wake_up twiggie and touch the clouds 010313 ... psychobabe wake up, please wake up. Why wont you wake up? oh please wake up. This overwhelming feeling is to much for me. Please wake up 010428 ... Fire&Roses If you are just a dream... don't let me wake up... 011009 ... Bizzar i live my life in constant fear of the day i wake up. these eyes gaze so lovingly at all the shattered pieces of this broken dream. tear filled eyes, outstretched hands. scarred up wounds reopened. i take you back into my bleeding arms over and over again. you speak to me like an insignificant child -numb and forgotten- and i... sacrafice all to see you smile. i lay down at your feet for you to walk upon so you don't have to strain. take a look at your life with me. and maybe you'll realize what you're about to lose. (10/19/03) just found it 040312 ... Too Much Caffeine WAKE UP....WAKE UP....HURRY THE FUCK UP AND WAKE UP!!! . 050727 ... Isaou So leave yourself intact 'Cause I will be coming back. In a phrase to cut these lips, I love you So leave yourself intact 'Cause I won't be coming back. In a phrase to cut these lips, I loved you. 071002 ... backflip why do you fuck up my sleep patterns so much ? it's either all or nothing ! you will never live this down. 071002 ... unhinged 'paradoxically, what we most fear is not darkness -- we know the darkness all too well; what we are most afraid of is the light. the light of freedom shines from the unknown, undiscovered truths of compassion, kindness, appreciation, forgiveness and the wisdom to respond with care and understanding to all beings.' --- noah levine from 'against the stream' we could search the whole world and never find another being more worthy of love than ourself --- buddha (?) 071002 ... unhinged yes, the only person that is sure to love you is yourself. namo gurubhay namo buddhaya namo dharmaya namo sanghaya 071002 ... pete in many ways it was worth it today, but in the disconnect between mind and body i really wish i hadn't. 071002 ... Isaou On repeat On repeat Do you understand what this means to me? 071002 ... Ouroboros Can't seem to these days. This wake up switch never happens in my head, not when I get up and not many hours later. I take showers, exercise, drink coffee, drink water, eat- nothing. This fog in my brain is settling 071023 ... unhinged if it's a chemical/depression fog try eating more fat when you first wake up. a friend of mine treats his depression with diet and he said that is the most effective thing. the fat greases up the nervous system so that you don't get build up and also helps your body produce the neural chemicals that are lacking. *shrugs* i've never tried it because i don't like to eat when i wake up, but it sounds logical enough. 071023 ... unhinged is always tired too 071023 ... Ouroboros i need a couple hours before I can stomach the idea of food as well. I wonder if taking a fatty supplement would work as well- like flaxseed or other oils. Or maybe i'll have to eat a philly cheesesteak at 730am. I don't think it's depression. Today after a fog filled morning, I had an incredible migraine in the afternoon- maybe tiredness is my migraine precursor now (instead of flashing lights). 071023 ... f Depression is an awful thing, you are so fogged up you don't even remember a time where you were happy, it's a funny feeling of drowning and splashing to stay afloat. I know it very well, although i never accepted it or told anyone how deep down i was. I found ways out of it on my own, and i truely believe that that is the best way, to learn about yourself without being drugged by a quick fix. What has made most people depressed is the way the modern world is (fast moving and pressured), on top of that the last thing you need is a modern pick me up quick fix. GO BACK TO NATURE, stand on a mountain top or a cliff top and breathe in the air, this is a better drug than any anti-depressant pill. If people want to make money out of people, they should at least do it in the right way, those bloody pharmaceutical companies have corruption written allover their crap inventions and price tags. There is this one anti-depressant drug that actually makes you suicidal, what kind of a fuck up is that then ? First understand what depression actually is then decide if people need to take a drug or a long holiday to make things better. Depression is a disease reflected at the state of the way the world is. "its the way the world is", "tough cheddar", don't accept these comments, never accept it, NEVER. What to do ? Make the world a better place maybe ? How to do it ? - TOGETHER MAYBE ? 071023 ... unhinged cultivate_compassion and smile at strangers 071023 ... f i always do but lots of people seem angry, it effects everyone that, its a ripple effect, how can we make it better ? 071023 ... hsg we could. "be that change you want to see in the world." -gandhi we could. "pay it forward." 071024 ... hsg wake_up... "WE HAVE ONE AND ONLY ONE CHANCE TO BE THE BEST. WHAT ELSE IS THERE?" -from nin video halo_12. there's a guy who flashes a sign with this on it during a_warm_place. after a few years of googling i found it came from a notre_dame football locker_room. 071024 ... hsg wake up to your forgiveness. wake up to the_real_you_is_forever. onlyour weak spots will be removed. awakenterealityour fear is a waste of time. awakenter {yo'u[r}(e)breathing]. centered and rebalanced, Journey_Out_IN_Time. there's fun in the math of eternity. celebrate anomaly, the sac(red)_knodes, the exceptions_to_the_king. a sentence of humor rules a soul. soul_of_a_clown_of_us_all. wake up in lafter. wake up from deep rest unsleep... depression & sleep. laughter_all_is_saD_undone... after all is said and done. continuously waking up endoubt by golden means. sacred_geometry you do the math. peeling away layers of your o(pi)nion. what is left is that death is just the death of your death. quest younging. quest young in it all as if you've never seen it before. an open mind mining openess. daS greatest work of an heart_is(t_ruthless). 071024 ... unhinged tonglen it is hard to not let others' anger infect you. i try to keep my light on to chase away the darkness. still practicing on that one. 071024 ... hsg "the Peaceful_Warrior practices everything." -soc practice laughing at anger... but do it in good nature, do it to disarm, not to incite. ...it's a different sorta insight i suppose. ...send_this_smile_over_to_you 071024 ... hsg Alex Grey would most definitely agree. In his manifesto, The Mission of Art, he argues that artists have an ethical responsibility to realize art as a powerful and sacred medium of transmission (Grey, 2001). His conviction is that the state of consciousness in which a work is created is recapitulated in those that perceive it, and so artists are – with more or less awareness and intent – acting as conduits for their modes of being. His injunction is that if we want a beautiful world, we have to be it, first. -http://www.onemindvillage.com/Michael_Garfield.html 071025 ... hsg when we choose to live forever we are fully awake. when lightickels your brain and you ask it to encode its information in the water you drink, you become it. 071025 ... hsg and the water you will all ways think: ask the light to always be in the water you drink. have courage to be fully alive. 071025 ... hsg "It is our duty to make sure that the “vibe” we are spreading is a good one." please read the whole thing. http://www.onemindvillage.com/Michael_Garfield.html onemindvillage.com/Michael_Garfield.html 071025 ... syringe ...and smell the coffee. 080622 ... unhinged i am not yet used to having my window open. somewhere on my block, someone was sawing something this morning. bbbbzzzzzz it is monday. the recycle truck is coming through the back alley. tinkle tinkle of breaking glass. in this neighborhood, the recycle containers are filled with empty beer bottles and cans. but usually, the bums come by and pick out all the cans. just tinkle tinkle of breaking glass. (recycle cans are NOT garbage cans dumb asses) i wake up many times during the night. i keep my phone close by to check the time, decide whether i should roll back over and go to sleep. the earlier i wake up now, my allergy symptoms are lessened. eyes less crusty and puffy, sinuses drain. stupid_allergies ; have to get back in the routine. (i am on my third cup of coffee. one more left in the pot) 080623 ... past 6am is no longer an ugly word, but a slight sleep in. i start work before 8 by choice, valuing the evening's freedom more than a few more hours to snore. 080623 ... sleeping sun I'm still asleep and my dreams are straying from reality. I want to live here Now Awake With you in the_sunshine_of_our_love We could be planting_seeds Pulling_weeds Climbing up to splash back in To the rain Loving the storm that loves the sun From this weather Rainbows_are_born 150121 ... Bizzar one day i might. even though i don't want to. my dreams of you are warm and welcoming and feel like home. but i can't have you. 220221 what's it to you? who go blather from