new_year tyler waters new year? funny because everything seems the same. and suddenly it all makes sense [i can't tell if i'm crazy or if it's a natural reaction to the veil over my eyes being removed.] i saw a new years parade and it all made sense there was a float with unkle sam on it. Unkle SAM! UNKLE! looked like he had a gaze over his eyes. and it moved from side to side. it was george orwell's idea of big brother reincarnate. there was a 50s float. playing 'rock around the clock' people dancing. looking happy. ESCAPISM. the last time everything was really 'a-ok': the 50s. well, everyone agreed to escape together, so it really didn't matter. then people started to wake up in the 60s. where are those people now? there was a float with a beach boy on it. he looked plastic. like he barely had the energy to wave his hand. [RUTHERFORD]. formarlly a symbol of the music that started mass revolution in the 60s. free love. now he's sitting on a float playing their game. one with the cinderella carriage with the bachelor/bachlorette associating one fake love [fairy tales] with another [t.v. "reality"] and then i realized that i was watching a telescreen. "celebrating" the passing of a "year" -- one rotation of the earth around the sun. -- except it isn't even really, because of the leap years. and every century we need to offset one. so WHY? what's the point in this? why are we celebrating one almost-trip around the sun? and now i think towards the future. i really hope i'm not of the last generation to wake up. these kids today, i just don't see them fixing the world's problems. and it seriously is the video games. what did kids use to do in the olden days? go outside. what do we do now? condition ourselves for inside lives. we're domesticating outselves. why? because it's easier. [btw, i'm 19 raised on video games..] it's not generation "next" [thank *you* associated sugar-water corporations]... it's the nintendo generation and the really funny thing is, [though it's hard to see humour in a situation like this] is that while humans are declining, we can only think of our own problems. do you ever wonder why clinical depression is so high these days? it's a natural reaction to being constrained by the system. we were all taught [well, i was anyway] that EVENTUALLY you will find your soul mate and be in love forever. its not happening. and people are starting to realize that the emotions they see on t.v. don't exist in their lives. why do you think REALITY tv is so big? because the people that watch all of them constantly have nothing in their own lives. life is like a gap that needs to be filled. some choose other people [lovers... btw, love is THE BEST form of escapism. "They say our love won't pay the rent before it's earned our money's always spent. I guess that's so, we don't have a lot But at least I'm sure of all the things we got. Babe, I got you babe, I got you babe" -- sonny & cher] others choose vices [alchoholics. coke heads. junkies. potheads. gamblers] others choose to play a system: capitalism [millionairs. buisness people. 9-5.] materialism ["...working shit jobs to buy shit we don't need" - tyler durden] religion [it's ok if you die because at least YOUR soul will be saved [who cares about the world you leave behind?]] and the t.v. "reality" takes the rest. but wait. i forgot the crazies. they're really the only sane ones. [or maybe i've read catch-22 too many times] they WERE sane. until they woke up and saw the world they were living in. we pop happy pills. they didn't have happy pills in the 50s. it's like someone says "i'm depressed". that's like a tree falling with no one around to hear it. does it really make a sound? [you can say you're depressed all you want, and people might even listen to you but BUT THAT'S ALL THEY CAN DO: listen [and say everything is going to be ok [i just realized it's not]]] i give mankind 5 years before we either wake up or decline. so that's 2009 -- mark my words, between now and then something will happen. and when.. NOT if. WHEN shit starts to happen, i'm going to show this post to all my friends in the future and be like "fuck ya.. i so predicted it" and if i didn't, [predict it] then heaven forbid it's lost in a sea of blather *** footnote *** waking up -- realizing that every interaction [everything aside from the 4 things that every human being needs. [food. water. shelter. warmth]] with this society [aside from people you know [friends/family]] is a means to mass control the population. i'm talking about everything here. they better lock me away because i might just start a revolution. if you agree. if you too are starting to see this veil over your eyes, email me. let's start the revolution together. if not, email me. i'd like to hear the opinion of someone who's still in the system. BECAUSE REALLY, i'm gone. 040101 ... *** another footnote *** "associated sugar-water corprotation" = pepsi refering to their "generation next" advertisising campagne 040101 ... JustOnMonday The end of another year wondering of a future so unclear A promise of something more as we give our respects to 2004 Start the new year with a kiss think of things of the past year you miss Promises and hopes are made, but everyone knows most promises they will evade But for those 2005 hopefuls, good luck. More places to go and more people to....see. Welcome to 2005 050102 ... Jess I really hate new year! It's such a non-event for me! I was gutted this new year though! All my friends went out but not one thought to invite me! "It wouldn't be your sort of thing" Just cos I don't want to get pissed with them! Doesn't meen I don't want to be invited! I just want to be wanted! 050103 ... Mister Brightside just_another_day 050103 ... wrapped in plastic "so this is the new year and i don't feel any different" no but really .... sadly sitting alone fight with boyfriend stupid shlupid is it really all my fault? I guess I'll never know.. really. alone. i guess that really is all my fault, oh well 051231 ... oren Well, it's here. 051231 ... ahh it's 2009 (somewhere) i wonder if their post came true. 081231 ... twenty-two Perhaps sometime in the midst of my thirties I will look up and think, "Yes. New Years IS a worthwhile holiday." But so far, it just hasn't ever mattered a great deal to me unless I was using the fact that it was the 'new year' to further drive some point about the significance of the shittiness of the night. I'm sure its happened. 081231 ... hsg it seems ost significant as an excuse for people to drink used by people who are looking for an excuse. 081231 ... past as i have said elsewhere, the calendar year and my internal thoughts of a 'year' hardly align, thanks to seasons and education. but, still, tonight was a night with friends i've not seen in a while, and with friends i see regularly. a night with song, a night with dance, a night with quiet fun. all premised on the fact that tomorrow's free, and only a special few of us (as myself, i humbly say) have anything solid between now, wednesday night/thursday morning, and monday. 090101 ... unhinged it's so weird to see a number other than zero in the left most column of the date stamp 100103 ... flowerock. Walking down the side walk with Goa I said hi to a man standing outside in socks and boxers. He said in a very serious flat tone "I'm going to wait for you to walk by then light at firework." He dd just that. 160101 ... unhinged (i get lighting fireworks for new years; i do not get public winter nudity) 160101 ... flowerock. Winter here is warmer than alot of places I guess, and he was likely at least a little drunk... to be fair he did have a tank top on along with the boxers and socks... but it was still cold and breezy a few blocks from the ocean. 160102 what's it to you? who go blather from