i_wish_i_never_woke_up_this_morning stewart copeland life was easy when it was boring 011214 ... nah....! ha! i love that song........"darkness"........and yes, stewart wrote that one. i listened to it about 87 times in a row today. 011214 ... sting do you like the way i sing it? 011214 ... nah....! do you even need to ask me that? 011214 ... sting i suppose not.....sorry, dear. 011214 ... nah....! HA! 011214 ... nah....! i fucking love sting! 011214 ... nah....! .......and someone on blather seems to get irritated with my love for him. oh_well, suck it the fuck up, you fucking fuck fuck. 011214 ... oren nah, your poetic nature can't help but shine through... * 011214 ... nah....! oren - dude!! i am indeed a writer. it is my breathing. i am too afraid of posting my stuff on blather that i am actually proud of.......is that weird? 011214 ... nah....! there should've been a 'but' or a 'though' in that last post. FUCKING OOPS! 011214 ... nah....! argh argh argh argh argh argh argh i hate making mistakes 011214 ... oren Just post the stuff you're proud of under another name. Then email me and let me in on the secret! Fair is fair ... I'll reveal another one of my names to you if you do! 011214 ... nah....! HA! not a chance. but someday i'm going to try and get some of my shit published. it probably won't happen, but oh_well....i'm definitely going to try. so i'm sorry, but i think you'll have to wait, oren dude, because for now i keep my writing super personal and show very few people. i need to stop being so weird about letting other people read it......but it's tough......'cause i feel so naked when i share it: so vulnerable, so exposed. someday i want it to be out there, though - out in the open - for random people to have access to and be touched by. i want to be heard. i want to be understood. i want to be appreciated. i want too much. 011214 ... oren I am a published author. I run a writing club online. If you're ever interested in getting feedback on your work, write to me. There are a whole bunch of nice people in the club who will help you. We won't bite! Anyway ... I understand completely. You will know when it's time. 011214 ... your friend? your enemy? just some schmuck! nah....! PLEASE, i implore you, put your writing on here. _that_ is what blather is for. yes, stupidity is part of it too. but we want to know _how_ sting and the police and the world inspire you. show us how they have transformed you. show us something you wrote that was influenced by years of listening to those five perfect albums. you've taken so much time to pour yourself into those words, and this is the PERFECT forum to spit them out. your chatroom behavior is much less interesting than your writing. i say this without having seen any of it. if you are afraid of what people will say, please know that the reaction to your personal writing will be INFINITELY BETTER than the current reaction you are generating. TELL US WHO YOU ARE. LET GO OF YOUR INHIBITIONS. STOP HIDING BEHIND HIGH FIVES AND 'YOU ROCK'. because, most likely, you do rock, but we won't ever know it unless you put your shit on the page. throw it up, a friend of mine says. i say this to you too, claire, for i have seen glimmers of beauty in the things you write. stop chatting, start expressing who you really are. for that NO ONE WILL JUDGE YOU. with genuine affection for the person hiding behind the silliness, somebody 011214 ... ClairE I really do. Because I just fucked the whole day. I hate losing time. It makes my hyperventilate. If I think about it too much. 011214 ... ClairE *ME. I think I really am about to cry. 011214 ... nah....! wow. 011214 ... just another thought by the way, i am far from being anyone with any say. i speak only for myself and for what _I_ would like to see. i'm not saying 'you should say this, you should say that.' i'm simply looking for you to contribute to blather in a way that would foster the great aspects of this site. i think some really great people are getting scared away. and that would be much more sad than any screaming or name calling or even the chatroom behavior that brought those on. 011214 ... ClairE haha i hadn't even read what the person right before my last blathe said. i am really pissed off at the moment (just coincidentally), so all I'm gonna say is I can use blather however damn well I please. this is america, damnit! (oh wait. ha) ok, now i have to go read the rest of it. 011214 ... ClairE OK, I hear you, buddy. However, I love the fact that I don't have to worry about sounding the best at everything. I have enough stress in life trying to express myself as precisely as possible, and I enjoy being spontaneous here. Okay, maybe some of my blathes can be seen as just eating up bandwidth. But I don't like to put what anyone has to say as "better" than another's. I wonder who you are, and what your blathes are like. I'm sure I'd appreciate them. I wonder if you do. I know I am just perpetuating it, but can we please stop nagging? You totally have a right to say what you want...so I'll shut up. "actions have reactions, don't be quick to judge. you may not know the hardships people don't speak of." 011214 ... shiva as with life, on blather there is no right or wrong. only popular opinion. but popular opinion says take it to a message board. everything you blather is up here forever and ever. (theoretically) try to say things that are somewhat important. 011214 ... shiva ok i am shutting up. this is stupid. who cares? 011214 ... shiva i will just go back to red. 011214 ... ClairE Ack, I'm silly. I'll shut up now. 011214 ... ClairE haha great minds think alike Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't get that approved first. 011214 ... ClairE OK, that is a silly note to end on. Deep breath, from the girl who doesn't know when to shut up: all I can say is that I am in a horrible mood. I guess that's really it. Your argument has a point. That is what I love about blather: everything is allowed. So thank you for expressing affection. It is greatly appreciated. Good night. 011214 ... Grievance see: freeze_nobody_moves_nobody_leaves and see: how_to_get_to_purest_hell 011214 ... Chrity see: i_have_words 011214 ... unhinged when he told me that his parents put him on lithium he said that the worst part about going to sleep is that he knew he would have to wake up in the morning. how true 011214 ... distorted tendencies i wish i never woke up this morning i don't think i can go on another day because all i think about is you you.. you.. you... you can't even begin to understand or comprehend... Fuck you. And fuck this morning heartache. 011215 ... nemo i wish too 011215 ... ClairE Oh, wait. I never wake up in the morning. 011217 ... ClairE Dude, what a fucking waste of a day. 011217 ... ClairE Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. 011218 ... bzzmel what_is_the_point? 011219 ... princess when i woke up this morning i didn't feel tired. i felt irritated and i haven't been able to stop crying all day. I'm either pregnant or bi-polar. 020610 ... blue star I hate the fact that I exist. It's very inconvenient. 020610 ... Syrope i should have taken notice of the omen that presented itself as soon as i woke up...how with impossible speed what seemed to be the best circumstance i've stumbled into in a long time really dived into being just another opportunity for me to feel not-good-enough. had i noticed properly, i could have climbed back in bed and avoided this whole mess... 020610 ... yummychuckle is in maryland as soon as i did i went for a jog and its not the same everything is how i left it, but its not the same. he scared me really badly last night. i don't know what to do with myself. 020611 ... x i wish i never fell asleep 030317 ... splinken we're about to get our war on. holy shit. holy fucking shit. 030317 ... wingedSerpent "i can't close my eyes and make it go away" -U2 030317 ... beaver I made one of the greatest mistakes of my life, taking advantage of a friend, when they needed me most. Why must I be such a fool, so thoughtless, uncaring, Why must I always do the wrong thing, hurting all those around me. We always wish, when we make mistakes, that we could travel back in time, but this simple fac that I can carry out such an act, makes me miserable beyond beleif, I'm not worthy. Not worthy to ever looks in her eyes again, yet I must sit beside her nearly every day, how I could have imagined such a ridiculous thing, that my lips belonged anywhere in the vicinity of that goddess'. I can't even say I'm sorry, in the true sense of the word, I never would, could or will do such a thing again, that much is true, and I never meant to hurt her, that I know, but to expect or even consider her to begin, or even consider to forgive such a jerk, well, it is humurous in itself, never to be. And this, so sad, is my story true, of how I wish I never woke this morning, and will wish so every morning of eternity too. 040406 ... Saddled Crooks today began with a check of the phone a call of the voicemail to see what i got but what do you know you didn't return my calls. i guess 3:30 AM is too late but maybe .... just maybe you could call me back?? you're my girlfriend after all. 050206 ... Maple Tree because it sucks to know you're not here 060219 ... proshop sales whatever... i just hate mondays 060220 ... fzvfdzsdrtgh fzvfdzsdrtgh 101116 ... s t_t 101116 what's it to you? who go blather from