no_new_messages
pathetic i know why don't you just kill me now? 020728
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squint same thoughts, different moments. 020728
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radioactive talking parrot why is this so farmiliar to me...? 020729
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unhinged fuck

i hate the number zero
020729
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Kate I haven't heard from you since last Sunday, and you haven't replied to my little email. I was so happy that it was Monday because that means the mail will come, but nothing came for me except a college brochure. And I thought about how you're getting brochures, too, but probably from Yale and Harvard and all sorts of prominent schools like that. And then I thought about how I need to do my honors pre-calc summer homework and then I remembered that you were curious to know how I did on the AP Calculus test, since you took it last year. And then I saw my watercolours that were a gift and remembered how I nearly convulsed when I drove by the bookstore in Shaker Heights and saw your artwork, tastefully displayed with a plaque in front of the entrance. All of the guys I've ever liked before seem so plain compared to you, with your gregarious talents and your kind heart. Perhaps I did something wrong, or maybe I don't have enough credentials, or possibly you just passed over me. I wish you'd call or write so that I know that you're ok, and maybe we could still talk about literature and see plays and walk in gardens. 020729
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Kate Today was a happy Tuesday, for I found your very Aristotelian letter in my mailbox and as usual, it took me ten minutes to even open it I was so wonderfully happy to receive it, and then I read it over very carefully and smiled and looked up a Latin word in my old books, and then in the dictionary to see derivatives. My brother stood in my doorway and commented that it was really sad (to him) that I had a friend who used words that I didn't know and had to look up, but I think that it is a wonderful thing to have a good vocabulary and an enthusiastic heart. 020730
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unhinged you live in shaker heights? i grew up in parma and now i live in medina. while i was in milwaukee, i met another nicole that played the viola and she was from shaker heights. although i supposed you could be speaking about another shaker heights... 020730
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in denial? just because you don't write back
doesn't mean
that you hate me
020802
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in de nile yuh sure? 020802
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damn it all don't
say
that


don't fuck with me
020802
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damned I don't hate you 020802
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goddamn these people could be anybody, or me!

but it isn't.
HMMMM
020802
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no reason saw this right after i saw the big fat 0. figures. 020802
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Kate We're talking about the same Shaker Heights! I live in Macedonia and my aunt and uncle and cousins live in Medina. Yay for blatherers in Northeastern Ohio! 020803
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unhinged :) 020804
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splash of orange no new anything, really. 020908
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good people bleeehhhh

except fuckin spam.
020909
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IKC 56-80 just the usual stuff about adding real inches to my credit rating, working from the homes of naked celebrities, consolidating my debt for up to 8 hours at a time and refinancing my penis, but that's mostly cause i'm still a little phobic about actually giving my address to any more people that those fucks at hotmail already have (i discovered that i did not start getting spammed until i turned on the spam filter) 020929
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Jeca Now Im sitting, vacant, weary
Keyboard ready, eyesight bleary
Waiting here with baited breath
To see what news comes from the Net

Howd de dos and e-mail jokes
Thoughts from all my favorite folks
Not the poignancy of an empty screen
I do hate to see that Inbox clean

But, to think that cross the distance, through
Those wires possibly is you
Like me, too staring at empty screen
With Inbox similarly clean

Is depressing! Then, just for kicks
Just the way to scape this fix
Ill be the first to send you news
To cheer you from clean-Inbox blues

I miss hearing from you, but I believe
Its better to SEND than to RECEIVE
So send this to other Inboxes bare
It means so much, to know you care!

The miracle that we can stay so close
To the ones we love the most
Though earth might spread us far apart
Makes precious these couriers of the heart.
020930
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to everyone who doesnt write back:












































go fuck yourselves.
021028
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Im so done with this shit. The world can go fuck itself. 021210
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jessicafletcher no friends.
how about 3 new messages...ALL OF THEM FUCKING FORWARDS!!!!! forwards mean i have no time to write your ass some i'm gonna stuff your mailbox like christmas loan and credit card offers. FUCK.
021210
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YES FUCK_FORWARDS,
FUCK_FRIENDS
021210
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neglected what the fuck?


where've all the flowers gone?
021221
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give me death. there is nothing there



fuckyou.
you can go to fucking hell, "no new messages"
060713
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emmi i save mine... so that when i feel like hearing someone's voice i can go back and listen to it for 20 whole days. sometimes i take walks in the park and pretend to be on the phone, when i'm actually talking back to old voicemail messages...
it'll be ok
060714
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LS Oh, yes, still freinds. How about not one word, even though I've emailed you myself a couple of times? I don't even get the mass mailings you send to your list anymore. I suppose its easier to forget when you just ignore what you don't want to remember.

Freinds. Whatever.
060714
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Ouroboros you can call me too
it would be nice to hear your voice
060714
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zero zero zero zero I hate my life and I want to die. 070424
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... fuck_it 070714
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Question man I get annoyed because too many people call,

message 1)Telemarketer

message 2)Drunk guy with the wrong#

message 3)*click*

message 4)someone speaking spanish

message 5)Kids playing on the phone
070715
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Question man I get annoyed because too many people call,

message 1)Telemarketer

message 2)Drunk guy with the wrong#

message 3)*click*

message 4)someone speaking spanish

message 5)Kids playing on the phone
070715
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unhinged you wanted to know if i was late. 'you would tell me if you're late right?' i let you know i wasn't. not even so much as a thank god.

hmpf
it seems like we can't get past the three week mark. not much in common. not even common courtesy or mutual orgasm. i guess we've just run out of things to talk about.
070715
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? like why is the sky blue? 070716
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go to hell. fuck you and your stupid fucking empty_promises 071204
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not aware actually, my phone says, "nothing to tell you". it does this in a mocking way i feel... 071205
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thieums No calls again today
Only bills in the mail
Only spam in my mailbox
Again, today, no calls

Nobody knows me no more
The snow falls thick and slow
The small house down the subway
No more, nobody knows

No new messages today
No new messages always
No new messages tomorrow
No new messages, no no
101130
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from hell I write: FUCK YOU 110121
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It is snowing. I just can't believe this. 110206
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go to hell fuck you. i thought you might have changed

but people don't fucking change. not enough.
110303
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sunset_blue
but yet there are those little surprises that nudge and tug at me
110303
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stork daddy not since the mailman went on a retreat to greece and came back a skeptic. 110304
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seriously FUCK YOU make up your fucking mind you bastard! 110928
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... ? 110928
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Hate You Now You know what? You're a selfish motherfucking prick. 120123
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never mind rot in hell, bastard 130408
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nr on grabbing a drink sometime:


him: how about next week sometime?
me: sounds good, later in the week works for me
him: sweeeeet

[other brief conversation, unrelated, ends with me being the last to text]


....tumbleweed.
130409
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for the love of GOD PLEASE. WRITE. BACK. 170208
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Clueless Why? 170523
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from