in_separate_beds . . 040302 ... white_wave he rises early tommorrow. i can sleep late. i blather on and on. he knows it as he retires for the evening. he says he doesn't know who i'm talking to. it angers him that i sleep in the guest room next to my computer. he thinks maybe I talk to a secret lover and that i can't wait to turn on the blather screen upon waking up. he doesn't know what i do. he doesn't know what i see or who i talk to. he's so damn jealous of these words. it's only words i tell him. i can't give up my passion for writing. i sleep in a separate bed as to not disturb him. he's cranky when interrupted in sleep. no it's not that he shouldn't trust me. it's that the bed in my computer loft is so cozy. please my love, do not make me give up this up. i work all day, and need to have this as my hobby. i've spilled my heart out to people that don't care. but i feel a bit better now... 040302 ... your_guardian_angel stop playing with the dole sticker on the peel and eat the fucking orange 040302 ... white_wave_is_a_bit_angry no, no "angel_who_stole_my_identity." you are so so wrong wrong about me being a cyberslut who won't let go. i haven't spent 9 long years in love with a man to throw it away for anyone I've never seen before. i've thought long and hard and i won't do that. blather is full of temptation. but i won't do it. i love reality. reality is my friend. but i have blather friends too. and trust me lover man at work right now, that my blatherfriends are strictly platonic..... 040302 ... your_guardian_angle i meant with your man you silly sillerton. stop being online all day and go live the full existance you say you have to be faithful to. 040302 ... white_wave_even_angrier and to set the record straight: I only sleep in the loft occasionally. Most of the time WE SLEEP IN THE SAME BED!!!!!! 040302 ... your_guardian_anglophile yeah whatever weirdo 040302 ... white_wave_isnt_angry_now guardian angle (thanks for changing the spelling by the way). i can't help but be online for hours. you know as well as i do that blather is addictive. i don't know what is considered too much time spent here. i can go a day without it here and there, but i can't stay away forever. to be honest, i need to talk to my real live therapist about this. i don't think my behavior right now is normal for me. i don't think there is a right or wrong answer. sometimes i think blather is good for me. sometimes i don't. i'm confused.. 040302 ... white_wave_is_weird Weirdo? Okay, Mr/Mrs. High_and_Mighty! I'm proud of my weirdness. You can degrade me to make you feel better about yourself. I think you are jealous of my rebelliousness and non-conformity. Some of those writers, artists, and musicians that are rich and do things you admire are weirdos too. Get off of your high horse! 040302 ... your_guardian_anthrax couldn't you be calling your man to ask him how work is going right now? or maybe creeping out of your crypt and getting some sunshine? some fresh air perhaps? and don't call me a hypocrite. i'm actually an invalid albino without legs. so i have an excuse. weirdo. 040302 ... white_wave says goodbye for now i don't know why i bother talking to you since you obviously don't like me. i can't call him at work. he doesn't like receiving personal calls at work nor e-mail. he has a good job. and you think i don't have a life and do nothing but sit here and type. you are a person who is blunt and comes right to the point. but i still think you are trying to put me down. don't you have anything good to say about me? i know you think all i do is complain and don't take action. fine i'll stop complaining. just try to be a little more tactful and realize that you are hurting my feeling. i'm a girl and we are sensitive to that kind of stuff. 040302 ... your_guardian_angst oh since when do you care about your actions hurting someone else's feelings? hmmmm? fine i'm sorry. here's something nice i have to say about you, you like weird al. i also like weird al. 040302 ... hyena "I think you are jealous of my rebelliousness and non-conformity" whooooo hahahahahahahahahaaaaa! heee hee heeee heeheee! oh that's good! that's great! you got all offended because they called you a weirdo, and not a mentally disturbed, obsessive freak in hollow relationship who seeks to fill it by an addiction to a stupid website! that's grand! i love it. *sniff* oh, you got me laughing so hard i'm crying. you're beautiful. stay here forever and keep me entertained, yes? 040302 ... white wave should use blather as therapy you are right. i am a bit self centered right now. i may have made some mistakes that would lead people to believe i don't care about their feelings. i shouldn't let these hormonal impulses make me do things to hurt others. and the blather person who has been hurt should know that i am terribly sorry. i know that words can't erase what i did or build trust in that i am a good person. i really have good intentions towards others. and i do like weird al. he is more_of_a_weirdo_than me. 040302 ... white_wave is hyena doing the guardian angel impersonation. if he/she is, i can tell say that you are totally rude. you have no right to call me names like that. can't you be a little more tactful? 040302 ... white_wave blather is a place to release feelings and emotions. i admit i've used it for game playing. but that's what blather is.a place to be imaginative and pretend to be someone you're not. if i can't freely express my feelings without someone like hyena coming and putting me down. then i don't think blather is making me happy anymore. 040302 ... hyena see: hypocrite. either it's a place for free expression and playing games with people's heads and trying to find a duplicitous alternate outlet for a failing relationship, or it's a safehaven where i can't call you on being a drama factory idiot, because me sharing my opinion is ruder than you. pick one. and if blather isn't making you happy anymore, well, that would solve your addiction, wouldn't it? perfect! 040302 ... white wave doesnt care anymore did i ever say once that my relationship is failing? no relationship is perfect. he spends alot of time online talking to people also. so i feel i have a right to also. you shouldn't be making assumptions that my relationship is hollow and that i am using blather to replace my emptiness. sure i could be spending more time with him but he likes to be on the computer sometimes doing his own thing. i'm okay with that. and blather does still make me happy for the most part. in the real world, i will encounter people who conflict with my personality. you are one of those people. there is no reason for us to communicate further because you will never have anything positive to say about me. i have more self confidence than to let you beat me down. you make assumptions when you don't know a god damn think about me. try not to ruin anyone else's day. i don't think anyone deserves that.... 040302 ... pobody *confused* Maybe I'm just being nosy here, but why are hyena and guardian angel(and all their variations) picking on white wave like they know her? 0.o 040302 ... your_guardian_astronomer because i do know her, and she knows me. and i wasn't picking on her per se in an arbitrary sense, i was correcting behavior that caused me distress. also, she seemed a little sensitive and needed a breaking in perhaps, i didn't know hyenas were following behind me waiting for someone else with the courage to make a move. i would never suggest white wave has no place here. 040303 ... white_wave yes i am a little sensitive stork/werewolf/jimmy/all other angel incarnations. that's why i didn't like being called a weirdo. if you feel the need to give me advice, i suppose it looked like i was asking for it. but i really don't like being labeled as a "weirdo" even if i really think that name suits me. in the context of blather, it just sounds demeaning. 040303 ... stork daddy oh boy. i love you. 040303 ... stork daddy i'm glad we feel the same way about unsolicited advice though. 040303 ... white_wave yes, i do know why you love me. because you like to think of me as blather's_resident_drama_queen. yes, you love to hate me, perhaps not in a spiteful way, but that i simply annoy you but you can't stay away. why do I bother going on about a subject that should have been closed a long time ago? I do have a habit of dragging things out. Rambling. But it's more about how you can be pleasant and sarcastic and i can't help but want to battle with you. i think you thrive on subtly taunting people and bringing them into your wrestling match. i think you are basically harmless, but your words are sometimes much stronger than my sensitive soul can handle. If nothing else your behavior has shown to me you'll make a damn good lawyer... 040304 ... stork daddy i'm harmful. i am i swear. 040305 ... white_wave LOL! Case closed. 040305 what's it to you? who go blather from