i_fell_in_love_with_a_boy Novice Almost at once, and most completely. He makes me happy at all times. 040513 ... Sara E. Ferenchak Once upon a February I fell in love with a boy. No that isn't right... I fell in love with him in the summer... at football games and at malls and parks and in his car. Once upon a wintertime, I fell in love with a boy. You know, if I was honest (and I am now) I would admit that really there is nothing special about this boy... nothing that really makes him stand out more then any other. He isn't especially attractive... he's not overly kind or smart... he doesn't even wear bright colored clothing. And yet he captivated me. I still cannot say why. I have known this boy for almost four years now... I met his parents and his dogs, his grandmother, his best friend and his fourwheeler, and still I do not know why I love this boy. He is a good boy, not too good, but the kind of good that makes you want to kiss him for no particular reason. He is warm... not warm in that he is soft and emotional, for often he is not, but warm in the sense that he makes you feel, he inspires hugs and tender touches. The only thing that ever really struck me about him, is his smile. It's a kid's smile... it's big and bright and so very real. He doesn't smile often, but when he does you can see everything in him that makes him worth knowing. So once upon a summer I met a boy and I fell in love with him and in the spring I kissed him and in the fall I made love to him and two summers after I met him I lost him... He is not anyless beautiful or wonderful or captivating and I do not love him anyless. Perhaps even I love him more now. Because now I know... that you're never ever to young to fall in love and that only eighteen quickly turns to only nineteen. And that when you find love, even if you weren't looking for it, you should keep it, no matter what you have to give up, because to truly love someone... it's rare. It's hard and for the one you love to return that love, it's rare, no matter what the movies say. You don't always have to understand, or know, but you have to accept. So once upon a time I fell in love with a boy... I_love_you_more_then_anything this_is_me_loving_you this_is_me_still_loving_you this_is_me_always_loving_you 040513 ... I_love_you_more_than_anything 040513 ... ethereal that was the problem...he was only a boy...stupid_boys what number? I can't remember... 040513 ... ethereal stupid_boys 040513 ... Jess called Christian! And I have never looked back! 040712 ... puredream I call him forever... 040712 ... nonlucid once upon a time in chemistry class between labs I accidentally fell in love with a boy (again) and then we became friends and talked about the universe and life and death and crazy concepts, brought up randomly, scribbling on scrap paper while ignoring the teacher and he'd smile at me and say I was smart and tell me he thought life was boring and wanted to die and he didn't believe in God and I disagreed with him utterly, thought I could maybe save him, but instead he pulled me into his loop and I ended up thinking the same way as him, no more debate, merely a mirror of him, wishing he loved me and watching him looking at her all the while seething with ugly jealousy and we drift apart slowly, losing what he once had in common... and then I cry at night, wishing it were different 040712 ... Borealis do you regret the loop thing? 040712 ... puredream what? 040712 ... . i_fell_in_love_with_a_boy 040712 ... . i_fell_in_love_with_a_girl 040712 ... Jess See, Puredream! You are very complex! It's hard when you're vague though! 040713 ... puredream Am I supposed to be clear? Oh I'm sorry... I forgot that on blather my words are supposed to be readable and comprehendible by all so that everyone can understand and reply. Cause you know that's the point right? (AH!!!!!!!!!!!!) 040713 ... Jess There's no need for sarcasm, now now! This is what I get for trying to make a friend! Huh! Oh well! Sorry! Don't write it if you don't want people to read it! 040713 ... puredream Anyone is welcome to read what I've written, I never said I didn't want them to read it. But when you say stupid things like I'm vague or whatnot it makes me think very little of you. Because hello! I am not writing so that you can understand and comprehend and "get to know me". I'm writing for me. Because I love writing. Because I love blather. Oh! And I also love sarcasm. This is not a frigging forum! At least not to me, so if you're going to continue to treat it that way, fine. That's what you perceive blather to be. But leave me out of it. (And I know this is completely out of character but you've pushed me to a limit.) 040713 ... Jess Oh my God! I'm really sorry! I just wanted to make a friend! What can I say!? I didn't meen to annoy you or anything! I don't loose sleep over the fact I don't know evrything about you, I was just interested, thats all! But I am really sorry! And I hope you can forgive me! 040714 ... Alfred But then Eane broke my heart. At least I've still got my dead stuffed animal collection. Big brown eyes wide open in death staring. *Holds on to bannister reeling from the rush of memory, strolling through the palisades of painful recollections, heaves one big big body quaking sigh* 040714 ... Alfred They seem to be whispering something vague and yet disconcerting out of the dusk shadows. Would I be abandoning my Aristotlean abacus of reasoning if I just said that, I feel haunted by the dead army of open eyes, the rustle of dusk shadows, some orphaned muse rummaging among the tenements of death, stirring the ghosts in my attic. 040714 ... witchesrequiem And then I WOKE UP! 040715 ... Unrecognized And was disturbed by the fact that he was really a she. Doesn't love do the darndest things? 040715 ... puredream who was? 040715 ... puredream who was really a she? 040715 ... unix is superior to windows even with xp yes! yes! please elaborate on the whole he was a she thing. 040715 ... puredream thanks jess... nice try. 040715 ... Unrecognized Oh. okay. So I have just moved into my new house. I personally thought that the neighbor's "son" was a total hottie. His name was Leslie. A name not too unusual for a boy. My mother was talking to Leslie's father. "...so we named our daughter after my aunt, Leslie..." I was horrified, and very disgusted. 040715 ... Unrecognized oh, and the neighbors further down the street confirmed that Leslie is indeed, a girl. 040715 ... kookaburra ahhhhhh... welcome to the world of being bi. 040715 ... ItGirl There was a boy. There usually is, you just have to notice. And I'd like to say that I saw in him what so many people missed, but I didn't. There was just a boy. We talked. Occasionaly at first and more often as I discovered that not only was he a boy, but he was human. We laughed, because what is friendship without laughter. We were friends. I knew a boy who was thoughtful, and doubtful, and cynical, and hopeful. We were still friends. We talked. We laughed. We even went places together and called each other. And I fell in love. I never meant to. I still do not mean to. We are still friends. We still talk, still laugh, still see each other sometimes. We kiss. He is my friend. I remember that when his arms close around me. I remember that when his lips close over mine. He is my friend. I remember that in the dark when we are quiet and in the light when we laugh. I remember it always. He is my friend. And I love him. 040715 ... puredream and I fall in love with him again every time I look into his eyes. 040716 ... Borealis falling? no no.. thats too easy an explanation.. just yet 040727 ... Jess I don't know what I was "try(ing)" to do Puredream! But whatever! 040804 ... Syrope gut me like a fish, baby 040804 ... misstree fuck_you. i found one of my species. i found caesar. what's an empress to do without one? and it's righter than i will admit... 040804 ... Novice I fell in love with him but he thinks I'm too young for him! I mean its only a 3 year difference. I'm 18 and hes 21...thats not bad right? I'm starting school and he's finishing 040808 ... Kate I fell in love with a boy who loves boys. Okay, maybe not "love" in either case. 040808 ... nonlucid and then i fell out of love with him and i ceased to speak to him, as much but we were friends, and he changed who i am in some fundamental ways i miss him, sort of though i talked to him last but two hours ago i've come closer to loving him than i have anyone else though i don't know if it's love at all 050708 what's it to you? who go blather from