have_you_ever blaber mouth Wondered about your Life and what it means??why we are here 020718 ... birdmad turned to dust? 020718 ... daxle blabber, see reference: All of blather, and everything everyone has ever said here. 020718 ... blaber mouth Loved somebody 020718 ... TalviFatin questioned your life wondered why 031023 ... Death of a Rose given life a try 031023 ... wolfe of the steppes Stopped Looked around Woken up Ran as fast as you can the opposite way 031024 ... qt danced with the devil in the pale moon light? 031024 ... oldephebe wrestled with a dream phantom..and snatched back the authority of your being from it.. 031024 ... nom been before 031024 ... angelita dreamed believed realised cried ? 031024 ... x been dragged off kicking and screaming into an ambulance? been held up against a wall by your neck? left bloody footprints in a hallway and chipped away at them the next morning, twice? watched someone you love starve themselves to death? tried to choke someone who laid next to you naked in bed? i could fucking continue this forever and it makes me sick 031024 ... birdmad -- been in a car chase with people who would kill you if they caught you? -- been buried alive? -- overdosed? -- spent a birthday cleaning a dying person's bedsore? -- been hit by a car? -- been through opiate withdrawal? -- had your vital signs stop cold for two minutes? four? seven? -- had your wrist poised against the paper-spindle at your desk and wondered how much more pressure woud you have to exert before it passed through -- hung yourself only to have the cord or branch break from dry_rot ? -- had a loaded gun pointed at you by yourself or by anyone else? -- been a pallbearer? -- fired a gun at anyone or had a gun fired at you? -- talked to someone who spent a few weeks implying that they meant to kill themself to spite someone else only to have them turn around and spend years raking you over the coals for taking a mistaken but well-intended action in a moment of panic -- spent three weeks with your own blood slowly turning acidic -- seen bats returning to their roost at sunrise? -- spent a night sleeping on a park bench or under a bush? -- gotten sore_ribs from other causes than fighting? -- been so intoxicated that someone mistook you for dead? -- been stuffed in the trunk of a car? 031024 ... Dork 1. yes. 2. metaphorically, yes. 3. hospitalized, yes. 4. no. 5. yes. 6. no. 7. they said no I didn't. 8. don't have a paper spindle, but I do have an exacto blade, does that count? 9. too lazy to get the rope and learn to tie the proper hangman knot. 10. yes, someone else. 11. no, I was too late. 12. thank god, no. 13. no. 14. every three weeks. 15. yes, beautiful it was. 16. yes, but I couldn't remember the nights, and only if the cops didn't chuck me into drunk tank. 17. hmmmm....no...oh...wait a minute, yes, bad going over a sky jump accident. 18. no, although nobody has been around to find out. 19. no. oh, this was rhetorical, I apologize. 031026 ... Doar just stared at yourself in the mirror wondering if this is your true reflection? surprised that you can't recognize yourself any longer? 040825 ... uow have you ever evered before? 040825 ... somepeoplesmile felt like everything and nothing? 040825 ... pete it has been too long since i saw myself in what i saw in the mirror... am i really a long haired, bearded hippiesh looking guy? 040826 ... pete taken off, no trace, only to find yourself back where you started from wondering why? 040826 ... mourninglight laughed and cried in one gasping breathe, and almost died from the intensity of emtion, and the internal war there is no division there shall be no division let there be, no division 040828 ... Bespeckled made your body into a table, naked? eaten salt thinking it was sugar, and gagged? put too much sugar in your tea so you could drink the big sugary glob at the end? caught a bouquet unintentionally? (or a garter) changed in your car? in front of someone else? gone to a mormon wedding? a mormon reception? 040829 ... love & hate felt as though the thoughts in your head will not cease. That the aching in your stomach is getting too much. That you want to grab a screw driver and stick it to the side of your skull and drill until the thoughts are not more? I have... 040829 ... pSyche have_you_ever been all messed up.... 060528 ... Emptyness Alive loved watch someone die been heartbroken remebered been remembered Lived? 060528 ... rhin -beared the imprint of the bottom of a military boot on your body? -swam with a shark? -held your guy as he died? -chose security over love? -read blather after blather and in trying to respond could not find enough passion within to make it even worth the effort? or when you do muster a tiny bit of effort it quickly fades? -said 'fuck this'? -said 'i feel emotionally dead'? -thought 'i wish someone would punch me so that i could feel something'? -said to someone 'hit me hit me!'? -thought 'how did i get here, and how do i get out'? -felt pathetically self-consumed? jesus. 060528 ... oren climbed to_the top of a state capitol building's dome? started a panty_raid? listened to_live satellite feeds between NASA shuttle pilots and Houston Control and heard the pilots get pissed_off? been punched in_the face by a complete_stranger? seen a UFO? 081010 ... hsg yes no no yes yes 081010 ... . . 090211 ... Jurisprudence Broken down crying in panic and realization you're so afraid to want something? You can touch it, taste it, smell it, listen to it You can see it, see it forward even Did you speak your fear or play it out? 090904 ... ungreat Laid your head on some one's chest and listened to them breathe knowing right when they fell asleep Kissed some one all over even though they were asleep Had a really great day Thought you could never trust someone again, and then realize you were being ridiculous Wanted to write love poems if only it didn't feel so cliched Made really bad cookies Made really amazing cookies and brownies Realized that the world is big and amazing and horrifying and overwhelming and crazy, and charming and soft and jagged and beautiful Felt like this was the moment that everything was perfect Wished you could feel like this forever? 090905 ... In_Bloom Felt god must be a sort of evil granter of faerytales? I have Have you ever been given what you most desire in order to find it has a fatal flaw that keeps it from really being yours? I have You don't crumble in the sunlight You don't melt or under moonlight But looking into my eyes, you have the power to disappear and be at once the most wonderful thing I see and the most untouchable. If there is a god then it doesn't much like me and prefers to prank me instead. As stubborn as I am to try and make good for myself, not burden any gods by asking for treats or interventions, I sometimes wish I didn't feel I am being handicapped 100115 ... jane felt like a prisoner in the vessel of your physical body? 100116 ... oren been mellow? 100117 ... daxle forgotten the majority of your life in order to form a new one? 100208 ... oren seen a ghost? 100208 what's it to you? who go blather from