calling_in_a_blather_favour ashmanzhou had a problem the other week which is why i have been away for a while failed an examination if i passed i could have gone home i failed and my parents werent sure even after i cried my eyes out the sole reason i could access the net was some therapy thing they had in mind meeting people i found blather instead now in order to show that my therapy has had some effect on me i have to show i have made friends so can you send me anything to my e mail address within about the next eighteen hours and i will be happy and you might be happy because of that 030929 ... blah-ze ok. it'll be from a different address from this one i have now though. dont be alarmed. i'll send you on a chain letter i have got about four times... 030929 ... User24 my email's being funny, did you get it? 030929 ... oldephebe i sent you one..believe it or not you have been a source of inspiration..you have reached out from the well of wound and spoken some healing words into the hurt of others.. be well 030929 ... pipedream i am in the process of e-mailing you. you have lent the Blue many wonderful words, you deserve a favour done unto you :) 030929 ... nom i sent you an email hope you got it ashmanzhou 030929 ... crossedfingers hope I'm not too late 030930 ... Dafremen Ok I threatened them if they dont let ash come play with us. That should help. Er.. 030930 ... endless desire sent. . . 030930 ... . . 030930 ... ashmanzhou lets not even talk about how my day went i thank all of thee-from my heart no matter it was worthless not only did they not allow my case and let me home they didst indeed ban me (after my parents consult, of course) from use of their computers subject to review in six weeks (the day before my cast cometh free of my arm) no matter they havent banned me from the rec room so i can sneak a session with the computers now and then but only occasionally i will be back and thank thee all for support i have to go now 031002 ... p2 damn 031002 ... Dafremen Alright, that's it. Where IS this place? We gotta bust ash out of there! (tk? tree? any of you other "fight the system" types...come ON! It'll be like back in 'Nam, but without the death and stuff.) (Now where the hell did I leave those C-Rations?) 031002 ... mon sorry to hear that ash,.. 031002 ... blah-ze that is not nice. i agree with dafremen. time to call down the SAS and the US marines and the blather_brigade on these infidels. right. i'll get the bicuits. 031002 ... ashmanzhou things around here went to hell for me anyway got caught using the net and so havent been on for a while oops a run down of the last week: got moved out of my room and down a floor to another one i am now sharing a room got a job though working at the supermarket ever since it was suggested that my parents show me what life is about- ie cut off my allowance thing is i knew i wouldnt have got the job save for a few of the others who board here dropping in a word and now they expect me to be grateful first day at work worked for two hours fainted and fell off a stepladder bashed my wrist around went to the doctor next day im anaemic and have to take something for that also i have insomnia got prescribed sleeping pills and painkiller for my wrist found out the nurse told the girl im boarding with to get me to take them one positive thing the whole week when everyone else went out shopping i got to go to emmas grave and my two hours pay was enough for a small bunch of flowers even then i couldnt think of anything worthy to say ill try get round to write individual replies to all of you but if i dont heres one for all of you i hate all people but you are beyond people to me 031011 ... Dafremen Take hope love. People aren't bad...some of them are just broken..that's all. We'll do our part to fix them from this end. You do your part to fix your situation on your end. 031011 ... Toxic_Kisses/TK ashmanzhou, don’t feel the need to reply back to me, I know you have other more important things to be doing w/ your time and the last thing I’d want is to have you get in trouble for being on the net yet again while you were replying back to me. I would say I’m sorry to hear things have gone down the drain for you but I realize that regardless of weather or not I sympathized it won’t make any difference to the existing situation your in, but it does nonetheless sadden me to read what you’ve written above, threw it all though there may be a reason for why all this crap is happening to you I can’t say as I know why any of it’s happening but usually we’re not meant to understand the reasoning of things until later once the circle of cause and effect is complete. If ever you just want to write me to release all your frustration and anguish I’m here for you, don’t expect me to tell you everything will eventually be all better one day bc I don’t know that it will but I’ll be here for you if you should need a shoulder to lean on, some one to yell your frustrations @ when you can’t yell at those around you and I’ll have tissue ready to wipe a way your tears w/ if need be. ~ Daf I disagree ppl ARE bad, but each individual person has to make the choice on their own to strive to be good if not just better 031011 ... Dafremen There are NO bad children love, only bad parents and role models. These are the roots of the bad people you refer to. Broken people is what they really are. Therefore I'll have to stick by my statement and you and I will probably need to arm wrestle for right to be right with the tie breaker, (in case of a tie) being a tug at stork_daddy's wrist, he being blather_alpha_male and all. 031011 ... blah-ze nice to hear from you again. people aren't always so bad-they just look out for themselves, mostly, because at some time or another they've gone through hell as well. they just don't have time for someone else. deliberately pulling away from them just makes you hate them worse, then you're hating what you don't understand, as well as yourself for not understanding it. find something you can understand, love, and keep that close to add some kind of solidity in your life. keep up hope, because without hope the reason for life is dead. wish i could do more, is all. 031011 ... TK did I say "children"?? Noooo I said ppl, meaning that that said ppl are beyond childhood. Daf lets not disagree here, this isent the page for it. 031011 ... nom . 031011 ... realistic optimist ash, tell me where to send the cake with a file in it. 031012 ... Dafremen How a bout a cake with some cake in it? (Laced with sleep medication..for the guards.) And TK..I don't think we are disagreeing about anything. You have your opinion and I have mine and the two are really not mutually exclusive, since they are the result of two threads of experience that have led to two distinctly different perspectives on the same subject. (Wow..still able to lay it on thick...watch her not buy a line of it. She's as perceptive as I am wordy.) 031012 ... zmo hey! kids are people too! 031012 ... oE damn straight! and us adults should do every thing we can in every gesture to honor our children's uniqueness and sovereignity of Personhood..who needs another mini-'phebe? Aside from trying to inculcate our children at the appropriate stages with the wisdom that need not neccessarily be gleaned after falling on ones narrow behind..I feel we should encourage our children to honorable, sincere individuals, true to their own subjective states of being w/o harming others. Lost once again in compulsive qualification..blech ... oh and ash..i was tempted as well as others to send you a chocolate cake laced with powerful dopamines for your ostensibly honest offering to the guards i hope in time you will encounter people who may on a case to case basis ameliorate your animus toward most people..sometimes i struggle with that myself..hence all the feeding from the treasure of Light thing. ... 031012 ... Death of a Rose dafremen, you distract the guards with some strip tease, that'll get em' TK and I will bomp them over the heads when they go for your seductive dance. Then we can spring Ash from the jail cell, and all scurry out the window with the roped bedsheets I hid around my head. Just name the time. Take care of yourself ash. 031012 ... TK so what your saying Daf is that if I wanted to paint a room azure and you wanted to paint the same room limegreen that we would -not- be in disagreement as to what color to paint the room simply bc of our past backgrounds I am more prone to the color azure while you are more drawn to the color lime green and so bc we've had different pasts the fact that I want the room to be one color while you want it to be another is -not- a disagreement? That’s like saying that even though every one has different views/oppions about the death penalty or abortion that bc of every ones past being different from every one elces that in reality there truly is no such thing as a disagreement! That’s just absurd Dafster! - Death of a Rose, why doesn’t Daf just give an erotic belly dance in drag? (Don’t forget to shave your legs Daf darling) I don't know about you but I don't wanna see Daffy stripping and besides the fact his wife might not like him striping for any one but her. Oh and why are we just freeing Ash? Hello you don't just free one rat from a lab you free them ALL! witch reminds me has any one ever considered as to weather or not Ash really -can- survive in the real world, last thing we need in a homeless yet relatively free (we're all just relatively free) Ash, hey! I have an Idea! Seeing as how Ash will be on the run any ways we can ALL (all meaning EVERYONE in blather) take turns having Ash visit us for a week or two! What better way to see the world and make friends! Whoot! This sounds like fun!! - And Yes kids are ppl but I'm pretty sure that the creeps that Ash has to deal with aren’t children 031012 ... pipedream i think what ash needs right now is something we don't know. chin up, ash, you can survive this. rally round, sally forth, et-cet-ra. this is your test of fire; the crucible purifies and strenghtens- and you have it in you to not melt into a nameless, shapeless blob but emerge radiant and tempered. 031012 ... Dafremen I told you she was perceptive folks, and that I would NOT be able to slide that past her...but hey..I TRIED diplomacy..my way. : ) Luv ya kissy lady. 031013 ... Dafremen By the way..I wanted to paint the room azure...NO FAIR! 031013 ... Death of a Rose TK, poisoness passion lady, the bedsheet is still tied to window bar, I'll go back and let the inmates loose. If you don't hear from me in, say, 3 months, assume they caught me and put in the 'room' next door. As for Dafremen, who knows, maybe we can rent him out, make some money off him 'shakin his thang' 031014 ... r_r . 110513 ... foyoy foyoy 110930 what's it to you? who go blather from