we_all_miss_someone Piso Mojado jennifer - oxytocin 040522 ... witchesrequiem I haven't met him yet. 040523 ... ethereal i miss many. 040524 ... once again His name is Jesse. I never called him that. Not once. I loved him. Love him still. Miss him... always will... 040524 ... pete i just miss 040525 ... silentbob but not because she's gone 040525 ... Jess I miss Braxi! He went to my primary school and was my first love! Now, if I drive through Ilkley I go all funny in my tummy and look around for him! 040712 ... Stalkers of Jess maybe I'll be your second love or your second nightmare... 040712 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl he hasnt even left for good yet i know that i will im appreciating each individual second with him, and it's not enough. i love him so much, in between feeling numb, empty when he leaves our freindship won't survive. he'll be miles and miles away and i'll still be here slowly pining as he moves on i've tried to move on but secretly i know im holding out for him even though there is no hope there are no words to epitomize these feelings i get confused and annoyed by the inadequecy of my vocabulary to describe these intense, screaming emotions interspersed with the smooth blank walls of numbness; blocking out both pain and pleasure then the bad feeling comes. i dont want him to leave i will follow him anywhere anywhere at all 040712 ... SA My old heroin friend,Lisa. We have not spoken in years. I wonder how she is doing...? I wonder if she is still alive..? 040712 ... Jess OK! Stalkers of Jess! Maybe you will! I'm not so fond of your negativity! The fact that you stalk me makes me love you anyway! 040713 ... Syrope you're the kind of fruit i'd like the knife for. every_drop when i squeeze my eyes shut and wish for someone to hold me, it's your arms i feel around me. i promise i wouldn't be so needy if i weren't so miserable here. 040713 ... Jess Who you talking to, Syrope? I don't mind if you don't say! (I keep getiing in trouble for interfering with people's blathers!) 040804 ... Syrope im not entirely sure i think my current boyfriend right before we got together. he doesn't blathe. just reads. 041026 ... Ivory Should I list them? Would any of them run across this list and say hello? Would they even recognize me? I guess it is worth a shot. Chris, first and foremost. Then, my slum buddies: copius mid~night~mare flutters~byebye flippant dungeon master one sick puppy 041027 ... megan it's what you do about it that matters 041028 ... () solaris 041029 ... thunderbuck ram I miss everyone. But watch out, coz my aim is getting better. 041029 ... unhinged i could hear the loud music blaring in the background. all i could say was hello, unsure if he could hear me. 'hello' 'hello' 'hello' 'hello' 'hey dude, i'm at the bar right now' no shit 'why don't you call me back in an hour? i really want to talk to you.' 'ok. later.' (voicemail = no response) i_just_wish_i_mattered_to_you 'well i'm just calling you back. i called early cause i hoped you were smiling. i know i wasn't. i miss you.' 041029 ... unhinged and i keep telling myself i'm waiting for him to call ME back; not another dial. and i stared at the number and it was a struggle not to push the button. you push me away, but i don't forget; the struggle of not caring while i can't forget is the worst one of all. 041101 ... bird we all miss someone, the scary part is wondering if anyone misses us. 041101 ... magicforest this is very true, bird 041101 ... unhinged the sound of my silent phone evidence of just how scary how slowly time ticks by when i'm waiting for the phone to ring and it doesn't; five days and counting. 041102 ... mahayana i missed you all, each and every one of you that has ever been, assembled into empathy at the very moment i met you |like a memory seeping through quintessence| we slipped on through| times ticking times ticking| trying to create the me that you may one day perhaps find fascinating| until then i ceaselessly lose my balance i missed you all, each and every one of you assembled into tiny minuets of empathy| the very moment i met you |like a memory seeping through quintessence| we slipped on through| times ticking times ticking| trying to create the me that you may one day perhaps find fascinating until then i ceaselessly lose my balance if you missed it – you have no concept of what you missed – i try to tell myself, yet still, i would not believe 041115 ... andrew largeman "You'll see when you move out it just sort of happens one day one day and it's just gone. And you can never get it back. It's like you get homesick for a place that doesn't exist. I mean it's like this right of passage, you know. You won't have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for you kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle or something. I miss the idea of it. Maybe that's all family really is. A group of people who miss the same imaginary place." loves mahayana deeply and profoundly 041115 ... unhinged i'm missing him in purgatory now since he changed his number 041115 ... camille although not children anymore, he read me the book "The Polar Express" as he held me in his arms. His deep voice and articulate letters whispered in my ear, left me hanging on the edge of his tongue. It's been 11 years now ... i thought of him today after hearing what movie was playing at the movie theatre... 041116 ... mahayana ... but do they miss us? sometimes this would be a nice thing to know. 090301 ... unhinged actually it doesn't help to know if they miss you too. not even a little bit. if anything it makes the hole more gaping. 090301 ... unhinged i'm used to the hole now 181020 ... f what hoIe is that then? the one with a Iense in it? 181020 ... arwyn I miss the uncomplicated girl I used to be. I was complicated for certain - abused, neglected - but all of it was less so. I'm probably less complicated now. Am I just missing the possibilities that I had then that have vanished as the ephemera that memory seems to prolong? I still find myself wrapped in questions and never knowing what it means. 181027 ... smurfus rex I miss my old friends from high school. I miss my old friends from college. I miss my old friends from after college. I miss the old me. I don't know any of them anymore. 181028 what's it to you? who go blather from