pregnant sunny how could this happen....how could i have been so carelss 000526 ... BIRDMAD IS DEAD The problem that resulted from the secret that you kept. The reason you left me sitting ignorant in cold silence as that winter turned to spring. And when you came back, when you had resolved the situation without his help -- tell me, did it make you feel better to hand me back my heart with another man's heelprint ground into it? To push my buttons and pull my strings. Everything i thought we had, everything i thought we were was a lie, just as much for my own wishful thinking as for your willingness to string me along you lied to me but then you treated me as if i was the one who could not be trusted So... Fuck your kind words. fuck all your promises and assurances. and most of all, my dear... fuck you. one year to the day that you sent me that_letter i send it back 000526 ... Tank was in this experience once. i concluded the situation way before it would have concluded itself. fucks with me to the nth degree still, but he walked away when i told him we had become three. he ran, fled, hid. what else was i to do? a stranger in an even stranger land, no job, no support, no baby father? i could not have borne the fruit, there was no ground to keep it fertile. 000725 ... MollyGoLightly so from sex comes life and from life comes death. maybe those mountain people weren't bullshitting about the holiness of celibacy. 000725 ... marjorie prego. in the family way. with child. bun in the oven. eating for two. pregnant with a vision. that just might be stillborn. 001104 ... kitten on drugs what a wondrous feeling...but it never happens to me 001121 ... soul I wonder what its like to be with child. When i hear my mother and her friends talk, they talk about how painful it was and how their husbands left them by themselves with nothing. I'm just at the other end of the table listening. Is being pregnant wrong and bad? is it going to ruin your life? Almost all the children at my highschool have got divorsed or separated parents. Why can't love last forever. Why does falling in love have to be so easy. I think my mother has given me a negative aspect of life. Even when i think what she says is so wrong, it does end up being true. I just want one love that will last a lifetime and not go through continuous heartbreak of finding the right one. I think i'm inlove now, but now i'm not so sure. I still ponder what love is like, or i just don't realise i have it. I wish there was a right answer for everything i ask. Everyone says something different. Life can be so hard sometimes (all the time) I can't wait till i can sleep at night, knowing everything will be alright. 4 years left at school, then uni. yep. Then get a job, yep. Can't wait till retirement, lie down and die. yep. Lifes not fast enough. I'll understand things when i get older. yep. 010927 ... Aimee It will happen one day, I'm certain.. unless there's something wrong with me... lol, but know what.. as much as I look forward to it, it's nice to know I'm not ready for it. I would like to be a mother someday but not now. I don't want a child right now... as seen in my "well we can just rent that kid until it cries, then we'll just say it's defective" I know I'm just not ready for that. I feel so badly for all the girls in my graduating class who were pregnant. Most of them are mothers now, and they never got to leave Iron Mountain. They're stuck. I can understand their desire not to give up the child because I could never do that myself, but when thinking about that child and them.. they should have. How could they know how to raise a child when they themselves are barely on the threshold of adulthood? I'm just grateful most of their parents are so supportive of them. They'll really need it I think because I know to God I would. *sighs* but then again I can't really pass judgement.. I haven't been there and I don't plan on going there for a while (meaning about 3-4 years from now). Babies are cute, but Aimee's not ready for one of her own.. 010927 ... Skull The beauty of pregnancy... To be creating another person- to make someone to know- to teach- to learn from. In all understanding, this is the most amazing- what is life? To make it is so rich and amazing- the fullness of life in creating another. What an amazing task... are we yet ready? Do we have the maturity, the strength, the capacity for this honor? Let us wait and muse, and meditate on this before. Let us wait- wait for love- wait for marriage- wait until the fullness of readyness is upon us. For I wait for the maturity, and I wait for you. 011001 ... mindfield the Great Mother is overburdened with our corpulence and cannot possibly provide for us much longer Please Just for awhile stop breeding 011001 ... filet of spooky fish and chips (w/salt and vinegar easy solution: annihilate humanity as a whole we won't be missed shit, if they ask for voluntees, i'll even go first 011001 ... ClairE Thank God I wasn't, really. At least now I know I'd definitely have an abortion. This from a girl who spends sizable chunks of time dreaming about it. It scares me. 011201 ... whoknows i said "thats funny." he heard "im pregnant." 011201 ... kitten on drugs well, it happened. he lied, and i lied. we weren't ready. we were scared. we were unprepared to bring a child into this world. it would have been a boy. he would have been called oin. but we weren't ready for him quite yet. we never got to meet him, yet i miss him just the same. 020101 ... smitten on hugs jail, it happened. she cried, and i cried. we weren't steady. we were in jail. we were on probation to sing a mild pinto: this curdled. it would have been a soy. she would have beans called soy. but we weren't ready for soy quite yet. we never got the beans here, and we are in jail. how lame. 020918 ... Lilac I always said that it would happen to me while I was still in high school or I would later find out that I was sterile and it wouldn't happen at all. Im in my senior year. Guess I was right. 030203 ... Aimee I just read my earlier post... Part of me wishes I could just go back to being that way... not pregnant I guess.. but it's actually been a humbling experience for me. I'm excited, and scared, but somewhat confident, I'll do alright. I've seen some pretty bad mothers and I don't think I'm that bad. I just fear I am. 030204 ... sirflaccid Almost there but not quite One of those weird blessings I suppose 030211 ... minnesota_chris I don't think you will ever be fully or even slightly pregnant. Or maybe I didn't learn Biology quite right... 030211 ... no reason i dunno...haven't you ever read tabloids? ;) 030211 ... sirflaccid I believe that pregnancy is an event not a personal happening. So that would explain my point of view. But just to come back to the social norm, who said I was talking about myself? 030212 ... p2 no argument here but i'd pay 20 bucks to see you try to explain that to the lady who's been in labor for the past 20 hours and is now swaering off sex while clutching her husband's nads in a death grip 030212 ... minnesota_chris well, you were vague. I suppose most of your postings (Sir Flaccid) are not really for the public consumption, but I can't help but be nosy. 030212 ... silentbob i met you when you had big blond hair and you hugged me and said thanks for coming. she told me he was cheating on you and i told her id never cheat on you. now you're pregnant. now you're married or engaged or something. whats the difference. it is futile. 030212 ... jane the clouds were pregnant with rain earlier today 030212 ... Bizzar Is it for real this time? After so many scares, so many times praying for the end of the wondering? 12 days late and counting, the dizziness and nausea are beginning to become overwhelming. He's in denial. And Im lightheaded. Test was negative... to early? My head feels like its going to explode. And if I am. I know we can do it. I love him. He will make an awesome father. If its a boy, his name will be Layne. After his father's hero. 030308 ... wondering why do you want to have a baby? 030308 ... Aimee I've wanted to have a baby since I was five... I always figured it would happen later in life... granted at age five, 20 years old seemed a ripe, old age to start a family... Now, well I just wish things could have been delayed a few years. The option of abortion or adoption was never even an option for me. Logan and I were planning on getting married on June 21st of this year anyways... it just had to be moved up a few months so the dress would fit. It's not like we weren't committed to one another, it's just that now we don't get to enjoy being newlyweds. We don't get to go out to bars together on my 21st birthday, but we'll have this little person we created together. It's really a scary thought. In 7 weeks or less, my entire life is going to change. My entire outlook on life is going to change. I'm going to have to grow up really fast and I'm going to be fighting with myself about having to give up my turn to be wild. I've already started that fight. I know things will be okay, and I know I will most likely surprise myself and my entire family and actually be able to do this. I just wish things could have been postponed by a few years. 030703 ... minnesota_chris so what's the score there, late one? 030721 ... nomatter everyone is getting pregnant. Brianna Jody Aimee Trinity Nikki All in the last few months. Make me think I may finally be the lucky one. 030914 ... JaCkIe It was positive. Now its time to dry the tears as my cousin drives me back to school. Im only 14,This was my first real boyfriend, how could this happen? I feel so so numb inside. I can't even cry anymore. But life goes on, going to school and enduring the critisism. I feel so alone, he wants to be there but I push him away, I dont know why but I can't stand him. My life will never be the same. I haven't even cried since that first day, not even when I found out my new boyfriend was sleeping with my sister and her best friend. Not even when my cousin blew herself up in a meth lab. Jaxon's 3 weeks old and i still can't cry. The numbness hurts more than anything. "At least your accepted at school again" my mother says that doesn't mean shit to me anymore but she doesn't understand nobody seems to understand. JaXon ChAsE 9-16-03 031010 ... DelilAH I am pregnant. 040106 ... RoXXXie How could I let this happen again? Pregnant. Pregnant again. How could I let this happen again? How could I have been so careless? 040106 ... nonentity twice i thought i was pregnant. 040218 ... nonentity twice i thought i was pregnant. 040218 ... JaCkIe jaxon now five months old pleeez ppl think about what your doing before you do it...Especially if your 14........ 040224 ... white_wave so Charlie_Sheen's wife came into my work today. she's pregnant and the baby is due in 2 weeks. if she had gone into premature labor, we'd be all over the news. we've got many doctors in the house, but they don't deliver human babies. 040225 ... .fallen tapeworm 040225 ...