a_smile_to_sustain_me Dafremen R.Dafremen Smile a smile for remembrance Just a moment's expressive beauty To last this heart a lifetime For should the fates deem unworthy My meager, lover's offering Should time rebuke with distance One soul's devoted longing That vision of your happiness Sweet dream but briefly realized Shall with this moment's memory Through the lonely years sustain me. 030406 ... niska i looked him in the eyes and smiled as i gave him my credit card. he looked me in the eyes and smiled as he fumbled and dropped it. 030406 ... endless desire And minutes drag them apart, To worlds where all they do is miss. And fear tosses him out the door. She stares back, feigning contentment, Any sort of smile that would make her look as though his leaving was just fine. It hurts her so, but is there any choice? She asks as she stares at the window-- Not through the window To the other side, But at the window. Loathing it with every piece of her. Every ounce of her being, because she knows that window Those Doors Those Walls Stop her. She laughs, her eyes fill with tears. She lies to herself, night and day. It is not the walls that keep her. Oh but how easy they are to blame. For the first time, She looks through the window And sees him smiling back at her from down below. So genuine. Not invented like her own. She thinks, Yes Keep that in your mind Girl. Let it sustain you, Yes, it must sustain you. Let it be your hope, Girl. Until you once again can sieze the moment To sneak a kiss, or steal a Peak At the wonder of your love. She Pleads, Dear Smile, Please sustain. 030619 ... Dafremen : ) 030619 ... Lindsey your lips spreading to show your teeth. your eyes bright. my fingers close enough to touch your smile. the thought of that propels me through every day. 030714 ... nomme a bruise to remind me 030714 ... birdmad a smile to hide the fear away 030714 ... oldephebe her smile pulled taut across her face and it never reached her eyes 030715 ... megan keep me here just a few minutes longer just a few minutes please make me want to stay when your eyes twinkle, i can't help but give in to your every desire 030717 ... my little secret And as I cry I'm laughing that smile pasted on my face. It's all that keeps me here all I have to hold me. As as tears fall I smile lips pulled up at corners a line of teeth peak through and it will have to sustain me because I cry when I think of you 030728 ... misstree the last of these moments encased in acrylic, i mouthed the words "it'll be okay," more for you than for me, i am resigned to my heart's pains but do not care to share. a thick tear slid down, betraying the distance to truth, and through swimming vision i saw you smile, saw how much it hurt but how much joy was behind it, and you said, "yeah. it's been good times, and there will be more." and the clock finally ticked over, it was all done, and i had to face forward and walk. long into the dark night that smile will linger. i will wear it as armor when the time comes. 030729 ... Cathexis How your eyes and mouth could crinkle into silent laughter when your last breath hung heavy in the air is beyond me. Your hand was limp in my own. The silent tears sliding down my face, leaving rivulets of salty moisture, erupted into an ocean of sadness through which I could see the memory of your smile. Your last smile and mine. The smile that I'll borrow until I see you again. A smile to sustain me. 030801 ... Dafremen Very nice. 030802 ... ditto I second that 040520 ... phil hope 040521 ... knot meat a smile to sustain me, from the morning which would refrain me, and the calm which would regain... ah... your lips, aren't yours, i see them more often than you, i cannot imagine what keeping that shape would feel like. i have an active imagination, but usually understand and then outstrip the actuality. give me a smile to sustain me, since i'll come no more this way again. since i'll come no more this way again. and one morning rhymes with another. monday with tuesday with wednesday since i'll come no more this way again with thursday with friday since i'll come no more, a smile to refrain me. that is sustenance, a reproval, no one remembers the first time they saw a cherry tree blossom, because it wasn't even that yet, it hadn't a word for it, or the word was still empty. the first time we saw a smile, how dark were we? how much was it like coming from a hungry tunnel and seeing the source of the sustenance, a glimmering raincheck, which soon was satisfying on its own. a smile, we ignore the first time we saw it poisoned, the schoolyard trick, learned from a wrong day mother. because mostly, a smile was, brown paper bags, holding trades, and then, wedding rings, but not even that, a wedding in a passing on the street. you have smiled at a beautiful unknown, we all have. and in that moment, we imagined all they could give us. their smile sustained us, it gave us a glimmer, a light in the hunger tunnel, you saw their eyes, their childrens eyes, shared with yours, until your smile was their smile, and everytime they smiled you could not help but smile. they passed on the street, but in one moment, unheralded, hinted at as old words hint at new words it was as if you learned for the first time what cherry blossoms are, by seeing them for the second time. you are given a gift that turns upwards, that is a refrain, a closing in of yesterday and today, a bridge back and forth, free pass through time, the universe bends up and down, returns to a center, a smile is the stars not being nothing, but something, from ear to ear of a deaf god. microwave radiation, white teeth, lips you've kissed and will kiss again. 040522 ... ditto not bad 040522 ... pete she smiles at me often when we are together. i smile back, or smile first. it is about even, who smiles at who. i guess they can sustain me for now. 040522 ... kookaburra a smile to sustain me? i fear it is too late. before i would have begged for one; i guess that this is fate. but somedays it does sustain me, your perfect shining teeth. i swear my heart does flutter, when your gaze is fixed on me. but now i fear i've realized that your love just isn't true. as soon as we have left the room, my gaze is lost on you. and so i start to hate you, for (in my eyes) hating me. i am forced to ignore you, in masochistic glee. but your smile does sustain me, the fact that i am worth your time. and though this joy is fleeting, the feeling is sublime. and so i turn to look at you every single time, for all my pride, and resolutions, you're my love for a lifetime. 040522 ... endless desire i like kooka however. you said no one appreciates your poetry but i do. 040523 ... uow . 040809 ... 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Doar . 040809 ... megan you seem to have crawled into a place in me that i did not know existed a place that makes me want to talk to you every night and think about you randomly during the day and my ears prick up when i hear your name it's funny how laughter can heal a person from the inside out, and it's funny how the one person i never thought of, the last person on earth i thought of, could provide me with so much you make me feel special you make me feel beautiful and you inspire me, making me feel like i could truely fly (however i don't want to, for fear of falling, and never being able to converse with you again) you have offered me a smile and an understanding word where there was none, and for that i am the utmost grateful indebted wholly you truely are a friend in all its forms, and i thank you for that 040809 ... unhinged you're_on_my_wrist_and_on_the_page_too 040810 ... . life's talons claw at my heart and yet this page pulls me from my pledge at least momentarily i wish i guess i wish, there were people of such light in my life... 040811 ... pete i miss your verbal smiles 040811 ... Doar damn daf, lyricist (sp?) that you are, again I read, though tread is sacred in here, i paused again, and read, though to read is sacred out here. . 070807 ... daf the footprints found here years later meant as much to me..thanks. 120331 what's it to you? who go blather from