i_am_a_terrible_person anne-girl i think bad things about people i'm selfish i say shit without thinking about it i judge people based on things that don't matter i don't listen enough i talk about myself too much i'm dependent on others' opinions of me i say things that i don't mean i'm inconsistent i'm arrogant i think i'm better than everyone else and i just realised that i really was a terrible person at the same time that i found out that I exist, and that things I do aren't totally insignificant, and that if I died right now people would care that the world doesn't revolve around me, but that I'm part of it ... i think about myself too much i really think self-worth is aligned with being more compassionate, a "good" person 051105 ... oren Just that fact that you're a female keeps you from being at the bottom of the heap. Just the fact that you admit your shortcomings keeps you from being anywhere close to the bottom of the heap. 051106 ... anne-girl thanks but i don't think so it's like hypocrisy admitting that you're a hypocrite doesn't make you cease to be a hypocrite admitting that i have flaws doesn't make those flaws disappear saying things is not doing them saying i need improvement does not make be a better person why do you say women are better than men? 051106 ... oren I_would say that anyone who can recognize their faults and then feel_bad about having them is better than someone who feels no_remorse at all. As to women_and_men, my observation through 45 years of living on this_planet, have led me to_believe that women are generally more loving and kind than men. There are always exceptions, of_course. I'm only speaking from my personal_experiences, but I've met many more men than women who are cold and heartless. Your experiences may have provided different results, and if so, you can ignore mine. I_won't mind. 051106 ... walrie i didn't eat all of the food i took at dinner 051106 ... ivyducktwilightseto I believe what walrie was making a crack about was that, to be blunt, all the flaws you see in yourself are rather insignificant. First of all, everyone thinks bad things about people. Second, everyone is selfish. Third, everyone says things without thinking sometimes. I could go on. These flaws are just as petty as "I'm don't use all my academic potential" or "I don't give to charity enough." It's really all quite trivial. You might actually have one flaw that you have yet to consider: You look down on yourself. Stop projecting all these negative thoughts inward. You are a perfectly fine person, and I know I do not know you, but I can tell this about you. Just try to think positively about yourself, k? Do it for me :) 051106 ... walrie someone actually told me i was a horrible person for not eating the hamburger that i took that is one of my least terrible traits 051106 ... andru235 hidden behind every single fault be it mild or be it grotesque is a treasure, locked in a vault (take, for instance, things burlesque) = every fault hides a quality, and every quality hides a fault. i've said it before and i'll say it again! 051106 ... oren Say_it again, andru! Say_it again! 051107 ... andru235 well, uh ... alright oren, if you really think it's necessary... every fault hides a quality, and every quality hides a fault! and per oren's request, once more. every fault hides a quality, and every quality hides a fault! 051107 ... peyton i will only complicate you trust in me and fall as well 051107 ... purplevelvetjacket i feel i have to reply but don't know what to say , I was only listening to this song earlier and wondering why indeed I was sober some terrible person chewed up the centre in me and left and now I just walk around wondering what to say 051108 ... writer i'm a terrible person, but im too scared to stop... 051108 ... purpleveletjacket scared because you like it? or scared because you don't remember who you were to begin with and if you stop you won't be able to fill the big empty space anymore 051108 ... writer scared because i cannot face how terrible i am. i guess i am begining to face it. i can only hope that it is not too late to save me from myself. what i have become. the thing that i dont even reconise any more 051108 ... writer i also like it but when i like it i'm not me. i never meant to go this far. 051108 ... writer i never meant to even start. it was an accident. 051108 ... writer i want to stop. no. i want never to have started. 051108 ... rage the lies the lies the lies the lies he told me to stop digging i lied when i promised you i would take it to my grave but worse, i lied when i swore on my friendship that i had kept my promise. now im in too deep, i admit it all and fall a horrible person? or try keep lying and lying, until they stack up so high im out of this hole. he told me to stop digging. 051109 ... caresscoffee i'm a terrible person and i know it but my terrible traits are there because i choose for them to be there... i realize i have them but i've grown so attached to them they're like a drug like my loneliness i've grown so attached to it it's like a drug i feed on it i wake up every morning and think "do i have someone to love yet?" "no i sure don't.. boy am i lonely" but if i weren't lonely it'd only last a week maybe two or maybe a month it all depends but no matter what i always go back to being lonely.. i guess i'm just made be a terrible lonely person 051110 ... Arwyn I don't deserve half of the things I've accomplished thus far. I despise people for no reason. I often times regret having had my child. I've even thought about leaving him and the spouse, and disappearing somewhere. What woman could be so selfish? 060223 ... dipperwell Arwyn, you might like Michael Cunningham's "The Hours". It's one of the few pieces of literary work that doesn't make martyrs or saints of mothers; that doesn't presume they have an inborn, natural, transcendent bond with their children... 060223 ... (_) i second both the title of this blathe and dipperwell's suggestion 060223 ... birdmad is good at being the bad example even though i am more aware of all my vafious and sundry sins, crimes and general evils - if i say this about myself, i'm being "self_deprecating" apparently, this view is of me is only valid when uttered externally as an amateur diagnosis. but fuck all that, truth be told, i rather enjoy my terribleness, it's only the occasional fallout from it that sucks i should buy myself a wallet that says "bad motherfucker" on it 060223 ... a very naughty grendel the occasional bizarre misspelling is the least of my transgressions, mind you. 060223 ... stork daddy i'm pretty terrible. even at being terrible. 060223 ... Well? Does this mean that, as a baby, you were all "enfants terrible"? 060223 ... a bird madder than hatters actually i had to grow into my badness before it happened i was a nerdy, unquestioning straight arrow who lived under his parents' thumbs i hate to say this, but there have been days when i was almost proud of how ashamed of me they would have been at some of the things i've done. 060224 ... epitome of incomprehensibility "Admitting that you're a hypocrite doesn't mean that you cease to be a hypocrite..." Anne-girl, you terrible terrible plagiarist!!!!!!!!!!!!! But you also said to me, "Writers plagiarize life" and that is true, 'cause I've plagiarized that. Are you too self-centered? If so, that is a trait you share with your dotcomrade epitome. See confessions_of_a_teenage_blatherskite 060224 ... anne-girl perhaps my unrepentant plagiarism makes me a terrible person as well :) 060224 ... misstree the distinct concepts of good and evil have stepped back into my life. i wonder how many people others consider "evil" would consider themselves so. i can justify all of my actions and penchants, brand them neutral at worst. but the stories i could tell... 060224 what's it to you? who go blather from