if_i_could_go_back_in_time birdmad i would tell my parents to do something better with their evenings during the entire month of june 1971 030213 ... Insat I would never have fallen in love. 030214 ... cube If you had never known the pains of love then one might say you had never lived... ³ 030214 ... delial I would have booked a room closer. 030215 ... Dafremen Would you go with me? Would you live through the past to see the foundations of my pain? Baseless they seem, but yesterday knows the truth. Yesterday knows the maze of circumstance that leads to the me you see today. I would take you there but for the sadness and the grim reality of that bad dream. Better that we should walk together into tomorrow and discover what we might yet be. 030215 ... Kate I'd go back to the moment just as you began to shake the non-pine tree, because I thought it was a "conferous poser," and the displaced snow was just beginning to form glowing nimbi around our smiling faces. I think I love you the most in parks. 030215 ... niska i wouldn't. i like every moment that brought me here. 030309 ... Achilles Sudafed + Vitamins I stare out at the world; Nothing stares back at me. I drink till I'm crying But then all I can do is cry. But sudafed and vitamins Can keep me safe and warm. But since you left, dear, I've been bereft here. Since you've gone away I can't go on, hey. Don't read old messages- They'll just torture you. And don't believe promises- They all get lost in time. Well Sudafed and Vitamins Keep me safe and warm. Now you're not here And I'm all alone in fear. Now you've gone away And theres no way I'm ok. But since you left, dear, I've been bereft here. Since you've gone away I can't go on, hey. Sudafed and vitamins Keep me safe and warm. People say they're happy With how it went. People say they'd Never change a thing. Well thats fine for them! Fine for them! Thats fine for them! But I just wish I could Go back and change it all.... Cause Sudfed and vitamins Can't keep me safe and warm. 030310 ... :-* I would go back to the day that I first met my boyfriend and just kiss him right then and there. would have saved a lot of otherwise wasted time. 030311 ... lost if i could go back in time i would do a lot of things differently. but i also dont want to change anything so i dont know. there is one thing that happened resently that i would definetly change. actually i would only go back if i could have the knowledge that i have now. 030312 ... Melody from Josie and The Pussycats "...I'd wanna meet Snoopy" 030325 ... User24 I'd meet malcolm X, and a few hundred other people. 030502 ... joda I think, perhaps I could have smiled, and it would have made a world of difference to you. 030502 ... Rotten77 i would visit a time when i could b a part of something meaningful. like the civil rights movement or the protests against vietnam. plus then i would b around for the beatles and, later, the pistols. i should've been a part of my parent's generation. how ridiculous. 030503 ... *silent screams my life would be completely different ...but is that something that I really want? probably not 030503 ... User24 rotten: me too. (about the parents generation thing) I hate today's culture and music, and I love 60's-90's (exluding 70's disco crap, I'm talking black sabbath and iron butterfly, man. up to 1995ish, when britpop started rising)) 030503 ... x i would have stayed in a business that made me decent money i don't belong in this life i'm trying to live 030503 ... ferret i would tell myself not to do what i did today 030503 ... trixie i would have bought a new york apartment the day i was born. I believe my first words were "co-op"... i would have invented the internet and invested in Microsoft. I would perpetually live in Harlem during the 20s...and oh ya, I'd be black. 030503 ... ferret i would have told myself not to wake up 2 days ago. 030506 ... learing lifes greatest lessons I would have kissed you right there in the snow when I had the chance. and then I would want to never see you again. or I wish had never gotten "those feelings" for you 030507 ... niska i know if i had been kissed right there in the snow, (and this is in no way a reply to you, learning...), i would have known that what i was feeling was right. but everything about you seemed so wrong. 030507 ... beorn i would do it all again. i might also regret knowing that i could have lived anyway i wanted and could get another chance. But maybe that is how i have lived. Straight-up, balls to the wall, no regrets. 030513 ... celestias shadow i don't know what i would do. i don't think i've lived enough to want to change my life yet. 040102 ... Jane Doe I would have stopped him. 040102 ... Syrope i'd have made myself clear 040102 ... why is there a w in answers? My second hand would slice through our first conversation. 040102 ... smurfus rex i'd have told erin no and waited for alexa. stupid focker. 040103 ... Afro I would try and make it so I would end up a little bit happier than I am today. It feels like the last 4 years of my life have been a complete waste of time. I've lost friends, time, and I guess worst of all, confidence in myself. I never thought I'd be where I am today. It's sad to think about. 040328 ... sameolme I would tell my Mom: "I don't care, Indiana, California, where ever you choose, but we have to get out of here for real this time." 040328 ... birdmad i would have taken two or three more valium at Ripper and Todd's house that night 040329 ... pete perhaps I could ease the suffering that is to come? who ever though that oil was a good idea? 040329 ... lizzy i woulda thought it through and not just said what i knew you wanted to hear.... 040518 ... Deomis Would I remeber the future? Could I avoid making the same brazen decisions? Would I even want to? 040518 ... dosquatch There are no brazen decisions that I would avoid, but there are a couple dozen, easy, that I'd like to add. 040518 ... nocturnal start with philosophy (probably wouldn't have met greg - would be more a plus than a minus, I think) don't take ways of knowing (which, while it would help my gpa, would mean I never would have found blather, which would also help my gpa) live in castillian less analysis, more action ransom notes high school plays pre-law fraternity go to office hours if I did all these things, I wouldn't have met elizabeth, which means I wouldn't live with jon right now, which means I wouldn't be behind on bills because I have a roommate with no concept of budgeting; I wouldn't have an F on my record, which would have saved me a lot of time spent fighting with my parents; I wouldn't have a D on my record; I'd have had more options for law school recs, which means I might have gotten in somewhere, which also would have saved a lot of stress resulting from fighting with my parents; I'd have explored what acting talent I may or may not have, which would have satisfied my unanswered attraction to the stage, even if it turns out I suck and people actually threw tomatoes at me - at least I'd know; my singing voice wouldn't have gone to shit; I'd have more friends, and therefore a more well-balanced life. not so long ago, I'd have said, and genuinely believed, that all the crappy stuff in my life that came as a result of not doing these things must have been for the best. I'd have consoled myself in the delusion that it all served some greater purpose from which I benefited, even if right now I don't realize how. I don't believe that anymore. if you rely on fate too much you stop claiming any responsibility for anything, good or bad, that happens in life. I screwed up, I didn't fight when I needed to, I didn't even think to make myself get over my petty fears and intimidations - I just said, well, that's who I am, it's how I've always done things, and I've done pretty well so far. but what I didn't realize is that I hadn't done pretty well. every time something bad happened it was because I hadn't felt like doing anything about the situation to prevent it - and I usually knew that I should have and exactly what I needed to do. stupid things like going to ask a professor to explain something or to change my F to a C (still not great, but anything's better than an undeserved F). I was afraid, too goddamn afraid that I would say something stupid and appear inferior to the professor. well guess what?! I am! that's why I'm a student and they're the professor! I was too afraid to join things because I was sure I wasn't at the level (of experience, intelligence, or talent) of the other members. who cares? now I'm worse off than anyone because I couldn't humble myself into a situation wherein I could have learned a lot of valuable information. and now look at me. everything I have to say for myself is an embarrassment. it sounds like something out of a motivational speech, but in all honesty, I wish I'd at least tried. but I didn't. I sat in my room and let the reasons to remain there, I let stupid fears of damaging my fragile pride paralyze me in a position from which I feel I'll be fighting to move for many years to come. all I have to show for myself now is a very long to-do list. and the thing is, I can't go back in time. 040518 ... once again I would go back to June 9th 2002 and I would do it "right" 040518 ... rage i destroy everything that loves me. i destroy the love to the point where it is impossible to be regained. if i could go back in time i would stop pushing people away, i would kill the fear of letting people in, before it got to the point where it consumed me. if i knew i would end up cold, fake, depressed and alone, i would have stopped and realised that i liked being happy. stupid isn't it, that back in the day when i was happy, i wanted something diffrent. now all i want is to be that old me. i guess im just_a_fuckup. 041111 ... nom i wouldn't 070207 ... FA113N I would have taken the red pill 120722 what's it to you? who go blather from