what_i_really_want birdmad long conversations about nothing in the middle of the night. to love and be loved. to touch and be touched. to fly. a trip to hawai'i. to see her smile in a crowded room and have it be just for me. a million trivial things. to whisper three_words in her ear and have her answer with a kiss. ...damn. 000512 ... moonshine I just want someone to dance with! 000513 ... miniver I've never kissed a crazy man. 000513 ... MollyGoLightly Once you do, you can never get rid of him. 000528 ... The Crazy Schleiffen Man how true..... but i'd rather not be gotten rid of.... 000528 ... MollyGoLightly the last 2 posts make it look like i made out with the schleiffen man. i didn't, but someone else sure did... 000528 ... The Schleiffen Man yes, i forgot to append that... my bad MollyGoLightly.... 000528 ... extinct bird ...to shut everything off to bury myself under so much garbage and debris so that maybe somone will cart it all away and me along with it 000604 ... jennifer I've been kissed by a crazy man 010107 ... stupidpunkgirl for people to have happiness i would give them mine but it wouldn't go far enough to love, and be loved to find out how people work and why they hurt and to stop being to damn shy 010108 ... silentbob all you have to realize is that their opinion and judgement of you means little, especially when its negative. so you can be as outgoing as possible if you realize that they won't cut you for it, because they won't. 010108 ... Sintina security, security, security. But security is such an insecure thing. 010108 ... kx21 changes time after time, place after place, thought after thought.... I_CAN'T_LIVE_WITHOUT_IT or I_CAN'T_SLEEP_WITHOUT_IT or I_CAN'T_PLAY_WITHOUT_IT or I_CAN'T_BLATHER_WITHOUT_IT or ... 010108 ... unique butterfly you really want to know what i really want? what i really want is to know my purpose. know why i am here. to know why i am alive and what i am suppose to do. i want to know the purpose to life. the purpose of feeling. the purpose of belief. the purpose of god. the purpose of life. that's what i really want. 010602 ... tears of the night I really want to know who i am i want to know. what i am good for and who people see me as. but not only do i want to know who they see me as i want to belive them i want to be that person. I want my own idenity i don't want to conform to how ever people want me to be 010627 ... pat sajak am i dead yet? 010627 ... frankenfistkitten i am the big_electric_cat i need to check out this tonya i keep hearing about that's what i want 010627 ... Casey friends and people to accept me 010627 ... bloody potato chip do you have a cat named tonya? i have a cat named tonya. i couldn't let her eat that bird, i couldn't let that happen. i had a dream, i thought it was real. she was comin' at me, tryin' to strangle me, makin' all these weird noises like "aaaaeeeeiiiiiaaaaaagghhhhhhhhheeeeeiiiiiiiooooooooooollala" 010627 ... tonya AAAAEEEEEIIIIIGGHHHHHHHHEEEEEEIIIIIOOOOOOOOLLALA!!!!! 010627 ... yummyC an assortment of 85 punk CDs being sold on ebay. i am all about material things. oh my god, you can SO totally buy happiness. sometimes its in the form of pills. 010709 ... Dafremen Behold the young Libra female in her undeveloped form... Don't worry...wait til you see what TIME does to her...no seriously..just wait...you'll see...it'll be cool. 010709 ... User24 what i really want is... well, at thje moment, it'd probally be more money and a gun and few more knives, especially a butterfly knife. oh and a faster computer at home. but apart from that I'm fine. 010709 ... yummyC im crazy giddy happy jump up and down if only i had a sports bra happy...overjoyed, elated. i dunno why. if i wasnt a libra dafremen would prolly be all pissy and mean to me like he is to some other people (and sometimes they deserved it...). HAHAHHAHAH you all suck because I'm a libra and ....yeah. i'll shut up now... and dont lecture me. 010709 ... Moe Is simply to understand what it is that I really want, getting it from there is the easy part. Motivation lies upon decision and wont lift a god damned finger till decisiveness does. 010709 ... Dafremen "THE TWANGER" see also: baby_satan_s_snack_tips 010709 ... ^^^^^^^ er..baby_satan's_snack_tips ? 010709 ... black-dyed gel product a swimming pool full of strawberry jello to swim or sink in 010710 ... tiny snapdragon a kraft caramel a good night's sleep a venus fly trap a manta ray a hug a friend a moment of perfect bliss a modicum of restraint 010711 ... nemo to be able to see him... or atleast know what hes thinking 010711 ... blamethesky for you to love me like i love you for the world to stop making me so sad... 020409 ... natasha is for him to remind me again about how wonderful he thinks I am when inside I feel that I am only but an inkling of it 020409 ... kx21 A species of M_matter... 020410 ... Dis Is a whole pile of money. A big, disgusting lot of money that will never run out. A lot of people wouldn't suspect this sort of thing from me, probably because I've lived so long and so well without any, but it's true, I want stacks of money. I would buy him fancy books on Gaudi, a new computer, a potter's wheel, a shed full of tools, a house in the hills, and I'd take him to Italy to eat real gelato. I'd buy him a bike to ride across Europe while I waited for him in fancy hotels, and we'd throw really nice parties for all of our friends. If either of us ever got sick or hurt we'd be able to go to any doctor we wanted and take lots of time to recover. We'd eat lots of sushi whenever we felt like it, and not just the krab sticks, but the really good stuff. I would buy myself a kayak, and some pretty clothes, and a really nice haircut in an actual salon. It would be awesome. 020411 ... me u and all that. 020412 ... kerry to write books to be adored by someone i adore to be happy with myself, others, and where i am in my life to collect photographs the making of sweet love in linen sheets to not be sunburned 020413 ... little wonder to just be happy 020418 ... blown cherry yeah, what birdmad said at the start 020418 ... Arwyn + for my mother to love me + for my mother to accept me + for her to realize how much she's hurt me + for her to say I love you, and actually stop to realize the meaning and implications behind such a strong sentence. + for her to say I'm proud of you + for her to stop trying to turn me into my 24 year old gay brother. + for her to realize that I can take care of myself. + for her to accept that she has made quite a few mistakes in raising me and that I'm not rebellious so much as independent. + for her to stop trying to control my life. that's what i really want 020418 ... mahayana a palm pilot for life [rewind][fast forward][pause] [pause][pause][erase][record] [do it again][do it again] [[stop]][rewind] {[play]} [bright neon red switch to flip so that no person may ever ever! ever again even think of trying to erase over who i am]::cuzimheretostaysodealwithitbubb:: 020418 ... -.:.::eric::.:.- I thought for a while maybe a girlfriend would make me happy, or at least happier... Alot of people can say that though. I'd rather be sad now. It's because.... ... Right now what i really want is to become a deep person. To be able to write incredable poetry and to be allowed to see things the way a poet sees them. I want people to look into my eyes and tell me they are beautiful. (-: 020418 ... searching to be in love... someone to hold me at night and make me feel less alone. someone i can share my secrets with. someone who will like me just the way i am. 020418 ... TK To be able to spell 020419 ... Ive Gone Incognito To be trusted You say it's not me you don't trust but every one else, if that were true than why is it always me your upset @ and not every one else? What have I done to deserve such treatment? I can't even leave the house w/o calling to tell you first (and even than you try to talk me out of going anywhere) or else I get an earful of your insecurities and reprimands, I've done every thing in my power to prove to you that I'm not you ex and that I'm only interested in you - what more can I do? 020419 ... Dafremen To have this be the final word on why I write here: I come here to create. I type. I have no intentions other than to write. It is the breath of life to me. Sometimes I wake my wife in the middle of the night looking for a pad and a pencil so that I can write something down to look at it. That's what_I_really_want ... really, just for folx to read it and think of it what they will...WITHOUT judging the author. I think they just might be ready to do that. They just don't seem to know how to start. TRULY free expression is an entity that exists separate from its creator. 020419 ... Freak I would really love to be able to fly. Not airplane fly. Super hero fly. I did the worlds tallest sky coaster before. It was the closest thing to being able to fly I will ever get to do. My dad is taking me sky diving but that is just falling. With the sky coaster I got to fly. It was one of the greatest things ive ever done. During the time I was doing it I had my moment of freedom as I was flying through the wind. Its one of the greatest feelings. Damn I really have to do that again. 020509 ... silentbob i really really really wanna zigga zig ah 020509 ... CJ to get out of my fucking small town and go back to the place where I go to school 020509 ... peyton a gem filled castle filled with lights and glittering fireworks on a quiet little street 050811 ... unhinged i'll take one of each of those madbird but i'm not so picky on my pronouns; either or would do 050811 ... Sintina security? Man, I sounded like my mother. Security's all well and good. And sure I want that... but what I ~really~ want? Confidence, comfort, certainty when making decisions, bravery, spontanaity, closeness and trust between all the people I love and all those who love me. I believe in miracles. 051222 ... m o s confidence and talent to become an artist. 051222 ... caresscoffee i want to love someone and be loved back and i want that someone to be just as weird as i am i want them to accept all my flaws just like i'll accept thiers 051222 ... jane to have my cake & eat it too. & smear it all over my face & body & then cover you with cake, and lick it off your body. god, i need to get laid. 070614 ... jane to have my cake & eat it too. & smear it all over my face & body & then cover you with cake, and lick it off your body. god, i need to get laid. 070614 ... jane god i need to not double post. 070614 ... mr song to be out in the great forrests! 070614 ... mr song to drive and keep going! 070614 ... pSyche is just to know that ONE person truely loves me irregardless of my facts. 070614 ... . try juggling then ! 070614 ... megan to know what i should do for the rest of my life (as a job) to be calm to be with you 070615 what's it to you? who go blather from