mahayana_says_goodbye Mahayana: Zakah: thank you everyone whom has been supportive & kind to me here your words & compassion have been such gifts please take care of yourselves and be well/love ya guys/ [Toxic kisses- thank you for the card it was beautiful & touched my heart] 020103 ... birdmad aww, why are you going? i enjoyed your words in much the same abstract way as i enjoy kx21 you will be missed here do come back sometime 020103 ... ever dumbening (the lesser vehicle) i got the same kx21 vibe and was going to crack wise along the lines of blather_matchmaker, but twould have been inappropriate. anyway, blather is like alcoholism: once a blathe R, always a blathe R. m i c ya real soon k e y because we like you M Z S J R 020103 ... Jenna ::tries to say something, but instead bursts into tears, runs into her room and slams the door:: 020103 ... unhinged and i was thinking you might be the first blatherskite i got to meet in person when i go back to milwaukee this summer unless my comprehension has gone to shit and i meet frAnk first. i'll just thank you again for that poem you sent me awhile ago. it made me smile in a day where i would have otherwise had nothing to smile about. 020103 ... god shane!!!! come back!!!! 020103 ... Teenage Jesus Aw Dad! You always know what to say. I'm rolling on the freaking floor here. "Shane!!" 020104 ... ClairE Do you know how beautiful your words are? YOU, my dear, are the one who knows how to spread beauty around. Far more so than I. 020104 ... hey now! ill miss you 020104 ... Toxic_Kisses Oh I just can’t believe the audacity of you ppl! If you really want her to stay E-mail her and let her know! After all seeing as how she has said bye do you think she will be actually coming back to read this blather? ShiT NO! My god why can't you stop being so freaking lazy and instead write her an E-mail and let her know how much she means to you, I mean really this girl/woman is bloody fucking amazing and your just going to LET Her leave w/o even a fight? Right now more than ever she needs your support and caring and all yall (Most of yall any ways, not ALL of yall) can do is say "oh well, was nice knowin yaz, Bye!" and wave politely? My god have you ppl gone insane! We really like Mahayana: Zakah: Sangha Jewels of Refuge don’t we?? Than ban togeather LET HER KNOW! 020104 ... irritated bird back up for a second, TK. i like you as a fellow blatherer and i appreciate the sentiment you are trying to put across here, and god knows you may well be right on the money, but you'll erode any goodwill anyone might have for you if you put it forth in those terms. learn a little goddamn diplomacy, will you? (please note the irony of this sentence) it's the lack of civility and tact (which you should know well enough from that whole episode on red_blather a while back) that seems to erode the heart of this place while i'll admit to being guilty of the laziness you speak of, did you ever stop to think that maybe, just maybe that isn't the case with everyone? no, it was easier just to generalize, which in itself was pretty lazy. so like i said, tox, back up. 020104 ... nic fit birdmad sorry, 9 days without a cig. i'm a cranky bastard right now even with gum, i have already chewed 2 pencils down to pulp today 020104 ... Toxic_Kisses No, Bird mad theirs really no need to apologize, your right. I truly like every one here and to berate and insult my fellow blatherers is not only out of line but sure as heck isn’t going to make any one want to make them write Mahayana after all no one wants to do anything their TolD or berated into doing. If anything I owe you and the rest of the ppl in blather an apology for going off on yall like that, theirs truly no excuse for what I did. Like you said I could of expressed myself better if only I'd allowed my self to calm down and think things though be for I wrote them. Either way I just wanted to let you (and every one else) know I'm sorry for (over)reacting as harshly as I did. 020105 ... birdmad understood, now let's just hope mahayana comes back 020105 ... cube Sorry to hear she's leaving. I had just recently learned how to decode her posts and was starting a dialog in a pure programming language - thinking she had a knack for the logic of it... ³ 020106 ... kerry mahayana, where are you going??? your words are beautiful and gilded and always comforting..... come back! i love you! [sniffles, curls up, covers face and begins to cry.] 020106 ... Mahayana: Zakah: }streaming decrescendos of being'ness }}blindness 2 |any| tomorrows tomorrow }}}currents of dispair }}}}loss creating loss }}}}}salvation }}}}}}in }}}}}}}pockets }}}}}}of }}}}}air }}}}[your] }}}words }}in }dualforms }}}blathers love{{{ {{beauty in you}} }}}faith in life{{{ {{encouragmentations}} }}}missing you all{{{ }}sensations }}}of }}}}hope's }}}}}love }}}}}}and }}}}}}}rebirthing }}}}}}}}breathes }}}}}}}of }}}}}}encouragment }}}}}beauty }}}}and }}}strengths }}love }whispering reaDy 2 test all world faiths/ rooted in gout wrecked despair, walks away from greatest borrowed gifts, life, took speed onto rushed pace/reaDy 2 test all world faiths i was looking to end my own life :::than i realized::: almost in a meditative/reflective/ state of consciousness/thinking about them all/ one at a time/ before flowing/ onto /the next one 1. Falling in [love]. someone falling in love with you. grape vines infroming you- that someone you truly admire- has started falling for you. realizations & respect for spectrums of love. 2. [Laughing] so hard your face hurts, cheeks sting, jaws throb, crimson hues, belly aches, nose glows, & eyes raining. 3. A hot releasing/relaxing/steamy [shower]. 4. No [lines] at your favorite shop. bookstore. antique mall. thrift store. resale shop. junk yard. 5. A special [glance]. catching an admiring stare. blushing when you yourself are caught glancing. 6. Getting [mail]. email, snail mail, telegrams. pen pals. post cards. avant garde mail. 7. Taking a [drive] on a pretty road. no plans. no directions. just instinct. 8. Hearing your favorite [song] on the radio. record/8 track/CD score. donated stereo equipment. miXed tapes from friends. global tape eXchanges. 9. Lying in bed listening to the [rain] outside. rooftops serenades. animals dancing across roofs. house creaking in wind. 10. Hot [towels]/clothing out of the dryer. fortunate enough= owning a dryer. line dried clothing. winds music whisping through clothing. windchimes. 11. Finding the [what-ever] you want is on sale for half price. even better... a thrift store item is half price. by passing that sale. charities. food pantries. 12. ]milkshakes.[ mustaches. kool-aid lips. sugar. sandwhich baggies. green lemon lime dyed fingers. blow pops. 13. A long distance [phone call]. calls. phones. voices. accents. no lung cancer. whispers. sighs. 14. A bubble [bath]. floating toys. rubber duckies. oil beads. scents. pruned toes/fingers. soap craYons. 15. ]Giggling[. 16. A good [conversation]. 17. the [beach].lake.moat.river.creek water fountain. garden hose. mother natures tears of joy & hope. 18. Finding a $20 bill in your coat from last [winter]. $10 in jeans. piece of gum. starbursts. phone numbers. ticket stubs. momentos. awesome find on the sidewalk. chalk. hop scotch. cats craddle. 19. Laughing at [yourself]. 20. [Midnight], or any other time, phone calls that last for hours. america & austrailia in same room. 21. Running through [sprinklers][rain][puddles][leaves][hay piles][tall grass][corn fields][wild flower fields]. 22. Laughing for absolutely [no reason] at all. 23. Having someone tell you that you're [beautiful][intelligent][humorous][witty][loved][needed][missed][understood][ ]. 24. Laughing at an inside [joke]. 25. ]Friends[. 26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something [nice] about you and/or someone you love. 27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to [sleep]. its sunday not monday. 28. Your first [kiss.] last kiss. neXt kiss. imagined kisses. secret kisses. scripted kisses. practiced kisses. uneXpected kisses. Black-blue-red-pink-orange-yellow through white kisses. 29. Making new friends or spending [time] with old ones. everyone you meet is a friend. you are your own best friend. 30. Playing with a new pet [puppy][kitten][lizard][fish][salamander][froggy][tarantula][leech][birdy][rock][sea monkeys][ ]. 31. Having someone [play] with your hair. playing with someones hair. relaxing. meditative. soothing. shivers. goosebumps. deep breathes. around-through-under fingers 32. Sweet [dreams]. |returning| 2 sweet dreams. day dreams. 33. [Hot] chocolate. marshmellows in hot chocolate. hot tea. tea & fortune cookies. 34. [Road] trips with friends. 35. Swinging/twisting on [swings]. 36. giving presents. homemade/handmade gifts. colored pictures/drawings from children [friends]. coloring with nieces/nephews/children/friends/by self. 37. Song [lyrics] w/CDs. being teased 4 singing wrong words. making up new words for old lyrics. making up silly songs on the fly. 38. Going to a really good [concert]. concerts for free. lilith fair & sarah mclachlan 4 free. 39. Making [eye] contact with a cute stranger. making eye contact with a shy person. making eye contact with yourself. any eye contact. eye contact with your ears. 40. Winning a really competitive [game]. enjoying defeat. appreciating the play. understanding the eXchange. 41. Making [cookies]. surprise plates of cookies for neighboors. grandmas. lonely people. elderly people. sick people. college students. kids cookies. cookies without sugar in home-economics. 42. Having your friends send you [homemade] cookies. 43. Spending time with [close] friends. 44. Seeing [smiles] 'and' hearing [laughter] from your friends. from anyone. 45. Holding [hands] with someone you care about. children taking your hand. elders wrinkels. tiny baby fingers & toes. 46. Running into an old friend and [realizing] that some things {good or bad} never change. 47. Riding the best roller [coasters] over and over. equating rollars coasters with butterfly fuzzies in your heart. love. cars over & down hills. 48. Watching the [expression] on someone's face as they open a much desired/appreciated present from you. 49. Watching the [sunrise]. birds grettings. sunsets. heavens painting. 50. Getting out of bed every morning and thanking god, science, yourself, and/or a higher power[s]/ for another beautiful day. :::this blathe is dedicated 2 all whom cared/still care/didnt care, 2 all whom have composed/thought/emailed beautiful words of love & emotion, 2 all whom have been at that rush paced in life, 2 those whom have wished for a rushed pace, i love u all oh so dearly & sincerely...and i thank you for far more than you could ever realilize::: [[i miss u *all*, adore u all, have thought about, wished, & hoped many 'o sweet things, for & about you all]] [i appologize for my depature] [[embrace[d] all your kind words]] & am [crying inside]...[i am home] [[[thank life i am home]]] 020106 ... Jenna {{{{{{Hug for mahayana}}}}}} welcome back! *tearful grin* 020106 ... pralines&cream Mahayana, I've never talked to you, but I've read your blathes. And i'm glad you're back :) 020106 ... cube I'd be careful about #22 above ;-) Good Luck... ¹²³ 020107 what's it to you? who go blather from