exhausted Q Watching the eclipse, and all the stars it revealed here and there, last night in the cold, crisp, clear air, with that tea and spiritual company and all the rest, and the grand follow up with back and forth today, were thoroughly exhilirating. Now, somewhat like after an eureka experience, my imagination and bag of bones seem to be exhausted. Please forgive me if I sign off earlier than I want to tonight. I do believe deeply in sharing the driver's seat, especially with the extraordinarily wise and excellent driver you are. Thank you for driving some of the time. Thank for the past times, the past month and the past day. 000121 ... Becky Over the past few days.. I've slept for 3 hours. I can't eat.. I'll get sick.. I can barely drink.. I can't sleep because all I do is cry.. My wits are exhausted.. I can barely think straight. I'm on overload and about to breakdown. I wish you could help me.. but you can't help me anymore.. I'm too worried about you to worry about me. 010916 ... distorted tendencies I get the same way, Becky. Although I stop eating for days, and I walk around or go running until I drop. Literally. Because I already am exhausted and I am trying to get it out of my system only becoming fatigued after that. Yes I am merely lonely, wishing for someone to be by my side. 010916 ... sotto voce exhausted being exhausted takes on a new meaning when you're discovering night after night that you can still function for just one more hour than last night even if all you've had each day were three powerbars, some soup and two bottles of gatorade. exhausted is an end state after all and i'm still going... i'll sleep, i'll sleep, just a few more minutes.. 020309 ... oak barrel emotionally and physically. I feel so sick. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm tired of being left whenever a certain person calls. maybe it's time to talk to her about it. 021105 ... little wishes ive always wanted to shag till we were exausted and then to keep going. 021122 ... Rhin exhausted? that's beside the point. i'm working 81 a week (for almost 3 years now) and going strong! well, semi-strong. chance of me cracking? a mere 70%! well, 70-80%. at least i have an obscenely sized lump of mad money in the bank. oh, and i just bought a West Indies Armoire to house my electronics. it's deliciously exotic. God, i love it. i'm too tired to drool over it though. the point is that i earned it, it looks kick-ass in my living room, and when i finally pass out and die from sheer exhaustion, they can bury me in the damn thing! no really, i feel good. i feel fine, i feel great, i feel wonderful. i feel fine, i feel great, i feel wonderful... 021122 ... Freak The demons kept me awake in my sleep and I woke up exhausted. 021211 ... no reason yeah...but still have lots of studying to go. 8:30 a.m. exam tomorrow...can't wait. 021211 ... niska what do you do, when all you want is to go find your own path, but you're in a situation where you can't go? 031103 ... Tired Tell me about it, this is quite surreal. I'm exhausted, work was grueling and yet I hit the gym anyways, I thought that would take it out of me but here am I 2 hours have gone by tossing and turning in bed. What else can I do? I get up and search the web and lo and behold, I've found YOU! 031110 ... birdmad like the toxic exhalations of machinery given shape to move sitting here kind of grey like_a_cloud 031111 ... sylphide so_tired_i_can't_sleep 031120 ... blown cherry There's a whole fucking lot of pain going round right now, and I've not had nearly enough sleep to be able to deal with it. goes to show that big girls do cry 050325 ... Syrope there's something about me that's too tired too tired for age 21 too tired for almost done and ...well it'd be different if it were something easily curable, like by sleep or rest or relaxing. but i don't know that i'll ever get over this 050406 what's it to you? who go blather from