a band and i hate his girlfriend for the mean things she does to him and he loves her sooo much and she isn't worth a second of his time much less all the tears he's cried over her MY josh who is so wonderful and who i can talk to about anything and everything who tells me all i need is the air that i breathe and to love you that is our song MY josh who shouldn't get back with that scary bitch my josh who can sure turn trying on a pair of shoes into the most erotic experience of my life who wants to wear leather pants and flared pants who loves glam and my poems and me for who i am cause if you are talking about that josh you better be nice to him or i'll slap you around with a large trout cause all i need is the air that i breathe and to love him 020522 ... veronica can trust him 020624 ... nadine josh is the one who stands at the doorway by night, and has slid his way into you by morning. He is the one who never leaves, who begs you for more, begs for your adoration, begs you to stay, and fucks dirty whores in your car. he's the one who blinds you when he smiles and makes the past vaporize. leaving you with a vague memory of wrongdoing, but what-the-hell his hands feel nice they pull you to him. 020625 ... Taya i don't know whether to love you or to hate you. i love you with all of my heart, but sometimes, i