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silentbob Today i got two new alkaline_trio cds. Goddammit and the Split with Hot_water_music.

Their oldest and their latest.
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ClairE None of your girls!

I shouldn't care!

I'm an idiot for being sympathetic and an idiot for being envious. Do they know I exist?

My life has been confusing before but never so close to the proverbial tangled ball of yarn. Everywhere you turn you find knots, dear.
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little wonder To-day I woke up on a red couch in a little room 020211
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silentbob i'm in a good mood, but my nerves are feeling edgy. Maybe i need coffee. I feel stalked and violated. 020213
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silentbob i tried out for a whose line is it anyway rip off. I was the only one who threw myself to the floor and cried SHIT SHIT SHIT more than one time. 020214
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little wonder my lips are burning. 020215
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silentbob i miss my friends 020216
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silentbob i got really bored today 020228
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damaged sometimes its not worth chewing off your leg to escape the snare in the morning. 020228
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silentbob i almost got into a car accident last night with zarah and her roommate allison. we were passing a truck and it decided to aggressivly and suddenly without signalling turn left instead of right. we looked back and after we had passed undamaged we saw him turning right. it was just to fuck with us. big red truck. big american flag in the back. 020406
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yummychuckle god bless america. 020406
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silentbob this guy i know asked me to go with him to a local show. Rock! i thought. i was really looking forward to meeting people. THis wouldn't be like the other shows i went to where i just waited for the one person i knew to take me back, not really meeting anyone interesting. This time would be different.
It was in a bar. I was probably the youngest person there. They were a forty year old cover band.

sometimes this doesn't hurt
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sabbie one of the boys was reading the paper and there was a 15 page special on the queen mums life and work and he said "we should put this picture up, like in RSLs that have picture of the queen up and then geniflect every time we pass it" and me being infinatly incouragable grabbed some sticky tape and the picture and stood on a chair to tape it to the wall. later when i passed i saw that there was this long, long hair stuck to the tape and hanging way down. i tried to pull it out, cos if they see it theyll know it was me then, but it broke off instead and now its there for everyone to see.

i should have jsut signed the wall:

"sab woz ere an' did somfing stoopid."

really, i should be thinking about these things more.
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sphinxradio last night i dreamed that i was in a store at the mall trying on see-through clothes, and my braces were not only loose, but actually falling out of my mouth.
it was nice to wake up and remember that i don't have braces anymore (but i really should wear my retainer).
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silentbob this morning when it was supposdely 12 but actually 1, i had a dream that this girl had her head on my lap and told me to meet her someplace where we could be alone. it was a dark dirty waiting room and i went looking for her because i had to go to the bathroom first, but i couldn't find it. all i could find was this room with water up to my knees. i never did find her, and i don't remember my dream after that. 020407
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little wonder i feel locked in here again 020407
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Lumenia After class today, I fell asleep again and dreamed I became a porn star. It took me a long time to figure out it was a dream, though, since it started out with me laying in my bed and not being able to sleep. 020408
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silentbob loves you last night i talked myself out of suicide 020408
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blamethesky your conversation with sophie and another with your sister.
i wish you would just talk to me instead.
i would much rather hear that you're worried about me from you instead of other people.
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silentbob i got my speech done before it had to be. its on henry rollins 020409
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silentbob loves you my, my, the cruelest lies are often told without a word says:
i typed this w/ my nose
Betsy says:
good job
my, my, the cruelest lies are often told without a word says:
thnksx
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Arwyn I want more than anything to have a baby, but for some unforseen reason, can't conceive. I'm trying to accept it, but I'm having a lot of trouble dealing with it. 020409
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unhinged i am trying to quit smoking

it's been a little over 24 hours


i've been chewing a lot of gum
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little wonder by the weekend i am going to be incredibly sleep deprived. 020410
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silentbob loves you i was watching rushmore today with zarah when she got a phonecall saying her roommates dad shot himself. 020414
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silentbob i am buying tanya a ticket to weezer. she'll drive here friday before the show, and stay at my place. on saturday we'lld rive to ames to see my sister katie. then we'll all go to the show. sunday she'll drive back to estherville and i back to cedarrapids 020415
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frankenfist ...never seem to work out 020416
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silentbob i have a scratch on my forehead. i have no idea how it got there 020423
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Sailor Jupiter I did 46 calculations for a boring Psych experiment I ran while singing along with my MP3s and thinking way too deep thoughts. 020423
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no reason that's a very good amount.

no more school!!!!
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silentbob we watched American_History_X in my lit class. it was shortly before the butt_raping scene. 020506
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blamethesky are the only things that i'm concerned about.
starting now.
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little wonder i can hardly breathe 020516
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keepingyouawake everything. 020926
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silentbob the party no longer conflicts with the concert. my will is good. 020926
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Aimee I'm lonely again... bored... I don't want to go to work, cause no one appreciates anything that i do there...it's a pain in the ass. I work my butt off there and no one notices... i get a couple.. "that's nice" everynow and then, but i'm sick of table scraps... i was supposed to be promoted 2 weeks ago... but she still has to call corporate first... fucking blow me you uppity cunt... I'm tired of being held back 020927
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*nat* too many conflicts, not enough good things.
I hate my best mate, what sort of a life is that?

Why are all my freinds dickheads?
or is it me?
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silentbob if all else fails i still got phone numbers 020930
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unhinged it has recently been brought to my attention that i am an untrustworthy asshole who is not allowed to have feelings when told that she is an untrustworthy asshole; that i can't admit that i'm wrong even when the only words out of my mouth are 'i'm sorry'; that i have a knack for using my compassion as a weapon when i tell people the truth about how they make me feel; that from thursday night to monday morning i slept for 47 hours because i have no desire to get out of bed. i have made monday nights 'cut night' and i found some new blades today. the design is kind of fucked up now though but it tasted good. i have discovered a new candy obsession at walmart and have sunk to the absolute depths of addiction by purchasing cigarettes with my credit card. goddamn turkish gold fucking 100s. 100s are bitch sticks. damnit. 020930
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silentbob i have a test today but i'd rather think sexual thoughts 021016
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