lycanthrope
werewolf
lycanthrope, n. (Gr. lykanthropos, a wolfman; lykos, a wolf, and anthropos, man. One affected with a madness in which one imagines him or herself a wolf)
1. a man fabled to have been transformed into a wolf, a werewolf
2. a person affected with lycanthropy; one who imagines himself to be a wolf

but that's my name...i thought i was unique
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lycanthrope sorry...if it makes you feel better, we can both own the same madness in our own way. Or you could change your name to shapeshifter, or skincrawler, or dirty beast. 020404
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-{::EphemeralArcs::}- And all this time, I thought you were the same person, just being clever changing your name.
well, oh well.
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sporkwielder i am silly 020404
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stork daddy who cares who you are? 020421
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lobsterman what does this have to do with shapeshifters? 020421
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happy mom dolphin parts of me not all of me,
me the word, not the reality,
opened by a moon we view
more easily as whole,
opened and full like we imagine
it to be. each cell in my body
is violent in the resentment
of necessary cooperation,
knows nothing of how it all
becomes sensual, love,
a distinct motion in a dark forest
of motives.
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The Wolfman Is there room in here for another half-man/half-wolf? 020814
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wolfguy Don't forget about me! 020814
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guy who turns into a wolf geez, i guess all the best manbeast names have been taken... 020814
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werewolf i think you've almost got it 020814
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werewolf i mean it seems to me 020814
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lycanthrope i disagree 020814
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needalinkadink psshhhht 020830
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stork daddy that ain't cool 020830
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stork daddy eh...on second thought...hopes up...hopes down. it's just like waking up. i'll only give it second thought...let's not wait around for third and fourth and so on. you've gotta know when to stop! things are building up...we have to move on! 020830
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jane i just wanted to let you know you're appreciated 020925
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TalviFatin *howls* 020925
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lycanthrope if only it was enough. it's never enough. there's always someone else. 020926
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squint yeah.


gotta hate that.

ah sweet naive admirers.
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Tildan lol squint 020926
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lycanthrope it'd be arrogant for me to think this blathe was dedicated to me. however if it was dedicated to me, i'd cringe at the use of lol...especially if it wasn't judiciously used. ahh sweet naive admirers indeed. 020926
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lycanthrope oh but thank you though. there's a part of me that obviously cares. i just don't tend to like it too much. like right now...even writing this makes me feel pretty goofy. like a clown bowing while telling the audience that they just got a lucky peek that's all. it's always like this. 020926
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lycanthrope i apologize in advance to all the people as critical as me. 020926
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lycanthrope and in fairness. i warned you of the naevity involved. 020926
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jane oh well
i give up
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stork daddy quitter! 020928
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jane don't go labeling me 020930
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lycanthrope why...are you different than everything else? and if so...wouldn't you like a label? 020930
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jane it's not about having a label or not. i mean, someone can slap a label on anything these days. maybe i just don't want you labeling me 021001
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lycanthrope okay...you're plain jane unlabeled just like i left you before. as if we'd never met. ummm.. yeah...i suppose you believe that's possible? 021001
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jane i suppose not. it's not worth trying to convince you of anything. 021002
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jane when is your birthday? 021002
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lycanthrope hmmm...nov. 9th.
i don't see how this is going to work out this inquiry right here.
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lycanthrope but i'm in your hands...be gentle 021002
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jane as always 021002
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lycanthrope gentle as always? really? even if you were left humiliated, desperate for all that you felt was promised you, your hands would not clench? the facade would not drop? even if you were overwhelmed by the resentful surrender that is most surely love, you would not clutch hair or shoulder passionately, you would not attempt to pierce with nails and eyes and teeth? at our boundries you would come to me tame? there are dark forests within you, there are alleyways behind your ears and past your hips, overtaking any illusion of a straightforward journey. there are shadows where what was still is, where the world is temporarily held at bay. there is as always the problem of you. and how can this be gentle? how can this hoarding away from the world, this maintaing, how can it be anything but desperate and tiring? a gentle touch is the most dishonest and vicious thing in the world. because can it last? as always? oh it feels that way, it feels that way in the shadows, where we go to forget. but i refuse to forget another person because they are too tiring, we will meet each other, we will leave what we've made of each other behind, and we will answer to the immediate ringing of flesh, the dismemberment of memories like the breaking of bread. world without end amen. and perhaps you're right, perhaps it is gentle, perhaps a momentary stay against confusion, a momentary advancing surrender. and it's only gentle if we get what we want. but we're only gentles if we're martyrs despite it, victims of a freeing idea. compassion as a commandeered accident, an inefficiency made purposeful. 021003
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lycanthrope so explain to me, all this in mind, what in archimedes name does my birthday have to do with it? where's my eureka moment? 021003
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stork daddy he's a liar 021003
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stork daddy can't you see he can't possibly be talking about you?! 021005
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squint thinks this guy is so silly haha

I'm so sorry, but


COME ON!

(oh not you, blabbermouth)


(quit trying to convince me you're human. i know THE TRUTH!!!!)
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lycanthrope well as long as i'm not the only idiot. 021005
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unhinged i quoted you in my profile at home. i rather like it still. i will probably keep it there for awhile. 021005
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lycanthrope wow...what'd you qoute? not that idiot thing i hope. 021005
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unhinged no no no; it has been there for awhile. i do not remember what it was though. 'something something something...when i say i love you maybe i'm just as shocked as you are.' it was very appropriate to my life at one time. that part of my life doesn't exist anymore sadly enough, but i think it will more than likely be very appropriate sometime in the future. 021005
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lycanthrope well yay either way. it's like it matters! i should change my name to I CAN thrope. well warm and fuzzies. it's great when you can do something for yourself and another person at the same time. 021006
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jane [gentle] - i suppose i was being facetious. however, if you weren't talking about me, i shouldn't bother trying to defend myself. either way, i wish it was about me 021006
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lycanthrope still...why my birthday? 021006
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jane i was wondering what sign you were 021006
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jane still...who was it about? 021006
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lycanthrope it was boringly general i'm afraid. but if it was about someone, it was about someone real. 021006
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lycanthrope ugh...whatever that means. 021006
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lycanthrope it's what i've made of the things we're supposed to value more than words by turning them into words. 021006
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jane really.
sometimes, you must really delude yourself
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lycanthrope yes yes...and bring everyone else on the ride. 021111
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jane i wish i was one of those stars you'll be watching tonight
appear in the atmosphere
shoot across the sky
leaving behind a silver line
like the scar on my arm from that time i was cooking
burn out quickly
so you could forget i was there before you had time to make a wish
or know what you had missed
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dont know why for some reason,
i think this screen name is much better than your others, man.
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lycanthrope hmm and how often do i post with it? a liar knows when he's saying something important, even if it isn't true. 021215
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aaaaaaahhhhhhh. love it. rain_sweepings 021216
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lycanthrope anonymous praise is sweet. i can pretend it's anyone. god, the ghost of christmas past, even a person who hates me converted. strangers are cool too though. they knowed me through the node of my poemetry. 021216
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stork daddy yeah...well how do you know it wasn't just me? this could just be my me to you message board. i mean what kind of poem should be written with the title lycanthrope. oh probably a pretty cool one. i bet people come to this word thinking to find some words and they just find you mainly talking to yourself with interuptions you don't give enough space to! do something of note now! 021216
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bored ly
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garnier there's still skin under my fingernails and my mouth is full of blood. i am naked and my body is caked with filth. my limbs are sore and i keep pissing blood - i don't think it's my own hee hee. mayhap until next Cycle i will just lie here with my arms wrapped around my knees and soothe myself. i am so tired. 030923
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Britgrl Is this Wil 040618
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really its knot me you wish 040618
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your soulmate Hi lycanthrope talk to me....... 040702
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wolfgrl_666 Do you ever check this site 040703
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lycanthrope hello, simply unencumbered, set in my ways, hello. 041018
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smurfus rex When I was a kid, of all the monsters, werewolves were the most scary to me. The "Thriller" video made me more than a little scared of the outside dark for awhile. Since then, I've never had any desire to watch werewolf movies...except Teen Wolf, but Michael J. Fox isn't really that scary.

One time, I convinced my mom to buy me an issue of Weekly World News because it had a Werewolf Identification Checklist in it. Among the more memorable items were:

-If the person's right ring finger is longer than his right middle finger, he is probably a lycanthrope.

-If the person's urine is deep purple (I don't know how you'd check for this), he is probably a lycanthrope.

I became obsessed with hands for days after reading that article. I'm not as spooked about werewolves anymore (mostly), but I still don't reckon I have any reason to watch the Howling series...
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andru235 oh werewolfs, forgive me
for i have erred
to you the president
i recently compared

if only the president
would howl at the moon
at least then we'd know
he's no mere buffoon
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icy . 050917
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lycanthrope hello, simply unencumbered, hello. we know well the problems, but how are we doing on solutions? 050918
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icy thinking of you on this night of a beautiful lion's-eye gold full moon.

is ready for a bite
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lycanthrope don't tempt the one, unles you are ready for the many. and is the moon full? i only notice that i am. 050918
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icy you tempt me with your words, spun from a magical thread. i wait patiently and expectantly for you to appear. 050918
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stork daddy you will hear a knock at the window when you are entirely unprepared, either sifting through the foggy daze of a half sleep dream, or sweltering in your skin's half water coat having just left the shower. i will be outside, waiting, and is my visage promising or is it demanding? 050918
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lycanthrope but now back to my inscrutable life. 050918
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icy and why would it not be both?
the fact you'd be there waiting is promising in itself. your very presence demands note and an answering. thrilling all in itself. desiring.
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lycanthrope your window appeared icy, heat attempted to condense, a blur was that was left in the middle, between the two crisp worlds, one warm, one freezing. 050918
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icy
your heat on the outside, my bitter iciness within...
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icy and so a month has passed, and i find myself back at your door, perhaps taunting to see how far...

solutions and problems can pop up like toadstools and just as unsightly. however, now that the problems are indeed known, 'we' are left to the methodological implementation of said solutions. though perhaps the beast is the unemcumbered.
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jane deja_vu 051018
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lycanthrope indeed. don't come to me for solutions. but i can help you, for the small price of your safety, clarify your problems. 051020
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icy i don't mean to crowd your door with troubles, especially my own. i was answering a question you posed earlier (although most likely not to me anyhow), because it made me think. perhaps i wrote it out to attempt to relieve my thoughts. mind you, i appreciate greatly an offer of help.

my safety is already surrendered.

meant 'unencumbered'...
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lycanthrope i love being crowded. it's seemingly the only explanation for why i crowd myself. tell me what i can help you with. 051021
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icy first i must ask, how do you crowd yourself? although, if it's anything similar to my experiences, perhaps i already understand.

hmmm.... i would ask much of you in one question, and the most important to me now is how to help people not fall in love with me?
please understand that i use their words and not my own, but how would one prevent people from caring too much about them? how does one distance oneself from people so said people are not hurt? i have tried to say it bluntly (or so i have thought), i have even advertised it on tshirts that i wear, but there are always those who try for more than i am willing, or capable, of giving. and i don't want to hurt them; it seems to end up that way. even if they enter the relationship with no strings attached, it seems to be inevitable that attachments are made... being vague has its benefits and vices, but i try to capture the essence of the situations in which i find myself.

and now having said this much, i am afraid to click on that button that makes it fairly permanent for all to see... but i need help, and those i have immediately at my disposal have been quite exhausted. or unaskable.

please help me, dear lycanthrope. for once i have taken someone for their apparent word, but i do still expect nothing...
it is the nature of my own beast.
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lycanthrope i can see how people have trouble not falling in love with you to be honest. all you have to do is say you're lonely and people are attracted suddenly to you. they think, his/her problem is not people, but some people. surely i'm different they think. and if i knew the answer to your problem, then i'd know the answer to my own exactly similar problem. i court people because i want what my definition of love is, and i always end up making them think i want their definition of love. some things are hard to communicate, especially when people have different templates than you do when it comes to words like love. 051023
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jane is your definition of love the one that your environment has placed on you? or is it that which you made for yourself? 051024
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lycanthrope i'm not sure. i largely think that emotions like love are something we experience, not something we have a great amount of control over. the most we can do is limit the effects of our emotions, it's very difficult to fashion them anew. 051025
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lycanthrope then again, it seems our drive to be taken care of and possessed by another is so strong that people will "learn to love" in the most unlikely of situations. but when people speak of their kind of love, or how i love, i suppose they just mean under ideal conditions, this would be the list of what is given and what received. 051025
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jane funny how you turned so quickly from "you" to "we." 051107
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lycanthrope you know i have no confidence in describing myself. i really am only good for saying what generally appears true of others. i confuse me. well, just insert me for we and i guess that's the best i can do. 051107
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lycanthrope i guess i also assumed that when talking about something like love, there is by necessity some degree of universality and that the general applicability of your questions implied a question about the nature of love rather than the nature of my love. sorry if i failed you. let me try again. love for me is something difficult for me to craft out of whole cloth, though i often try. love for me is a variety of needs and feelings i file under one conceptual heading that has aspects both inherent and learned. for instance, i need certain type of human contact and support, but the methods i've developed to achieve them are largely ones i've learned. however, there are certain attempts at being loved that i think come with all humans. the reaching out, the need to touch. the details are something we can work on, but a lot of who we seek love from is based on who we received it from in the past. the question is kind of loaded, because being able to fashion something for one's self seems to imply a degree of free will, which is an open question. i do believe we can look at how we've achieved love in the past and whether we've been satisfied or disappointed and try to use the feedback to better satisfy ourselves and those involved with us. i don't know if that's the same as defining love for ourself because i think the emotions that lead us to the behaviors are largely natural. nature and nurture are equally dominating it seems. i don't know. we all have certain presumptions when it comes to relationships, based on our natural ability to perceive slights or pleasant overtures, combined with what situations we've associated with succor or sucko in the past. i think we have a limited ability to doubt those presumptions and to try and minimize their effects. but i think the abused child will be hard-pressed not to flinch, and not to expect a degree of domination by others in the course of getting what little they've come to expect. i think similarly the well-adjusted child will be less likely to stay in a relationship where they are getting a shit deal because that isn't the only script they have to associate with their positive emotions. i guess the same is true of me. if you'd like specifics i guess i can go into them. my mother is doting, loyal, and kind, my father was in his youth magnanimous and spread himself thin taking on multiple obligations to all and any that would accept him. he was more responsible than me. perhaps he wasn't around long enough to impart those lessons on me. he worked a lot and so was only home at night and every other weekend, and then he always seemed more of a magical visitor who clearly had an interest in us, who loved us, but in an ambiguous and not readily observable way. 051107
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