ouroboros Mahayana Symbology [several meanings interwoven] serpent biting, devouring, eating its own tail :the cyclic nature of the universe: creation out of destruction, life out of death. eating own tail 2 sustain its own life, in an eternal cycle of renewal. early Alchemist/Cleopatra black half symbolises the night, earth, and the destructive force of nature, yin. light half represents day, heaven, the generative, creative force, yang. alchemically, the ouroboros is also used as a purifying glyph. 020205 ... phil I don't see this as a symbol of renewal, just self destruction. 030513 ... jane soon i'll get my tattoo 060118 ... Am I a good source of protein? "Eat me," I said to myself. 060118 ... jordie Like something you'd see in a nightmare. I agree with phil. 060517 ... Ouroboros death is a part of life death is a part of growth old habits, patterns, ideas, actions, and selves have to be disgarded in order to make room for new growth for the new you let_go and the_way_is_open 060517 ... Ouroboros move_forward_move_back 060517 ... unhinged strung_out is a beautiful poem and a pretty staggering blather_accomplishment. i was quite in awe by it. i wanted to try my own hand at it, add some other appropriate links, but i felt like i was marring it somehow. i have a strange memory; even though i've been here for so long, maybe way too long, i can recognize almost any link i've contributed to no matter where it shows up. it was a little distressing to recognize a number of links you used to make that beautiful poem. but i guess i've spent most of my time since i came here trying one way or another to stop myself from feeling, desparate and strung_out. but i just wanted to let you know how beautiful it is, that sad lovely page you created. and i definitely admire the wit of it. it's always nice to see something like that around here. 060605 ... superleni also takes her hat off to strung_out 060605 ... Ouroboros thank you both. and yes unhinged- i pulled many words from your history while i was collecting them 060606 ... walrie i am going from seattle so if you need a ride, i can definitely take you 060808 ... Ouroboros woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!! 060808 ... walrie tool was amazing, i am sad you did not get to go : ( 060830 ... Ouroboros :( yeah there just wasnt enough time for me to do everything- i am at peace with not going though- although i feel like i would die in my seat after hearing pushit live...oh maynard. anyway- im glad you had a good time. 060929 ... ever dumbening zhu ni yi lu ping an. it's the only asian language i know, so i ran with it. (i was too busy having great sex with the only person who could've taught me to speak thai. and no, she wasn't underage, and no i didn't pay for it.) 061009 ... Ouroboros kop kun mahk mahk 061010 ... Ouroboros "this is our meditation practice as women, calling back the dead and dismembered aspects of ourselves, calling back the dead and dismembered aspects of life itself. The one who re-creates from that which has died is always a doulbe-sided archetype. the Creation Mother is always also the Death Mother and vice versa. Because of this dual nature, or doulbe-sided tasking, the great work before us is to understand what around and about us and what within us must live, and what must die. Our work is to apprehend the timing of both; to allow what must die to die, and what must live to live." clairssa pinkola estes women who run with the wolves 061104 ... Ourboros hmm- i tried putting in an email link to this blathername, and it keeps reading it incorrectly- so don't email me at m@fotki.com, because i'm at s hyphen p hyphen m (at) fotki dot com 061126 ... adaptation "i don't know what that word means." 070326 ... Ouroboros im thinking about this tattoo on my arm, maybe contoured and filled in with such words as eg. be here now, om namah shivayah. rainbow colors? maybe maybe maybe. i need someone who can draw first 070618 ... Ouroboros now and forever email is ladylightness @ gmail 091119 ... unhinged how is the school and the new city and whatnot going? 091119 ... Ouroboros thanks for asking- the excitement has worn off- school topics are interesting, although the professors and classes are lacking. looking for a job (still). finding all the local haunts. volunteering at a nonprofit arcade. walking around the lake. creating a home with caroline 452. being as mellow and stress-free as i can. 091119 ... . an evocative name for an evocative writer 091120 ... ergo http://www.youtube.com/user/sam3security#p/u/1/A5xEFFdFVvA 100127 ... Ouroboros i like that video. and i like that someone considers my writing to be evocative. 100127 ... hsg you have nice work i'll check it out again soon. 100128 ... hsg that was interesting The Uniplanetary_Evolution_Theory http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=veXRCX-8PEg&feature=related 100517 ... |hIsIg| http://symboldictionary.net/?p=1026 100731 ... Doar Ouroboros, S&M? Startled to find this. Masochistic. Should have read more. . 100916 ... she told me so on the move 100916 ... Ouroboros tiz true, although what gets me off barely counts as bdsm. love power play (and a god spanking or two) 100916 ... Ouroboros god_spanking aka good spanking 100916 ... Ouroboros is a big fucking mess. 110113 ... unhinged i know it's not much of a consolation, but me too dear the dichotomy of my professional and personal lives is making me overwhelmed, sad, exhausted 110113 ... h mess- who isn't? ttsp 110114 ... Hekate "The spiritual use of psychedelics is always in search of self-naughting13 and self-sacrifice. By the self here, I mean ego or soul or psyche. Since language, thought, the ability to speak are powers of the soul, at the moment of the soul’s annihilation nobody remains to experience and nothing can be said about it. Leading up to this meltdown feels like dying, reconstituting oneself from nothing feels like rebirth. But the crucial point remains ineffable: it’s blinding light, everything; it’s total darkness, nothing; "the soul, in hot pursuit of God, becomes absorbed in Him . . . just as the sun will swallow up and put out the dawn" (Meister Eckhart). It’s terrifying; it’s bliss . . . Leading up to this indescribable moment, one meets oneself, with all one’s doubts, pretensions, heroics, defenses, habits, hopes and paranoias. Entheogens, carefully used, in the right setting, in the right frame of mind, allow your heart to fill with compassion. Towards yourself, as well as others. One learns to become more and more feminine, receptive, relaxed and balanced. It is most difficult to learn that there is nothing to be afraid of. Not even fear needs to be feared or avoided. One becomes no longer the victim, but the spectator of one’s own fate. One realizes that the only proper function of the will is not to will. The task is to turn the will back upon itself, like the Ouroboros, the snake who eats its own tail, making room for surrender. "Nothing burns in hell but self-will. Therefore it is said, ‘Put off thine own will, and there will be no hell’" (Theologia Germanica ). If a trip goes bad, this is where it happens: willing anything other than what is happening precipitates one in hell. An experienced guide or sitter who is unafraid, because (s)he is familiar with the territory and has gained the trust of the one who struggles, can midwife one into surrender. After the unspeakable, a warm surprise awaits one. Just as one can never get used to dying, the process of rebirth or reconstituting oneself is always an unexpected blessing. Regaining awareness of self and environment, I felt loved and whole and welcome in the world. After all, I could have been killed, and I wasn’t, but I didn’t survive by my own clever efforts. I experience mercy and humility. Whatever guilt or shame made me hide before is burnt away: I have been forgiven. Love and Death are one person. I feel frail, tender, but safe: "The eternal God14 is thy refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms" (Deuteronomy 33:27). This sequence of dying=death (or nothingness) =rebirth is a universal pattern called initiation. The secret of initiation remains inviolable by its very nature; it cannot be betrayed because it cannot be expressed." Andrew Feldmar, Entheogens and Psychotherapy http://www.janushead.org/4-1/feldmar.cfm 110802 ... unhinged I had vietnamese coffe with my lunch just now and thought of you 110802 ... hsg hi_lo 110925 ... Ouroboros a lo ha 110930 ... ever dumbening this mother fucker rules the pimp shack. [okay, so i'm not certain that she has fucked any mothers, but i have proof that she rules the pimp shack.] 111001 ... ever dumbening mah_freen 160101 what's it to you? who go blather from