circle_and_cross daf What is the problem? What is it that we are doing? Why is it that we prefer doing circles to bearing the cross of our deepest insecurities. There is love, and there is fear. That is all. Look behind the facade of intellectualism, emotion, drama, technology, rhetoric and delusion and you will find, behind the veil, only scared people, acting out of fear. Arrogance is an insecure one's defense against the encroachment of low self-esteem. It is how he fends off other egos and how he shields himself from rejection. Greed is an insecure one's fear of the world around, a false notion that by surrounding herself with enough things, she will hold the universe and it's changes at bay. Hate is an insecure one's reaction to fear of hurt, and the ghosts of past transgressions. So on, and so on. There is only love, and fear, with fear really an illusion created by the human mind. The reality is..there is only LOVE. The circle and cross, ancient symbol of the crossing over from stagnation, to rebirth. We claim we want peace, and so we throw ourselves into making it happen. But we don't really want peace. We simply fear the atrocities that humans commit against each other. We claim we want freedom, and so we walk into the path of bullets and kill one another to secure it. Daily, our freewill is used in a concerted effort to suppress freewill. Just look at your waking world, small and growing smaller. Look at the lines and signs that surround you on a daily basis and tell me...are there less or more? Do rules and limitations = freedom then? No. We do not desire freedom, we want protection, we are afraid of chaos and unpredictability. We don't really want freedom, we fear freedom, we fear what others will do with it. Surely, these two examples will show that we are not engaged in chasing our dreams, but in running like hell from our fears. We are running in circles, stagnant and going nowhere. This is evolutionary extinction, regardless of your place in the food chain. We should be spiralling upward, instead, we are running in place. This is the meaning of the Circle. In astrology, the cross represents those aspects that are most difficult: oppositions and squares. These represent challenge, conflict and change. We are, as a race, at the crossing over point in our evolution, and all that is required is that we be willing to release our fears, and have one hundred percent faith in our ability to overcome whatever obstacles might stand between us and our dreams. To run from a thing will attract it to you surer than anything. As a tiny particle on the water will follow the hand that brushes across the surface, as dogs will chase that which runs, as air will rush in to fill the void that is left behind in the turbulence of a moving vehicle. When we run from our fears, planning our politics and policies around that which makes us tremble, we bring those fears even closer to realization. The symbol of the Cross asks us to walk into the jaws of our worst fears, in order to come out purified on the other side. Trial by fire. Letting go of fear to embrace our dreams. It is the most difficult thing in the world to do. To stop focusing on the worst possibilities, and to refocus on the best.. Where ARE our dreams? If we don't know...how can we walk in that direction? How will we steer our way to the correct destination while focusing intently on the wrong one? What will follow (I'm awaiting a quote from a book by Blavatsky in which she defines the symbol of the Circle and Cross in more esoteric terms) if we stop being afraid of unemployment, crime, starvation, homelessness, death and greed? The grip these fears have over our race will slacken. We will at last have rid ourselves of the demon of our past...the endless circles that can only lead to our demise. We will have faced the challenge of the cross and returned to the Path of our evolution. Be well. Don't fear. Watch your negative behaviors as these are products of fear, nothing more. Search your heart and find the source of that fear. Then look in the opposite direction and there find your goal. Walk straight into what may FEEL like the worst decision of your life. On the other side..those who love you will be waiting, to walk with you. Away from the nightmare...and into the dream.. 050911 ... daf "THE CIRCLE AND CROSS Something of the divine and mysterious has ever been ascribed, in the minds of the ancient philosophers, to the shape of the circle. The old world, consistent in its symbolism with its pantheistis intuitions, uniting the visible and the invisible Infinitudes into one, represented Deity and its outward VEIL alike--by a cirlce. This merging of the two into unity, and the name theos given indifferenty to both, is explained, and becomes thereby still more scientific and philisophical. Plato's etymological definition of the word theos has been shown elsewhere. He derives it from the verb (OEE I or L V a difficult illustration to describe) (see cratylus), "to move" as suggested by the motion of the heavenly bodies which he connects with deity. According to the Esoteric philosophy, this deity is during its "nights" and its "days" (i.e., cycles of rest or activity) "the eternal perpetual motion," "the EVER-BECOMING, as well as the ever universally present, and the ever Existing." The latter is the root-abstraction, the former--the only possible conception in human mind, if it disconnects this deity from shape and form. It is a perpetual, never-ceasing evolution, circling back in its incessant progress through aeons of duration into its original status--ABSOLUTE UNITY.... The Pleiades are the central group of the system of sidereal symbology. They are situated in the neck of the constellation of Taurus, regarded by Madler and others, in astronomy, as the central group of the system of The Mily Way, and in the Kabala and Eastern Esotericism, as the sidereal septenate born from the first manifested side of the upper triangle, the concealed (symbol: picture of a triangle, just plain). This manifested side is Taurus, the symbol of ONE(the figure 1), or of the first letter of the Hebrew alphabet, Aleph (symbol: a slash going the other way, with a dot swirl on each side of slash) (bull or ox) whose synthesis it ten (10), or (symbol:just the one swirl dot) Yodh, the perfect letter and number. The Pleiade (Alcyone, especially), are thus considered, even in astronomy, as the central point around which our Universe of fixed stars revolves, the focus from which and into which the divine breath, MOTION, works incessantly during the Manvantara. Hence--in the Occult philosophy and its sidereal symbols--it is this circle and the starry cross on its face, which play the most prominent part." - Madame H. P. Blavatsky (to be continued...) 050912 ... LA 9122005: 4 hours ago: Crossed wires leave in dark 050912 ... ILove Now, this more than just pisses me off, hey atleast its not as low an emotional tone as fear is:-) I mean just the act of chastening helps promote fear, unless there is a light at the end of the tunnel. But the way society has evolved with dogma putting fear in our hearts. And you make a mistake, and boom, it ain't always easy jumping in head first. If we are on some evolutionary circle, how the hell do you get off with karma and freewill? I love your analogies on the cross and circle by the way. O.K. first read, ohh the anger not directed at you. 050913 ... ILove Selma...And when it all boils down to it, after all we say that we pretend we mean, its all about me. When we put ourselves first all the time, there is not much time left for others, and thats what it has boiled down to. But really no one particular person is at fault, it is everyone, and everywhere you go. It is the parents who can't wait for the childeren to grow up, so they have the house to themselves. It is the teenager who thinks their parents are stupid, and knows they can do it better. It is the child who can't wait to do it on their own, from getting dressed to brushing their teeth. It is the mom who says, grow up do it yourself, to the dad who says grow up do it yourself. I am not sure if the circle will keep going around, or end with a bang. But all myself can do personally is try to change. If we could all have un-conditional love, then it wouldn't matter if we ever learned to do it all on our own, because we would have each other. But we have the mess some people make, or the toilet seat left up, or she does this or that, or he does this or that. And we can barely stand to be around each other. All the bad habits that we have no tolerance of do not show love to one another, it is no wonder we have evolved this way. Is this the lesson of life? I really don't know for sure, but there is an underlying current of love and not hate, otherwise why would we even try. It so much makes you afraid to fly, like a little bird who doesn't believe. And when you are one who keeps trying and never seems to get it right, well then look out, there is no one about. I think the solution to the worlds problem is un-conditional love. Now to just figure out where to start? 050914 ... ILove I'm sorry daf, but are there really others waiting on the other side? I highly doubt in all cases. Especially for the ones who keep screwing up. 050914 ... dafremen My participation in this thread ends with this blathe. (You have my email address if you would like to have an all out blow-out of opinions with me. I'm sure we'll both have fun.) Your doubts about "the other side" probably stem from a preconceived notion about what others consider "the other side." In this piece, we are talking about the other side of whatever trials and tribulations that life may throw our way when we break from our pointless routines and ruts. Is everything ok? You seem highly agitated, love. That would make two of us. You'll forgive me if I'm not in good form tonight, see, my wife of 15 years just slit her wrist in front of my kids on Tuesday night. (Did I say slit? I meant practically hacked her hand off.) I held her lifeless hand onto her arm for 20 minutes until the paramedics arrived. We watched the severed tendons in her arm moving. We saw the ends of her veins, like so much red macaroni hanging out and rubbing against my hands. Pardon me, if I'm not real gentle and loving and helpful to someone who wants to fill this blathe up with questions and points directed at me that could have just as easily been sent through other channels. Please, please pardon me. I so much more liked it when you kept your doubts and your fears and your critiques in private email. But hey, welcome to blather. Yea, I'll probably do better next time. I'll probably get the words just right. But see, I'm having a hard time composing myself enough to let someone ELSE slather THEIR opinion all over me like some poorly investigated, underthought, half-baked crap marmalade. I hope you understand. (Wow was that an irrational sentence or what? Well I like the look of it..so it stands.) I mean what with being cheated on three weeks ago, having her try to take my son from me a week and a half ago, and then having her try the ULTIMATE manipulation to keep me from leaving...suicide...well you can just imagine how little of your shaken-fist filled drivel I want to read right now. (Ouch. Sorry again. This is what happens when we just let our mouths run away when we are distraught, hurt and confused. But then again, blather is blather right? So HAVE at it.) I was circling. We were stagnating, and hurting each other's development. I am now crossing. Facing my trial by fire. I will come out on the other side, a stronger man. And I will begin to grow again. I hope the concept isn't too hard for you to wrap your head around? (Would you like me to patronize you some more? It's actually making me feel rotten, but if we're gunna fill this blathe up with rants, why not?! Ya know?) I'm sorry ILove. But I was not in the mood for this. My failing. Not yours. Circle then cross. Peace. Time to do some medicat..er meditation. 050915 ... daf Thank you ILove. I'm so glad that you wrote what you wrote, when you wrote it, here on blather. Your words provided me with the courage to purge, and it has helped a lot. You are very good at this, won't you please continue? (I mean that.) Please accept my apologies for any harsh words. You are a lovely person and blather would somehow be lessened for having lost you. 050919 ... ILove hmmm...the many meanings of the word cross...your cross to bear...gosh, you were cross and NOW your not cross...and she wore a gold cross around her neck, she loved Jesus...what do you get when you cross a potato with a tomato...if you cross the street you'll be doin just fine...cross your fingers and Godspeed...cross me off the bad list, cause I'm real good now Of all, I like yours best! 050920 ... a clever disguise daf- this symbol: what does it look like? 120330 ... daf A plus sign over the top of a circle. Think Zodiac Killer. 120330 ... . . 120331 ... a clever disguise I would actually prefer NOT to think about the Zodiac Killer. Saw the movie and learned they never found that guy! He's just, ya know, out on the loose, wandering around California. Or maybe he felt like moving to Cleveland and I'm next. Thanks for this blathe. It speaks to me. 120331 what's it to you? who go blather from