eric nullspace a cool guy. wish i'd met him a long time ago. glad i finally did. 000201 ... amy yeah me too. 000304 ... amy bodyrock, yaw 000304 ... amy fuck that was meant for moby i'm new at this 000304 ... a the person i share my home and my life with. 000313 ... amy brad i don't know 000313 ... nullspace sage stole my pager :) 000313 ... a the horror! stealing your pager? brad you should kick him in the booty. 000313 ... birdmad the half a bee 000504 ... emily ...he used to call me baby...he loved me a lot more than i loved him...i wasn't very fair to him...i haven't talked to him or seen him in two years...last i heard, he moved to new york... 000918 ... twiggie the things i could say to you now, fucker. the way you ruined me, the way i never said anything back but just sat there and took it, the way i STILL fucking liked you after all the shit you put me through! talk about a codependent. i still carry around a picture of you asshole, who the hell knows why. You never even fucking apologized, even though you knew how screwed up i was after that. even though you knew that i was suicidal. you never gave a fuck. and you know what? i hate you for it. i really fucking hate you. there were so many people who you tried to turn against me. even if i didn't KNOW them you tried. what kind of sick fuck are you? i was only 13 you were 3 years older and i was still more grown up. fuck you eric. i hope you've gotten what you deserved from some other girl who's life you tainted because i never had the balls to do it. 001223 ... twiggie ....to think that i once felt it was normal for a girl to have to put up with that. 010107 ... yummychuckle my gay ex-boyfriend. Am I that pathetic? 010601 ... CinnamonGirl I never wanted anything from you But you keep giving me hard times To remember. I never planned to stay for the night But you keep touching me so deep and so light I must stay here tonight. Now, i can't keep pretending that i love What you do to me No, i don't think i can love you anymore It's hard to say Though i will stay I hate you... You come again, knocking on my door I'm not surprised by you anymore And now you want once more. You feel no pain banging on the floor I hold my breath like million times before My brain is stiff and sore. 010609 ... fourteen year old sweetheart I went on my first date with a boy named Eric. We saw the Matrix (bad idea) and went out to some Italian restaurant, and since we were freshmen my dad had to drive us home, sitting uncomfortable and silent in the backseat of the Mercedes. We didn't talk much at all. But he smelled so good. I could not get over it. Man. I'm not sure what it was, but it drove me crazy with all these thoughts spinning in my head non-stop and making my eyes glow in the dark of the theater. I smell it sometimes now and I am fourteen again, looking at him out of the corner of my eye, wondering if Neo kissing Trinity will somehow light a thought in his mind that would make his hand rest on top of mine. 010609 ... Clarence Come to me in the silence of the night; Come in the speaking silence of a dream; Come with soft rounded cheeks and eyes as bright As sunlight on a stream; Come back in tears, O memory, hope, love of finished years. Oh dream how sweet, too sweet, too bitter sweet, Whose wakening should have been in Paradise, Where souls brimfull of love abide and meet; Where thirsting longing eyes Watch the slow door That opening, letting in, lets out no more. 010729 ... god eric's_trip 020618 ... little fury bug he was an odd child. but deep down, i always loved him. even when i was screaming at him to give me back my barbie 020618 ... sheli You have said what you are, I am what I am. Your actions in my head, my head here in my hands with something circling inside. I have no name for what circles so perfectly. 030804 ... misstree fuck you, you idiot prick. two and a half years and you tried to end it like that. it's not any positive quality that made me insist on tuesday. it's that i am a master of self-delusion, and i don't go down like a chump. 030804 ... tiyatays tollbeuv i love you. 031104 ... misstree is drunk again fuck you. i resent you more than ever, and i don't know why, and that makes me resent you more. just fuck off. you don't exist outside of sunday nights anymore, and sundays are hell. 031105 ... a girl with nothing to say hes so hott i wish i could have him... no that bitch chasity got to him first i really dont like her but i do love eric hes really a hott guy 031109 ... megan he's my twin 031109 ... time_warp http://blather.newdream.net/t/the_unchecked_expansion_of_the_universe.html i remember the morning that we recited words back and forth, tasted each sound as we gifted it to the other while dawn broke hazy on the end of our night. later, when i lay beside you, i traced letters on your chest. you realized what they spelled, and we whispered it over and over as we made love for the first time. 031208 ... time_warp ignore the link, my bad. 031208 ... e^2 my first love. my best friend. i wasn't meant to have him for very long. i wasn't what he needed. but, oh i cherish what time i had with him. he made me laugh. he made me think. he made me feel. i was never beautiful inside until i met him. i'm moving on, but i still miss him, my best friend still. 040421 ... mous is disvirtuous by only a small margin. 040421 ... silentbob i saw him in the computer lab, him with his bald head, the girl he was with with a tattoo in that place below her back, that trendy trendy place it was like five minutes before he realized i was standing behind him watching what he was doing 040422 ... somebody my heartbeat. my heartache. 050102 ... no reason erics are interesting people 050102 ... no reason even though i_hate_people usually, i don't actually hate anyone. but you come closest. congratulations, eric, i fucking almost hate you. 050402 ... no reason sometimes i get in the mood to find you there's so much more to know and i think we deserve to meet again 070326 ... no reason (a good eric, not the one i fucking almost hate. except now i don't even; i kind of just shake my head and feel sorry for him.) 070326 ... Varkala NEILL ! oh ! nice van ! mmmm..... yeah ... stress and tension causes problems don't it ! scrabble ! love the sentimental stuff... beautiful. thats what women love ! Barbie... i didn't give you no smoke because i promised someone that i won't tell anyone i had some stuff... a member of staff gave it to me... sorry i always keep promises... but don't like smoking these days... start to give up. 070326 what's it to you? who go blather from