open_letter_to_god sabbie how come you wouldnt tell us the real rules? how come you dont let us in on the secrets? youre starting to look like the governments [and who is ruling who anyway? you like to pretend that your in control but really, why then are there 14 ranks above the american president?] but its all getting out of hand, isnt it? its all starting to fall apart on you. i never bought that bible shit, rules enough to live by as long as youre some goat shagger in the desert somewhere a milenim ago, yeah well, thats all fine but where do i fit into that? how come you get to set up the board and put all the pieces down without telling anyone how to play? who made you god? who gave you the office and the desk and the ability to cain people at random? what the fuck do you think your pulling up there? you know how the masons annoy everyone who isnt a member, prancing around with their aprons and thinking that they are better than everyone else cos they have their little clique that only the 'select few' get to join? well, we've all got together down here and decided that thats a pretty accurate metaphore for what your doing up there. and we wont even start on your nancy bastard of a son today. really, your just starting to look rediculas. jsut stop it, ok? hey - all that sniggering might be entertaining you but its jsut annoying the fuck outta me. if you have a problem with this being an open letter, well, i couldnt find your address. how about once in a while letting us know where you live? your mother and i are worried about you, joh. 020421 ... god i take it you're not happy? 020421 ... Dack Rambo is my father Maybe sadness is what caused this person to believe ridiculous is spelled rediculas. 020421 ... Kate Dear God, This weekend was a plate of suck, as Justin would say repeatedly. I wanted to run in the meet on Saturday but then I got sick and felt like dying. I thought that playing the piano for church went worse than it actually did. I'm sorry for letting you down. 020421 ... lobsterman Dear God, This is me. You recognize me right? Not that i'd recognize you. I know it's my fault, i haven't kept in touch. It's just, all the other letters i've sent have gotten that whole return to sender deal. But Elvis knew there was another way, and so i'm trying to find one too. All i really wanted to ask was...is there a plan? I mean i know you give us opportunities, but do we have to do work too? Okay, i guess what i mean is...just tell me if there is a plan or if i should start planning for myself. And if there is a plan, why am i not as wonderful and alive and world shattering as you made me think i was going to be as a child? Was all that hope and wonder just a trick to get me past puberty into adulthood where i'm too lazy to give up? I mean, i'm not a pirate or an astronaut yet, let alone a space pirate. I only speak one language well. I'm not the ultimate fighting champion. As a lover, the most wonderful things i have to offer largely go unnoticed, and it's my own stifling of them that's to blame, and yet i can't seem to do anything about it. A little help would've been nice. But i know i know, all god's creatures have a place in the choir, some sing low, some sing higher, some sing out loud on the telephone wire, some just clap their hands or paws or anything they've got now. But where should i go, i'm awkwardly in between it seems, my voice cracked but sometimes it still seems like it could soar, and then other days my voice is mighty low like a bullfrog, and my hopping no less lethargic. I mean if hopping is compared to soaring you see my beef. And that's another thing, for the last time, should i or should i not feel guilty when i masturbate, it would really help if i could get a definitive answer. i mean, am i making myself stronger or weaker for future lovers, and if masturbation is okay should it always be to my imagination (which is formed by what i've seen) or should i stick to the visual stimuli. Is there any purpose to strengthening one, or should i just try to relax and have a little fun. Also, should i buy into all that archaic adam and eve nonsense? Were dinosaur bones just a way of testing our faith. Is creationism valid if i switch to intelligent design theory? Couldn't you just make things easier by talking to people like it says you always used to do, or was that always kind of a light internal voice and not the big booming one that Charlton Heston likes to talk to and now with. Like cause sometimes before i go to bed at night i'll hear that faint one, but that can't be you, if it is, i feel i could extinguish you with a well timed turn, or an itch. And if you're in my mind, will you ever answer this letter? I'd be ever so happy either way. You get a bad wrap. People create you then tear you down like a straw man. But i know, i know you're listening to this letter, i know you'll make a song come the radio that tells me something, even if you have to make me do the work for you. I believe, but i'm exasperated and sometimes i don't sing at church or even go to church actually because what if i'm reviled and you aren't there to protect me. Granted their accusations may be just as empty, but they don't have to sing about it. Like...i didn't go to church on palm sunday. But on sunday i did make vigorous use of my palms. I worked myself over like a rosary. So...if you don't even answer the plan question, please tell me...masturbation is it guilt worthy or is it just the inevitable result of having a self? Any attempts at an answer will be appreciated, i'll be listening to my radio all day. Thanks God....God bless...yourself. 020421 ... poetic_onslaught Dear God, if you really do exist then why dont you show yourself? you want us to believe so blindly in what your book says. u must b looking for an army of idiots. do u know how many times ive swore in your name and committed blasphemy? if you do then u must also know how it tore me apart inside for not believing. i love you. u must know how i needed someone stronger than i to lean on....but i could never find your shoulder, i never found your embrace. i hate you. so we just have to go by your rules or we go to hell huh? your no different than a bully. who made you god? what makes you think i need a god?...i love you....out of fear. if you loved me so much then you wouldnt make me love you out of fear. but wait...maybe your not really there. that eliminates my fear. but if you are there......im alwayz going in circles when it comes to you. 020421 ... andy partridge dear_god 020421 ... god beats the fuck outta me 020422 ... Sailor Jupiter One question.... Ostriches...what the fuck? What's the point? 020422 ... Mahayana [{dont you know it is a federal offense to read someone else's mail}] ::tsk tsk:: *wiggels finger at jesus-mary-and/or joseph* [closes the letter to god] 020422 ... silentbob dear god i just want you to know i don't blame you for anything. 020422 ... god why not? 020422 ... silentbob because i don't believe you are responsible for anything that exists 020422 ... God why did i make any of you? i've looked around here, you know.. well.. i love you anyway.. 030504 ... joda Dear God: I agree with Silent Bob. But, you could change my mind if I were to open my front door tomorrow morning and see a bag with dollar signs on the side of it (so I know it's legit), full of money. Just sitting there. No one has to know, just me & you, really... 030504 ... no reason dear maynard, no words can really do you justice so... here... take my soul. 030505 ... god are you sure about that? won't you need it when i gets cold? 030505 ... methinx I'd just like to say I noticed all the purple flowers today, and... thank you for that. 030505 ... x the_color_purple 030505 ... no reason i don't think so, god. it was colder than ever last night, and it didn't seem to offer me any warmth. maybe because that's when it was taken... i'm sorry, maynard. i never expected this. 030506 ... lo hey G-d whats up? i kinda miss you. it was cool way back in day when i had faith and me and you used to talk everyday just about stuff in general. i used to think you'd make things happen for me and i still do but it not so strong anymore. i know things happened. thing i had actually asked for would come true. maybe you just like kids better. i try sometimes to get back in cool with you but it always seems strained. the intimacy isn't there as it used to be. maybe cuz i can only belive half way. half beliveing i'm talking to myself half hoping that i'm talking to you. i wish i could get my faith back...that i would know how to even start. it's pretty easy to lose it when you most everything you belive turns out not to be true. i just can't tell what's worth beliveing in and whats junk and that gets me in trouble i suppose. i'm trying though. i just wish i had some idea of what the hell you want from me. what does all this stuff you've been throwing in my path mean? what am i supposed to do with it? where are you taking me? yeah i know you get this all the time but seriously... anyway laters god talk to you soon 030506 ... Aimee Dear God, It's me. I was just wondering.. is it going to get any better or are we going to be struggling week by week just praying to get by? I just would like to know so that i can either get my hopes up or just become embittered and get it over with. Write back when you can. 030506 ... stork daddy dear god...what were you thinking?! 030506 ... guess what??? bam! evangelion 030506 ... god i dunno. who knows 030507 ... celestias shadow god? are you- i mean, were you- i mean- ack! what do you say to a nonproven entitity? confusion springs to mind. how about- dear god, why? why did you do it? 030901 ... cHRISTIAN In a heart of my, there was a hole, made by your hand, filled with anger, tears and bitternes...than You came and clen that walls with your blood and filled it with your love..THANK YOU JESUS! 040416 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl dear God why do you torture me so? i found the nicest, friendliest and warmest place in my soul due to another religion. why couldnt you do that for me? do you want me to give up this acceptance and love to be in the cold, a doubting christian? why wont you talk to me? why the fuck wont you answer me? why is it that whatever i want to believe in religion is tainted now? you never talked to me never once gave me a sign that you're there you bind me to christianity with fear, fear that i'll go to hell if i dont do what you want it should be about love but i dont know if you're really there if you arent, then i can follow wicca and be happy, the happiest ive ever been if you are there, then im going to go to hell for doing what i want with my life believing what i want i'll never know until its too late i dont want to go to hell i still believe in you, more out of fear than actual faith i can't be a full wiccan with you casting a shadow over what i do like an angry father looming over the miscreant, the unruly child why cant it be simple? i cant choose i dont want to be a christian chances are my father will blame himself for the rest of his life for failing to bring me up right as he likes to call it i'll get that though, he'll take it out on me. he'll keep saying how lost i am he's helped put me off christianity for life i cant be a wiccan i cant be a christian i dont know what to do please please resolve this its whirling through my head faster than i can absorb it i need to see i dont know if ill like what i see as it is my fascination with wicca will be explained as satanic even though it has nothing to do with satan it will be 'satan's power' also the wiccan god and goddess and all the other deities in the religion i cant believe in them, for fear of wrath and revenge from you, who i dont even know exists its the chance i cant take the chance that you do i feel dirty and guilty now in this pure religion i so preferred to the christian dictatorship i feel so ashamed after every healing ritual after everything i do i pray for forgiveness to a god i dont even truly believe in you're like the bogeyman to me im afraid to cross you, even though you're more of a myth than anything else to me this is blasphemy im going to have to pray after this for forgiveness its a never ending cycle can anybody help? not necessarily you; anybody ........ 040416 ... three words out_of_breath open_letter_to_god tail_devouring_snake 200114 what's it to you? who go blather from