need_love // i just need love again... i haven't had honest love for at least a year now... i need someone to love me again... just so i can have a purpose 010702 ... black-dyed gel product jebus! you sound just like my friend matt. I'll tell you the same thing I tell his red-dyed loserboy ass: quit your bitchin', get off the couch, and get out there. I also tell him that he's not hardcore, but that doesn't really apply in this situation. 010702 ... johnny west Lover love thyself. Yum. 010703 ... The Truth Since love is a force of energy that reciprocates (cycles circularly, back and forth) I suggest you "get out there" as 'gel p' put it, and Love as many things and people as you can. Just transform yourself into a pillar of radiating love and exude your energies outward. The laws of reciprocation demand that the love you send out will return back to you in time. Plus, it'll make you feel pretty darn good when you notice the positve changes you can make to the world around you just add a little love. 010704 ... florescent light the more beautiful you feel and more more beautiful you see the world the more beautiful the world will treat you 010704 ... under the cherry moon anotherloverholeinyohead 010704 ... dB Love! awww come on people! You know what love is, and I mean ACTUALLY is! Some people just don't get it. 010704 ... black-dyed gel product love? fuck you pussies! 010704 ... dB I second that notion! 010705 ... yummychuckle ***coughs*** uh...guys? I third it... 010709 ... tears of the night i need some oneto love me with all of them. i need someone to love with all of me 010709 ... kingsuperspecial they sell love in a tube, usually right near the condoms. make sure to get the water based kind, and use plenty or you'll chafe. 010721 ... Photophobe Why would you want love? I hear all these people pining after it, but its not a good thing. Fuck Moulin Rouge... making people swallow the idea that "The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return" -it doesn't make it clear that the reason its a great thing to learn is because then you know what pain is and what lies are and what betrayal is and what hate is. The best thing about falling in love is that it lets you know your weakness, it lets ou know how base you are, and it teaches you a whole bunch about selfishness. But these aren't lessons people should neccessarily learn. I would be a better person for not having loved. 010721 ... Casey I have never had it, and I gave up trying to get it. 010721 ... The Truth Love isn't just love with a member of the opposite sex, or whatever, love is an emotional bond you have with your family, close friends, and even pets for some. Love with a mate is a delicate, complicated, beautiful challenge, but more than just a challenge, it is the Goal. If your "love" was selfish, it never had anything to do with love. Because love can't be forced, or stolen, or coerced. It can ONLY be given. Do not try to take love, or aquire it, or even control it because it would devour you. Love is pretty powerful stuff you know, it can change the world. It could change your mind. Love can't be falsified. So love is truth. 010722 ... Aimee all you need is love 010722 ... Photophobe So if love is such a powerful thing, as you say, then how could you ever trust another with your love? You're giving people the power to destroy you. Once you've fallen, its too late, but you can push people away if you can see the danger early enough. I'm not all against love, I just think its strange that people are so keen to put themselves into the power of others. 010723 ... The Truth ahhhh... only when your at the mercy of another, will you truely see all that they are made of. And only when you put yourself at someone's mercy, you will know how strong you really are. 010724 ... Photophobe Maybe we just have different values. You write about knowing what someones made of, and knwoing how strong(or weak) you are as if these are good things. I guess they could be, if you like what you see, and you are strong. 010727 ... The Truth Let's say, for instance, that I love you. (I care about your well being, I like to be near you, we feel a certain closeness, a bond between us.) And I know you feel the same about me. I trust you. As a result of this, we both cultivate a safe environment for each other. I could expose to you my weaknesses, say my insecurities, my flaws, my soft underbelly so to speak. I could do this to a lesser degree of fear because I know that you would not harm me. So... We lower our guard. We allow ourselves to get closer to each other, which exposes our weaknesses, but in turn, it allows for a stronger bond to take root due to the lack of defenses. Once you show someone your True Self, your naked, inner core without lies, barriers, secrets, hidden pain, defenses... yes you are vulnerable, and could possibly get deeply hurt... but you are then able to experience higher levels of affection and emotion, and love takes you to deeper levels of joy and euphoria. It is truly wonderful, even though it's risky. If you live through fear, and deny yourself the opportunity to feel that love, well then you may just miss the point of even having the lucky opportunity that life really is. 010727 ... The Truth (p.s.) Notice how I did NOT mention sex! 010727 ... Photophobe Of course. We weren't talking about sex. I take your point. Maybe I'm just a little embittered right now; I'm sure I'll allow myslef to love and be loved again. I'll always be a fool like that :) I concede. (It'd be nice to fall in love again, but I'm not going to pine away after it.) 010729 ... The Truth Very wise. In my experience, whenever I expect love to be found, it doesn't. Only when I am not looking, just living and hoping, it comes and finds me. 010730 ... The Truth very wise..to not pine away after it, is what I meant up there. uh...yeah, that's all! 010730 ... GrayWolf me too...whenever I look for it I never find it....but when I'm preoccupied with other things...it finds me! Unfortunately I'm so preoccupied that I never realize it until my preoccupation causes me to lose it..... Next time !!!! 010730 ... lost dont we all? i look for it. i think i find it. something goes wrong. i blame it on myself. something goes wrong again. i blame it on myself again. she tells me she never even cared. a light goes off in my head. i realize thats what was wrong it wasnt me. i feel dumb because i had already treated her like a queen when things started going wrong, and when things started going wrong i treated her like a goddess. thats my fatal flaw i care about people too much, and i expect them to care about me too. when it doesnt happen i blame it all on myself. 010815 ... Norm Bullshit. If you can't live off hate than you were spoiled. 010831 ... josie I submitted my whole entire being, fronted my soul for the taking, was cherished, was 'loved'. And hey, that's just me, i'm not going to waste my time being someone i'm not, denying myself contentment in all honesty of just how imperfect i am. Nor do i want the one i'm with to deny themselves that contentment either. It was beautiful, immaculate. Even now i keep stepping on these little stones on my path that i wish he was here to laugh at. It was my own good fault though.. out of some stemming grief i'm pushing away the most beautiful people for fear of losing them. But how do you conquer greif? love and lose over and over till you've become nothing? I'm trying to keep a head about myself, trying avoid another 7 yr pit-hole that seeming to never end. That love i needed so badly i lost and now can't live without.. *sigh* I am and i will keep punishing myself everyday by not granting myself the joy of a love that surpasses any human comprehension possible (At least in our world anyway.) I miss you immensely. Damn stoopid set backs thanks to good ol unresolved childhood grief. I hate myself, i need your love like sunlight.. 010921 ... Becky I've decided it's not as true as I thought it was.... all he does is lie. I feel so stupid.. Please.. just kill me.. end this fucking thing. I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want him to hurt me anymore.. please.... 011009 ... silentbob all of my love all of my love all of my love to you... 011009 ... Photophobe I know. Sorry. You know I'll always be here, and no always as bitter as I was all those posts ago. 011031 ... cheer-up-emo-kid I need love. Im in love, I just need to be loved back... 020528 ... smiths "you shut your mouth how can you say I go about things the wrong way I am human and I need to be loved just like everybody else does" 020528 ... stephen patrick morrisseys evil twin how_soon_is_now 020529 ... spiritinbody put on your raincoat and lets go out 020530 ... squint i hurt. youch ouch! only its so much less sudden, and rather a droning sort of pain. and slowly the volume is turned up until its peircing me and it seems neverending and... well i dont write well when my heart feels like it has exploded (in the bad way). sometimes explosions are necessary 020530 ... phil quickly drives over to squint in an ambulence, opens the back and rolls the stretcher quickly across the street. He lowers the stretcher and kneels beside squint's exploded heart body and takes off one of her shoes, places it on the stretcher which lifts back up, and sprints with the stretcher back up to the ambulence. He looks down at the shoe, then back at squint. Looks down at the shoe, then runs back across the street, but gets hit by a car, by someone else who was looking at the body. Of exploded heart material. 020620 ... logan need love....? hell yeah!!!! but unfortunatly it doesint exsist. doesint that suck! 020710 ... she Have heart, Will work for love. 020710 ... voltron Love is something which binds two souls together and gives hope of a better world. 020721 ... lycanthrope LOVE? love is what happens when we're sleeping. the promises we don't know we're keeping. 020722 ... silentbob i'm going fucking crazy 020722 ... distorted tendencies save_me 021012 what's it to you? who go blather from