dont_ask_me_for_sex_today Photophobe I realised something. That all these girls that say they like me are liars. Not all of them, but most. See, I took statements like that at face value. If I happened to have sex with a girl who's said she "likes me", then I assumed that it meant that they wanted sex AS WELL as liking me. But it seems that I've been kidding myself. I've been wasting my time with people that couldn't care less. Maybe I'm too trusting, and I open up too easily. Fuck, this is the most badly phrased blather yet. The point, I guess: I'm not letting myself be fooled anymore. If a girl says she likes me, then odds are that she just horny. Nobody wants to be friends anymore. Thats why I keep saying no. And alll of a sudden everyone thinks I'm a bastard, that I lead people on. Girls get pissed off that I want to be friends with them, before I want to fuck. Maybe I'm just meeting strange people at the moment. Maybe my world with its normal [emotional] people will resume shortly. But I'm sick of sluts who can't see past their lust. So what do I do? In the meantime, I get hate mail from people who have nothing to do with me, and disdainful looks when I turn up at parties. Its not like I'm going to walk in and shout about the fact that I never meant to lead anyone on; that this girl is a dirty slut, and this one and this. Explain to everyone that refusing a proposition is not toying with someone's feelings. Tell everyone in my life that I'm not failing to get one girl into bed, and then just going on to the next I see. I resent the fact that I'm made to feel obliged to fuck. If I don't want to, thats my perogative. Whenever I try to bring it up with any of my friends, for any sort of emotonal support, they just laugh at me. "Why wouldn't I do it?" they ask. They don't understand the whole "I don't want to" thing. Thanks a bunch, guys. Stupid girls. Just leave me alone; I'm miserable enough as it is. 010910 ... silentbob it just amazes me how different people are. photophobe: I will never be in your shoes. i will always be in my own shoes where i want to be with a girl, emotionally, and physically, but she'll just want to be my friend, and then i'll wonder why she lead me on. when in reality she just wanted to be my friend and perhaps wanted to engage in some harmless flirting, never meaning for it to go anyway, assuming i felt the same. 020317 ... Photophobe lightglobe Hey bobby, maybe we should go on foregin exchange or something. You turn up at my house and say "Hi mum and dad! I'm Blake, remember? I live here!" Turn up to my job and do all my study etc. I'll go to your home and infilrate your life similarly. Then you can experience the joys of heartless girls, and I'll find the frustration in being led on. A real prince and pauper story, I bet. Except I don't know which person is which. :) 020318 ... hey photobob instead of silentphobe. now theres a thought... 020318 ... hey I'll kick myself for doing this, I know I will, and probably rather severely in the head, but anyway (oh why am I doing this???) Was, or, Am, I one of those heartless girls? It's just the date, is so close, to when I first had a taste of you. 020503 ... the great unfuckable because it's national_masturbation_month yeah, that's right, you'll have to check in at the self_serve aisle 020503 ... Casey Sometime I envy you photophobe. I've had the problem of girls saying they like me and then wanting to sleep with me. But if I did I think I would stick with the idea of having sex with someone I love...at least good long sex anyway. 020503 ... blown cherry Actually, Damian said to me recently, that there is nothing like sleeping with someone you're in love with. I knew precisely what he meant, and I was sorry I couldn't give that to him any more. But the intesity of emotion, it's just like, for a little while at least, the universe is complete. 020503 ... bethany i used to make love like i didn't care if i died in the middle because it was bliss then i grew up and had different sex and now i'm waiting for mr.pat and it's hardest thing i've ever done but i need time to make up for my shagging tally it's hard photophobe, i know, not as many people like you when you dont want to have sex with them but they're the people who aren't ready to have sex and more 020503 ... Arwyn I'm too upset and I don't really want to be that close to anyone right now.. 020504 ... CRO personally, I'd be rather glad to have photophobe's "bad luck" 020510 ... Photophobe lightglobe bad luck gets 'complicated' apparently. 020511 ... CRO everything gets complicated though. Then, eventually, all the strings break - whether through the force of your rage and hatred, or through just an amazing moment of clarity - and then it's not complicated anymore. It's really really simple. 020513 ... misstree i've been on both sides of this. they both suck. and right now i'm in a strange split; anyone that i want says no ('course, that's a relatively small list), usually for reasons other than lack of desire, and those that i could almost want but don't, offer to substitute. exceptionally frustrating. on sex_and_friends, though, i don't think the two are in any way mutually exclusive; i won't tumble someone who doesn't have a pretty good set of grey matter, nor will i tumble someone who gets emotional over a meeting of meat. with about half of my Friends, at some point in the past we've slept together. if you become friends with someone before you sleep with them, though, it becomes an emotional event rather than just a physical one, and *that* is where it can get complicated. even for jaded beyotches like me. 030827 ... once again I might say yes and then where would you be. "Be careful what you wish for," they say it all the time. "A night with you would be one I'll never forget." So smooth with the words, my friend, but who's laughing now. I know you'll never forget. You said that we were friends. And I know you told the truth. O you deny me now, but we were friends. And you wanted me, not because I am beautiful. I have no illusions anymore, dear friend. O yes they tell you so often to be careful what you wish for. You'll never forget me and I'll remember forever. Why weren't you careful. We're nothing now. Nothing except fro the spaces_between_us. We're a once upon a time stories you think about when you're alone. We were one of those things... 030827 ... eyedream I'm a happy virgin. I want to know people. is provocative 030827 ... Alakaz I just want to be able to let go to a friend or toal stranger. I would like that a lot. It would be great for once to have carefree sex and not have stopped yourself beforehand because you have this religious block that won't let you explore. I love God, but it is really had when girls are ready to explore further and all you can do is shut them down. There is no amount of explaining that you can give to a girl that she was (to be crude) c-blocked by Jesus and God and make her understand. I am young and it would be fun to let go. It is possible that some girl will respond to the contrary, but they're lying. 030828 ... Dafremen What ever happened to asking for a hug...just a hug? Sometimes I think that it would be really nice to hold someone without getting all hot and bothered. Course I haven't managed to yet. But one of these days...you'll see. 030828 ... misstree i hug people allll the time. 'specially when i'm drunk. it's the best way i can show affection for someone, not the heavy petting kind of affection, but hey, i'm glad you exist, you make me happy kind of affection. plus, i get to make hippies wherever i go (f'in tree huggers!) 030828 ... secret4185 ... because I'll crack. I'm alone on the island of still being a virgin... my friends refuse to behave like good 16 year olds. I'm usually not the type to jump on a bandwagon, I don't even have someone to jump on this bandwagon with... I'm very lost. Emily was the last straw... I thought she'd stay on this island with me at least a little while longer. Now I'm scared my body's going to go crazy and I'll end up throwing myself at someone. Don't let me end up like that. 040226 ... Syrope because i'd take you up on it. and i'm just not in the mood to give in to myself. 040227 ... sameolme Ummm, I was just wondering,can we have sex today? Please? 040227 ... jimmy don't ask me for it please. demand it. 040227 ... somebody just take it from me walk in the door and w/o a word push me agenst the fridge as you plant a kiss an me so deep and hard while of your hands grabs my hair around the nape of my neck into a fist and w/ your other hand on my waist you slowly part my legs w/ one of yours..... damit don't ask any more just take it from me! 040227 ... misstree until you understand what i need from it. 040227 ... ambermoon or tommrow. i dont want you anymore. i dont need you. just SHUT UP & GET OUT! -----ASSHOLE----- 040227 ... shower singer The weird thing is, all I have ever wanted is to be friends. Yet every time he gets slightly pissed, he hits on me. Ironic, isn't it? Oh, and just so I don't start feeling too special, he hits on everyone else too. The first time was about four years ago, the last time was about three days ago. And his girlfriend was sitting right there with us. I guess I'll just keep brushing it off. 040815 ... stork daddy shower singer....i don't know if this is mr. bacardi speaking through me, but you should have sex with me. 040815 ... shower singer Go to bed stork daddy, you're drunk. Look at you, you can't even stand up without stumbling and you're slurring your words. Go to bed, and take Mr Bacardi with you. You probably won't remember this tomorrow. 040816 ... stork daddy i don't know if this is the glue i just sniffed talking, but shower singer, please have sex with me in the shower while you sing. 040816 ... shower singer If it ever happened when he wasn't drunk, then I might start to take it seriously. I might start to deal with it properly. But until that day... 040904 ... unhinged i got some yesterday 040904 ... witchesrequiem I'm pretending to be asleep! 040905 ... shower singer new girlfriend, same old habits 050130 ... blown cherry you're making me wonder if it was him afterall you were talking about. You said it wasn't, but I don't know why I should believe that. 060705 ... stork daddy don't ask me for sex, i'm tired of my part in it. tee, mother of pearl, hee. 060705 ... icy dammit, i was just going to ask. oh, well... 060705 ... stork daddy well i'm willing to make exceptions. 060705 ... stork daddy icy can i have sex today? 060804 ... icy i really hope you weren't waiting all this while... but remember, you're not supposed to ask anyhow. :) 060926 ... Ouroboros because i will not be touched again by someone i don't trust 060927 ... Christ without the cross i_am_looking_for_something_deep 060927 ... Christ without the cross I_am_looking_for_something_deep. 060927 ... stork daddy well sex has so many meanings. 060927 ... . oh! is one supposed to ask? but hey, that's just me... take take take 060928 what's it to you? who go blather from