ask_yummychuckle_anyway methinx Is there anyway to resurrect a fucked over relationship with, say... YOU? 021127 ... yummychuckle yeah, usually, if the other person wants to. Unless its that bastard Jimmy, but thats not really a relationship in any case. thats just. two separate people existing. and my refusal to be near him. but ...uh what was this all about? and who are you? 021127 ... werewolf no body really knows anything about me. and the only depth to me is that i have no depth. and i have no one else to blame ever since i stopped believing in other people outside of the challenges they are to me. and as usual you get enough right to hurt me, but still more wrong for me to be lonlier than hurt. and you used my name again. wear it like the fucking piece of shit badge i made it into. i gave it to you so why not? and none of that stuff was written by me. i really wish if you meant to leave me alone, you would. all more words do is give me more to misconstrue in support of the lies i built into your skin so desperate for interpretation. and this time i almost touched my lies, i almost felt my intentions forgotten by them. it all felt so consistent. you know they released kurt cobain's journals? like i needed to be reminded suicide is sad, or that self-expression moves inevitably towards futilities or worst in a sensitive mind. i suppose you liked him for his songs. so are you sufficiently jaded? leveled up? ah well, let the children come to me. you ever want to belong to something so bad you forget that you are already a ghost owned by your own memories and failures? and that the words you speak to others are just a dream they can hear you dreaming. and you murmur to yourself and they call it lovely. something sounds like their name and they're touched. and i mistepped perhaps. my amorous bee dance went counterclockwise when clockwise was the suggested custom. and we aren't scorned, our starvation isn't immediate. we live our whole lives in uncertainty and slow rolling horror because we can't find out till years later that all we've been doing is rediscovering some initial failure over and over. is hope only that we've learned statistically (so many brilliant equations you can't imagine anyone taking joy in) there's a possibility our life isn't ruined forever. there's a practicality to the anonymousyness of a bee corpse, trailing away and dulling beneath tomorrow's bright flowers today. and is hope that we actually think all of those mundane victories are going to be dependable the one night we need them? do we really think we can forget anything without losing whatever it was we were searching for that made all of this worthwhile, that made any failures so scathing. and i'm rambling. and you don't care. and i'm certain, because that's the challenge i backed you into. and don't you hate it when people ask questions they already know the answer to? and you don't really know what you're talking about except for in the most technical sense of the word here or there. but you know enough to silence me the next time you speak. i hope that's enough for you. don't you hate it when people ask questions you know they know the answer to? like this one: what gives? 021128 ... Brainy Smurf UH??? 021128 ... methinx "It isn't fair to have to feel this way. You're so close, and yet I'm so far away." -except from a sonnet lick 021128 ... yummychuckle OH! I know who methinx is.. i think ... and sorry I didn't read through your entire post, 'werewolf', but I don't have the time for your bullshit. Happy thanksgiving. 021128 ... yummychuckle drinking some chai nevermind. methinks is just someone I don't know. sorry about that. 021128 ... werewolf yeah...well i'd hate to fill you up before the big dinner. plus it was all a joke. one of my friends accidentally poked me in the eye with a fork and i was in a bad mood. 021128 ... wow jamie's a bitch 021128 ... Suicide Snowman you're surprised by this? 021128 ... werewolf hey now hey now...don't call the victim the executioner. they're slight distinctions but worth making right? ooh but i have a real question. what does arbitrary mean? and deluded too? does the meaning change if they're put next to each other as in the phrase...i'm arbitrarily deluded. does this change if i use the word you or is it arbitrary? or am i just deluded? 021128 ... werewolf oh we forget the things we don't remember. 021128 ... yummychuckle oh dear. yes I'm a bitch, but I think you're also missing quite a bit of what a bastard jimmy has been to me. He's sent me about a million of those ...i don't know what to call them, maybe its a form of apology. in anycase, every time he sent one, he had plenty of reason to, and I'm fucking SICK of being forgiving, just so he can treat me like shit. so call me a bitch, but be sure to call him an asshole at the same time. 021128 ... werewolf this is getting ugly. i never had any reason to apologize to you except for the fact that you were hurt somehow. 021128 ... werewolf and the only forgiveness i asked for, was of some original sin from your own genesis somewhere that you held me accountable for. 021128 ... fuck off wolfman it's a little more than obvious that werewolf twas de one who wrote the "wow jamie's a bitch" asshole. 021128 ... go to hell you fucker fucking damn, he's probably Suicide Snowman, too. 021128 ... werewolf haha...eh...is that what you really think? 021128 ... werewolf something i'd say perhaps? well at least my name is actually representative of some aspect of my personality right? yes i would bite your face off. 021128 ... werewolf if you had one. 021128 ... yummychuckle that wasn't me fucking HELL, I use my own fucking name when I write. (no offense to the person defending me, just letting jimmy know I'm not ...) oh sigh in any case *waves hand, dismissing everything* 021128 ... werewolf wasn't addressed to you either. and don't try to beat me to the dismissive hand wave. 021128 ... yummychuckle already did hohum 021128 ... yummyC i didn't mean to laugh 021128 ... werewolf and i didn't mean to make you. 021128 ... yummychuckle i didn't mean to give you the impression you made me I win! 021128 ... werewolf i didn't mean to not let you. 021128 ... yummychuckle wins! its too late, i won, no more no more. 021128 ... neither yummychuckle nor werewolf this_is_stupid 021128 ... werewolf ooh wait...a loophole...i started this all with a dismissive hand wave. 021128 ... werewolf nevermind i have nothing to say. 021128 ... Suicide Snowman Actually, I'm my own person... I think yummyc is a little overblown on here. Everyone fucking worships her for being shallow... sorry to disappoint the conspiracy theorists. 021128 ... yummyC holy fuck, have you paid any FUCKING attention to the way I'm treated on blather????????? people fucking hate me here. jesus, just fuck off 021128 ... TK I don't hate you But I supose comeing from me thats just a givin 021129 ... shhhh she knows everyone doesn't hate her... this is just a cry for adoration 021129 ... squint oh my fucking god. again. no it isn't, which is why--thanks tk, but--I hate what she wrote. seriously. i was not asking for compliments or any shit like that, just leave me the fuck alone. 021129 ... methinx That should have said exceRpt, not except. 021130 ... p2 what the hell she's just asking to be left alone is that too much to ask? the only ones here provoking the compliments for her are the ones who are attacking her she did not ask for her defenders they simply stepped up to the plate i am trying to be neutral i am not here to compliment her or attack her i simply would rather see this end and to methinx, step 1 in resurrecting a relationship is to identify yourself any other method is based on deceit 021130 ... Suicide Snowman When are you going to realize you're not the center of the world, or blather for that matter? **see? i put it in the form of a question!** 021130 ... minnesota_chris How's life? Still saving your pennies, to escape from paradise? 030908 ... silentbob why do people always pick fights with you? 030908 ... imposter Why do you hurt yourself? I'm sorry, I don't mean to sound cruel, I really like you, in fact. That's actually why I want to know -- why do you hurt yourself? 030908 ... yummychuckle 1.yep, I'm leaving paradise sometime next year :) 2.I don't know, really. I guess I'm just a fun person to pick fights with. 3. I don't hurt myself anymore. 030909 ... REAListic optimIST what color are your socks today? 031125 ... yummychuckle bright red 031126 ... REAListic optimIST what kind of underoos are you wearing today? 031126 ... REAListic optimIST ooh ooh and how do i get the swiss cheese off the bowl after eating french onion soup without having to do too much scrubbing? 031128 ... eighteen is yummychuckle pink, and wash it out right away, or give it to me to wash, oh, the_constant_washing_of_dishes 041121 ... methinx Been a while. Hows life? 041121 ... methinx No, thats a stupid question. Much akin to asking a dying man how he feels. Nevermind. 041121 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl is it weird being on blather for a long time? 041122 ... eighteen is stoned though no. yes. no. people ignore you, then like you a lot, then hate you, then are okay with you, then you move to Arizona to live with a blatherskite and only go to blather because you have no friends and you are stuck. 041122 what's it to you? who go blather from