do_as_thou_wilt .fallen hmmm fueled by: thou_art_god , i've_been_cheated_on , all the various eris references , quite a few unrelated blathes and some actual real life stuffs murking about . will give this proper attention ... will make it sit still while I paint the portrait ..... will be exhausted when done... there's that word "will" .. heh 040227 ... .fallen oh oh and we mustn't forget the influences of consensual_reality and collective consciousness 040227 ... .fallen this statement ... let's take a quick look-see before attacking the meat of the matter and sucking the marrow from the bones of it .... DO AS THOU WILT ... or phrased to fit more modern ideas of religion... DO YOUR WILL now, I feel I should add the completion of the statement .... do as thou wilt shall be the whole of the law .... quite a ticklish ticklish thing we have here ...and then a counterpart of sorts ... love is the law, love under will .... oh geesh, there's that tricky lil word again "will" hmmm... what to do with this what to do ..... let's go ahead and throw in the genius principle to the mix .... as well as the ever popular ponderance involved in deciding gods_or_monsters ... should we also sprinkle a bit of that wonderful adage speaking of drinking deep, getting drunk and never ever thirsting as well ... me thinx so o.k. got a bit of the foundation built .. but barely even touched the surface.... remember just taking a look-see for now. perhaps I should peruse all of blathdom and bring back some more related topics to draw colour from ..... hmmm 040227 ... .fallen tumbling down down wow, I just had a freudian slip there .... got way way way ahead of myself that is what I get for letting things like this simmer on the back burner. up there in the last blathe I typed the word "religion" where I should've typed the word "language" ..... not to far off, I suppose language could be considered some people's religion and a worthy one at that. 040227 ... .fallen aleatoric_concinnity 040227 ... x an' it harm none 040227 ... .fallen karma_vs_free_docs 040227 ... .fallen spiritual_doors 040228 ... mind if I contribute? u24 rede desiderata 040228 ... .fallen must say, I've been turning this phrase around and around in my head .... there is an instinctual understanding of the phrase which is probably why it is hard to communicate properly .... you have to find your Will in order to do it .... what do your belly rumblings tell you, how are you hard wired, where are the reoccurring themes ? ... sometimes doing as you wish will lead you to your Will but it is equally possible it may lead you away from it ... now that isn't to say that some people aren't just born with this automatic knowledge of what their Will is .... there is something to be said for working for it though, isn't there? .... there are some pretty nice patterns going on when pondering this term .... can't wait to see the finished product hmmm still mulling this over, just chewing on the skin ... these words mean nothing 040228 ... .fallen ::clears throat, while muttering over some dusty books looks up long enough to see that other people have contributed, smiles :: yes, yes .....I knew that pesky pesky addition would show up ..... now how to do this tactfully...... that pesky lil addition "an' it harm none" ...tsk tsk tsk .... yes that is valid but not what is being pulled apart here ... for sometimes doing your WILL does mean harming others .... however it is a very beautiful addition and a good thought ... the golden rule in any form is a wonderful idea yes, yes contribute as you see fit .... that is what blather is all about isn't it? as for me, there is much more thinking to do on this ..... keep getting stuck on the relations with the genius principle ... must get over this hurdle ..... hmmmmm tricky tricky these words mean nothing 040229 ... .fallen do as thou wilt shall be the whole of the law.... for the sake of working this out first we/I must agree that we are here for a reason ...... o.k. I can agree to that if it will help me work this out better ... alright we are here for a reason ... we get here ... and we start trying to figure out the world around us and then we start trying to figure out who we are .... during this time are we developing our WILL or rather I should say we are learning what our WILL is .... now where is the flaw... I know it is there ...missing something BIG ... where is it ... slippery slippery... ::shakes head, paces round and round the room:: tricky tricky these words mean nothing 040229 ... .fallen Will synonym for purpose? ... hmmmm ... perhaps. Where do you fit in the machine? Which machine are you a part of? Are you a solitary machine? What is your role in all of it? hmmmm .. does answering these help you discover your WILL? mm ... starting to taste some meat now ... not sure what I think of the texture yet. these words mean nothing 040229 ... trixie (wake me you already have) waken a wake I, pale muse of weeks, days gone faltering on this Aonian mount caught in your Frightful Perdition. And you, my Beelzebub, eyeless friend. The man who tightens my loosening sides a further drift out to sea. A monotone drift runs in my city streets, a sullen pantomime of you. The buzz you wake me with a purgatory in a hall soft enough to calm the others; loud to stir in me This selfish quest, a Narcissus kissed my hand tonight unable to reciprocate your cause my fiery children bleating, run but I have nothing at all So goodbye tonight And goodbye in the morrow, I'll leave you without a trap And hold myself till dawn’s snap. 040301 ... .fallen hmmm.....found this snippet of a jewel in me mailbox: * remember godself... "can't blame a baboon for acting like a baboon" but we are so much more than monkeys... where is that precious split... * yes, yes there is that ...can't fault the gazelle for running... can't fault the lion for bringing down the gazelle.... can't fault the hyena for being a scavenger .... blah blah blah so the Will is tied into Purpose and Nature as well.... do_as_thou_wilt shall be the whole of the law the Will declares some people to be teachers .... some to be students .... I think Will declares for us to be a little bit of both to varying degrees, but that is opinion and only that ... hmmmmm...got to keep chewing ... these words mean nothing 040302 ... misstree when action is taken... where is the source... when you eat, reptile brain... it is subsistence... when you choose to eat what is better tasting rather than more nutritious, it is, shite, i always confuse id and ego, so for the sake of my laziness we say ego... gratification... when you turn down dessert because you're on a diet... it is id... but these are nothing, these are basic elements... these do not add up to Will... what do you eat? what is your Will? godself says that fuel is neccesary, so it is procured... godself says that the equation of enjoyment to nutrition works out to x conclusion... so you choose your meal... godself prioritizes enjoyment of dessert next to guilt and health benefits, and decides that indulgence in tiramisu is less appealing than not... you're in a bar... someone gets confrontational... what is your Will? do you return their aggression? do you defuse the situation? do you back down? what is the flavor of your godself? the split between doing as you Will and just doing is intent, is awareness, is listening to the deepet belly rumblings... unless you know what your Will is, you will drift, you will choose actions and ideas and not know why, you will do as you think you should... and how to realize Will? rubbing the self against the notself. do what is not in your nature, and you will feel the alienness of it... and at times, it will change you, will become virii_or_edifice... look at why simplest actions are taken, or are taken the way that they are... we are more than animals, we have these complex symbols and societal rules and symphonies of emotions and most of all, we have the awareness of our own potential, we Know that we are more... we Know that we have a Will, and it must be shaped, or one will drift, an unperson, a touron or cardboard cutout barely alive... the Will is the godself acting... the Will results when Nature is understood, and Purpose leads to Action... i am empty. these words mean nothing, too. 040306 ... .fallen know yourSelf.... listen to the little voice inside, no not the_bad_voice , the other one..... open your eyes .... what events keep repeating themselves at odd intervals in your life ... what is the world trying to tell you ... what are You trying to tell you ... just let yourSelf be .... work at it .. keep working on it, isn't supposed to be easy ... is there somehow a theme trying to reveal itself to you ...where do you shimmer and glow .... where are you strongest .... perhaps your perceived weakness is the true strength ... find Your Will and test it... fight against... earn it .... then give in and follow it... thou_art_god... truly.. do_as_thou_wilt is as much a burden as a treasure.... so very bittersweet... perhaps one day... perhaps 050616 ... misstree catching a scent on the wind... signposts recurring like those for wall_drugs, 87 in 60 seconds... impossible to ignore... all coming to one word... breathe... 050618 what's it to you? who go blather from