what_would_you_do_if_you_werent_afraid Piso Mojado solbeam's constant questioning of self- daily reminder of possible empowerment over fear i try to answer it often 040503 ... Piso Mojado i would look everyone in the eye, smiling. i wouldn't be scared of what to say or how to react 040503 ... Piso Mojado i would treat friends/family/strangers with the great respect they deserve 040503 ... Casey I would strip naked and curse. 040503 ... Borealis I would admit to myself what it is that I lack.. and walk away from my past 040504 ... kookaburra I would be me. I would be the wild and crazy girl that i used to be. the unselfconscious one. i just hope i can find her sometime soon. 040505 ... nomme i'd go for midnight walks in the dark woods 040505 ... minnesota_chris date apply for jobs go teach abroad 040505 ... thieums I would go the the crazy guy asking questions over the bridge in that Monty Python movie (Holy Grail)... Hope he doesn't ask me about the capital of Assyria, however. 040505 ... mous I would tell him what I think, as well as what I feel. And without apologies. 040505 ... Piso Mojado i would stop driving and ride my bike instead 040507 ... Piso Mojado i would stop labeling people and relationships (open up to possibilites unhindered by the definitions of my mind) 040507 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl try new things be a proper wiccan 040507 ... PrincessParanoia i would dance 040507 ... stork daddy i don't know. become a trucker? move somewhere to be mendicant? 040507 ... Deomis I would reach for the unobtainable Knowing that I would fall short. I would tell you the truth Not caring if you don't feel the same way I would reach for the stars And finally achieve my dreams 040507 ... stork daddy it doesn't seem to matter much, since i am afraid. 040507 ... ethereal fly. 040507 ... ivyducktwilightseto finally kill myself in the dark with bugs crawling all over me aside from that, kiss a beautiful woman I don't know in public, streak through the school, skidive, you know, all things wussasses don't do. Whatever, I'm out 040508 ... pete be there 040508 ... Lint Lover Knock on your front door and tell you how much and for how long I have loved you. I would go on television and broadcast to the entire world that you are my only love. I would stand on a stage and play guitar,like you do,so that I would finally understand what it's like to see your name on the marquee. I would stop hiding from you and let you love me back finally. 040527 ... puredream Let you see me. 040527 ... ethereal learn freely. work. breathe. 040527 ... DaMon. What would I do if I wasn't afraid? I'm already doing it. Does that mean I'm not afraid? 040528 ... minnesota_chris ethereal/magicforest, what would you learn? 040528 ... ethereal ethereal is not magicforest? 040528 ... minnesota_chris oops. What would you learn, ethereal? 040528 ... dosquatch I'd be standing in the bushes, under her window, reciting poetry. Or in the middle of her front yard holding a boom-box over my head. Or standing with her on the bow of a ship, learning to fly. I'd be jousting windmills, stealing stars, carving her name in the moon, catching unicorns, bottling rainbows... I'd be on my knees in front of her, pledging my heart forever. And you said no. 040528 ... puredream wow. i want to be her. 040528 ... ethereal I would learn of myself, and others and the beautiful delight of the world. I would learn everything I possibly could about everything and then learn it differently. I would learn life. 040528 ... shivers i dont know i just dont know 040528 ... mood ring i would have declared my love for you, irregardless of the fact that you would have rejected me because of your godawful friends. because then you wont become something i should have done like i know you're going to become. but i guess there's still time. and im going to do it. im going to write it in your yearbook, and im going to ignore all of the looks of the people im sure you'd tell, and i'll ignore leah's gloating that she got the one i still like. cuz you wont be the one who got away. 040529 ... Piso Mojado i would love you the way you deserve to be loved. i would allow you to love me to the extent i also deserve. i would believe in 'all_we_have_is_now' 040529 ... . . 040529 ... skinny go swimming by my self 040530 ... the nights child I'd leave you 040531 ... notme self_portrait_falling_off_a_cliff 040531 ... mous I imagine I would kick ass on 'Fear Factor' 040531 ... pete leave, breathe, stop sleeping 040531 ... n/a My entire middle school class would be dead today. 040531 ... JdAwG I'd tell you how much you truly mean to me. 040601 ... seventeen go to more parties. 040601 ... nib dance naked across the skies 040601 ... devalis I would say what I feel and not care what he thought. 040601 ... witchesrequiem Who said I was? 040602 ... :) Man_talk / Woman_Nag 040602 ... megan publish a book buy clothes online date other people plan those dates ride roller coasters stop my summer job and just have the summer off stop talking to puffycloud believe in myself make and keep new friends lay out on my front lawn tell everyone exactly how i feel (figure it out first) 040602 ... anon. ask just who the frick you're talking about so i can either move on or let myself free. 040602 ... pete speak when the band stops playing 040607 ... ferret sing out in the streets hug all the random strangers with conglomerate businesses in their eyes teach the world about love rename myself 040622 ... chloeNtheSUN i'd to talk to everyone. i want to have meaningless conversations with the man in the elevator. 040622 ... chloeNtheSUN Do I dare Disturb the universe? In a minute there is time For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse...eliot 040623 ... love & hate I would come find you, take you in my arms, and ask you to forgive me, I would give you the world, I would give you my heart, I would give you my soul, I would give you my life. I would offer you an eternity with me. Just the two of us. Always. And if you said no, I would ask for the strength to take my life for it is not worthy if you do not want me. 040623 ... baka i would let myself love 040623 ... cinzento I'm not. 040623 ... .... Start a new life.. 040623 ... junk be a little more outrageous write more dance more love more never again hesitate 040623 ... witchesrequiem It's not really a matter of fear... It comes down to not wanting to disapoint someone else..or make their life hell b/c I wasn't afraid to tell it like it is. 040624 ... witchesrequiem or for that matter put someone else in a weird position..... for example.. I tell my good friend "I have loved u since we were kids." If he does not feel the same for me he would be backed into a corner..and turn red. I'm not afraid, I'm afraid for him.... I know I have nothing to really lose..other than say a fantasy I entertain. So it is not about fear really.. I am afraid of the whole alien thing... but fuck it..take some kick boxing or keep a hand full of pills around and screw it...maybe a loaded gun..if you can't kill them u can kill yourself... Death not afraid.... pain, not looking forward to. whatever.. 040624 ... pete i'd take your hand, and hope that the smile and eye contact doesn't break 040624 ... spiffy i would be free. 040624 ... puredream Ask you everything I possibly could. Know your soul. Oh wait? I already do. I would... fly to you. 040624 ... kx21 PCA:- proper_propaganda:- http://slate.msn.com/id/2102859/ It delighted me; it disgusted me. I celebrate it; I lament it... Michael Moore's Fahrenheit_911 040624 040624 ... nonlucid live freely 040718 ... Piso Mojado take social initiative 040719 ... kookaburra isnt it sad? i didn't do it. i am pathetic 040816 ... pipers afraid wasn't the question then....too shy was. 040817 ... Piso Mojado live as if the day were my last, as if there was no tomorrow, that there's no_time_but_the_present 041116 ... sab everything i do now, jsut be less jittery about it. 050518 ... cheers smile. ^live^ life. learn backflips an frontflips and fun stuff like that. flip and laugh, handstand, and do fun things like...become a ninja! and be sneaky like that. *perhaps getting my head out of the clouds wouldn't be a bad idea, either* to travel, to love, to live, to stir my finger in the coffee cup of life. The TASTE is amazing. and to make sure, within my ability, friends and family never fall too low. to be who I am. 050609 ... *Amy* quit everything 050609 ... smurfus rex I'd let my guard down more often. 050610 ... dipperwell run away without a word 060623 ... falling_alone talk to boys and be forward with them. 060623 ... ... tell them that I wasn't straight. 060623 ... australian highrise act. sing. tell him. get a life. 060623 ... thorn tell people what I really think. tell people I care about that I'm bi. tell people that I love them. 060623 ... werewolf yes run away without a word. 060802 ... f if i weren't afraid .. if i weren't afraid.. i t seems i am becoming less and less afraid as i get older..because you start to realise that realistically.. we are not immortal therefore .. we all must be brave and look beyond the fear. we must always live as if today is our last day.. if we could all do that then the world would be a very different place. i love to put myself in uneasy situations.. where i am completely out of control of my surroundings because for some reason.. something interesting always happens.. if i get into trouble there always seems to be someone to help me or to teach me something new.. these are the moments where i feel so alive.. it kicks me 060802 ... f if i weren't afraid .. if i weren't afraid.. i t seems i am becoming less and less afraid as i get older..because you start to realise that realistically.. we are not immortal therefore .. we all must be brave and look beyond the fear. we must always live as if today is our last day.. if we could all do that then the world would be a very different place. i love to put myself in uneasy situations.. where i am completely out of control of my surroundings because for some reason.. something interesting always happens.. if i get into trouble there always seems to be someone to help me or to teach me something new.. these are the moments where i feel so alive.. it kicks me 060802 ... LS Only a fool knows no fear. 060802 ... misstree what would you do even though you're afraid? 060802 ... krishna fearlessness is a prime virtue. 060802 ... not krishna we need more fools in this world. 060802 ... hyena fear is healthy. fear is what keeps you from sticking your arm into a hyena's mouth. but looking at something you're afraid of, like getting a new job, and saying, yes, this scares me, but i'm going to do it anyway, *that* is a prime virtue. fearlessness is stupidity. 060802 ... LS I'll agree that letting your fear of no power over you is a prime virtue. 060802 ... unhinged be virtuously truthful at all times about all things especially my feelings but all emotions are pain after all this truth has been proven to me in a hard way over the past couple of months that even love degenerates into pain often times too quickly but i still wish to try as hard as i possibly can not to let my pain cause others pain not to let my delusions hurt others to send out only love from this often times shrunken and cracked heart of mine sometimes it is quite scary to confront the truth that lives in the deepest corners too many times misery loves company my misery just wants some cuddle company i just want to purify all the pain in the world a scary and impossible task i've seen so much of it lately daunting i am afraid to act on my convictions that positivity light love can change the world i am afraid that often times i mistake passion for love that loving_kindness metta is not the love my libra nature often looks for the love of small children is closer to the truth if i wasn't afraid i would practice these things metta for all expanded conciousness it can be a dangerous thing suffering sometimes i have too much of my own to accept and transform the suffering of others and sometimes i mistake being shit on by others as a virtuous action on my part i don't know man there is so much i could do if i wasn't afraid but it can be hard work to help others get through their delusions when i am barely able to recognize and work through my own 070526 ... ever dumbening i would ask solbeam to marry me 070526 ... yes me i would travel the world. 070526 ... Isaou I'd tell here why I really can't stand to be around her. Either that or I'd break her nose. 070526 ... my name it means nothin -go see live music -talk about my feelings -be a better emotional friend -wear skirts -make more friends. confront people before they confront me. -take photos of strangers. -walk at night alone (but in this case fear is reasonable, unfortunately) -sleep with no lights on. -wake up early on weekends. -speak of my million loves (again, fear her is probably reasonable. for now.) 070526 ... my name it means nothin man, this blather page gives me false hopes. ah...my dreams that I optimistically (and foolishly?) think will come true... 070526 ... me I would call my dad and tell him how I really feel... that or kill myself. 070707 ... my name it means nothin ride a freight_train 070826 ... It sucks. I'm not afraid, I'm depressed. So... I guess I'd be depressed. 070826 ... and yes it does suck depression IS fear 070826 ... Arwyn I would ask for the help I need 070826 ... zeta Write a book. Don't start lecturing people on help. 070826 ... zeta Depression is anger turned inwards 070826 ... Depressed But Not Afraid Depression is not equivalent to fear. Depression is not equivalent to inward anger. However, at times these aforementioned scenarios do present themselves, and certainly fear and anger can lead to (and/or coincide with) depression. 070826 ... Ouroboros Keep a sense of equilibrium within, while constantly expanding and exploring 080709 ... unhinged chase my dreams_unfulfilled (busying myself with ramping up my career, since my personal life seems mired in the same_tired_old_story ) gotta mail that deposit check for that audition. debt_free health insured me here i come 080709 ... unhinged damn..... tired_old_story ? 080709 ... SleepieCloud It's taken me awhile, but I'm doing it now. I'm trying. 080710 ... Ouroboros say no 080710 ... Soma Love fully and freely. 080710 ... Ouroboros leave or stay or change grow I don't know 080720 ... hsg what_else_is_there? 080720 ... niska I'd move to nueva esparta, venezuela. but I'm afraid to leave the health care behind. come to think of it, I haven't been back to the US in a while. same fear, I guess... 080720 ... dafremen The only thing I'm afraid of anymore...is dying unresolved. 080721 ... suicidalchinadoll sleep 8 hours a night, and live 16 hours a day. 080722 ... unhinged ask him all the questions i need answers to for some kind of closure (but i'm very afraid that won't stop up the gushing wound newly reopened i thought or maybe even foolishly hoped had finally healed; which as more time passes seems to be the curse i carry) but you know when i finally find you you will be the lucky recipient of all the love i've secretly been carrying with me all_these_years and you will not know what hit you that for all the times i've been afraid one lucky you will open the floodgates the damn that holds it all in when i cry shattered, alone 080723 ... phbpht! ew. fart in public 080723 ... mustard kiss you over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over but before i did i would slap you and say "stupid butt" 080723 ... unhinged (well i guess one lucky you already got the version of me that i would be if i wasn't afraid but sometimes that seems just like a 48 hr dream) and as for the farting in public... it's kind of a birthright in my mom's family i had a stomach ache from the quinoa stuff i ate earlier today hey *shrugs* sometimes it happens at the busstop 080723 ... SleepieCloud I'm done with this catch and release. Pride is important I know, and so is self respect. What's that resepct worth though if it means I can't have what I really want? So this is what I'm going to do. I'm giving up. You can have me whenever, whereever, however, but you have to keep me. These are the rules to my game. I'm done playing yours. 080805 ... In_Bloom For once Finally in my life I'm not afraid of doing a thing that I want Finally 080806 ... In_Bloom I am not afraid to do anything I want Only circumstance binds me Finally 080806 ... niska what I wouldn't... 090303 ... suicidalchinadoll say something before it is too late. 090623 ... anouk tell him I love him 090624 ... lantaren_venster let myself feel something let myself experience emotion let myself fall in love? 090807 ... h|s|g i would relax 101208 ... perfectly_chaotic I would play. There would be nursery_rhymes_and_children's_games on public display for all to see if only they cared to look. 101208 ... Ouroboros It's amazing to see how I've changed since starting this blathe. My external is now what I'm doing, afraid or not. Internally, if I weren't afraid, those moments where my mind takes over and I feel despair, I could label them for what they were and move on, instead of wallowing in paralyzing fear. 101209 ... jane WHAT? YOU'RE PISO_MOJADO? where have i been? 101210 ... Ouroboros yes- glad to have turned your world upside-down with this revelation :) 101210 ... minnesota_chris this is why you should never change your screen name. otherwise I'd be The Espresso Militia or Doctor Octopus by now. But I'm afraid I'd throw everyone off. 110103 ... tail-devouring snake ask relatives and strangers to help me pay off student debt. grow many plants get that tattoo run ridiculously long distances quit bullshit job and not ever look for work that isn't exactly right again. 141019 ... flowerock Wake up earlier Be more sexually expressive Feel more confident Fast Go camping more Dance in public Sing more Play my flute again Learn harmonica and or banjo Get some kind of teaching degree or seek a second job at a decent day care 141019 ... Lemon_Soda Take my wife in my arms and kiss her. 141020 ... D be a part of the world. 141021 ... tail-devouring snake quit. the. stupid. job. 150223 ... dos I did. It was liberating. Dropped my keys and radio on his desk right in the middle of his sentence, said "thank you for the opportunity," and walked out of the building into the unknown. As soon as the unknown was less frightening than another day of this, the answer was obvious. 150224 ... z write a novel. i am afraid of creating flat people. 150225 ... Risen Reach out. Ask for help. 150226 ... arwyn I would leave. Not my wife, just here. I would run somewhere safe that doesn't exist outside my daydreams. I would find the solitude of the forest, the beauty of the sea, and the convenience of the city in one magical place. If I weren't afraid, I would say "let's go" and mean it. 180924 what's it to you? who go blather from