relationships
Jehova Relationships with ones peers is a vital envolment with the moderm mind of the young 000718
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nnk watch them sacrifice 010611
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Butterfly Collector : None 010812
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silentbob a fucked up tunnel of twisted despair

my god

look at how vulnerable you are
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Aimee are the root of all that's evil 010813
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ellen cherry charles i decorate envelopes for you.
colorful, random envelopes, hoping that they will explain, more than words, my feelings for you. i send them off, containing largely more mundane letters.
we said we needed this distance, i thought the glass would clear--
i miss your laugh, your crinkly eyes, your smile, your voice, your silly jokes.
but does this equation equal some sort of permanence?
will you be a different person when i see you again?
will i?
all i feel right now is that the physical distance between us may be large, but the mental and emotional distance feels like the width of my chain
that hangs around your neck
(or did you take it off
to sleep?)
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Fli "Man's love is of man's life a thing apart; 'tis woman's whole existence." Lord Bryon 020106
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kerry can be saddening 020106
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eddie monster me and my girl, we got this relationship
i love her so bad, but she treats me like shit
i'm locked down like a PENITENTIARY, she spreads her lovin all over and when she gets home, there's none left for me

what am i gonna be doin for a WHILE,
said i'm gonna play with myself

eeevil
come to tell you
that she's
evil
most definitely
eeevil
come to tell you
that she's
evil
most definitely
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louie dog ahem, you forgot the part about ornery and scandalous

woof woof woof
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eddie needing a relationship based strictly on sexual gratification 020808
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blamethesky every single one ends up badly
of every single kind
020808
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eddie no shit? 020808
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She Likes the idea of a random relationship based solely on sexual gratifacation 020808
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jane used to have a random relationship based solely on sexual gratification

and what did it turn into?

everything i didn't believe in and now sacrifice a piece of freedom for
020808
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eddie monster talk dirty to me
she
for i am he
who fullfills
all fantasies of the

she was a girl
maybe 19
maybe 23
i was looking for a song i had just heard by nirvana, versechorusverse, i think its called. looking back i realize kurt was a, i don't really know what he was, but can only respect his devotion to every decision he made. (to all the readers who remember kurt "heavier than heaven" is a must read)anyways i found this place where i could say things without much consequence, i think its called blather; thats where i'm at right now. reading hearts that bleed their feelings from the keyboard to the screen; drinking a beer thats way too expensive. then i met she. we talked for a few days, and then we met. i picked her up and gave her the don juan treatment. you know dinner and flowers, a nervous kiss at the doorstep.
"i had fun."
"me too."
"would you like to come up for a glass of wine."
"sure, why not, i only have to get up at seven and work 10 hours so i can support my shitty existence."
"what the hell."
020808
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eddie she kept moaning
fhhuuuuuuckckckckc
me
fhhhhuuuuuuuckckc
me
harder
hhharder
whispers of stale breath in my ear
fhhhhuuuuck
fffhhhuuckckck
deeper
harder
oh yea baby
fuck me like a dog
stick it in my pussy
stick it in deep
rip that pussy
thats your fuckin pussy huh?
"yea, thats my fuckin pussy tonight. who's takin care of that pussy tonight.i'm gonna take good care of that pussy tonight."
020808
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jane is that your idea of a relationship 020812
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jane [clearly, i put no question mark because i wanted to leave it an open-ended question] 020812
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eddie as i understand it
refuse to clarify
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eddie monster my wounded heart
rejects what loves
reflects in pools
of contaminated blood

beating now
and maybe again
pumping tainted love
from deep within

threw my lungs
punctured and scarred
breathing the hate
they're drowning in

understand
i beg of you
what the fuck
your getting into

never love
never feel
like it's real
like it did before
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unhinged what i want to say
doesn't come out right
what i haven't said
eats me at night
and it's all here
written in blue
find it if you dare
you might not like what i have to say
about you
and that's why i don't say it
i'm needy
you're not
and i have an overactive imagination
you were supposed to be something else
deep down inside
i can't dig myself out
from under you
i'm still talking about it
i'm needy
you're not
when it comes to me
020813
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eddie needy bodies
every one
needy
holes
needy
poles
needy
fools
020814
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jane everyone? i never considered myself needy. i'm too independent for a relationship most of the time 020814
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eddie monster then why are you following me
you are specifically reading my heart
i understand
i am guilty as charged
020814
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eddie monster do you need a response?
do you need to work?
do you need money?
i need to sleep.
i need sex.
i need friendsandenemies.
a rock doesn't need anything.
maybe kicked around a little is all.
are you a rock?
i know your not.
then why should i treat you like one.
your swell.
maybe we shouldn't talk anymore
fuck off mr. wear wolf.
020814
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jane it is possible to be an independent follower... 020815
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jane besides, the last time i checked, you started following me first

and now what? are we stuck in a circle? doomed to follow each other and not get anywhere?

i'd like to get somewhere

so:
would you like to follow me, or shall i follow you?
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eddie how can i contact you
computer illiterate
no address
i'm from houston
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jane click on the jane
and then once again
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eddie this is so gay
late
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fred this is so straight
early
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eddie this is so jagged
forreeeeveer
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freds dog this is so smooth
neeeveer
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megan him - how is it? i mean being with someone?

me - it's nice because you always have a hand to hold, but you don't know if you are holding that hand in vain. time goes by so much quicker, but you're not really sure if you want it to. you're the talk of the town, but behind your back they whisper malicious things and plot how they will seek your revenge since you have soemthing they failed to grab. your friends are happy for you, but are hurt when you can't attend their christmas party, because it is his 16th birthday. you can get all the psychological reenforcement you need for yourself, but in the end, you wonder if it's real. you can get all the physical reenforcement you need for yourself, but in the end, you wonder if it's real.
it's all very scary, living on the edge of an oblivion where hope and faith meet reality. how much can you trust this person? do you give them an inch? or do you give them a mile?
does this all make sense?
i guess, what i'm trying to say is, it looks very well on the outside, but there's always a curse to every blessing.
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megan it's all very beautiful to me, i love him so much.
forever. seriously
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splinken it's okay to slap each other. when it's consensual. 030328
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REAListic optimIST relationships are made up of constant compromise. no, scratch that. a relationship can't exist long - can't exist - without the constant sacrifice of your: dignity, pride, morals, most dear beliefs, feelings, dsires, friends, money, things important to you, time, and most importantly - self.
always giving of yourself to ake the other more comfortable. always being imposed upon and saying that it's nothing, nothing at all. always putting up with the other's flaws while being chastised for yours. it makes you wonder if you have any true friends and lovers, or just false acquaintances.

spring, 1992
(wow i guess i had some relationship issues)
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birdmad sinking in their slips, torpedoed before they ever got out of the harbor 031125
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Truthseeker Ah, too bad! They just never ever work for me, over the years no matter how hard I try it won't happen. It's a major shame but yeah I've learned to live with it :) Anyone else like me? Wanna go out sometime? Heh, kidding XD Anyway, I am single but still happy! Sure some hot ass would be nice now and then (kidding again, I like poor ass lol) but I can do without! And I am a guy! :o 040925
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Ivan McCoy I can't express why or how she is not able to express the openly expressive staple sandwich of Frederick's expressions 050719
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jordie I think its cruel how it takes so long to get to the point where you can be honest with someone.
Relationships are like glass.
Sea glass.
the before and after.
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no reason they just all seem to come with so much pain 120216
what's it to you?
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