to_daxle Thyartshallshant daxle, You must have no life whatsoever cause you sure have plenty of time to bag on a depressed 15 year old for fucking kicks. Im sorry i cant fend for myself and put up a good fight at the one time in my life where im feeling the lowest ive ever felt. Blather was the first place i found in a long time where i actually felt happy. "Boo Hoo", im sure your saying, well hell... take every sad story youve ever read and laugh in its face and say "Boo Hoo". The ones where the damn family dog dies in the end or whatever. The ones where you (yes, maybe you, you heartless bitch) shed a tear of sadness. Well thats my life feels like right now, and you can belive me if you want to or not. Personally, Im tired of this little game, so this will be my last fucking blather to you. I have better things to waste my time on than you, cause you are a waste of my life. Insert your *cheers* here daxle, because this is over, and i win. Im letting someone like you bother me, not in the one place i can be happy, not any more. -Thyartshallshant 010108 ... daxle I don't know what to say to you, because every new thing you say makes you sound increasingly more stupid. Yes, I was being mean to you just for fun, and your overdramatic reactions unfortunately just make it more amusing. You think you're the center of the world, and no one's ever felt like you. I was 15 once, and my dad had just died, and I was fucked up just like you (don't even bother with "you don't even know me"). But I was also immature, ego centric, and sure that no one was as depressed as me- just like you. I would let people get to me for no particular reason other than that I was so focused on "poor me"- just like you. So should I leave you alone and wait for you to wake up? I don't care enough to bother. You win what? Who even prompted you to say any of this? And while I'm at it, you say I've ruined the one place you can be happy: blather. Well did it ever occur to you that I've been here about 2 years longer than you and I too liked it a lot better when you weren't here? We all know the real appeal of blather is being able to say all the things you're usually too insecure to say (and in reality, should maybe remain unsaid), and is ultimately based on human self centeredness, which is why I know that despite my resistance blather is actually better off for now having dialog. I am tired of this too, and actually sorry that I started it. I didn't think you would let me get to you so easily, but there's a lesson learned. 010108 ... silentbob and that lesson is don't try to bite the wrists of people with metal watches. it just sucks. 010109 ... ninevoltjesus the_needle_and_the_damage_done 010109 ... Tank one would have thought that experiences shared would lead one to empathy... it seems that even though you have lived through moments whereby you felt as though the doom of the world was upon you, you find no reason to extend sympathy to others in the same situation... that's a shame... what did you learn..? aside from bitterness that is..? 010109 ... daxle yes, this occured to me and I realize I am highly lacking in empathy, not only here, but in general what can I say? I'm sorry? I don't know if I am... because this doesn't seem to be all that serious of a matter. 010109 ... daxle besides, i_am_an_evil_person, and I never claimed otherwise I think the real lesson tho: don't bite the wrists of people with spike bracelets (unless you were considering getting a labret anyway) 010109 ... Thyartshallshant Well, i never said i wasnt any of the things you said i am either. Thats because i know them all just as well as you seem to. All those things you called me, i am. But whats wrong with that? Not much in my eyes. I WILL bother with the "you dont even know me" because, even if the situations youve been in are similar to mine, everybodys different. Everybody has there own way of living there life. Your right, i may have envaded your blather space too, but i never made a sly comment or judgement on you or anything you ever said. Its not my style. Who prompted me to say any of this? Myself, in defence. I over-reacted. Im sorry that in your opinion i brought down the "high class style" of blather, and degreaded it as you make it sound. Ive never said anything here i wouldnt tell the world, or havent already. Hey, what can i say, im an open person. Im sorry for whatever i did. If theres anyway my "idiocy" offended you, all you had to do was say something; something other than just being mean and childlike with me. I want to put this behind us too, and im just as sorry it ever started as you are. I usually DONT let negitive people get to me, but you cought me by surprise, your the first person i had met at blather that had ever said a discouraging word, really, to anyone. I havent been here for half as long as you, but i still like this place. I still think blather is the single most interesting and intreging center for free thought ive ever seen. I know i said my above blather was to be my last to you, but only because i was inticipating another entry like your others before, mean. You suprised me, you actually said you were sorry. Im sorry too, so let this be behind us. See ya round :) 010109 ... birdmad Hey, thyart.... look at it this way, at least you haven't been subjected to the blatherpsychiatrist or been the target of the BP's blathercriticisms, like most of us. at least daxle is kind enough not to spend several dozen KB going into specifics about how much each blatherer sucks 010109 ... daxle I don't get to reign supreme as the new blather meanie? awwwwwww :) 010109 ... Thyartshallshant blather_meanie Hehe :) 010109 ... miniver You've got the brass, kid. I endorse you. 010111 ... Bell R umm ok. 010116 ... daxle you are a waste of space see i_am_an_evil_person 010116 ... tourist "When I was 16 I was amazed at how stupid my father was. When I was Twenty, I was amazed at how much he had learned in four short years." mark twain It's all a matter of perspective. 010117 ... Aimee I'm sorry if I insulted you earlier. I didn't mean to. I just wanted to know if something was wrong. I know you don't really like me (or at least I get that vibe), but I was just trying to express concern, and I was hurt that you took such a sarcastic tone to it. I'm sorry for insulting you. It was not my intention. 020603 ... god i drink a lot less beer now cuz of you. 020604 ... daxle aimee- it's really not that big of a deal, let's relax, ok? god-ah forget about the breasts, go drink a pint of guiness 020604 ... squeeze i saw you! (sort of) 020605 ... daxle how?! 020605 ... daxle cmon cmon, tell me! 020607 ... tahm crews i took off your pants (sort of) 020607 ... daxle nah ah! 020622 ... x oh my god. a million years later i get who that was, and how obvious it should have been. silly me. 031005 ... daxle and a million years later I forgot who it was again. and wow, am I less of a bastard these days! i wonder whatever happened to that kid. 080930 ... unhinged if i remember right he ended up in an institution for a while. i think he got out. i lost contact with him and then also lost(harlan) and am not sure about either of them anymore. i hope they are both okay. they had rocky wreckless lives back in those days. 081001 ... thy thank you for the kind words scattered about the blue. you were you, and i was me, and we collided. shit_happens. it is amazing. really. hope to see you around again unhinged: reckless... yes. wreckless... hah... no. 120511 ... lxeda "One would have thought that experiences shared would lead one to empathy..." -Tank Yes. One would have thought. I read something awhile back about how having shared experiences somehow, contrary to what you'd imagine, actually leads to lack of empathy. I think it's a premature attempt at distancing one's self from a painful experience. But if you get around to processing your experience, then you have the possibility of feeling empathy. In this case, I feel both empathy for my victim, and for my former self. Though my only consolation is that I probably wasn't the only destructive force in his life. Of course, it's easier not to remember. Thankfully, the majority of my life is not documented on these blue walls. I'd have plenty more to regret if I could remember. 190106 ... dafremen Burger King Stand Up Queen. :D 190106 ... fondo squiderly Deeply felt no worse for where the wear hurt the wearer which was a two party set of not always the best. Best bet is those hurt had a part or were hurters back plus broke plus broke. High once held light hot things, not thinking enough or too much, in my hands gentle searing wants, tried to gently kiss to stay to not destroy this boy could not. Undo all the days would what changed the same now blame mine self types for knots let slip and dem dehr hopes was lost. Two mewillion reasons to regretting get lost, just letting it slip away helped oh well. Kittens sure are cute though. 190110 ... xadel We lacked the wisdom and maturity required to transition a dysfunctional romantic relationship into a healthy friendship. (Which isn't unusual in the slightest.) Blunt force trauma was probably the most humane option available at the time, which is sad making, but allows for compassion towards our former selves. I take comfort in the idea that we're all nicer and happier people now, so maybe all that strife was useful in some way. Plus, cats. 210519 ... daf "I know that despite my resistance blather is actually better off for now having dialog." So glad the blatherspace finally worked that out, Ms. Rose. ; ) Imagine a world with that attitude. 210520 what's it to you? who go blather from