15_minutes pSyche All the time I have until my computer dies Until my legs give out under me Refusing so stubbornly to walk another step without sleep And the charcoal on my hands draws lines veins and cracks magnified I'm growing older and it's a fifteen minute revelation Like some premature midlife crisis I'll die He'll die my art will rot and fade away in some unread magazine or a decrepit old house 15 minutes orders issued bombs fired worlds revolving and i'm lost again Irrelevance. The point is awfully dull. 080414 ... pSyche Sketching again. I read some poetry today, by this kid I know online. (I find it terribly amusing that I'm referring to people younger than me as kid now...) As I read it, I felt awful... I didn't understand a word of it anymore. I saw the beauty, the wording the same as I might have once written, but the true comprehension and beauty slipping away... 080415 ... pSyche the amount of time I've wasted online already. I have a crick in my neck. Futile, isn't it? huh? Nevermind. Lisa asked me why I was in graphic design today, and I honestly didn't know. I was happy with it... but it's not really what I want to do, I guess. Film school. Maybe theater. I don't really know. Your voice on the phone was harsh and biting baby. I wondered as I hung up how we had gotten this far. I still feel empty when you lay next to me. Used, and cheap, and I figure that you just feel happy. I used to believe that you could fall in love with anyone, but sometimes I'm not sure what love is anymore. One more week and i'm going home. Maybe we'll realize we don't like each other after summer. But then I'd really feel cheap. 080418 ... pSyche Funny how fast time flies. Said we'd hang out for an hour, and before we know it, it's three. Guess I'm getting older. 4 months of summer. I hate art. I'm ready for 4 months of sleep 4 months of tossing and turning 4 months of sleeplessness 4 months of deterioration. And then back to something I'm not sure I want to do anymore. ... sigh. 080422 ... pSyche I rolled over and hit the alarm clock. 9 am is still to early. Too bloody hot here in the desert. I want an air conditioner. God, I hate summer. I was at a waterpark with him. It was dark, and the place looked a little ominous, but he was with me, and we were with the school. No worries. We go inside the building, and it's reminding me of war. Nazis or some crap like that. He's holding my hand. God, how I missed him. We get on the train, and now it's deep in the mountain, heading down hill, a little to fast I think. But I brush it aside. No, now the one car behind us, as I turn to look, has unhitched and goes rolling off the tracks. I express my fear to him, as the train car sways wildly. We grab onto the sides. The car goes off the tracks, out of the mountains, and by leaning from side to side, the passengers of the car manage to bring it to a stop, but it didn't topple over. I get out, and he comes up to me, hugging me, telling me it's ok. I would swear that I could smell him then. The way his cologne mingles with his sweat. The way his voice trickles down past my ears. I wish he would never stop holding on to me. But we go back to our rooms. I hear something outside my door, and I open it. Lying in the narrow hallways is a man, someone I feel like I might know. I think he has a brother down the hall. Is it him? No, I'm mistaken. This man is lying outside my door, naked, covered in red tattoos, no, scars of self-mutilation, and I'm repulsed. Why am I seeing this? Where is He? What does this man want from me? I hear a mocking laugh, and to the left I see the man's brother, or is it his significant other? This one too, is covered in scars, naked, but not repugnantly so. I tell them to be naked in their own room if they must. 9:15. He's not here. He won't be. God, I hate summer. 080513 ... pSyche I am glad your bones do not lie where the dark things of the earth lurk and the many legged creatures feast upon the flesh of your brothers and lovers Where the beds are so invitingly soft So narrow you cannot breathe Where your eyes cannot see the sun Nor your body feel its warmth Nor your mind ever know I heard your mother weeping for you As your body bloated in the water I heard your father looking for you Calling your name as he wandered They will not find us my love Till summer comes and they draw back the covers Two season's old, our blood ice cold Floating where the creepy crawly things will never devour. 080706 ... hsg ____________ Written by Pallavi Pandit Friday, 25 September 2009 17:33 Have you heard yourself saying "I wish I had the time for this..." Well, the truth is, however busy you may be, you do have the time. With the hectic mad pace of life, it is easy to waste time that you could have set aside for yourself. I suggest that you take care of the minutes and the hours will take care of themselves. Put aside 15 minutes every day and do something worthwhile. Do something for yourself. You'll be amazed what you can achieve in those few minutes set aside every single day. You can set a 15 minute count down timer for an activity such as do yoga, arrange your cupboard, go for a walk, clear up the papers you don't need, arrange your clothes, read a book, clean the kitchen, dance, play with your kids, have a hot relaxing shower.... The list is endless. Be creative and think up fun ways to add constructive activity each day to your life for just 15 minutes. This 15 minute fun routine has made a dramatic positive difference in the life of thousands of people. It improves vocabulary to self confidence to finishing off what seemed like cumbersome tasks with ease, improving fitness levels and relationships. I'm sure you want to know why 15 minutes, why not any lesser or more? There is no clear answer to this. It just seems like 15 minutes is neither too long to get something done nor short enough to be tolerable. Let's say for example, the hardest part of achieving fitness is taking the first step and making the much needed lifestyle changes. By cutting down an overwhelming goal into 15 minute time slots, it seems so much easier to begin achieving the seemingly difficult tasks. The 15 minute rule need not only be applied to tasks that you need to complete. You can even spend the 15 minutes time to hang out with your kids. Its quality time, you can even read a motivational story to your kids in that time. They will be so delighted and you will know you did the best possible thing with your time. The best thing is, you can find those 15 minutes at any time of the day, late evening or night. Whatever time fits in your schedule is perfectly fine. You can even use the coffee break at work and go for a quick job, or do some simple stretching exercises especially if you work in a desk bound job. This will relax and loosen your limbs. It can be something as simple as watering the plants early in the morning and thanking God for each new day. Here are 15 ideas for what you can do in those 15 minutes 1. Take a hot water shower 2. Go for a brisk walk 3. Do yoga at the crack of dawn 4. Grab a power nap 5. Put together a healthy snack 6. Catch up with a friend on the phone 7. Give yourself a head, neck and shoulder massage 8. Listen to soothing music 9. Watch the daily news 10. Clean up and arrange a cluttered drawer 11. Write a letter to somebody you want to say something nice to 12. Just sit down in silence and meditate 13. Give yourself a lovely manicure or pedicure 14. Plan out the menu for the whole week so you can write down your grocery list. 15. Give yourself a beauty treatment. Use a face mask. Cleanse, steam and moisturize It is a simple technique of fitting in 15 minutes in your daily routine everyday, but once you get started, you can tackle even the biggest and most difficult tasks with ease. The moment those 15 minutes are up, just stop and see how much you have achieved. And, if you are a lazy slacker like me who leaves everything for tomorrow, you will be amazed how much you accomplish with the 15 minutes fun routine. ____________ father_estevan someone else who shared this 15m philosophy w/ me. it_holds. 15m is perfect. any less it's not enough, more and you're less likely to do it. in just 15m of each activity day_after_day there are miraculous effects- after a few years you will have accomplished much. btw 15m = 1_96th of your day, 1.042% grandfather_clocks_have_wisdom they're_there_for_a_reason 100126 ... hsg http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W7ujsly-B_w&NR=1 Bashar PART 1: 15 Minutes & Counting... - November 14, 2009 rewire im b ue the most positive frequency possible 100411 ... hsg http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wvRlllXJYhw&feature=related Bashar: A Preview of the November 14 & 15 2009 Events morefficient way of utilizing that device receiver... rah higher_frequenCy realitiezzzZzzz 100411 what's it to you? who go blather from