best_friend
j_blue its almost 11am and i just had a fight with my best friend

i hurt his feelings a long time ago, and he hurt mine back, so i avoided him up to the present

i want him to feel bad

i dont think he can, since prozac he doesnt seem to feel much that isnt light and fun

its all in vain

so i avoid him

i called him a slut, and that hurt his feelings. the first chance he got he hurt my feelings back, and enjoyed it.

for that i avoid him
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the cutlery rack see: worst_enemy 001222
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Chrity mine can be reached at:
mikkip_83@hotmail.com
everyone tell her to BLATHER. :)
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Chrity mikkip_eighty_three_at_hotmail_dot_com 010408
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carden i already wrote this under the friends one, but i can't help repeating it. it's my new favorite quote.....best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.

jason (aka miner for truth and delusion) if you ever read this, i want you to know how much you mean to me. i'm glad you're my best friend..we've always been there for each other and i'm sure we always will. this is my chance to say thank you for being a good friend. i love ya!!
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imitator alrighty Anna.
this is for you.
thanks for almost
seventeen years
of being my
best friend.
just thanks.
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silentbob danny wolf
who knows me better?
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Miner Molly, despite never having met you (yet :)) I feel a closeness and friendship with you that far surpasses mere friends. In the time we've known each other, you've been there when I've most needed you, you've offered me advice, supported me through the bad times and celebrated with me during the good times. I owe you my sanity and peace of mind thanks to the help you've given me. I'm honored, and grateful to be able to call you my best friend, and I'm positive our friendship is strong enough to last several lifetimes over.

And never forget I'll always be here for you, if ever you need a shoulder to cry on, advice, a place to stay or anything, it would be my pleasure to do all I can.
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ClairE Lisa.
you were my
everything
violet lips
and breats
and hips
and talking_back
and Reliable_Meat_Market
and when your mom and Danny came to visit
and you begged me to stay with you
but I went home.

and smoking cigarettes with anya
and fighting with kate about sneakers
and nutmeg
and only knowing adam as a porn_dealer
and toby and david and jon and
so many more
and you telling me about junior and how
he liked to come after you
and your birthday_party right before high_school
and so much more
i
can't even express.
angelina jolie and tori amos
and snood
and all that shit.
a thousand more things.
a kalidescope of things.
a world.

I _love_you, Lisa.
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sapphire_ valerie~*~
i came here to write something for you, and found your words already waiting for me=)
17 years.. that is the way it always has been, and always will be.
best friends=)
aishiteru tomodachi`
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phil we are best friends, but I think somewhere behind his eyes a strange truth lays, a truth I won't understand. 020308
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Arwyn bobby... i just read your blathe... complete irony wouldn't you say? 020308
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blown cherry Thankyou.

I'm not sure if you consider me as your best friend, I know I'm at least one a couple. But it doesn't matter at all.
Because whenever I've needed you you've been there.
Tonight I needed you in a way that I've never needed you before.

"I need you to tell me that I'm not crazy"

And you were the first person I'd asked in days who actually told me I wasn't.
I know the people who had been telling me I was mentally_unbalanced were not really good judges of such things, but when the world starts telling you you're nuts, after a while you begin to believe them.
It's fucking scary.

But you saved me old friend.
You've seen me through two boyfriends, moving out of home, we suffered almost a year where we barely spoke but we found eachother again at the end of it.

I know things about you that even your girlfriend doesn't know.
I love you so much.
I feel so selfish that I need you so much more than I think you need me, but I know you don't mind that, and that is amazing.

I almost lost myself tonight, but you dived in and saved me.

When you went away I missed you, but we chatted on ICQ every night and after a while it felt like we were talking more than when you were here.
But tonight when you were here, you held me and patted my back gently while I cried. You worried I might not be able to drive over to see you when you heard the teary panic in my voice.
Tonight I remembered what it meant to have you near.

When you leave again on Saturday I will be sad, but I know I'll see you again popping up with your little invisible eye that only I can see :)

And when you come home for good, maybe in a few months, maybe in a few years,
I'll save up all my tears for then, when I'll have my best friend to help me cry them so I don't have to cry alone.




Thanks Vougie.....you help me live.
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Norm What's a fist fight between friends? 020325
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silentbob None 020325
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Syrope cathy! :) lu ya bunches!! 020325
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pralines&cream just_a_friend 020617
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maiasus its starting to seem to me...

that my best friend is the one who is stabbing me in the back, right when the rest of the world thinks she is patting me on the back. is it just me, or is something very very wrong with this picture??
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alkalinepixie when you are little you get to be in love with them. no questions asked. no worry about your sexuality. the world revolves around her and all the cool things you get to do like play outside.
she is always the first person to break your heart. and when you see her six years later, and realize that you have nothing in common, that you can hardly recognize her face or her voice. you feel better off.
and you sit on your floor. and you are so happy that you have two best friends that mean the world to you.
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*silent screams If ur unwilling to try to work a friendship out, then obviously it didn't mean that much to u....I'm not afriad to shine light into my darkest corners when the timing is right, and i'm not afriad to look pathetic to u...even if u laughed i'd atleast know i'm better off without u....but u don't...u comfort and understand me...just like a true best friend would 021207
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mona loves you I have three incredibly beautiful intelligent and funny best friends, who I love to death. We are all seniors in High School and are about to venture off to all different colleges. We all have vowed to keep in touch, and I truly think we will. I imagine we will change and grow and become better people on our own, but we will still have our pasts in common.

This past summer we spend everyday together. I do mean everyday. During that summer I learned to love them each in there own way, and that love grows everyday, for good and bad.

Katie

I met in since sixth grade in Mrs. Bertilsonís math class and we have been best friends since. She is wacky! She hates having her picture taken so all the pictures I do have of her, have her had in the way or she has some weird face. She is a very gifted artist, as much as she will argue that with you. I have a lot of her work because she thinks it is bad. She hates socks and shoes. When she does wear shoes, she doesnít wear them correctly. She slips them on letting the heel fall and tongue bunch up in front, but she still claims ďThey are onShe has this incredible love for sandals, more that I do. She wore a pair to a New Found Glory concert and lost them, she had to walk back to the hotel barefoot. She is very close with her grandparents. They practically raised her as a child. She goes over there every Wednesday after her violin lesson for dinner. She also goes every weekend to work on her stain glass lamp that her grandfather is helping her with. Her grandma is sick. Itís been more than a year now that she has had brain cancer. I know she would kill me for writing this, so Iím not going to go any farther. But her grandma being sick really kills her. All and all she is just crazy fun!

Sara

I met through Liz in middle school some time and, who at the time was one of Saraís best friends and just a mutual friend of ours. She has to be one of the weirdest people you will ever know. She is so messy; her room is proof of that, but even being so messy, she is freakishly organized and always knows where everything is. She is very meticulous about everything she does, even eating, and she is very stuck in her ways. She ďseasonalizesĒ things, meaning for example, she has a summer drink; lemonade. She also coordinates he perfumes with what color she is wearing that day, blue; Cool Waters. So she is odd, but because of that I love her. The oddities make life interesting, everyday interesting. A trip to Taco Bell turns into the most unforgettable event ever. She is just funny. Like the rest of us, she too has gone through a lot of shit. Her best friend, her very best friend since she was three, basically ditched her during their freshman year of high school. It was horrible for Sara. She barely ever talks about it and when she does she cries, and she never cries even when she tries. She has gone through a lot with her family too. She has almost lost both her parents at some point in her life before she even left elementary school. Try handling something like that at such a young age. Even with so much history in her life she doesnít let you see it day to day. She has become really good at hiding her feelings and making you believe she is happy; this is not a good thing. We get at each otherís throats a lot. I donít know why. We just do. But because we all donít act like prissy little girls that hold grudges and use the silent treatment, we are still friends. When Sara and I argue (if it is even that) we just discuss it with hostility and then forget about it. Five minutes later it is forgotten and we donít care. This is why I love her.

Bill (Hillary)

I have known since first grade. This girl and I have been through ups and downs the whole way. I the end though, we are now the best of friends. I have known her the longest, but I still donít know everything about her. I know she has a younger brother and a younger sister. I know her parents, and I know that they donít tell her that they love her enough. This girl is truly amazing. She never complains, and she hates it when others do; and she wonít tell you to shut up when you complain (I have learned this first hand), she just doesnít say anything. She is motivated in an indirect way. She gets shit done when she needs to, no matter what; she just does it. She was the first of us to be in love and have her heart broken. She is the oldest so I guess that kind of makes her wiser. She just thinks more realistically. She doesnít exaggerate and doesnít make false promises or any of that. She just a great friend, and I love her.

So we are four girls who love each other more that life itself. Our futures are uncertain and because of this we are all insecure; but we find stability and security in each other. We know the others will always be there whenever we need them. This probably sounds like sappy bullshit to many of you who read this, but itís true and its how I feel. I hope you can try and understand and I hope one day you can have as good of friends as I do.

Sara, Katie and Billy, I love you,

Mona
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Steph*A*Knee Here I am on the phone again and...
Awkward silence is on the other end
I used to know the sound of a smile in your voice
But right now (right now) all I feel (all I feel)
is the pain of the fighting starting up again

All the things we talk about you know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about will bring us through it every time,
after time, after time

Don't say a word, I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign, say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away, I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign, say anything, say anything

Some say that time changes, best friends can become strangers
But I don't want that, no not for you
If you just stay with me we can make it through

Now I'm wondering if they ever change
When will you laugh again, laugh like you did back when
We'd make noise til 3:00 AM
And the neighbors would complain

All the things we talk about you know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about will bring us through it every time,
after time, after time

Don't say a word, I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign, say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away, I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign, say anything, say anything

I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling down
I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling down
Down...down...down

Don't say a word, I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign, say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away, I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign, say anything, say anything

(Please don't leave)
Don't say a word, I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign, say anything, say anything
(Please don't leave)
Please don't walk away, I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign, say anything, say anything
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Steph*A*Knee Here I am on the phone again and...
Awkward silence is on the other end
I used to know the sound of a smile in your voice
But right now (right now) all I feel (all I feel)
is the pain of the fighting starting up again

All the things we talk about you know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about will bring us through it every time,
after time, after time

Don't say a word, I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign, say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away, I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign, say anything, say anything

Some say that time changes, best friends can become strangers
But I don't want that, no not for you
If you just stay with me we can make it through

Now I'm wondering if they ever change
When will you laugh again, laugh like you did back when
We'd make noise til 3:00 AM
And the neighbors would complain

All the things we talk about you know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about will bring us through it every time,
after time, after time

Don't say a word, I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign, say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away, I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign, say anything, say anything

I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling down
I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling down
Down...down...down

Don't say a word, I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign, say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away, I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign, say anything, say anything

(Please don't leave)
Don't say a word, I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign, say anything, say anything
(Please don't leave)
Please don't walk away, I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign, say anything, say anything
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lo i miss having one though i am happy to know that i have had one when others out there have never. you ment the most me and forever you always will be my best friend though we may never speak again. at least not in the way we used to. i regret everything i've done to help this disconnection on it's way and i want you to know that if i knew it would come to this i would have done everything differently. i look for you in every person i meet hoping to replace the greatness we once had. it never meets up to my expectations. i hope you know that i will never forget you and will never stop loving you no matter what 030524
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megan Hayley and Rachel 031018
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cpgurrl julia ... i will always be your friend, like it or not, bc of grad blues. i almost love you bc you hurt so much bc of me. no one else has ever cared that much; to cry when somebody offends me. i am sorry u were hurt, but i luv u for it. 040807
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someone else named julia flinches and wishes she had a best friend 040807
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pigeon i guess i'm a fortunate soul having had a ton of best friends over the years.. but the best... best being the greatest grandest better than the rest... i don't know about that one. i'd have to say ruthie. or maybe maren. i'm not sure. i always feel so torn when asked who my best friend is. so i divide them into regions.. i have my best new york friend, ruthie. my best virginia friend, maren, and my best childhood friend, barbra. 040807
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lucky I loved you as my best_friend and now I love you as my forever_friend. 040807
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misstree is drunk again fuck boyfriend. too many things that we aren't. best friend. that's more like it. and the meat? don't ask me; mine is rebelling so seriously i'd like to become a noncorporeal entity, if i only knew the trick to it... 040808
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Splinty It hurts. It really, really hurts me. I spent the whole of last night crying, but I bet you dont care. You say you love me, but thats the same as you love Tess and Sarah and Beth, not the way you love him. I guess we'll remain best friends. I'm dying tonight. 040808
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mysterious Staci,
You know my darkest secrets, my fears, my dreams. Even when we fight, we come back stronger than ever girl. I will truly truly miss you next year. Even as I sit here with tears in my eyes knowing that you wont be right around the corner anymore, you will still be there for me when I may need you. I luv you girl!
Kris
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mysterious And I will always be there when you need someone to listen about the fears of a new school and city...I'll truly miss you 040808
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blown cherry Oh my best love has gone away again
:(
Why is China so far away.
But I guess the good thing is that the distance seems to force us together. We make the effort to call and it's easy to sense the others affection when there are tiny one line emails popping up in eachothers inboxes all the time, just to say hi, or something even less meaningful. But the thought is there. And we both know it.

This is possibly the most beautiful relationship I'll ever have.
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x twisted x i think i miss our craziness and the way we were best friends and everyone always knew it. i even miss the way limited too would call me to ask if jen could work...remember that? haha. i miss going to fridays, ordering the same thing, and talking about what we love to talk about ..just because we can. i miss driving around screaming wicked or ashlee simpson at the top of our lungs. i miss colorguard, and i miss talking about senior year and those choice moments. i miss spinning together. sometimes when im at guard here, we'll do something that reminds me of...whatever. but ill close my eyes for a few seconds and think i hear all the old sounds...all the old voices. but then i open my eyes and its gone. i miss climbing mountains. i miss smoking on new years eve and feeling like bad kids for it. i miss doing fireworks on fourth of july. i miss our sleepovers and eating all night....and watching dr. quinn. i miss the latest developments of our dancing skills, and how we applied them to wicked at insane hours of the morning. i miss how whenever we talk about high school we comment on the fact that we were each others first friend in high school, and each others last friend. i love how we made it through all the bull shit, and we came out on top. i love how we are still friends even though we both suck at life sometimes. i miss my blue. 050914
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unhinged i'm afraid i hurt her
a lot
the words wouldn't come out right
to explain
that what she meant to help
was only annoying me

because the past two years have only forced me further down the negative track while she got up and out and away from what used to mutually bond us. that i feel like our lives are farther apart then they have ever been and i don't want to bring her down. that her attempts to elevate me can't and won't work right now. i hope that...living our lives hasn't driven us apart. because for all our differences over the years, she was one of the only people that i could explain things to, that i could reconcile with, that i wanted to reconcile with.


i'm afraid i hurt her
a lot
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stork daddy nearer to thee oh lord. 050914
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devilbunny Everyone hears what you say.
Friends listen to what you say.
Best friends listen to what you don't say.
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no reason whenever i ask what she's up to in the next little while, she lists everything but never suggests we do anything. and i know it's not that she doesn't want to, but maybe she doesn't need to. she includes me when she has time. it seems like everyone wants that kind of relationship with me. 100522
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no reason i haven't seen her in a few weeks 100522
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