what_makes_you_uncomfortable little wonder this is project help_me_with_photo_ideas part II. nearly 2 years later. my options are limited in this little town of St_Joseph, but I'm intent on making this fabulous. 040415 ... Nicki visual things/things that can be represented visually? For your class, or just regualar things that make you uncomfortable? Uncomfortable as in physically uncomfortable, or uncompfortable as in uneasy-ish? Some many questions.... 040415 ... little wonder I'm just curious as to what makes people uncomfortable. Any kind of uncomfortable. Things that people don't like to think about, don't want to see. Things people ignore [or try to] unless they are forced to open their eyes. 040416 ... misstree babies make me uncomfortable. a picture of a baby crying and reaching out would make me cringe. and poop of any sort. a picture of a dog pooping or something. and heights. and bugs. aside from that, i'm pretty hard to faze. 040416 ... blown cherry This, this feeling of utter displacement I've have within me right now. I don't know why it's there, I don't know what brought it on. I'm not settled here in my chair, but I can't think of anywhere to go. My mind is a mess of intangible and unexpressable shreds of feeling. I can't escape this, but I feel like I need to or else I'll just break. I need to go somewhere, but without having to move. I need my mind to leave this place I guess. I need to be somewhere that's for me, and that's not here, I guess right now it's nowhere. Sorry, that's probably really not the sort of thing you're looking for. 040416 ... little wonder Really, I'm looking for anything. Be as descriptive or as vague as you want. It doesn't just have to be objects...situations, places, a n y t h i n g. I'm just curious about other people. I know what makes me uncomfortable, and I know that my possibilities are huge considering where I am. [small liberal arts catholic college]. There are things people maybe think about, but to be represented visually would make them uncomfortable. The photographers I remember the most are the ones who took pictures of things that were slightly disturbing, things that made me think. I remember one in particular; he took a series of suicide photos. When I first looked at them the thought that they were staged didn't even cross my mind. The one photo I can recall in detail was of a car with a tube going from the exhaust to a slightly cracked-open window of a car. Another photographer took morgue pictures [maybe these were also staged, it was a long time ago that I looked at these books]. Maybe I'm just fascinated with death, because that's where it seems this is going. I've never done anything that I can say really made anyone uncomfortable. Maybe a picture that was slightly unsettling, but nothing that genuinely evoked uncomfortable-ness. [I apologize for my lack of ability to articulate tonight.] 040416 ... ugly inside sitting in a room full of people and knowing that they're all better than me 040416 ... flipchrist personally i think if u want 'uncomfortable' pictures its better if u stay away from the obvious gruesome and horrific pictures like pics of aborted babies or murders and dead soldiers in Iraq. if u show enough blood and gore of course its gonna be uncomfortable for most ppl. a recent uncomfortable picture that i can remember is the security camera picture of Carlie Brucia's abduction, the picture is of a little girl wearing a red shirt being led away by a man. i feel so uneasy everytime i see it, knowing that that was the beginning of her hell and she would die in a few hours. another way to make ppl uncomfortable is to just exploit their insecurities, like if u know someone that has a big nose and hates it then somehow show a situational image that includes a girl w/ a big nose. 040416 ... kookaburra watching movies or shows with dirty stuff in it... *shudder* now thats some freaky-deaky stuff. I just said freaky-deaky. *another shudder* 040417 ... stork daddy tight pants 040417 ... kookaburra oops i meant to say watching with my parents 040417 ... little wonder taking pictures today...I'm still trying to solidify ideas in my head. Why do I procrastinate so much? I don't know if these will be at all successful in showing discomfort. I think I'll just leave them sort of vague and see how people react. Just not enough time...and not enough people to kidnap and force into being my puppet for a short while. 040420 ... lavendertraces ignorance 040625 ... spiffy people 040625 ... xyz kindness 040625 ... seventeen when people say, "you don't say?" and just leave it hanging in the air. 040626 ... puredream attaches phrase "you don't say" to the air. *grins madly at seventeen* But I love you really I do! 040626 ... seventeen *squirms* 040628 ... Ivory broken dolls. dirty faced dolls lying in roads or ditches. mailboxes that are unhinged. seeing scars on people that I know were self-inflicted. veins in peoples' legs. women with facial hair. babies with big bruises or cuts. cowering animals. the few moments right before sex. tears in peoples' eyes that haven't yet fallen. nose hair. watching someone talk with food in their teeth. seeing someone else's family argue. scissors in front of my eyes when I'm getting my bangs cut. someone looking for his glasses in a public place. people who smell foul. people with physical deformities. razor blades. 040629 ... pete reading your blathes puts me off the mark 040705 ... charlie crowds talking to people on the telephone being alone in the house or awake when everyone else is asleep the sound of fingernails on paper people touching me unnecessarily, like to move me out of someone else's way or tapping me on the shoulder or tugging on my clothes 040705 ... sameolme hyper-bubbley people, its the people who are desperately happy and relentlessly effusive. Makes me want to go hide someplace. 040705 ... Somebody that I used to know My ex-boyfriends, the step you take to knock on the door of your new therapist, the smell of a doctor, my father, the dark, being alone in the dark, the bridges in malls, an annual. *shudder* 041223 ... alive_now saying to me "you're not fun anymore." 050117 ... somebody . 050127 ... p2 expectations and expectorations 050127 ... Deomis I can't stand the silence in my house; I turn the music up so that I can escape it. I can't stand the tension that wraps around us at the dinner table So that all I hear, is the repulsive sound of you chewing your food. 050127 ... oldephebe christians who equate material wealth with achieving the deep spiritual union with God. This is an adulterated kind of theology. say if i'm rally holy and spiritual god will give me lots of money! ... charletans! just stop it already. i thought jesus sheep would know, would KNOW and hear His voice? So how how come so many christians and earnest newbie christians get conned into this pay to pray schill game? ... 050128 ... no reason my own discomfort, obvious as it sounds it's so self-handicapping 050128 ... oldephebe ...yeah "the enticing words of mans reason" whatever happened to being determined to know ONE thing above and over anything else? One thing, and that is the name of god or his son, there essence, thier glory. what's with the adroit mind conjugal? " Well ah put on mah shiny suit and lathered my hair with 2 cans of mous (or pomade depending upon grade of hair) i got on my 600 dollar shoes my super sized ignet ring, you know ta show them peoples how saved, how impressively SAVED i am..." will somebody please read the entire second chapter of first corinthians? the pulpit on sunday morning at these mega-churches of tele-evangelists and aspiring tele-evangelists have the distinct stench and spiritual squalor of a gypsy mistress of the hoax crystal ball room at the circus which abuts the elephant dung repository... C'mon people isn't there a twinge of dubiousness when hear the "money blessing" spiritual sales pitch? Whatever happened to our faith, our trust our hope our aspirations should not lie in the wisdom of ersatz men of the mold and avarice infested cloth but in the power of GOD? ... this really bugs me ... 050128 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl saying no. I didn't want to sleep with you. I guess it's lucky I didn't see you much after that or I probably would have gone through with it. I don't like how I feel conquered. I am not a girlfriend substitute. it's good that we don't talk that much any more, if ever. it makes me uncomfortable to talk to you. to look at you to know you. I NEVER EVER WANT TO FEEL THAT WAY AGAIN. I NEVER WANT TO FEEL CONQUERED. I don't want to have been submissive enough for you to have made me feel like that. the shame....... the fucking shame. 050128 ... oE people who walk thier rabid, homicidal dogs loosly on the chain, and smirk as people flinch when the pair of pscyho-pooches freaks out..i mean with the whole froth of madness around thier mouths and everything...it's like the owners (usually pretty physically unimposing types) try to extend the dogs savageness and virility into thier own ... 050128 ... oE people who walk thier rabid, homicidal dogs loosly on the chain, and smirk as people flinch when the pair of pscyho-pooches freaks out..i mean with the whole froth of madness around thier mouths and everything...it's like the owners (usually pretty physically unimposing types) try to extend the dogs savageness and virility into thier own ... 050128 ... megan lately i've been really paranoid about everything and it's driving me crazy i think it's because i have way too much going on but i don't know i think the thing that scares me most is that i've been way too clingy with him... i worry that i'm annoying him by leaving him messages, popping by his house every once in awhile, whatever and i worry that he won't ever say anything if it does bother him i can't seem to get enough of him, he's my fresh air he's amazing and i just wish it was ok for me to just tell the whole world that i am in love with this man and i just could spend time with him and no one else for a long long time and probably be ok better than ok oh bother 050128 ... phil get a private eye 050128 ... phil find out if he's worth it 050128 ... phil stalk if necessary, don't worry about scaring him, guys like that. 050128 ... oldephebe i mean when an ersatz man of the moth eaten cloth uses emotional extortion tactics to separate hardworking people and indigent senior citizens from the few dollars that they DO have to build a gilded citadel to this reverands ego -it has the efficasy of knitting into the the eye of fate a terrible ending. To use the bible as if it were spell book, to treat God as if he were a genie in a bottle, by requiring christians to wallow in apostacy and pointless ritual in order to touch the hidden realm of blessing - to spread the lie that invoking ones faith and the power of god is equivalent to getting naked and dancing by the stream while singing a hymm of praise to Pan while hurling various flora into the air. This will be your inheritance: A world of ash because you stood in the sanctuary and made intimate oaths to care for your flock, to guide them in ways of truth and life, to minister to thier pain, suffering, to help thier flailing hope To blindly stab at a few verses out of historical and theological context and construct an entire psuedo/sub cosmology out of it that essentially calls the weak minded out of the arms of grace, calls the new born christian or the immature christian into another wilderness to serve the avarice and narcissistic ambitions of a false prophet. Woe unto those whose obscene distortions of the bible and gods will and love towards us, for it is to withdraw from the sacred covenant established between God and the men and women called to shephard is to trample too boldly upon the *resting place of God - (*which is/are the depths of the surrendered heart impelled by faith) Oh how your gilded kingdom will be turned into a world of ash. The charlatans hoard will be ripened to rot. Where are the voices who will keep the light alive in the darkness? Where are those in the congregation who will refuse to goostep just to get along? Where are those who would defend the Name of God against those who represent Christianity so poorly to christians and non-christians? How can you be so smug when every moment of your life is an affront to the God who called you? Your every exhortation, your contrived homilies, your serpent cunning your brow dripping with sweat or heroin separation anxiety, your measured and choreographed pulpit antics resembles a captain in full mummer regalia strutting down Broad Street with a four beer buzz. You tell christians that suffering is for the sinners, that the soul of the faithful shouldn't endure poverty nor humility nor second rate or modest accomodations. You were given a sacred TRUST and with every action you spit upon the Creed. Know you NOT that the suffering of our souls makes us strong? We don't need sweetly whispered promises and contrivances to stir the heart of faith. God has spoken the word, and set His will plainly, truefully. ... I just don't understand how people that started out in a corner church mistering to the indigent, the drug addict, the abused wife, the abused children the back slidden, who worked 40 hours a week and then gave the rest of his time to God for gas money grows by degrees into this rapacious acquisitve ecclesiastical extortionist. ... 050129 ... ba ba booey ministering, not mistering 050129 ... ba ba booey ministering, not mistering 050129 ... once again the tears of others... helplessness. 050129 ... I used to know the tears of others, helplessness and knowing that you caused it. 050207 ... jane don't_touch_me 050208 ... birdmad unskipped details and the implied prohibition of my protests that they seemed to entail 050317 ... pobody ~people who communicate their anger by using an excessive amount of swear words ~people who claim they're not racist, but who use racial slurs ~shopping for swimsuits =( 050317 ... . when my underpants get twisted round my bollox and up the crack of my arse. 050610 ... Lemon_Soda When people inscist on interacting with me after I have just gotten up. Give me a half hour, please. This is the one time I really half to stretch my acting skills not to shrivel people with my gaze. 050610 ... smurfus rex when someone you kinda know from hanging out at another friend's house says, "um, this is a little hard for me to say, but I really like you and I want to know if you'd like to try dating..." I've had naps that lasted longer than the total amount of time I've talked with her... 050610 ... emmi men. 050610 ... megan that look you get from someone when you're both trying to hug but your faces go the same way and you really don't want to touch them that closely anyway standing outside of a group of people talking undressing before someone for the first time elevators with one other person in it you don't know deciding whether to call someone or not sitting at a red light with someone holding a "homeless, please help" sign standing next to your car dancing with a much older man the perfect looking girls who work at victoria's secret who always seem to want you to undress so they can measure you grandparents asking about my friends 050610 ... sirflaccid Good question. 060329 ... poet being the permanent third wheel. like when you used to play football in elementary school, and you had an odd number of players, so someone would be "permanent quarterback". i am the permanent third wheel. or fifth wheel. or seventh wheel. whichever applies. 060330 ... . 060330 ... falling_alone looks that ask "why are you here?" 060403 ... Casey Going to movies with two friends who are a couple. 060403 ... z this question. 060404 ... a new dreamer knowing that you like someone more than they like you... and them knowing it. meeting someone who you used to know really well but haven't seen for ages similarly, talking with friends who you used to know as well as yourself, but only having an acquaintance_conversation. remembering how great things used to be with a certain person, in comparison to now. watching your friends drift away and drifting away yourself, but not stopping it. procrastination, because the stress is still there. 060404 ... Snook Everything but sleep. 060405 ... Rear Admiral Ben Dover being constipated for more then 3 days followed by the fear that i'm gonna collapse and fall out through my own butthole after having a bowel movement the size of Mount Everest when i'm don being constipated 060405 what's it to you? who go blather from