another_moment_of_blah nootme create form forms mode modes style styles fashion fashions sometimes i think i shouldn't do anything paralyzed like my next step is some catalyst for a bad movie scene some feature presentation i'll never know i'm starring in confusion chaos wings we are everything happening we write the lines we dream the roles we narrate the play be well live dance dream sing smile 031110 ... birdmad the bitter taste in my mouth and the soreness in my throat that tells me i will be sick within the next couple of days fucking head-cold, likely 031111 ... pipedream too many images running around in my head; too many silences and too many cacophonies of thought. bleah. 031111 ... p2 brought to you by the letters f and u 031111 ... marked . 031120 ... notme i seem to be in self-construct destruct construct destruct construct mode i'm spinning violently close to the road 031216 ... notme nothing_i_say i want candy smiles every face smiling i want everyone to wake up catching the blurry body of the tooth fairy i used to wait for her money she never showed up i would like peace on earth for christmas 031216 ... Jane Doe You lied. You fed us your most well written playwrite over bacon and eggs, even starring as the lead. You were a marvelous actor, fooling even the most well trained; but how? It's the double question of life: literally. Even those with the highest intellect couldn't spot your troubles in a haystack, and so you served us with your wonders, but when it was time to take your final bow, you were gone. Leaving the audience knowing that this was reality and you just abandoned your life, making it that much harder for your baby girl to face you: who are you, and where are you now? Bleeding 031216 ... werewolf in a world where beauty falls from trees, smothers the soles of our shoes, presses down on us in blue. in a world of sprawling carpets of water and earth, i am stuck, tired, bored of my thoughts and clamoring for blazing motion, for burial in stars, in free fall, in a force more real than my will. 031217 ... oldephebe yeah, jand doe but having spent lots a time around around actors and writers and composers, painters, poets, singer/songwriters (in high school and college and i seem to draw that kind of truculense in my personal relationships with women)... i've come to realize that the greatest art, at least to me is borne out of havoc.. like.. ooh mommy made a maelstrom in my head.. and i will find it's hot pike molten core and let that be the locus of my art.. or talismanic invocation thereof.. anyway this is an incredible page..i was so blessed by everything everyone has shared.. ... 031217 ... pipedream werewolf, you take my breath away. if i wasn't marrying DOAR i just might have kidnapped you instead. word_charmer sorcerer (i'm assuming you're a he), you're magic with words, mister. 031217 ... Jane Doe I agree oldephebe. Where do you think his "magnum opus" came from: it had to be roiled from somewhere. 031222 ... jane oh pipedream no see werewolf_n_put_your_name_here i believe i won the tournament & anyone who doesn't think so can challenge me to a blather_duel 031222 ... misstree i won't challenge as long as you promise to share once in a while. or just ditch him and run away with me once in a while. 031222 ... werewolf don't fight girls...you're all pretty. besides, when it comes to me, there are no winners. 031222 ... whitechocolatewalrus blah blue blob smash break still here i am on the ceiling seee hear me me me me meeeee never ending day week month year never never land i wish to be blue blob i miss you 031222 ... pipedream hahaha i'm sorry jane, didn't know that *grins* i won't challenge...maybe just flirt outrageously once in a while ;) and smallrus- i love you 031222 ... notme blah i just woke up i'm always just waking up i must go out i must get dressed i will not miss the train today 031223 ... nom everyday is goodbye 040202 ... that girl i feel pathetic 040216 ... not that girl i see now there's another that girl but i'm not that girl oops 040216 ... Syrope #$*@&#!(^#!$ i finally get to feeling A LITTLE BETTER and i lay down for a nap and i wake up and THE FAN'S BACK ON! Haven't I been COMPLAINING about the fan for 3 days now and how it starts me right back at the beginning - cracked, dry, sore FACE...i can't swallow, i can't hold my head up straight, i can't hear or focus my eyes worth a damn...FUCK! and god DAMNIT if my away message hasn't been "I don't have a clue about the test, I'm sleeping/wallowing/being sick" and as SOON as i come back from away you have to start firing stupid questions at me about "is multiplication going to be on the test?" fuck YOU! did you go to class? did you even watch the video? Are you ever going to do anything except sit around and beg me to think for you!? Do you REALIZE how much it hurts me to think right now? or how TRIVIAL your question is since it was answered IN CLASS and ON THE VIDEO NO I DO NOT FEEL BETTER not any more 040216 ... yeah yeah i shouldn't have been given a heart maybe i never had one the word shouldn't looks terribly odd i think i'll curl up in a ball like a woodbug under wet carpet on a lawn 040220 ... yeah yeah under a wet carpet on a green lawn freakin hello 040220 ... notme under a wet carpet on a lawn the little woodbugs spawn curious magnified eyes 040220 ... jimmy "you don't get bored and go to love," he said. "what is life but love?" "i don't know" she said. "there's a lot of waitings and in betweens" 040221 ... . ... pipedream said: werewolf, you take my breath away. if i wasn't marrying DOAR i just might have kidnapped you instead. word_charmer sorcerer (i'm assuming you're a he), you're magic with words, mister. ************************************** but he doesn't believe it yet. 040224 ... werewolf please leave me the fuck alone. thank you, and come again to wal-mart. 040224 ... . yes some people like to be left alone. it is the nature of some. though we don't understand as so many others hate to be alone. yes being alone has it's advantages. and for that i realize that everyone does not think as i do. by trying to help others i can make it worse. yes i understand that this world is full of so many kinds of people and many of them are quite different from me. 040224 ... and i further add and for my misunderstanding of you, i am deeply sorry. what matters is that now i do understand.... 040224 ... werewolf no...i don't like being alone, just please talk about you and not me. 040224 ... whitechocolatewalrus fuck_you_and_you_and_you every day it's the same fucking thing. the only word i can think of right now is fuck. fuck_you_and_you_and_you. 040224 ... . some people don't like being in the spotlight. 040224 ... stuck foot in mouth okay, so maybe i made the incorrect assumption that somebody doesn't like being in the spotlight. just like i assumed somebody preferred being alone. it might anger him as if i called him a "loner". i might further assume that someone isn't good at taking compliments and is modest about his talents. oh, wait there i went again assuming that he's modest. oops. well maybe it's more than a compliment. it was a bit out of line to try to play matchmaker. and i WOULD be correct in thinking he'd like me to mind my own fucking business. but he should know that the reason i don't talk about me is because to do so is to be self-centered. and to simply say "you write well" is too cliche for blather. but that's all i was trying to say. and when i say that i am different from many people in the word. it's much more than that. i'm different from him because he's a GUY. i forget sometimes that our brains are wired differently. and by the way....he won't need to worry because i won't be shadowing him..... 040225 ... no reason another_month_of_blah 040225 ... selmer six oh god i CANNOT believe what i wrote up there...oh mommy made a maelstrom? i mean not just overt alliteration but..scary kind of "you get to take the economy sized dose of thorazine today kid" ... 041203 ... once again and on monday night I drew twelve copies of the same drawing. I said, "hi," to four random people. I said, "what's going on," to one. In reply they answered, "natta." This moment of blah has been brought to you by the letter "S" and the number "4" 041203 ... once again when it's that time just past midnight and you start tothink about going to bed, but never quite make it and all your conversations dwindle into silence and monosylablles... and you've stopped writing just beacuse the effort of pressing the keys is too much. 050131 ... mon uow i scrubbed the bathroom door. 050319 what's it to you? who go blather from