forgiveness
lion beyond a mere validation of pain...
it is the internalization and acceptance of that pain.

i hope you can... i really do.
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girl for you.
because i love you.
because we cant change the past.
because we cant live in the past.
because i know you didnt mean it.
because i know it wont happen again.
because i know you.
i forgive you
i adore you
forgive yourself
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jupiter the world need much more than this 000401
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silentbob let if fucking go why dont you? 000606
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kaskarkaminski through nothing else do we grow so much. 000804
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Nerbus Maximus arriving at the point when you turn to someone and say...
You did what? I don't remember that at all
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tonie question: if someone gives you a gift but you do not accept it... to whom does the gift belong?
answer: it still belongs to the person who tried to give it to you.
so: when someone tries to insult you, hurt you, change you, steal you away from Truth...
forgive them.
by your not accepting their lies, insults, and harm... they still belong to them.
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VCell Do you remember what you said to me? Can you remember what you've done? Can you still feel how low you were, or when all this came undone? When you listen to your heartbreak, Is it just a bad cliche? This morning-after headache that you feel, Is more real than the pain. As you try to bring your hands to your face, As your heart begins to cope, As you feel the gentle calling of friends, Does your faith become your hope? Or does the wind change direction for you? Or does the sun circle the moon? Are we vain to fear rejection? Does it only come too soon? Are you offering forgiveness? 010611
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Skull For me?
You love me?
Can it be changed?
But I have for so longÖ.
Maybe I did, maybe I didnít.
But what if it does?
You do?
Thank you,
Thank youÖ
Iíll try.
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translucent please... fucking PLEASE.
you know how sorry I am, and how stupid I feel. And I deserve this horrible feeling, I should have controlled myself. Tell me what I can do to somehow make this up to you. I will do anything for you. I love you more than I love myself.
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unhinged excuse the lack of context...i don't think it would be appropriate to type the whole short story...just a few paragraphs...

"When I said I'd give my right arm for you, i didn't think you'd ask me for it, but you did.
You said, Give it to me.
And I said OK.
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But I guess after a while it started bothering you, because one day when I was washing out the sheets I'd bloodied the night before, you said, You sleep too restless. I don't like it when your bleeding wakes me up. I think you're sick. I think it's sick to cut off your own arm.
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That night I bled again. I woke up and the bed was red, all full of blood and wet. I reached over to touch you and to wake you up and tell you I was sorry, but you were not there.
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So everything was fine.
For a while.
Then you came back.
Then everything did.
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I couldn't tell you that you can't re-do a thing that's been undone. I couldn't tell you anything that you would understand. I couldn't tell you that it wasn't just the fact that you had ripped it out of me and taken it and mounted it, then left with it then lost it, how it wasn't only that, but it was more. HOw it was that when you asked me, I believed you and I told you yes. How, though I had tried a long time to replace what you had hacked away from me, I never could undo the action of your doing so, that I had, and only ever would have, more belief in your faulty memory, your stupid sloppy foresight, than in your claims of change. How I believed, yes, I believed with all my heart, that given_time, you'd do something else again, some new and novel variant to what you'd done to me, again. And then I thought, but this was only half a thought, that even if you had changed, no REALLY changed, truly and at last, and even if you knew me better than I know myself, and even if I'm better off than I've ever been, and even if this was the only way we could have gotten to this special place where we are now, and even if there's a reason, darling, something bigger than both of us, and even if all these even if's are true, that I would never believe you again, never forget what I know of you, never forget what you've done to me, what you will do, I'll never believe the myth of forgiveness between us."

forgiveness, Rebecca Brown
terrible girls


bobbi
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yummyC so youve decided to blame him again
for all your choices
seemed like the softer way out.
you think it just might make life easier
to swallow, will it?
well youve made a fine career outta guilt.
maybe he just did the best he could
with what he had.
maybe he just did the best he could.
forgiveness, forgiveness, try and let it go why dontcha?


-gold f i n g e r
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unhinged no_no
you cannot redo a thing that has been undone
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Freak I haven't forgiven anything. I've just accepted and attempted to deal. 020619
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phil and he did, and it hurt, and he did it again and it hurt even more, and he did again and it won't stop hurting, and he tried, and he tried, and he tried, and he just couldn't find anything to forgive, the world had ended, and then he found forgiveness of himself 020701
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drstrangelove who is he? 020702
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phil Mr. Smiley 020720
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yiqin i seek 060128
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hsg forgiveness is essential to waking up. 080118
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different now it's not denial
it's not forgetting or pretending it didn't happen

it's just not letting it be everything. it's letting things continue despite it, with it, because of it.
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unhinged forgiveness IS letting_go 080324
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a quick one "her man's been gone
for nigh on a year
he was due home yesterday
but he ain't here."

you are all forgiven.
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hsg before i'd met a very special girl I had asked her what was it that she wanted in life. without hesitation she said forgiveness. she IS a good person -I hope she truly feels and knows this. we all must find this eventually.

unhinged, you are certainly right about forgiveness being letting_go. and thank_you.
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jane you_are_forgiven 080516
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past you'd think a year and a half of being stood up or cancelled-on at the last minute would get in the way of forgiving you for it. i just let it go, because i know one day i'll see you again and that that day i might have to drop you at the last minute.

but i won't.
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hsg thank you for still trying. im not "fed up" as often people become (that disposition somehow doesn't appeal to me). you had expressed a concern about both that & if I would later harbor resentment. I know myself well in this respect -please trust me when I say these things did not create anger at any person but only a passing frustration of the situation.

thank you for having a genuine_soul. I have an abstract image of you that permeates my memory. it's as if your attitude is shining outward from you. you are very powerful & very beautiful.
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no reason my sister used to argue with her then-boyfriend all the time. i don't know what the arguments were about or who was at fault, if anyone, but all i got was that he kept disappointing her, apologizing to her, and promising to make things up to her. she would say that he couldn't just keep doing the same things and apologizing/making it up to her, that it wouldn't work unless he stopped doing these things.

so yeah. it's not only about forgiveness, because how much can you forgive someone for?
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In_bloom It's not my strong suit
It's my Pride's weakness
It's the salt on my wounds
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hsg how many times? jesus! 77x7

om uhmmm 539 times... then maybe... maybe it's time to start forgiving someonelse. maybeven forgive yoursel for giving someon e lso many times.
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unhinged isn't about the trangressor
it's about the transgressed


my ego made a rock in my heart
of all the horrible things you ever
did or said
a rock that made it difficult
for my heart to function
the way i knew that it could
light
luminous
a beacon
it was like the rock had shattered
the lamp
the lamp
that illuminated my ego as the
tiny impudent tarnished little seed
that threatened to grow and strangle
every_good_thing

and_then
i forgave you
silently
without complicit acknowledgment
my heart squeezed the rock out of my eyes
and it was soft and raw again
the light came back on
the story i wrapped around us
to keep the whole damn thing going
disintegrated into
photographic_memory
my raw heart
shocked
but luminous


just the way it should be
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Risen I was speaking to someone about forgiveness yesterday.

She asked if I had forgiven the person I used to be. I said that I had.

She asked if YOU had forgiven her. I said you hadn't. Because I really don't think you have, or ever will.

She said those born under scorpio do not easily forgive or forget. I said I knew that better than the stars did.
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unhinged . 151111
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flowerock I'm not sure I have successfully forgiven some of the People who have hurt me deeply, I thought I had, but I still see the manifestation of these scars in the way I think, act, feel, breathe... it feel involuntary, some of these feelings, the scars_are_barriers, dividing emotion from expression, love from action... I am still scared, tense, anxious, unconvinced... stuck, immobile_and_mute. My scars are potentially scarring others. How do you fully_forgive? How do you know when you have really truly forgiven and not just said you have? I believed me, too, but it may not have been true, I might not have forgiven them, or myself. 151111
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H You truly fully forgiven someone when you see that you honestly wish them well & want them to be happy. You can feel it when you love them and want them to be happy. Also, when you're not afraid of them anymore. 151116
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