kittenqueen NO NO! and there's no one who'll listen to the fear that is within you... and you don't want to go because they don't care but you don't want to stay because they don't care so where do you go when the menacing stares come too close and too close and the evening just ends 000127
girl i find myself looking over my shoulder and hiding from large groups of people. 000326
magic mushroom i should really stop using these
.it could get worse???
Seequetruth yea, I will get worse, and worse...and wosre. Then you don't know, you just don't know. And people look at you a little different, and it's hard to understand what you are saying or what you are thinking at times. Masive confusion and tramendous paranoia, it's great when you can't look at yourself in the mirror and say what you see coz you are to blind to see yourself. oF course I'm being sarcastic, but not really. I jus wish I could collect a thought. I'd act as if it was a very rare baseball card and put it in plastic to preserve it. Or maybe I'd forget about it and let myself get lost in another paranoid trip...but what fun would that be, I can go on a paranoid trip with out eating a mushroom now! Does it matter? No, not to you, but I'm not writing this for you! I'm writing this for me, as a thought that has been colected and preserved on a harddrive somewhere. My psyche has once again emerged from it's cacoon delaying it from full tranformation and developement. Hahahahaha, I laugh at modern society and don't wonder why incidents like Columbine Happen...I think we all know why things like that happen, only the press asks why...fuck the press. Fuck you and your criticism, and your parents for breeding. 000430
hak not if they really don't like you. like when you find out that they REALLY don't like you. it's not paranoia anymore, it's the fuckin' truth. don't you understand? when they _REALLY_ don't fuckin' like you anymore - it's the damn truth then. it ain't paranoia - it's the truth.

but what can you do about it?
amorfus just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they're not out to get you. 000517
amorfus s violent man dies a violent death. 000517
moonshine When you think all the birds are laughing at you or is that just ego? 000617
whirligirl i dunno! i give up! what's the answer? or the question, even. and enough paranoid fantasy already! ... did you send that snake over my body or was that just "wish fulfillment"? let's write a book, or make a movie or something. 000618
moonshine you amaze me 000618
silentbob I hate being paranoid! it's like watching a terrible suspense film that no matter how it ends, you're still not going to be satisfied because of this terrible sense of angst.
I can never get anything accomplished because we're always paranoid someones going to walk in.
MollyGoLightly "accomplished?"

that's an interesting way to put it.

locking the door will generally solve that problem.
miniver A soul in every trodden-upon blade of grass.
An aspiration in every squished bug.
A sorrow in every less hugged teddy bear.
A magic in each missed meteorite.


How different would your life be,
if you'd slept in for 2 more minutes
on February 23, 1987?
If you'd stopped in the street, today,
and wriggled your toes,
or perhaps just stood silently for a moment,
and then kept on.
Or if you'd only blinked...wait...
(instead of then, just before that).

I don't care, though.
Fuck ya.
MollyCule I'm always paranoid, upon returning home in the middle of the night and walking into my garage, that some anonymous crazed killer has followed me in and will kill me before I can get into the house. I can never decide what would be better - to leave the door up until i open the house door, or put it down. Because if I close the garage door, he could be trapped inside with me. And if I leave it open, it could give him a greater chance to get inside while I'm unlocking the door. I dunno. maybe I should just try to find my housekeys so I can go in throught the front door. 001012
j_blue i cant beleive in your "funny feelings"

they'r too dead on

y didnt you have them before

how come you werent psychic until after you had a reason to eaves drop

i hate what you have done
for20 Angel when the eyes are burning into the back of your head and you turn around and then nothing is there and nobody is walking near you but the feeling is still there and all you can do is!!!.......

all you can do is nothing.
milky there is no paranoia at all...
in fact, there is allways someone following us with some kind of twisted intentions
ares "its like a whirlwind inside of my head"
from linkin park's song about paranoia
strangely enough the song is called papercut
still a cool song tho
TiffanyLeigh I think Ares, if he ever visits this page again, should have paranoia that someone is following him. I fully intend to do this until i see that he has noticed. Mwuahahah!!! 011203
ClairE I think I'm paranoid...a sucky song.

Very grateful I am not. It hits a little too close to home for me.
Bizzar The only sounds I could hear
were the rain on my windows
and the leaky faucet
My thoughts were so much louder
than the thundercrashing outside
-they were of you
the weather matched my mood perfectly
You dont know what you mean to me
or what Id sacrafice
to keep you satisfied
Please dont let go
Im on my knees
bleeding for you
And your silence speaks
so much louder than your eyes
andrew If you were oblivious to it's presence then it would not be there. Maybe i want it be there, maybe it is created whenever you challenge what you think is real. 020602
ares ok, i noticed
i'd be scared... if it hadn't taken me two years to notice
- that is what my name means .. 030323
Marjorie It could have.
I mean it might have.
There was no telling really.
And I curled up on the bed
And watched it all move
You went around
Long and lean and back
And my face distorted
And I thought I might be stuck in the stories in my head forever.
But it was only two minutes
That seemed like ten
jane they're after me...
they're after me...
they're after me...
They yes, we are. 030717
jane fuck! you found me!! 030717
They you can run, but you can't hide. 030717
User24 almost impossible on blather; you always know who's saying what (unless they use tbttrc or morse_code) and you can find out who's been talking about you by, for instance, going to;word=user24

it's nice that blather's so open.
me?im billi lol ur all freaks ur so stupid no ones after you are you stupid?GO OUTSIDE AND PLAY DUMBASS NO ONES GUNNA KILL YOU 031011
cupcake some days i feel like everyone is watching me, and like people that are just talking are talking about me does that make me paranoid?? 031106
Whitechocolatewalrus Paranoid about many things, paranoid that no one likes me, that its all just a show, just a dream, a show to somehow make them feel better about fooling someone who thinks they care. Do people really care about anyone but themselves? I mean really, I am not pretty, or funny, and Im not really that nice, so why do I have friends? I mean I really am paranoid, Dear God I need to stop thinking so much. 031106
Smurf I keep thinking people are trying to read my mind. But I never tell anyone that. 040419
fortune cookie Don't look back, the lemmings are gaining on you. 040420
broken__ 1. Fact: I hate me.
2. Logically, others hate me too.
3. Fact: Others appear to show affection, kindness.
4. Logically, because they really hate me, they are showing kindness merely as a plan to exploit me.

O, how I loathe these inescapable thoughts!
Smurf oooOOOooohhh.

That sucks, Why do they hate you? I don't hate you.

oh wait.. Yes I do.
Smurf But for different reasons 040424
Ski I had visions,
I was in them,
I was lookin' into the mirror
To see a little bit clearer
The rotteness and evil in me.
Finger tips have memories
I can't forget the curves of your body
And when i feel a bit naughty
I run it up the flag pole and see, who still looks
But no one ever does

I'm, I'm not sick but I'm not well
And I'm so hot
Cause I'm in hell

Been around the world
And found that only stupid people are breeding
Cretans cloning and feeding
And I don't even own a TV

Put me in the hospital for nerves
And then they had to commit me
She told them all I was crazy
They cut off my legs now I'm an amputee
God damn you.

I'm, I'm not sick but I'm not well
And I'm so hot
Cause I'm in hell

I'm, I'm not sick but I'm not well
And it's a sin
To live so well

I wanna publish scenes
And rage against machines
I wanna pierce my tongue
And it doesn't hurt it feels fine
It could be your so blind
I'd love to turn off time
And kill my mind
you kill my mind......

Ah! Paranoia! paranoia!
Everybody's coming to get me
Just say you never met me
I'm running underground with the moles...digging holes
Hear the voices in my head
I swear to god it sounds like their snoring
But if your poor and your boring
The agony and the irony
They're killing me well...

I'm, I'm not sick but I'm not well
And I'm so hot
Cause I'm in hell

I'm, I'm not sick but I'm not well
And I'm so swell
To live this well
Sandman Weighted by the paranoias, he walked along his path until he decided to drop the stones from his pockets. one for pharmaceuticals, he could not afford to pay the apothecary a dime more. he continued, this time he knew for sure. then he found himself in a position where he nearly killed someone. the thoughts and fantasies of strangulation and stabbing, poisoning. he stopped again to collect. this time he dropped his cigarettes and his bottle. suddenly his footsteps were lighter he sprung and skipped. but yet his heart was heavy. as he went to drop his heart he felt the world become cold and dark. he decided then it was best to keep it and continue on his journey. 070814
Ryakoth strikes deep,
into your mind it will creep,
it starts when your always afraid
step out of line,
the man come and take you aaaway

Paranoia too can be accepted with the help of arrogance, I'm sure everyone around me is out to steal my body mind and soul,


because to do that you are going to have to make contact with me, and you know i can ruin your mind before you ruin mine, you know i know kung-fu, and magick, and psionics, and psychology, I'm strong enough to be a threat if you approach me, but not strong enough to attack you so if you keep away nobody gets hurt. you could try to swarm me but there is no guarantee it will work, no guarantee that i can't turn the crowd against you, no guarantee and conspirators like guarantees.

If you think being a victim of the conspiracy brings fear try being a conspirator. they know we are more powerful than them, they know we watch them back as they watch us, and if you are onto their game you already have the upper hand.
Lonbot I believed I was no longer afraid then it suddenly returned 130912
Lonbot we are all in this together it is not your fault but it is your responsibility 130912
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