bijou wanted me to see that situations are neutral.

wanted me to wash my face before i wash my armpits and take a different route to work.
rubydee sometimes talks too loud
almost screaming
at the frail synapses
that make me
daydream believer she is unbelievable. 010610
Aimee Alex Trebek: Right, Mr. Connery. why don't you pick?
Sean Connery: It looks like this is my lucky day! I'll take "The Rapists" for $200.
Alex Trebek: That's "Therapists." That's "Therapists," not "The Rapists." Let's skip "Therapists" and try "Household Objects", for $400. And the answer is, "You usually drink water out of one of these." [ Sean Connery buzzes in ] Sean Connery.
Sean Connery: A leather glove!
Alex Trebek: No. [ Minnie Driver buzzes in ] Minnie Driver.
Minnie Driver: A toilet!
Alex Trebek: That is awful. [ Jeff Goldblum buzzes in ] Jeff Goldblum.
Jeff Goldblum: [ marvels at the buzzer until time runs out ]
Alex Trebek: And you're an idiot! The answer was "a glass."
Sean Connery: Then the day is mine!
nemo my dad cussed out my therapist, it was silly, and you could tell she was uniquely scared of him. 010614
Tank i never noticed the breakdown of this word before...

but today i noticed only it...

i was shocked to see that was a blather on psychoanalysts...
kingsuperspecial the last therapist I had was pretty awful experience. she had this idea that if she said NOTHING at all, ever, that would somehow help me. She also talked me into going 4 days a week, because that would somehow combine with her saying ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. Now I think about what a sucker I am - and I find out that sort of analysis is a known scam for rich people with nothing to do with their time.

Plus, she thinks I owe her $800. Fuck her, man. Now I talk to my cat 4 days a week, and you know what? The cat sits on my tummy and purrs, which is a fuck of a lot more than the therapist did for me.
The World According To Karp My therapist is a drug dealer, they all are. He never told me that if I eat right, quite abusing drugs and alcohol, go to church and get lots of exercise every week that I would be a normal functioning person. Of course I lied and said I didn't abuse drugs and that I did exercise. But he just wanted to keep trying to get me to take different pills. "Try this" "Fill this" "Switch to this and we'll see you next thursday"

Never did he say "I'm surprised you're not all better." He never wanted me to get better, he just wanted to sell me drugs. Prozac. Anti-Depressants. Lithium.

Well...I refused to play your game. I did it on my own. (Well, God helps)
Those drugs are dead. So is the old me.
I let it all go. And I'm alive.
endless desire i hate therapists
they are paid to listen to you talk
i have a lot of friends
who will listen to me talk
and not make me pay them.
not to mention the fact that these friends know me and where ive been and who i am.
a therapist is just a random person
who doesnt know you
or anything about your life
and expects you to open up like you are all buddy buddy.
which is gay. bc i open up to everyone
but i am too stubborn to open up to one of them
funny, i would seriously consider being a therapist too.
the whole idea amuses me and i think id be terrific at it.
but as for going to one, save that for the people who have nothing better to do with their time.
ive tried two.
yeah they sucked
i lasted 3 weeks the first time and 6 or 7 the second.
this new one my parents are making me go to. its a good way for them to pretend they care.
haha i told you the name.
shes nice i guess. but they all are nice.
shes kind of funny. very enthuisastic
and sounds genuinely intersted in me.
but the fact is, my parents are paying her the big bucks to talk to me
and she wouldnt do so if they didnt.
and she doesnt know me and i have my whole life to explain to her, and, frankly, i dont feel like bothering.
therapists are wastes of time
and office
and practically breath.
and im not sure what she will do for me.
i can help myself
i have this complex about being weak
i can do this myself.
pull through myself.
i dont need some lady who doesnt know me
fuck her. i mean i dont say stuff like that
its just not cool
but fuck all therapists.
i dont want to have anything to do with them
except that i promised id try
so i will stick to my word
bc its the only thing i have left
. . .kind of.
the point is, its the only thing i can control.
/anon mine is ok she is nice and gives good advice and is not overbearing and does not make me do things i do not want to. it doesnt really help all that much yet but i dont care i dont hate her for it 030601
/anon but i know i cant help myself and there are many people who cant so therapists are not a waste. They help many people. They give insight into your condition and help you understand it so you can help yourself 030601
shivers i saw my first therapist when i was nine. she was nice, i cold talk about nething and she didnt seem to need to push me to talk about subjects i didnt want to. i stopped seeing her, i was better. now im seeing this guy who talks more then i do. well, i guess im only seeing him because im too shy and being lonely make me depressed. the put me on some drug since november and it seems to be helping, but i cant help but think without it id still be the sad pathetic person i was b4. always wallowing in my own greif. i hate my therapist, he doesnt care, i go on another planet after the first 45 min 030601
endless desire well jeez
i have to go the f(uck)ing therapist tomorrow

yeah i hate life.
or at least tuesdays
i used to love tuesdays
though, ive always hated thursdays
im not sure why that is
they are never good days for me.
endless desire i never want people to know i go to a therapist
or that i am bulimic
or that i do the things i do.
he says, "why not?"
i say, "its not me! its not who i am"
(i guess i feel i have an image to maintain. those things are not what anyone would expect from someone who appears to have their life all put together. not even my siblings no i go to a therapist)
so persist, "its not me. its not me at all"
he says, "but ellyn, it is you."

i guess it is.
and it scared me
because this is me.
tyger Therapy is a big cult scam. They take your money and then tell you to take responsiblity for life as though you have some kind of as-of-yet magical untapped power over the behavior of others and meteor strikes and starving kids in Africa - look out world, I'm taking responsibility for you! I can't wait until this actually happens. The first thing I will do when I become "responsible" is fire all the therapists in the world. Then perhaps I will start in on peace in the middle east... 031114
unmedicated to tyger's post above ... hear fuckin' hear!!! 031118
endless desire now with the third therapist. i see her twice a week. to deal with this "crisis". she's nice. we talk. but i still don't see what it does. after so many months, im finally opening up to her. . .but all it does is make me depressed when i leave. she always says, "good work" like it was hard or something. i don't know. im not going to say that therapy doesn't work. . .i just don't think it works for me. 031129
x be patient. stay open.
it does hurt sometimes.
Nick R Hmmmmmmmmm.........therapist is the words The-rapist put together. I mean you can't trsut them. Also, Mother in Law is an anagram of Woman Hitler...he he he 040609
pete I have a few therapists. My pen, my pencil, music, blather, dreams, and those walks where I am able to vocalize my internal words and sing to my own tunes, leaving this world away. 040609
Jess ha ha Nick!
I found you!
for ME therapy was somewhat bullshit They're OK. I don't know if mine really helped me or not. 040827
Bearkatninja I hate my therapist. He is an ass. One session I told him about my fantasy of knocking him to the ground biting his neck and ripping out his jugular and watching all the blood spill out. He chuckled. I smiled fiendishly. Does he think I am joking, push my buttons a few more times and find out that indeed I am not. 050120
izabela im in love with mine
i either want to fuck her or be her child
think the word is transference
Ouroboros Bureaucratic paperwork mishap means that I haven't seen her in a month and I won't for another 2+ weeks. 111029
sigma the_rapist 111029
Ouroboros stepping into the role of one in t-minus 2 hours... 120615
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