subsequent_losses unhinged BLOOD is there peace for the heart whose never felt this skin pumping the rhythm of some so we know that it exists blood can this be home for some man whose nearly lost his mind? searching at length for something he will never find so we know that it exists blood what a beautifully ransom note kind of brings a lumbar to your throat wonder if you'll ever care such a perfectly tied up piece of rope kind that fits around my throat once i climb up on this chair kick it put the tag on my toe GRINDROD well i'm coming to get you in my bad ass car we'll run around now will you beat me down now ... what you cannot say everything's your fault now why don't you lock your door now it gets so cold you can't feel it it gets so cold you can't feel it i'll bet you can't wait til we get home i'll tuck your ass in bed you're gonna wish that you were dead this plane is definitely gonna crash this boat is obviously sinking POISON PARTY have you ever met my best friends these cats would hang out on the weekends duck and like they're here to stay in the picture of my everyday have you ever had the feeling shaking sweating just like stealing you grind your teeth and try to get it done but only one thing leads to healing on my way up to the poison party as you can see we get all the way down and i dont' care if i get good or bad shit as long as there's enough to go around on the way up to the poison party i'll let you know once i get all the way there and i'm not happy til i'm nonexistant medicated til i get somewhere go so fast i want to blur to my sides no time to waste when you're not wasting time i'm on a secret little solo mission perfect accomplice to my victimless crime run through the house and close the shutters lock the door and hit the covers there's no place you can run to hide from yourself so you load up on your crutch hit the gas pop the clutch and on your way up to the poison party as you can see we get all the way down i don't care if i get good or bad shit as long as there's enough to go around on my way up to the poison party i'll let you know once i get all the way there i'm not happy til i'm nonexistant medicated til i get somewhere hey pink we didn't have to trade our heroes for ghosts they were ghosts before we graduated and now it's time to self pollute he's going straight to hell on the quickest route everything has a substitute nothing much to convolute on my way up to the poison party as you can see we get all the way down i don't care if i get good or bad shit as long as there's enough to go around on my way up to the poison party i'll let you know when i get all the way there i'm not happy til i'm nonexistant medicated til i get somewhere STORM you know you're down when you count the friends you have but you only use one hand, honey it finally hit your face has left you mighty low you're just slightly out of place storm your dreams drowned again cause you've never learned to swim storm passed over thrown away you hang your hat on yesterday growing older now no better you're older but no better you say you're upset forecast the life you want just beyond the colder front sugar the winds of change blow through it took the whole damn world i guess it only left you cold storm step forth and fire away with puddles drenched with rain delay storm your dreams just washed away while all us kids were out at play growing older now no better you're older now no better ROT i got older just in time to die you're right there to take everything we own rot that's how you like it now i can't help myself for ...something else we're all indifferent so bend over take everything they've got so why don't we work so hard to take everything we know rot that's how you like it that's how you like it i cannot find my way no life and we decay just watch come undone again obey my master drunk and crying you seem to change your tune when all i want was to get back at you rot how can you feel yourself your life there's no way out you know that's how you like it JASMINE so young such a shame you've given up hope sound off to the fact that you can't cope well everyone here knows your burning with optimism's flame and low grade dope didn't you on your own? where's god when you need that bastard most of all? he's absent from your latest spiritual role call everyone here's got that seed of doubt then a change of heart that comes mid fall didn't you on your own? does it weigh does hope weigh as much as you say it does now to know that we've left you on your own SLOW DEATH slow death but all as well long drive all the way to hell so god it rankles we show how we do things here goddamn oh my god it's the same old shit and your life it goes up in smoke you feel dead in your heart but in your head it's turning back around again it's turning back around again frank silver, ivet upcoming unrelease --- subsequent losses 031221 ... marked . 031221 ... unhinged CURSE the curse if finally showing just a liar's mind prentending to be glowing it's no more rolling down to spare your silly heart stop right there it's the same old story silence softly spoken just like some trinket of your faith no more than a token pop your pills and state your case i think your head's alright your heart's just really broken it's broken let's see here where to start it seems your failing heart is riddled with the curse of being everything to everyone and nothing to it oh no the curse if finally showing like a sleeping a giant stop right there it's just another knife THE TRUTH like no other's gun born into getting so soon god it feels so good yeah it feels alright so hang up the gloves dear let's get on with the event instead of raising our voices let's reinforce our arguement load up your memory cells point blank range blow you to hell for what it's worth you're coming home god it feels so good yeah it feels alright so hang up the gloves dear let's get on with the event instead of raising our voices let's reinforce our arguement ghost comes to hate yesterday just remind me all the feelings that i've lost with the people put behind me memories so deep let the truth never find me FINISH IT so lonely you can watch their lips move but they're saying nothing falling into the fire i can never finish it i can never get the courage up to finish it and you know that's why i walk so slowly just trying to find where i'm insecure now shed my skin i can never finish it i can never get the courage up to finih it i can never finish it cause i'm absent-minded SOMETHING TO THE EFFECT sit back sit tight i'm always here for you you know it's never gonna change roll on roll over boy while on the run step off the ride into a maze slow down you're always stuck in seventh gear no superhero saves the day wake up the fire's burning low again denied in your own special way i don't mind if it's only this one time and it's only something to the effect of being lonely to the extent of feeling lonesome when you're not alone someone's got to help thank you figure out you're finding everything's sold out everyday you think it's gonna turn your way until you find that someone else to bring you down i don't mind if it's only this one time and it's only something to the effect of being lonely to the extent of feeling lonesome when you're not alone POLLY pacing down your hall light fills up your room and conscience makes the call as you're going nuts in your head i think you know the feeling seven days in your bed staring at the ceiling you're gonna raise hell you'll take over this town temptation gets you everytime damnation can't be far behind addiction like a stray dog will only stay if fed and watered everyday blowing up in your mind saying you're feeling just fine ever since school let out busting out of this shell it looks so easy maybe you've seen it on tv everyone's so happy everyone's so pretty temptation gets you everytime damnation can't be that's all there is temptation gets you everytime damnation can't be far behind NOBODY LET'S GO nobody let's go when they should nobody ever jumps ship never raise their sails when the winds are good waiting for the moment that's never coming by nobody let's go when they should i look around to the beat of some lost past with a cast of characters that mingle with my everyday the word in town is that hope's been dead for awhile here and it shows with faces passing as i make my way does it bring you down how could it not man it's always grey you dump half the things you do and everything is safe in the lost and found the ones you threw back in you only fish for sport the first catch being the reason you're this way nobody let's go when they should nobody ever jumps ship never raise their sails when the wind is good waiting for a moment that's never coming by nobody let's go when they should you feel it's stare when you're all alone and turn to lonely shadows feeding into grey for a common ground sometimes you'd be better off kicking sand into your own eyes when you packed your bags that way nobody let's go when they should nobody ever jumps ship never raise their sails when the winds are good waiting for the moment that's never coming by nobody let's go when they should ..... sometimes it's really hard to transcribe lyrics especially to heavy songs *sigh* 031226 ... Jim Benson NIcole, please take these down uuntil the cd is released. 040131 ... ACD ^ LOL! 120710 ... unhinged right? lingering proof of what an idiot he is *shrugs* my career my home my friends and family i'll be damned if i add my hopes and dreams to the list. at least i know for sure that my feet will take the steps that my heart can't bear. 120711 what's it to you? who go blather from