bdsm User24 totally consuming, the very essence of the underground, scary yet exhilerating, a rush of pain and love making the end so much better. 010609 ... submissive one & D/s is totally consuming me. my knees are forever bruised from kneeling...my heart, my soul and my body belong to Him. i do not have one thought that i can call my own, for i have erased myself, and Master has molded me into what He wants me to be. i am here to serve Him, of course. secrets are totally forbidden from Master, and to be true to myself and to Him, i have to show Him what i have written here. i will be punished for not asking permission to write my thoughts, but i couldn't help myself... 030327 ... cube Bondage & Discipline / Domination & Submission / Sadism & Masochism / Yin & Yang... ³ 030328 ... Insat BDsM ... the misunderstood sensualism. 030328 ... Rael One Cloud There's only one group in my area, & I can't get in :( I was searching for an apartment when I tried to join. So I couldn't give a permanent address. The woman who screened me must have never had to worry about money or anything in her whole life, because she couldn't relate to this situation and told the others I had "lied" on my form. This really hurts because this place is too small to be snubbed sight unseen. I can see if they knew me, and thought I was a bitch, or if no one there liked me as a lover, or whatever, but they didn't even give me a chance! 030909 ... misstree that's the problem with inbred communities that by necessity have to be selective. becomes a power trip. even the ones that don't have to be selective, like various subcltures, can be jerks like that. i've never melded well with the traditional scene... i'm too much of an Outlaw. rules fly in the face of what i'm after, the hot and primal and vital, and carefully practised roles are just cages and excuses. uncertainty is what makes it real. i don't play well with groups. not saying either way is better. just different enough that they don't mix. 030909 ... severin O, the sting! 030910 ... misstree screw sting. all about thwap. braided leather belts over whips any day. 030910 ... 7rn flogs, paddles, belts variety 030910 ... misstree mmm... good point 030910 ... MindFuck *** Don't try and push it on someone else. The supposed Master is not coming back. He knows all the things I usually write anyway. Trigger event: I'd be with you if I weren't with her now. CC can fuck off with SW. 040124 ... u24 things i wish i hadn't blathed 040124 ... Persona How do you explain it to someone who doesn't understand? Do you tell them it's a way to experience intense sensation and emotion? 040229 ... pobodys nerfect I don't think you can explain to someone who doesen't understand. Take myself,for example. I will never think that being hit with a piece of leather is sexy or exciting. Probably because when my sister,brother(and occasionally myself)were little,my father would use his very wide leather belt across our behinds to punish us and make us feel ashamed for whatever it was we had done. In one way I was lucky enough to have an older sister and brother,in that I could see what they did wrong and make sure not to make the same mistake myself(and avoid a whipping), but having that advantage made them resent me and I would have heaps of guilt from it too once I was old enough to understand things from their point of view. So yeah,I'll never understand the appeal of it. The whole thing feels wrong to me and it probably always will. 040229 ... hyena never say never, but probably not is acceptable. there is the neccesity for a certain amount of Style to be present, or else it's just hurting someone and making them feel bad. 040229 ... IGG someone asked me if i knew what a dominatrix was (that being my name i was using at the time) i laughed and asked how old they were 16 they said. you shouldnt talk about things like that, they said. things you dont understand, they're wrong! i said do you know what bdsm is? and they said.......no... so i enlightened them, and told them that i knew exactly what my name meant. they said i was sick, twisted and perverse and i needed to be locked up. please do, i said. _____________________________ it makes me slightly detached and distantly curious as to how these people live their lives missing out on so much, and lashing out at things they don't understand. but look around, look at the world, it isnt exactly the most accepting of places. 051119 ... oren It's all about degrees. Just_a_touch of BDSM, or full_blown, or somewhere in_between. I've_never felt the desire to push_it very far, but I've met couples who LIVE it, making it the major focus in their lives. 051119 ... h|s|g master_patience 110112 what's it to you? who go blather from