ask_everyone misstree i have a strange sort of poll... you gotta be 18 or older, though, and not easily offended... email me for details... misstree@chaosmagic.com 031222 ... somebody A Ghost in This House Krauss Alison I don't pick up the mail I don't pick up the phone I don't answer the door I'd just as soon be alone I don't keep this place up I just keep the lights down I don't live in these rooms I just rattle around I'm just a ghost in this house I'm just a shadow upon these walls As quietly as a mouse I haunt these halls I'm just a whisper of smoke I'm all that's left of two hearts on fire That once burned out of control You took my body and soul I'm just a ghost in this house I don't care if it rains I don't care if it's clear I don't mind staying in There's another ghost here He sits down in your chair And he shines with your light And he lays down his head On your pillow at night I'm just a ghost in this house I'm just a shadow upon these walls I'm living proof of the damage Heartbreak does I'm just a whisper of smoke I'm all that's left of two hearts on fire That once burned out of control And took my body and soul I'm just a ghost in this house Oh, I'm just a ghost in this house 031222 ... somebody =( that was not supose to go in this blath, sorry 'bout that. 031222 ... mt i like it, and therefore no apologies are neccesary. i decree it so. 031222 ... nomme running around getting dressed beautiful 031222 ... Next Question ok I had a strange dream last night, I mean it all seemed to make relative sence untill, well I was in the woods or some such and I look around and I see spiders webs w/ spiders in them, their all in various trees, and while theirs a lot of them (theirs even one web wear two spiders are shareing it) I don't really get the sence or being surounded or being in trouble, any way that I could of handled w/ out question, but the strange part is that, oh how the heck to I explain this properly? ok you know how spiders have 8 legs, well each and every spider I saw was useing 4 of their legs to make an EyE, or at least what rezimbulled an eye, and when I saw it it automaticly made me think "The Third Eye" you know the one in the middle or your forhead symballizeing ultament knowlege, understanding and becomeing one w/ the universe, yea that one, in my dream this is aparently quite important, but I havent the faintest clue as to what it could mean! I mean spiders useing their legs to make the symball for the 3rd eye! thats more then a bit odd!! so I'm asking that if any of you even have the -slightest- inkling or guess as to what this means -please- answer this question for help! 040220 ... misstree ---~={(@)}=~--- ---~={(@)}=~--- how do i make myself stop busting into tears so damn often when i want to be savoring the last bit of time i have with caesar before i leave town? it kind of kills a happy mood when hysterics or melancholy stops by uninvited. anyone got the proper sized brainwrench i can borrow? or some particular perspective that i can use as a slightly stronger shield? (mental defenses are a bit taxed.) ---~={(@)}=~--- ---~={(@)}=~--- 040405 ... eskimos friend well i can tell you something that put all my problems in perspective. firstly, looking on blather, it seems that not only did people have problems as bad, worse or like mine, but it sounded like some people were in the exact same situation. which was really weird. then i talked to someone who dated a psychopath. and then i talked to someone who was telling me the reason she hates coldplay is because someone tried to rape her while parachutes was playing, and moments before had been mouthing the words of trouble to her. and then my best friend phoned me and told me our maths teacher and form tutor, had died. he was an amazing man, fit and healthy in his fifties, always joking around with us, a good friend more than a teacher, but a brilliant teacher at that. we still have no idea what happened, or what's become of his two sons. i tell you, i don't give a stuff about anything else, that girl who was i was caught up over can go fuck herself for all i care. how's that for some perspective, mtree? 040405 ... misstree it's not so much the lack of perspective; i've been in a few really dark places, and gotten second hand tastes of far far worse... this particular situation is my achilles heel, the feeling that life is being plain unfair... it's the bitter irony that i leave right when i'm getting attached... it instantly turns a love into a wound... and i am determined to suck it up and stop the bleeding and take every moment i can get and then some... aside from this rather devastating-to-the-tree aspect, i'm overjoyed about the trip... even getting rid of half my worldly posessions doesn't phaze me too terribly... but the missed potential... and the ticking clock... and so very often being drawn away from such loves before their time (at least as i see it)... it's constantly beating the door in, and sometimes the door shatters and i end up in hysterical tears right in the middle of a good time... because he's the one damn thing i'm going to miss from this town... and the timing couldn't be set up to sting any better (fuck you again, big_momma). i verymuch understand your point, though, and it's a great way of dealing with a lot of stuff, but this is just a little bit too deep under the emotional skin for that particular tactic... please say you have more good advice? 040405 ... z seeking happiness is defining self as unhappy (joy is found in supprising places and times) try not to say i wanted to but i couldn't or i did it but i did not want to 040405 ... strawberryxgash Does this mean the poll is over? 040405 ... eskimos friend i wish i had some advice misstree, but i'm just a kid; i'm not very experienced in life. everything that happens is a first taste to me, something new to get my head around. one thing that helps is if you can live your life knowing that nothing lasts, and not demanding, expecting or hoping for it to. now that's almost a stylised way of saying "live for the moment", but i wouldn't say have no consideration for the future, because that's obviously important. rather, be aware of the future, and aware that you have to balance what you think is best for the future (both your future and the future of those you care about) with the knowledge that any opportunities you get may never arise again. like this, i find it very easy to see things come and go, simply accepting each thing as and when it is, seizing and enjoying chances and experiences. but in honesty it's just a half-bit kind of philosophy when it comes to something truly deep. when i found a real connection in my life, something profound, beautiful and awful (i think those are the right words), i clung like mad to it, and even when it got too much and i ran entirely away from it, i found i couldn't let go. there's no cure for love, i'm afraid, no protection against even the slightest fancy. sorry, i'm better at sympathising than giving advice, really (clearly), and you definitely have my sympathy, misstree. 040406 ... misstree is NOT awake yet naw, i think you're wonderful at giving advice... living for the moment is exactly what i'm failing to do, and i should damn well know better... "there is nothing but now" was a phrase that came up last night... i would be ashamed of myself for forgetting such a deeply ingrained lesson, but it's an easy one to lose... the way the winds work... the very very temporary nature of things... it's another sign of my stagnation in this town... and it's sometimes hard to keep fluid and floating in the midst of all these storms of passion, but if i keep tucked in a corner of my mind the knowledge that these passions are exactly what i live on, they get infinitely easier to bear... and for some reason, your post made me think of swimming with dolphins... feeling smooth skin swim by under hands... if one is amenable, catching a ride for a bit... dunno, never done it, but my brain has been thinking in pictures more lately... and z, "seeking happiness is defining self as unhappy" is a rather interesting turn of phrase... not sure to what extent i agree with it, but there is definitely good perspective in there... thanks to ye both... 040406 ... u24 ok, so I'm wondering what to do as my next web project thing (like show_me, nodeworld, all those kinda things) and here are my two main ideas, vote now *: 1) "foga" (part forum, part game) You join a group of like minded people, then people from other groups ask your group questions, then everyone in your group gets 2 days to answer the question (at this point, only people inside your group can see the answers) then at the end of the 2 days, everyone in your group gets a further 2 days to vote for what they think is the best answer. Then that answer gets made public, as the official group answer. The other answers are also linked, as 'alternative' answers. If your answer wins, you get points. The more points you get, the more features in the forum you get, eg picture upload, private messaging, your own 'profile' page, etc, etc. 2) co-operative journal Every day, a new journal page is displayed, anyone can add an entry. At the end of the year, there's 365 entries by completely different people, in one journal. Several journals could be run concurrently to allow more than 365 people to participate. 3) something else? (open to ideas) * Disclaimer; as I no longer have a website, I'm afraid none of you will actually get to see the fruits of my labour, it's just that I can't decide which to do. 040407 ... Piso Mojado i like the coop journal 040514 ... minnesota_chris i'd like to see blather with graphics. Kinda like our Yahoo Photos page. (at photos.yahoo.com/rehtalb) we'd post words and pictures. Things we find on the internet, with things we write. It's kind of a takeoff on your nodeworld idea. And kind of like superbad.com 040515 ... temporary show me was similar. 040520 ... phil opinion 040521 ... u24 show me will be resurrected soon. 040819 ... phil Dear Next Question, The psychic web. The spider meditates on her web, tuning in through invisible threads. The captured prey's fate is easily foretold. P.S. My sister and I shared a very similar dream within a day of one another, presumably by coincidence. We both recalled our dream days later and were a little surprised. In mine I notice our cat, Cosmo, has eight legs. A camouflage spider crawls off his head that was controlling his body like a machine. My sister had a dream about this same cat in cohorts with a colony of spiders. The cat itself has a foot that seems to be awake while the rest of him is sleeping. This may not be real significant, but your dream, the third eye representing psychic powers, and me and my sister having this dream about telepathic spiders, however, share a very clear theme. 070216 ... t what? you now it too be responsible how much do you need to be happy? 070217 what's it to you? who go blather from