spying shh i apologize, but the explanation and excuse is simple enough. i was in love with you, who you are, what you write, how you think, and after the first few months you stopped sharing yourself with me. i wasn't good enough to be your confidant anymore. and though on the outside you became much much less to me, a childish, selfish fool, blundering her way through an overly dramatized life, i knew that somewhere hidden inside was the beautiful heart i had fallen in love with, and held on to that memory with all my strength. but i needed to see it with my eyes, the life and love you hid from me, while maintaining that it was still there, just sick or injured for a time, so i pried and saw, and became addicted. all i ever wanted was to share lives with you, but you hid yours away. i should have just given up, let you go, but all i could think of was the way it felt to know what you really felt. i had to get my fix somewhere. 031127 ... question_mark I always believe that a heart-felt justificationou can justify anything. You sound genuine. But then again I don't know what harm your prying has caused... I hope nothing bad came of it. 100914 ... Sapp it was just that I have adored you passionately for so long I am not a snoop not a hacker You were always safe with me just the thought of you having sex with this person BRAGGING to me about it (why????? for WHO??????) I never stopped loving You she poisons You daily about me now I am sure calling me not sincere and 'grandma' with every screw I will never know why You left just because I cant speak there now how can You not know I still adore You????????? why'd we meet precious? and will *we ever speak again? PLEASE FORGIVE ME IT WAS NOT MY CHOICE TO GO *I wish *You'd move here O em beautiful boy 100915 what's it to you? who go blather from