3am deb i lay there in my bedroom disappointed for he never showed- and as i tried to fall asleep watching the way the light reflected on the plaster up above i had an urge to look outside and i saw that gorgeous car of his with an even more gorgeous him inside stupid me- i was too surprised that he came over to get up and change and answer my door and FINALLY just get his number on my own but at least i know he really did want to see me again and that's worth a smile or two or three :) 000412 ... Jenna ...and I must be lonely? Well, yeah. Lonely and needing to write a paper on the use of color in a essay and a poem for English. I hate English. If it wasn't for blather, I would now despise the written word. Damn college. Damn sleep schedule, that makes me sleep until 2:00 PM so I won't be able to sleep again until 6:00 and I will be worthless tomorrow. Still without my work done. I know a lot of people love college. I still don't see the point. But I'm here right now, for better or for worse. And now, I have a paper to write. Au revoir. 011031 ... Jenna I am the only one blathering, at this hour, perhaps. I have been up all night studying for my 8 am final. No more is going in. The people that went downtown tonight (lucky bastards) are just getting home. They are drunk and loud. And fun to watch. A car has been sitting in the parking lot for almost an hour with its flashers on. I wonder if it is occupied. A fog has settled over the whole landscape. It diffuses all the light. The light mist coming through my window keeps me cool. Birds are singing. Is it that time of day already? And me with no sleep. ... 011213 ... Fli tweakers, criminals, and security guards litter the streets at 3:00 A.M. then we have lonely romantics blathering anywhere they may in hopes of making "THE" connection to "THE" one! Yep, just tweaks and some boys on the beat! 011214 ... daaaa the computer easing me 021117 ... your plague. liar. 030602 ... endless desire 3am ((matchbox20)) She say it's cold outside and she hands me my raincoat She's always worried about things like that She says it's all gonna end and it might as well be my fault And she only sleeps when it's raining And she screams and her voice is straining She says baby It's 3 am I must be lonely When she says baby Well I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes Says the rain's gonna wash away I believe it She's got a little bit of something, God it's better than nothing And in her color portrait world she believes that she's got it all She swears the moon don't hang quite as high as it used to And she only sleeps when it's raining And she screams and her voice is straining She believes that life is made up of all that you're used to And the clock on the wall has been stuck at three for days, and days She thinks that happiness is a mat that sits on her doorway But outside it's stopped raining 030602 ... mona loves you I really like that song even though I have never really listened to the lyrics, but that doesnt mean I dont know them. 030621 ... User24 yeah, I like the song too. who's it by? 030621 ... girl_jane endless desire tells us who's song it is at the top of her blathe. Or I can be simple and tell you, Matchbox 20. I should start going to bed earlier... 030621 ... User24 ah, but 3am((matchbox20)) doesn't actually tell me much unless I know that (s)he's referring to the song. thankyou for clarifying. (I could have sworn it was by KLF) 030621 ... User24 unless we're talking about different songs. which I think we are... 030621 ... User24 yup, google confirmed, KLF did "3am - eternal", and matchbox 20 did "3am" I've not heard matchbox 20's one. 030621 ... girl_jane the lyrics for the matchbox 20 song is endless desire's blathe :) 030621 ... endless desire ooh sorry, didn't mean to make it confusing. i'll be sure to clarify :) i do my best not to post too many songs but it seems that i relate more with songs than any other thing in my life. i love how a song can mean so little to you one day, and everything to you a week later. i live for music, espcially lyrics. so, for the record, it is from matchbox20's first cd, yourself or someone like you. i would absolutely suggest it to anyone. it's my favourite cd of theirs. 030621 ... User24 no, I'm just slow, it's wuite obvious if I'd actually bothered to read... 030622 ... Nyx its 3am, my clock is burning... I feel like time has stopped and can't decide if thats bad... I'll always be alone, stuck at 3am. 040925 ... sahba is when the music stops playinga and the world drops on my head reality fazes in my tired eyes making sense. seeing what is and so at 3am i realize i am still far from everything and everyone times will change they have too 040925 ... brought to you by 101010 http://3.am up@3.am 040925 ... florescent light 3 am, and I'm up I'm always up text messaging you emailing you and frantically begging you to put me to sleep 'can't sleep again?,' you grumble 'don't know why' 040926 ... the pledge i like 3am. actually 430am is my favorite time of day, but there wasn't a blather for 430am so i'll post about 3am instead. its almost as good. but its too far from dawn. i like the pre dawn sky. i like the dark purple and dark deep blue, almost black, like someone spilled a whole bunch of paint across an otherwise black canvas. i get really creative at this hour. i graffiti at this hour, and my most creative and daring works come at this hour. i wake up the next day...or sometime i just stay up...but anyway, i'll wake up and be like "man, what was i thinking? i would never do that again..." and come 430am, there i am, running down the middle of route 1 with a can of spray paint in one hand, and a stencil or two or three in the other, painting here and there so the whole world can see what i have to say, all the while hoping that no car comes over that hill, because at this hour its most likely a cop, and i already did 25 hours of community service, i dont want to do anymore. i dont think i feel anymore alive than at 430am. i like the freedom of being stealth enough to go wherever whenever i want. i feel like i can just stand back among the world and watch without being noticed. like the angels in "city of angels". i think its what its called. the one with the guy who was in gone in 60 seconds, and all the angels stand around invisible but they watch everyone. i feel like those guys. i wish it could always be 430am. everyone asleep except me. i am what goes on when all you are in bed, i am what is behind the scenes. if you hear sirens, the cops are chasing me, if you see graffiti, that was me, if you feel like someone is watching over you and protecting you, well, most likely it is God, but it could also be me. do not worry, i am not dangerous, and will not rape or rob you. i only do this for my gain. i am harmless. sleep well, and think about where i was when you were asleep. maybe one day i will see one of you out there. you probably won't know its me. i might look like that scary white trash missing link, but if you talk to me i'll open up, and you'll realize that those guys in hoodies walking around with spray cans and stencils, the guys the rest of the world see as menaces to society, are actually nice people, and are deep as sea, free as the sea, and can teach you more than 10 thousand books. i think i speak for all graffiti artists. 041226 what's it to you? who go blather from