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unhinged is bad for my health

drinking has become habitual
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unhinged and now, once again

so has getting_high
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unhinged is killing me

make it stop
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stork daddy just had my last exam. and now a month where i won't think about the law (at least i'll try not to). i need to celebrate. had this been grammar school, we all would've been running and throwing our backpacks into the air. but here, everyone just walks with a subdued exuberance and smile. plus, after taking torts for a semester, they're not likely to toss backpacks into the air recklessly. 041214
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pete i just received an acceptance email from a prof i had two years ago telling me that the letter's in the mail and that the degree will, more or less, pay for itself while i'm taking it :D

now all i need to do is wait for the other two schools i applied to to give me a yay or nay and pick the best offer (they are all my first choices for their own reasons, each has something i really want that none of the others have)...

:D
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no reason congrats :)
are the schools in canadia?
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fuck university of toronto 070222
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no reason yeah
it's super pretentious
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pete carleton, manitoba/winnipeg, victoria.. i've heard from the first, waiting on the last two before making my call 070222
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unhinged i think i'm going to go back and finish; i think i can do it now 070608
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REAListic optimIST yeah, do it, unhinged! i am so happy to finally be finishing up my graduate degree. what will you study? 070608
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pete While I don't yet know what it takes, I'm hoping that I have it.. good luck with yours unhinged! 070608
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unhinged i already went to grad school for two years; i am three credits away from my degree. i studied violin pedagogy. i make decent money already, but if i end up moving to the west coast like i want to where i have no connections i really need to have a masters to make decent money.


i almost had a nervous breakdown when i was in grad school. not finishing my masters back then was one of the smartest things i ever did.
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REAListic optimIST if you are able to just take a few classes and finish that baby off, you will be glad you did! if you move out to the west coast, i don't know any violinologists who are hiring accomplished pedagogues though, so i don't think i can help you there... 070610
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pete is going to be a lot of work, as expected, and a lot of fun, as expected, but definitely a lot of work. i have to get my shit together. 070915
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redneckk if there's anyone that knows about getting shit together, it's me...

do you want to see my collection? it's in the back of the bronco

I KISSED MY COUSIN ON THE LIPS AND LIKED IT. SHE'S 43 AND I'M 77 WOOOOOOOOOOO
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Ouroboros i'm applying to one for the fall. i miss school and learning. i don't know if this is the 'right' program or if now is the 'right' time.

leap_and_the_net_will_appear
and sometimes the leap is premeditated
and long planned for.
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Abraham Linking leap___and_the_net_will_appear 080103
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master_past official ends this afternoon. 090612
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master_past officially ends this afternoon. 090612
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unhinged any post_grad_school in your future? 090612
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past my research supervisor, after meeting my parents, looked at me and said "so when do we get doctor past?" (sub my name in for the alias.) having been in school for the last 20 years, i'm more than due for a break. 090612
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auburn :D 090613
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unhinged dude, take a break. maybe if i would have taken a year off i might have actually finished my degree. *sigh* 090614
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past definitely am taking a break. i like this whole idea of having a career and doing meaningful and enjoyable work at the moment. it gives me time to actually live, and the time to hopefully find someone to share that time with. 090614
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Ouroboros august 090615
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anne-girl sure. don't know how to do anything else but school 090616
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ClairE At_this_point_in_my_life, it's not a part of my life. It's something I need to get over with so I can move forward with my life. 100621
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past i've applied again, and just heard from the first school. i got in, which is exciting, though giving up a pay cheque for a much smaller scholarship package is terrifying. leaving the life i've made for myself here over the last 10 years, and the one i've shared it with for the last almost 4 (at least until after comps) is even more heartwrenchingly scary. 130220
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xeadl studying health deteriorating health
back to quesadillas and whisky
(sprouted organic grass fed blah blah blah)
I guess you can never really go back again
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Ouroboros BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 130222
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ever dumbening come out to the coast, we'll get together, have a few laughs.

just do it, james, they say.
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past i need my ego to be pricked. accepted everywhere, just waiting on the offers. i know my current work arrangements are not teneable, for my own emotional health at the very least, but will running back to the academy solve things? at least, i think, i'm entering the tower with some solid ideas of skills and experiences i want to foster and build a career around--inside the academy if possible but more likely on the outside. 130301
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epitome of incomprehensibility Congratulations! It sounds like you have plans. I mean, I think more school is a good thing if you have plans on what to do with it. My friend was in a situation like yours where she was accepted by different schools for a doctorate and went to the one closest (her mother was in bad health; this place was also her first or second choice). Even if my MA grades were as good as hers, I don't think I could do a PhD, at least not now, because I wouldn't really know why I was doing it. But good job, and it sounds like you have a good foundation to build on. 130301
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past I think I'll make similar decisions for similar reasons. The goals I've set and the project I've proposed will hopefully set the stage for a future where justice is found in an understanding of not just our past but how we've created and have been created by the spaces in which we live. 130302
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minnesota_chris double down on your bad decisions

fuck you minnesota chris
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FA113N Just realised this applies to me!

Although we don't call it that in the UK...

I'm off to do a masters at Cambridge. Assuming I find the funding...
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past it feels like i'm looking over the edge of a cliff down towards the future, which snakes like a river far below.

i know that eventually i'll have to either jump or get back on the road. if i jump, the fall, the limbo, will be months long.
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past paraphrasing: "congratulations you've won a prestigious external award, we are now going to claw back all of our offered internal funding in recognition of your achievement." what the fuck? 130313
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e_o_i symphonizes no sympathizes re past: You could look at it altruistically and think that the money will be spread out for a greater number of people for the greater good... but it's probably just bureaucratic bullshit, eligibility criteria and all that. Do they have T.A. placements? I actually liked being a T.A. during my master's, though it takes extra time. 130313
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tired_e_o_i & re fall3n: congrats! Cambridge sounds like something. Despite or maybe because of the fact that I am Canaduckian, not Anglostani, the name Cambridge impresses me. 130313
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past it does, teaching is one of the end goals, at least part time, so i'll be all over that. i think every place treats the awards differently, which adds to my confusion and frustration (some schools say "congratulations on that prestigious award, here is a top up"). i'd like to be able to afford to go, is all. one place isn't all, and i have choice. i just know which one i like the most! 130314
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past also fallen, I'm with e_o_i, congrats! It's an exciting time!! 130314
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past "you got out" my coworkers said on my last day, "congratulations." today, less than a week later (and less than two until school starts) I'm feeling more nostalgic and melodramatic about everything I'm leaving behind: the people, the places, the city that's been my home for the entire decade of my adult life so far. I tell myself it's just for now, it's for good cause, and I'm going to absolutely love the work I'll be doing (and I will), but I fear that the greatest loss won't be felt for weeks or months into this next new step. 130820
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e_o_i The "nervous and new" stage of things can be exciting - more to take in, your mind trying to sort everything out - only there's not enough time to record your impressions very well. Or maybe that's just me.

And remember not to miss your dentist appointment(s), or else you'll end up with fillings to pay for. Or maybe that's just me, as well. Maybe you have better teeth.

Regardless, have fun.
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Ouroboros fin 130822
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e_o_i ...meaning done? My congrats to you too!

Cong rats are rats who play drums, and they are very celebratory.
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tail-devouring snake on one hand, i am fortunate that i never found my way down south to the heavenly, hot springs, retreat, farm food, workshop, on the ocean big_sur place while in grad_school: 0% chance i would have gone back or graduated.

on the other hand, although i have a degree, i Very Clearly missed out on some fantastic opportunities for my life and growth.
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