paranoid
me? "Well. What happens when paranoid meets paranoid? A crossing of solipsisms. Clearly. The two patterns create a third: a moire, a new world of flowing shadows, interferences. . . ."
-G.R.
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who me? every time I start being paranoid i look for the reason why the voices in my head are screaming at me, and then it doesn't seem so unnecessary. Paranoia is there for a reason, heed it. 000114
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j_blue you know you are paranoid when you start to see unlikely conspiracies (no matter how much evidence you collect that proves they do exist).

anything up to that is just harmless anxiety (which every modern citizen in our wonderful society should be quite used to by now)
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daanuh sometimes when im really
paranoid
i close up
i block everyone out
i walk around in a sea of people and avoid eye contact with all of them
theyre all out to get me
they all want to hurt me
i cant trust any of them
everyone is a stranger
i cant let them touch me
i never let anyone touch me
ill snap if they touch me
ill go off.

im really just afraid
i shake
i go into convulsions
i hate everything
i hate everyone
i dont like to talk
i dont like the noise
repetative things bother me
i dont like to be sneaked up on
i need my space

i almost killed my best friend once. she snuck up on me and i turned around and punched her in the face. she was knocked unconcious and went to the emergency room. i was suspended for "fighting". i didnt mean to hurt her. she should have known. but it wasnt her fault. i was just jumpy, thats all.

they sent me to a "doctor."
he said it was "just a phase."
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j_blue yall are paranoid

think about it, really
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PinkSnowStorm You might say I have a very vivid imagination. A very vivid and STUPID imagination. I somehow manage to make myself believe that there are demons nearby, or that the house is haunted with violent spirits, that I can see someone outside my window, etc. It seems so real when I'm in the moment and feeling those things. I think, later, after it's over, what if I like to be afraid, in some twisted way? Or am I just being stupid, and I know that those things really aren't there? I don't tell anyone. Except for my mom and a friend. My mom was the exact same way when she was my age. But really, I guess I'm just punishing myself in a way, because no one has control over how I feel or what I think except for me... 010119
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Quiggz Fear not the phantoms of your own mind, for they are only yourself, and while ourselves are among the few things to fear, we have control over ourselves. We have to learn how to use it. Or something..... 010119
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survivingtemplaranachronism paranoia...
a whole truckload of para-s
-like para-normal
seems like para is just another prefix for what others are too blind to see
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guitar_freak I thought I knew what paraniod meant because I have smoked a lot of weed in my days. The funny thing is I experienced a REAL paranoid episode when I wasn't stoned for like the first time in a month. That is why of course but hey, I thought I was going to die. I honest to god KNEW without a doubt in my mind that somwone was going to stab me in the back with a knife and that is how I would die. I was so frightened that I couldn't move and could only write. A wrote a poem and a letter to my friends and family saying everything I would want them to know if I were dead. I was crying and shit because I didn't know what to do. Yell for my parents for them to come and save me, but what if they were already dead or THEY were the ones who were going to kill me. Paranoia is a freaky fucking thing. I was SHOCKED all to hell when I woke up alive in the morning. Strange experience for fucking sure 010131
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mmm sometimes i'm way to paranoid, but i'm learning all i have to do is talk to her and my fears go away 010403
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L tainted telescope
mirrored pools in eyes
opened passages where undertones lied
swelling in concessions
no longer wary of that eye that attempted recession
knashing teeth behind smiles
beasts rising from bellies attempting last miles
choked back are thier snarls and growls
but the sensation of the air is this ear splitting howl
Then they always tell you lies
maybe truth???
so you wonder if it had anything to do
with what you watch reality though and if you forgot those spiders were still there and those other things that tainted it before then chances are your being paranoid
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yummychuckle some people say I'm paranoid.
but I'm not.

The penguins really are after us...

and our only protection is old men and chewing gum...

save yourselves from the penguins!!!
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Fallen You sit at your desk, in your room, in your house, on the street, in thetown, in a county, in a state, in a country, on a continent, on planet Earth, in our solar system, in the milky way galaxy, which is in our universe...But tell me again where the hell is our Universe?? 010604
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j_blue less so now, i hope

went through a spell, for the past while now

hoping its over as life moves forward
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. : * p s y b o r g * : . I am paranoid. If either of my crushes even glances at me or talks to me, I think they like me. I am so pathetic. They can make my day just by looking at me or talking to me. 011026
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birdmad wants a cracker (im just as bored as you) just because you're paranoid
don't mean they're not after you

gotta find a way
a better way
when i'm there
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translucent they are all out to get you, but they want to help 011026
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freakizh
they feed us from huge resources
cans, bags and packed
they hurry us with the time, the money, this and that
they hide us on little decorated refugees called home
they control us with pride messages of the spirit of america

and every year the world is getting warmer, the sun's getting bigger

is a meteor going to crash us or are we really movie-fucked up?
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good people paranoia is a disease unto itself. and may i add, the person standing next to you may not be who they appear to be. so take precaution. 020419
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birdmad is sorry for the inconvenience androids 020419
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smoke i began to think that insetc were figments of our imagination that moths ate out fabrics for the skin of our bodies i then started to think we were all once insects or are going to be insects when we die, we have something in common with moths we both follow a light that will lead us to our deaths 020813
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tobesiamese my mother recently told me i was a twin but my brother/sister died at birth, i have a scar running down my stomach and have half of my intestines removed, i have been complaining lately to my mother about my health condition, my mother told me i should be grateful that i was the healthy twin. 020813
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k-zoo help 021114
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Black Sabbath happiness i cannot feel
and love to me is so unreal

can you help me?
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singing freakizh i might be
but i'm no android





rraaaaaaaaaaiiinnnnnn doooowwwwwnnnn
rraaaaaaaaiiiiiinnnn doooooowwwwwwnnn
from a greeeeeatttt heeeeiiiiight
oohh oooohh ooohh
from a greeatttt heeiight
from a greeatttt heeiight
aaaaaaaaahh aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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dunstan when the government is after you. or me to be precise, i'm allowed to be a little paraniod. 021125
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dunstan with the government on your tail. 021125
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IKC 56-80 make a joke and i will sigh 021125
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Gho$t Luckily it exists; luckily it opens doors and new lines of thought,
I love the thought,
I hate the feeling,
I hate the truth


Beware the savage law of 1984
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paranoid martyr yes, can i help you? 030125
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DavesHeroinGirl What you claim to be again and again. From what I know though, you mostly just seem kissable. 030125
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Bizzar Ever since I started med school, and learning about just how much can go wrong with your body, I found Ive become paranoid. Everytime I get sick I over analyze my symptoms, and think I have some disease.

Maybe this field isn't right for me.
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knockoutrob ever go into a chatroom, and there's like a hundred ppl in it? but no one says anything. they're all looking at you. 'who's this new guy?'. you hang around for like 10 minutes, but they say nothing. you know if you say ANYTHING, they're gonna kick you out and ban you and send you viruses and hack you and the like. so you just leave.... like this.... 030417
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god that moose... he's eyeing me... 030417
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User24 well, I'm amazed it hasn't been said yet, so here goes;

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Finished with my woman coz she couldn't help me with my mind

People think I'm insane becuase I am frowning all the time


All day long I think of things but nothing seems to satisfy

Think I'll lose my mind if I don't find something to pacify

Can you help me?
Are you for my brain?
Oh yeah!


I need someone to show me the things in life that I can't find

I can't see the things that make true happiness - I must be blind


Make a joke and I will sigh and you will laugh and I will cry

Happiness I cannot feel and love to me is so unreal


And so as you hear these words telling you now of my state

I tell you to enjoy life I wish I could but it's too late..

(thankyou, goodnight, we love you all)
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no reason sometimes i think you hate me

because i don't know that you don't

i wish you would be straight with me, and tell me exactly how you felt, because then i'd be able to deal with it as it was, and i wouldn't feel so
pathetically like someone who needs to be avoided.

please stop trying to spare my feelings, because it's backfiring immensely.
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xyz don't flatter yourself. 031228
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jane paranoid_android 031228
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falling_alone we called her paranoid when we tore up her room searching for a small scrap of paper that eventually we found.

it was a doodle...

a very small doodle...

that she claimed was quite bad...

we tore up her whole room becuase we thought it was something scandalous...

it was a very small doodle...
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xyz i was being private. which made you paranoid.

and it really was a bad doodle.
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BitterSweetDream I'm used to it now. For the fear she will leave me. For the fear she'll see I'm just me, and want something more. For the fear she'll no longer be mine.... 040108
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singing in my pjs like rite now, I'm going only one sentence for fear of being laughed at. 040205
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hehe HAHAHHA! 040206
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Mokita "There's only one thing stranger than what's going on inside his head.
It what's going on outside." - Barton Fink
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somebody I hate feeling this way, I've always been a bit paranoid but this is starting to take over my whole thought process and what I say and how I am, I hate being this way I donít want this to control my life and yet it already feels too late 040401
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somebody Diagnostic Criteria for Paranoid Personality Disorder:

A pervasive distrust and suspiciousness of others such that their motives are interpreted as malevolent, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by four (or more) of the following:

suspects, without sufficient basis, that others are exploiting, harming, or deceiving him or her

is preoccupied with unjustified doubts about the loyalty or trustworthiness of friends or associates

is reluctant to confide in others because of unwarranted fear that the information will be used maliciously against him or her

reads hidden demeaning or threatening meanings into benign remarks or events
persistently bears grudges, i.e., is unforgiving of insults, injuries, or slights

perceives attacks on his or her character or reputation that are not apparent to others and is quick to react angrily or to counterattack

has recurrent suspicions, without justification, regarding fidelity of spouse or sexual partner
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floralieca How did you know how to describe me ?! 040401
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Jessie I get paranoid whenever I go without sleep for more than a day. I start screaming things like "THE SQUIRRELS ARE OUT TO GET ME!"

I also have no idea what is going on at this site. I think it's an evil scheme run by the government.
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maybe_the_cia_owns_blather 040615
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TK floralieca,

BC I tend to feel this way some what offten, and besides I looked it up on a website that had to do w/ paranoia
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metamantrg as me it consumes alot of my time wondering who's looking over my shoulder or to whome my be spying or fallowing me 040902
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going psyChO i know exactly what you mean sometimes i can't relax or do what i might normally do. scary enough i often discover myself feeling inhibited while i'm alone. 040903
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Syrope it's odd how i can get lost in my own who_blathes page. it's true about analyzing literature, that patterns emerge that the author never hid. and patterns that WERE hidden don't always show for sure 040903
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fritz Paranoia is the best defense against against doing something you'll regret. 041130
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Evilair Please could you stop the noise, I'm trying to get some rest
From all the unbornchickenvoices in my head
What's that?
What's that?
(ok you're paranoid.. but you're an android..)
When I am king you will be first against the wall
With your opinion which is of no consequence at all
What's that?
What's that?
(ok you're paranoid.. but you're an android..)
Ambition makes you look pretty ugly
K i c k i n g s q u e a l i n g g u c c i l i t t l e p i g g y
You don't remember
You don't remember
Why don't you remember my name?
Off with his head, man
Off with his head, now
Why don't he remember my name?
I guess he does
Rain down on me from a greast height..
That's it sir
You're leaving
The crackle of pig skin
The dust and the screaming The yuppies networking
The panic, the vomit
The panic, the vomit
God loves his children
God loves his children, yeah!
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Syrope each time it happens i wonder "now?" but it never comes about
and every time i have to doubt i start preparing myself for words you probably aren't thinking of saying, and it only makes it worse

maybe today
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Farool *Raises hand* 051030
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paranoia I love you now more than i had in my life 051107
what's it to you?
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