peyton_and_rhin peyton What are we.. exactly.. Rhin and I? I know how Rhin is when she wants to blather something.. she carefully lays it out in the air in front of her before she speaks.. making everything perfect. So I, will say what I feel, to you, fellow blathererererers, because I just go with what I feel.. And about this.. I feel so much. In the past two days, Rhin and I have spent about sixteen hours talking over the phone. We've shared sex, life, religion, the glory of confectionaries, pain, faith, and hope. I've fallen so hard, so quickly for someone with whom I've never shared a touch.. I used to be able to take anything on, alone. My words, in real life, are bloodied razors, cutting into the flesh of those who would dare intrude upon me.. those would hurt me, those whom I fear, those whom I crave.. those who would dare to venture to my great fortress in my head. I've constructed thousands of encircling burning walls.. burning with hatred.. bitterness.. fear.. loathing.. longing.. jealousy.. they consume me.. I burn in them.. on them.. I feel the turrents burning into my skin.. the ramparts melting my features into slime.. These are the depths from which I feed, the well from which I can pour burning rage on those who come before me. But Rhin.. has quelled the fires.. she's braved the inferno.. and she stands before the gates of the keep. Dear God.. I've dared to venture out of my tower.. I've let myself succumb to her calls.. like a sailor to the sirens.. I see the walls quench themselves.. hissing in the brine of her loving rain. They hate her. They try to burn her from me.. to coiterize the depths of which she's inserted into my being. But they are powerless. I love her more than them. I'm tired of my burning maidens in the walls.. I want her.. I want to consume her in me.. taking her hurt and breaking it with my own.. Wrapping my wounds onto hers, to make the bandage of an archangel.. I cannot explain to you why I feel this way, except that I've been searching for Rhin my whole life. I've searched the gutters of the city, in the shallow pits of despair in the countryside.. all trying.. with broken and bloody fingers to try to pull from someone, something to stop my bleeding. I'd given up. I'd admitted defeat in the face of my enemies. I'd assumed the throne in my fortress of brimstone, and waited the final hours in which I would be consumed utterly by my own agony. And she softly tapped me on the shoulder.. and I'd never seen her.. but I knew who she was.. And she told me that she'd been looking for me. And I was terrified. She'd made it to me.. my soul.. in my veins.. tasting me from the inside.. craving more as she pulled the misery from my chest.. with having no intent to harm.. she'd walked past the gates with a brush of her hands.. And I will always love her for it, as I do now. I love you Rhin.. please don't let go. I bet you guys never saw this coming.. I know I didn't.. :) 010124 ... ... And to think that a couple of short weeks ago she was exchanging phone calls, chat, and original sex stories with Barrett. And I quote, "her lips wrapped around Barrett's cock..." and signed "You're my bear, I'm your Si-Rhin". He does kiss and tell. 010124 ... tourist Oh my god! I guess we should get ready for another Scorching rant about $1,500 phone bills! Should we start the collection now, or wait for the whimpering to start? Rhin, Rhin, (clucking noises) When will You Ever Learn? If You are going to continue to be the Goddess Of Compassion, You should seriously look into an 800 number. We still all love you, But.......(sigh) Rhin..... 010124 ... peyton And to think that a couple of short weeks ago she was exchanging phone calls, chat, and original sex stories with Barrett. And I quote, "her lips wrapped around Barrett's cock..." and signed "You're my bear, I'm your Si-Rhin". He does kiss and tell. I wish I you'd have left a name for me.. it makes me truly wish that I could know who you are.. I want to thank you.. whoever blathed this. I want to thank you for showing me how strong Rhin and I are now.. showing me exactly how far her and I have risen above the world.. above the filth that would bring us to our knees. I can picture my arms wrapped around her, as we float away.. Y'see, I need people to make flashes in the pan below me, just so I can have a reference to exactly how far her and I have gone together. Without hearing what you wrote about Rhin, and Barrett, I would have never known. I would have never had this realization of how much I truly do mean what I wrote.. how bonded her and I are already. I'm sorry for you that your blathe didn't have the desired effect. On the contrary, it let me stay with her for just a few sweet moments longer yesterday; another debt I owe to you, my silent benefactor. ::sigh:: Will fate not stop playing into my hands.. I'm guessing you are in a relationship with Barrett. If so, why hurt him by spilling out his secrets onto this place.. why defame him at the same time you try to injure my Rhin and I? Focus your energies on him, and I think you will find the hatred you have will subside a bit at least. So thank you again.. you've driven my Rhin and I even more closely together.. I owe you one.. 010124 ... Thyartshallshant Actually, peyton, i saw this coming. Wrenna (hehe) talks so fondly of you. She's such a cool person and i can only hope the two of you the best... *tears* No, I'l be ok. I can handle this. It's just so... sooo... beautiful!! 010124 ... silentbob she never told me her first name See, i wanted to know who the triple period person was too because i tried to write him/her but they didnt leave an address, so it went to another one who had the same name, almost as if it were the same blatherer. it just wasnt so. 010124 ... peyton Bob! Thy! WHY THE HELL WON'T EITHER OF YOU CONTACT ME ON MSN OR SEND ME AN EMAIL?? ::pouts:: 010125 ... Sintina **applauds** There is a heaven and there is cause for all my faith in such things that most people don't believe in!!! Rhin! If I could only talk to you, to tell you of the Peyton I used to know! To tell you of the crushed and tortured soul that I in my fruitless efforts tried to free from those same burning walls! Thank you! Thank you Rhin! You have shown me that the fight was not hopeless, ever! That somewhere inside the vast parching pain of Peyton the shining drop of romantic beauty that he once showed me is still there! And you brought it out! Don't take it for granted girl! You must have some idea what you have accomplished. Congratulations and thank you, thank you, thank you! My friend, my beloved friend Peyton is saved. **overcome with joy** E-mail me sometime Rhin, I'd love to communicate with you one on one. 010125 ... peyton I love you Rhin. 010125 ... Thyartshallshant I don't have msn! I have icq and aim. I don't know why i haven't emailed you. Why haven't y o u emailed me? hehe. 010125 ... Rhin I love you too Peyton I know you can't live without me, and I can't fathom breathing without you. I don't even want to attempt it. We are intertwined, you and I...these two amazing souls, that were drawn together like magnets. We had been searching for the other - for so long - walking circles around each other - oblivious as to the other's presence. We were right there the whole time. All we really needed, was a little flip... Promise to never slip through my fingers baby... ...and I will promise to always take on your fortress I love you... a thousand times over I do! 010125 ... Rhin My Peyton is in love with me! ...with me! ...me! 010125 ... Rhin Imagine me and you, I do I think about you day and night, it's only right To think about the girl (or guy) you love, and hold her tight So happy together If I should call you up, invest a dime And you say you belong to me, and ease my mind Imagine how the world could be, so very fine So happy together I can't see my lovin' nobody but you For all my life When your with me, baby the skies'll be blue For all my life Me and you and you and me No matter how they toss the dice , it has to be The only one for me is you, and you for me So happy together So happy together How is the weather So happy together We're happy together So happy together Happy together So happy together So happy together The Turtles - Happy Together 010129 ... Rhinna I love you baby... 010226 ... peyton and I love you.. muffin :) 010226 ... florescent light I hope that was a cranberry muffin hold up.. I'm starting to feel nauseated 010227 ... florescent light I can't be the only one... 010227 ... ella no, we're all quite nauseated 010227 ... peyton I still don't understand why people insist on lashing out at us.. why can't you just be happy for us and let it go? Why must you tell us about your nausea? Such things do not concern me, what concerns me is the way Rhin's hair smells, the way she laughs.. the way I feel when she calls and wakes me up. Simple things.. that's all I need. I don't need comments like 'we all are nauseated'. Can't you see that I can't even understand what you mean? Can't you see that Rhin and I don't want to understand what you mean? We are going to be happy, whether you fine fine people out there care or not. If you'd like to be happy with us, and perhaps attend our wedding and dance with either me or her (or both) at the reception, then be nice. If you don't, well, all it's going to do is illustrate how miserable and wretched you are, and you are gonna miss out on free cake and cookies at a keen party after Rhinny and I tie the knot. Being mean to us, is only going to affect you.. Rhinna and I aren't going to even be affected by it.. I only write this now, as a courtesy to those who feel like they are so jealous that they feel sick by our love. That's sad.. it makes me feel sorry for you.. But if sadness is what you are striving for, please.. by all means carry on. But at least have the respect to keep it off our pages.. that's just courtesy. If you want to drink lighter fluid and piss fire, as long as you do it in your lead-lined bathroom, I really could care less. Just keep it away from us. We don't want to hear your complaints about how in love we are. You could only be so lucky as to be where we are. G'night! 010227 ... Rhinna I agree with Peyton 100%! (Thank you baby!) To those who show disrespect, please consider this: This page...our pages, or wherever we happen to exchange our feelings for each other, is such a small part of Blather. We should be so easy to over-look, for those of you who choose to. There are so many topics here, from which to choose to blathe about, so if you actually take the time and energy to respond to our blathes, then it is your problem that we have gotten your attention, not ours! I have been writing here on Blather for quite some time, and this is where I met Peyton...the man I fell in love with...the man I will spend the rest of my existence with, so give us a break please... We deserve at least that much respect. Everyone of you should only be so lucky to have found your soulmate, the way that we did. It's amazing...we're amazing, and we will never apologize for it. So, nauseated or not, Blather belongs as much to us, as it does to you! Focusing on us, is not important. What you need to concentrate on, is what it is that brought you to Blather... 010228 ... twiggie i'm happy for you two :) Congratulations! 010302 ... deb hey hey! when's the wedding? or is there one? were you just ranting? i dont know- if you're not really getting married now, that's all good too- i just know it's fun being engaged, even when your other half is a day's drive away- don't worry about them, guys. you two have the right stuff- but don't steal my day! August 11, 2001! hugz-n-kisses! 010302 ... Rhinna Twiggie & Deb, Thank you so much for your support. It really means alot to us. We are truly in love & definitely engaged. Our wedding will take place mid-September. :-) Congratulations to you Deb, on your engagement! Please accept my sincerest wishes - for a wonderful future, to you and your husband-to-be! :-) 010305 ... chanaka this is truly amazing. enjoy your love and best of luck. quite a solution to the phone bill, eh? :) 010305 ... Rhinna Chanaka, The solution indeed! :-) Thank you so much for your kind wishes! You are so very sweet... 010306 ... kx21 My lastest finding and wildest idea:- Refer to Bill Clinton, our Grand Master of Morality... 010307 ... Lindsey There is nothing like watching two people fall madly in love, becoming a smudge on the wall only an arm's length away. Did they watch me fall in love this way? Will they watch me fall out of love in the same fashion? 010402 ... unhinged it belongs to them as much as it belongs to me? it belongs to me? since when has blather belonged to anyone, any single word of it? maybe love is great but i wouldn't know and i didn't ask for your pity. this time of year, all the love birds on their afternoon strolls kissing professing wildest and undying love...it all makes me sick. oh i'm happy for you. cool you met on blather and are actually getting married. i hope every day is as filled will love, sloppy and otherwise, as your posts here suggest. 010402 ... Dafremen Hear hear! My sentiments exactly. When your "fantasy" relationship has lasted say..5 years, THEN start yakking about soulmates and your eternal and undying love for one another. I mean, granted you're certainly free to drip sappy sentiment all over the place to your heart's content, but for GAWD sake don't even ELEVATE it to the status of something REAL that's worthy of our respecting and tiptoeing around. You're not morons(Ok so I'm GUESSING there), how many people do you think have "found their soulmates" online? You think this is rare? You think that it takes some MAGICAL chain of events to bring two affection/attention/understanding starved slobs together online? Trust me it's NOT rare, it happens all the time, has been happening for DECADES. Having been online for 23 years, I've seen more online relationships form and go under than I care to count. Hell I've been IN more than I can count on one hand. Like all relationships, the vast majority of them can't pass even the SIMPLEST test: the test of time. But it ALWAYS feels like LOOOVE. Naivete' is not a lifestyle people, don't make it one. IF you guys make it, then congratulations, I wish you all the best. Just don't expect ANYONE to "respect your space" or take your "thing" seriously until you've demonstrated over YEARS that YOU take it seriously. - - 010418 ... dannyH Congratulations. Will you set up a computer at your wedding so we can all come? 010521 ... ass facely squillo is a word that always stumps me, because for some reason it has middle-eastern connotations for me, it's like someone says, "you get squillo" and i start smelling incense and seeing turbans and camels or something, i know i'm weird, i know i'm stupid, please just ignore me. 010521 ... Rhinna Peyton, I hope you see this... I'm having trouble receiving honey. I received your two, but now I keep getting error messages. Grrrrrrr! This is not good! I will keep trying though. Maybe they are updating? I love you I love you! 010814 ... jester Defremen, BOY are you right. 010823 ... Dafremen Yea... They're lovestruck starry-eyed nitwits alright, but I've decided that this is THEIR little space, a spot for them to o0ze sweet nothings into each others' ears. Besides, they've got enough folx persecuting them as it is. It's one thing to slap folx around in a thought provoking way, when the intent is not to harm, but tormenting people for it's own sake is not my style. (Ok so there WAS Dog_boot_company , but I digress) As I said above, if they can stick it out and make it work, I wish them all the best, and I don't think that a few blathers ( peyton rhinna peyton_and_rhin ) full of their sentimental claptrap will hurt me (or anyone else), and it could mean the world to two blatherskites with nowhere else to gush at each other. (Typical Libra, always thinking of the underdog. Gawd I'm a sucker.) 010824 ... Rhinna dear god help me... it hurts the end. 011110 ... peyton we were joined then we are joined now we will be joined then We will never be broken. 011217 ... blatherskittles never broken? what happened to you guys? 020517 ... Rhin we are still joined...unbroken. however, it is something different, but nothing less, that holds us together now. i will never stop wanting to know him and i will always love him. i consider him a part of my family now. i never want him to go away. 020517 what's it to you? who go blather from