smoking Drennan My lungs feel like they've been through a cheese grater, I've given up but everyone around me smokes like chimneys. 991010 ... jennifer wisps of blue heathers gather around my face, making ethereal halos for all who pass by 991210 ... R.A.I.N. sort of like "On fire" or a good call. Insult after insult. Having an audience laughing at some one elses expense 991215 ... FooLmOOn the smell of it use to kill me inside, but now it reminds me of a friend, what can i say, things change. though it still makes my hair smell when shes around and she still takes away my trust, the smell always remains as do her memories in my head. 000116 ... Bethany Zozula when i smoke i know i'm alive because i can feel myself dying. 000120 ... apr!l i used to want to smoke because i thought it was just a life skill, like, something that everybody should know how to do....i never managed to muster up enough of anything to actually try, though...and that has made all the difference.....silly me, that's no life skill....death skill, mebbe.....hah! geez, how did i ever get to be sooo damn cheesy. 000305 ... kate i don't want you to be smoking, but you know what? I think that i like that about you. Of course, I don't want you to be smoking and killing yourself or whatever, but it's still true that it doesn't really bother me and i'll just joke about it as something to say to you and a way to get a smile. I was happy the first time we talked about you smoking, because i could picture that thing that happens with smokers where you are standing outside, talking about something deeper than it really is. a connection, perhaps. 001023 ... me I smoke and I hate it. I wanna quit but haven't really put an effort it to it. Maybe today I will or maybe I'll wait until tomorrow, or the next day. 010115 ... unhinged there is always tomorrow when you are trying to quit 010115 ... Tank i am on my tenth day clean of the buggers... i even went to a bar last night, got a bit drunk, and still managed to remain smoke free... needless to say, i am very proud of myself for ceasing to disappoint me... 010115 ... phil changes your body, which is always bad. 010424 ... Lucien "Smoked myself stupid and drank my insides..." and if one of you fucks ever sais Alk3 I think Ill just go off and...I dont even know what Ill do, just shutup and go watch mtv 010424 ... RAH hrmm smoking.. gotta give that up. some oine tried to stop me i resented the bastard for it.. now i drink and smoke myself stupid bcs of him. smoking makes me feel soo good. hrmm smoking gotta give that up one day. 011003 ... birdmad smoked myself stupid and drank my insides raisin dry 011003 ... ilovepatsajak in the sunlight, thick fingers, james dean, ashes on the dashboard 011004 ... satan satan satan if you smoke after sex that means you did it too fast and were not properly lubricated strip my gears and lick_my_christ, baby 011004 ... Norm I only smoke when I'm drunk or high. Hmmm I smoke alot. 011023 ... . : * p s y b o r g * : . Smoking is evil. I will never smoke. 011025 ... Sex edRix smoke in moderation (3-10 a day) 020209 ... unhinged they all did it. he eventually died from it. but it was the dirty incense of the middle class slob that i grew up with. the hacking coughs that covered up the morning birdsong; the many drives up the street to gastown to buy cartons of off brand cigarettes. my parents both quit. i always thought i would never start, but far away from disapproving eyes i found the hug that my childhood left behind. my crutch from the unfamiliar. from the legality of learning how to inhale, i found better drugs to smoke. my lips haven't touched a joint since friday. they are getting rather lonely. 020210 ... silentbob popes 020211 ... girl_jane I don't know, something about the fact that there's over 4000 ingrediants in one cigarrette just doesn't make me want to smoke. Or maybe it's the fact that some of those ingrediants are the same chemicals found in jet fuel, rat poison, finger nail polish remover, pee and poo, and that if you put one cigarrette in one cup of water for 24 hours that that water would kill anybody who drank it. Yum. Phillip Morris is my best friend. 020211 ... carne de metal cant stop smokin'! 020211 ... distorted tendencies suppresses my appetite, if i quit, i'll start eating more and gain weight. :( and i only smoke cloves 020211 ... thugstylez Its not the nicotine that keeps me coming back. Its the boredom and my lack of social skills thats turnin my lungs black. 020227 ... phil Ok, lol, oh shiznut. ha ha ha ha....exlaims in laughter....ok ok ok so...hu hu hu..what you're saying, is, (tries to restrain laughter) that you think HAHAHAHAA...mumble...that if you put one cigarette, in a glass of water.. Heehee for 24 hours, and then drank it (pauses to refelect) it would kill you? What the ****. You believe that? 020228 ... comeonnight i've met my match stinging sulphuric bitter proceeds the hurt so good it hurts tempting fate so effectively that she gives up non not un intentionally poking holes in my life rind "and this is your lot" dwindle, disintigrate, deceptively rot please stop killing me you are perfect for me 020304 ... unhinged it backfired i knew that it would she would be mine again and i sat in her truck with her parked in the stoner lot smoking 020304 ... dionysos “Smoking is indispensable when one has nothing to kiss.” --Freud 020306 ... god you'll love it, it's a way of life. 020406 ... exiria_malice i miss it now, after one week of not smoking. i don't need it, not like the pull of addiction. it's an oral fixation, really (go ahead, snicker). i've sucked my thumb since i was in the womb, and when that started making my husband uncomfortable, even though i only did it around him and me and noone else, i went back to the cigarettes. i feel ill at ease without my thumb or a smoke in my mouth. can't seem to find a comfortable way to sit. always eating (like i'm not fat enough now). i wasn't feeling very good after a smoke, so i stopped. but now i regret it. heh, how often does a person reqret quitting. i've never found a proper replacement. almost put my thumb in my mouth today at work, it's so bad. chewing gum doesn't help. ah, fuck. i guess i'll keep at it and stay a nonsmoker, it makes Pet proud, and that makes me happy. i don't want him smoking anyway, and if I start, then he won't have any reason to keep trying to quit. 020901 ... HairThief If people want to smoke let them, as long as they are aware of the consequences. In today's world if anyone is not aware then they are living in a cave and probably unable to get cigs anyway. Argue all you want, smoking is relaxing, smoking is addictive and holding a cig in a pub normally has that "cool" look. annoyed non smoker goes up to smoker to complain - "i'm getting a lot of secondary smoke from you" smoker replies reassuringly "Don't worry mate, you can buy me a drink later" 020901 ... sylvia plath a hot yellow flame jumped into life, and i watched her suck it up into the cigarette. 020912 ... m i want to smoke to relieve my stress... recommendations flow in from friends about cloves versus regular cigs and it just doesn't seem worth the trouble.... you can't even smoke in buildings anymore... do i want to be stuck standing outside buildings alone feeding a stupid addiction or is it worth it for the insane amount of stress i'm under? 021015 ... Freak i_want_to 021015 ... jane i've been smoking all day 021015 ... ani i got tossed out the window of love's el camino and i shattered into a shower of sparks on the curb. you were smoking me, weren't you, between your yellow fingers. you just inhaled and exhaled without saying a word. 021121 ... quissmo everyone smokes where i live. shit, i think this country probably has one of the highest smoking rates around. i think its funny, especially in school. theres the little 'smokers area' outside. i dont get why they do it though? i mean, most of the people i know only started because all their friends were doing it. sorry, but i think thats kinda pathetic. ive tried it, i dont see whats so great about it, all you do is end up smelling kinda like an ashtray. and my school is full of dorky/nerdy people. and you see them all go outside to smoke, and they think they are 'so cool' because they can smoke. shit, that makes me crack up. it makes them look worse in my opinion. trying to look cool by smoking when you're not. but hey, its not my problem(well, it might be actually =P). all it does is make my economics classes more intersting when the teacher makes fun of all the smokers in my class. 021203 ... wonder they ask if i've tried it, and i dither, hesitating to answer. is it because i'm weak that i don't want them to know i haven't? pathetic. something deep in the back of my mind knows that naivety isn't a fault. but something at the front which doesn't like to be disagreed with has its own flighty ideas and fears. i can't choose which one to listen to; the loudest always wins. i want to fight but i can't. i answer in barely a whisper and completely devoid of confidence, expecting laughs. i read somewhere that what you expect, you tend to get. i shrink even more, and that loud, controlling part of my mind that was so eager to advise my decisions abandons me and joins the laughing ranks. i leave, in the hope that i will be able to hold a conversation with that quiet but steady voice that in tranquility may be heard before the powerful one returns. hopefully it'll reassure me, gently aid me, and we'll have reduced the other to something laughable, a symbol of idiocy, before it comes back. which it does quickly now, inducing insecurities and that feeling of aloneness. showing his crafty side he gains control with panic; amidst my mind's cries of terror, i can no longer hear my saviour. i falter, lost again. 030316 ... sylphide *sparks up another* 030430 ... trixie I feel like shit so I smoke. I feel worse so I smoke again. I smoke again. I light the tiny white stick again and watch the cherry glow. I feel terrible so I light it again. I light it again. I light it again. I am trying to find the reason why I lit the first one. I light it again. I feel like shit. So I smoke. 030430 ... jane makes my hands cold 030430 ... unhinged 'where you drinking when it happened?' 'no' 'where you smoking when it happened?' sigh 'yes' 'cigarettes or something else?' 'cigarettes mom.' 'ok. ok.' this is the reason i have anxiety attacks in the first place. it's funny that when it happened i thought to myself 'thank god i haven't done any drugs tonight' 030501 ... Grace my Mother's addiction.. and worse things Looks nice in film noir..tho.. A killer.. i only smoke fake ones.. 030502 ... bearly recoverd and still not the same I quit every time I put out my ciggerett...and I'm suisidel every time I lite up a new... life sure is funny sometimes even when I'm emotionally crumpled and look like shit,crying my ass of caus he treated me like i wasnt worth it.i scream in frustration and beg on my knees,beacuse if I'm really no one, than whos gonna love me?Then I tear out my hair for thinking that way, of course i'll find some one...just not today....my mind whirls in circles and starts tantrums anew, and when i'm too petheticly tired from being pethetic little me..i lie on the floor, my hair matted and ruind, tears smeard my make up, so i look fucking stupid. no wonder you