about_death_of_a_rose Death of a Rose okay....here we go. better hang on. fasten those seat belts and such. Oh and if my boss is cyber spying on me, .|.. Born in the late sixties and I believe I had a happy childhood up until I was hmmm....10 or 11....then (we are sorry, this explanation has been edited for time and content) ...as I dropped out of university after two years, deciding that after wanting to be a pyschiatrist and then having suicidal thoughts really didn't jive all that well.... (the following is not intended for any viewers under the age of eighteen) ....life was hazy after age 21....lotsa chemicals, children. Started getting into some scarey situations, drug deals, bikers, guns, freaked out dope dealers, fucking 28 hr binges on coke (on good weekends), hash pipes, bongs, speed, uppers, downers, acid, oil, weed, cigarettes, booze and bad, bad women. No needles (just wasn't interested after seeing some of the other space cadets fall prey), knocks on wood. Specific incidences are still in this mind. Just not ready to come out. (we now break for station identification, you are listening to WGAF radio, all elevator music...24 hrs...WGAF makes you lobotomized) Finally split with the evil influences, went back to school, closed my eyes, dropped my finger, said 'That's what I'll take.". Finished it, wasn't bad actually. Some lingering drug issues. Met a guy in one class that made... (we're sorry, the number as dialed cannot be reached at this moment.....we're sorry....) ...so that was one weird and pathetic night. Looked for a job in the city for about 6 months with no luck. Went to a smaller city, found a job in one weekend. Stayed there 6 years, working my way up the ranks of the masses. Got offered a job to head up my own department. Said "Sure, this is what I want.". They gave it to me. Now all I have to do is demand action and voila. Two big raises in almost 3 years, lotsa computer power (to simutaneausly blathe on 4 different pages at once). Oh yeah, alone for 12 years or such. Away from the general web crowd for 4 years. Found this huge little lifeline. Anything more? so now I'm a 30's something, without all the interesting people. 031014 ... Death of a Rose I apologize....except for blatherites and blatherians on here. 031014 ... endless desire it seems, road, that you've lived a very crazy life thus far. thank you for editing the part for viewers under 18. my mum is grateful. *rolls eyes, smiles, laughs* 031015 ... Road Takes a bow. Have a smiley on me. 031015 ... whitechocolatewalrus road, nukemall, doar, dr. jung, death of a rose. sheesh, how many names do you have? 031229 ... eek you think HE's got too many names you ought to see god_is_also and birdmad_is_also heheheh 031229 ... oE i was captivated and a little sadenned..'cause i read a few things that resonated a little loudly..yaknowaddaimean? peace..glad you've joined your beautiful voice to blather.. peace... 031229 ... Death of a Rose sorry bout that walrus. little personalities running around and round. i do have them under control (for the most part), and it seems that I'm blathing less and less as certain nasty entities (honest). Maybe I'll just stop using Nukemall, Dr. Jung, der furher, and all those other little nasties (crush them like bugs I will). . 031230 ... whitechocolatewalrus i like them but you can do what you want. (yay) 031230 ... Death of a Rose then i will keep using them, little sweet caucasian sea mammal. 031230 ... sweet caucasian sea mammal haha, good one 031230 ... magicforest well done sire 031230 ... Death of a Rose hmmm...resonations from oE. i think i've guessed as much oE, peace to ya brah. thanks little sweet mammal and are you really 5'-0 3/8" tall? wow, the height of my dream woman! too bad you weren't older....dammit all anyways. Hey M.F., what's up little one? . 031231 ... mon . 031231 ... sweet caucasian walrus haha, i really am only that tall. sometimes i wish i were older. haha, actually, i only wish i were one year older. for certain reasons. i wouldn't mind just skipping this year. gah! sweetness to you, doar. 031231 ... Death of a Rose lotsa seawater back to ya lass. Hope your new year day was bright and full of applejuice. 040101 ... chocolate eating furriness i drink apple juice everyday. thanks for the seawater, i was in dire need for some more. 040101 ... doar Ms. Walrus, dont' forget, you promised to call me, if you had the time that is. . 040101 ... whitechocolatewalrus i will. 040101 ... u24 fascinating.. are you happy? 040101 ... Death of a Rose who are you asking u24? if it was me, i'd hafta say no. clinical depression has set in. . 040102 ... jane ...... 040103 ... Death of a Rose hey jane. nothing to say? . 040103 ... realistic optimist jane, are you going to the wedding? *blushes* will you be muh date? i need someone to get all drunk and dance with after i give my speech, and i think you'd be a fun dancin partner. i get kinda crazy on the dance floor, ask mr. e! 040103 ... jane doar, i promised you six......is that not enough for you? r.o: would be a pleasure, although i am the bartender....so you better not mind being a barfly... 040104 ... Doar did you? then thanks! my memory is slowly packing its bags and running away from me. again jane thanks. peace 040104 ... realistic optimist i figure that outside of hanging outside teh ladies restroom, being a barfly is about the best way to meet everyone! 040104 ... jane dont worry doar, i took a test that actually told me my short term memory was dying. ro: see ya in lushland 040104 ... Death being a smartass how did you remember that, jane? must have bin an old test. :-) 040105 ... jane for all intensive purposes i said it was dying, not dead 040106 ... pipedream manimal was such a lamer telly show....i dont know where that came from. 040106 ... oldephebe manimal..yeah..sci-fi show from the 80's?..i actually liked the show..but then again i'm a sci-fi geek. there was a brief ressurection of the character on a lame sci-fi show on the WB a few years back.. am i happy?..wow..i can't even answer that one coherently..seriously.. 040106 ... pipedream the only manimal transformation they pulled off properly was the hawk one...but the hulk was good :D the movie looks like awful bull poopies so i didn't even think of seeing it...spoils the fun of the original. anyone remember 'V: the final battle'? 040107 ... Alfred Incidentally, who cares? 040107 ... Badass Death dammit jane, i thought you promised me sex..... . 040107 ... realistic optimist i remember V. i miss that cheesy ass tv show. 040107 ... oE V the final conflict - yeah i remember that cheesy *** show..ha ha you guys are real sci-fi aficionados...it even made my young *** a little paranoid.. it was a rip off of star trek..the whole uniform and stratification and infrastructure..thing..but then i think every sci-fi show steals from star-trek..wich of course they do..so.. 040107 ... pipedream probably, but nobody in star trek ever pulled off their faces to reveal scary green lizard-alien faces underneath, DID they...heh heh heh i'll never forget the shock i got at that *chuckles* 040107 ... jane i dont even remember it being mentioned 040109 ... Doar "I promised you six......" "I promised you sex." soory, really bad word play and uncalled for. I hope you didn't take offense to it, but if you did I apologize, although I did get a big grin out of it (bad me). 040109 ... pipedream laughing her head off *gets out the rolling pin* time to play husband-basher! *war paint on* roaaarrr 040109 ... jane ahh i see now...sorry i'm a little dense..no sleep...flight across the country tomorrow....etc 040109 ... Death of a Rose dammit woman, keep that rolling pin away from me head, just some harmless wordplay....honest indegenous person... okay maybe one or two bonks might do me some good. *hangs head in defeated husband sorta way* . 040110 ... realistic optimist jane: good luck in your travels. swan song of a rose: thank you for being a catalyst to me. 040110 ... pipedream *laughs and bonks doar's bum with the pin, but not too hard* i know, i'm just teasing *grins* 040111 ... Doar Phrenology to the rescue! 040819 ... - - 061004 ... Doar wow...two years and I've had nothing to say about myself. That's just plain wrong...wrong...wrong. I'm falling down on the job and bruising my knees. Just cooked a well marinated top sirloin (Alberta grown of course); marination recipe, One Sliced Lime Two Teaspoons of balsamic olive oil One crushed clove of garlic Three dashes of lemon juice Two cups of water One half, diced white onion And I enjoyed it very thoroughly, with a red merlot (#2 sweetness), with a side of garlic fried fresh tomatoes and ceasar salad (freshly made from scratch, but that's another storey, needless to say...just like Mom makes it). Now that I am fully satiated, I will finish the bottle of merlot and continue to scan blather for any sign of life. . 080503 ... somebody i had often wondered about thee, and now i know. i'm a bit surp'ed that i never came across this blathe before. rock on, friend. 080504 ... Doar dude or dudess, as the case may be. I will rock on, right now I'm rocking on to disturbed and the sneaker pimps. Take some rock-on yourself, unless you find back problems holding you down. :) 080509 ... Death of a Rose I have some confessions to make, if I haven`t already on 100_facts_about_me or elsewhere. I dislike having my picture taken. I don`t think in my own mind that I`m very photogenic or handsome. You won`t find many pictures, I think, where I am smiling. Probably some where I`m giving you the finger(s) as you take it. It might also be some sort of fear of having my soul stolen away or other reasons. I have admitted here somewhere that I do pick my scabs off and watch my blood flow, and then I lick it up, depending on where the wound is. I have an unrational fear of deep water, even semi deep water, even though my rational mind says, There isn`t anything that can harm you when you are floating or swimming, while my unrational mind says, you`re fucking crazy, anything can get you and you won`t know what it is until it does get you. What then fucker.....what then.... I used to MSN and ICQ...and I believe some of the `women` fell for me (as evidenced by some of the very provocative emails and pictures I received). So I quit doing any chatting until I found blather. I loathe clowns, gnomes....not so much....but clowns...with hells deepest heart I would erase your foul faces from the earth. This is in case anyone truly wants to know more. And no....I`m not afraid of spiders....only....quote...`Spider Women`. . 130606 ... doar and I am a bit paranoid. . 130606 ... Doar think i've given everything away. getting married didn't think i ever would to a beautiful woman didn't think it would happen i thought i would be happy being alone and secure thinking i would have no one but me thinking about me dependent upon no one else but me relegated to me. And now i have someone from here the blue the words from blue Thank You Blue and my Love. . 140309 what's it to you? who go blather from